Tuesday, January 03, 2012
Well it's been quite a long time since I've visited. Several things have happened. My husband (who was unemployed for over 2 years the last time I was here) found a job, and lost a job. I found out I had severe iron deficiency anemia. I have suffered with some depression. I have gained a bit of weight. I have read an amazing book that confirmed something that I knew deep down, but just didn't want to believe.
The bad. It's been really hard dealing with my husbands working and mostly lack of working. I know he is trying so hard to find a job, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel so drained from the financial worry. I've tried to ignore it, I've definately tried to stuff it down with food. All I can do at this point is plan. Plan for the worst, and hope for the best.
My health problem wasn't a surprise to me, I had been feeling extremely fatigued, cold, moody, no sex drive . . and plenty more. I tried to follow my doctors advice and take iron pills, but they made me so painfully constipated that I had to stop. I had to find an alternative.
I spent a lot of time reading about Primal/Paleo diets the last few months. That led me to the book "Good Calories, Bad Calories" by Gary Taubes. I read through the book last week. It's nothing short of revolutionary. It's not a diet book. It's a nutritional science book really. It details the science of sugar and refined carbs in our diet and how our current dietary advice to eat low fat is killing us. I have always been interested in nutrition, and it was eye opening to me to ready about how the American people have been misled over the past 40+ years. Anyway, it really confirmed what I knew from my own experiences, that sugars and refined carbs (flours, white rice) aren't meant for regular human consumption. I cut them out last year for a few months and felt better than I have in my whole life. When I added them back in after falling off the wagon, that's when I really realized how bad off I was while eating them. I had really bad inflamation in most of my body, sometimes it was painful just to bend my elbow. My moods were so erratic, I was never happy. I was always hungry. I could go on and on with the negatives of eating sugar/carbs.
Today is only my second day cutting sugar/carbs and I feel amazing already. I don't feel that gnawing hunger at all, even when it's time for a meal. While eating sugar/carbs, I couldn't go 2 hours withtout eating - I felt so painfully hungry like I was going to starve to death. I guess in a way I was. The way that sugar/carbs effect your body your cells are starting to death while still getting fat. It's crazy. If you're reading this, I hope you will get the book "Good Calories, Bad Calories" by Gary Taubes. It is not an easy read, a lot of science, and it's long. But it is SO worth it.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I did pretty good yesterday, made really good food choices. My mood wasn't so good though and still isn't. I don't really want to go in to it here because it's personal, but thought I should atleast acknowledge my bad mood today and hopefully move on.
The weekend sucked for food choices, but I did 1 of my planned work outs.
Monday sucked for food.
Yesterday was an awesome food day, but no workout.
Today I am making good choices so far.
I know my mood will get better soon, I hope so anyway.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
This weekend I read this book "The New Rules of Lifting for Women". I really liked it. I've been having so much discomfort with my walking, this program came at a good time. It will require 3 days of strength training. I love lifting weights, so I'm happy to have a new program to follow.
I will officially start stage 1 today. I will adjust my calories to follow the nutrition plan in the book, but will allow myself to go a little lower on non-workout days if I'm not as hungry. Calorioes on non-workout days will be 1,800 - 2,030 calories and on workout days 2, 030 - 2, 350.
Giving up coffee hasn't been going that great, but I'm definately not going to stress about that.
Personal stuff has been stressing me out the last couple days - I am working really hard on being positive because I want to enjoy my family and not dwell on things that I can't control.
Can't wait until this afternoon. I have a massage scheduled and I have been so looking forward to this. I really need it. I'm hoping to make this a bi-monthly thing. I'm lucky my insurance covers up to 20 massage sessions a year. yay!!
Friday, August 12, 2011
I am so happy it's Friday. It's been a good week, but still a long week. I'm glad to be going in to this weekend with a plan for my food choices and exercise and the motivation to follow through.
Last night I didn't eat what I planned, and I did go over my calories a bit. Today is a new day though, and I got right back on track when I woke up.
So on Monday when I started and set my goals I decided that I wasn't going to cut out coffee this go round. Although I don't think it's made me feel more hungry since I've been drinking it on a full stomach, it has definately made me sleepy at night. I was probably drinkign around 3 - 5 oz a day this week. I think my body is just really sensitive to caffeine. I am also super sensitive to flour, which I was reminded of last night. I was in a flour induced coma last night, lol. I sat on the couch at 8:45pm and fell fast asleep. I didn't get to any of the things that I had planned.
I guess this is a reminder (something I need to learn from) that as much as this journey is about weight loss, it's even more about quality of life. When I ingest sugar, caffeine and flours, my body doesn't work the way it's supposed to. Which leads to not living my best life. Not following through on things I want to do because I am too tired. Not spending time with my husband because I am snoring on the couch.
So, I am recommitting myself this morning to my choice to not eat processed flours and I am making a new committment to not drink coffee (also diet sodas).
I wrote on the Spark Running team I'm a member of yesterday about this. I am going to start a new running program. I have been having lots of foot and achilles problems this year, so I saw a podiatrist this week. He's having custom orthotics made for me that he said will make a huge difference. That plus me stretching my calves/achilles 3 times a day will make running comfortable again. So I'm going to train for the 5k Turkey Trot this Thanksgiving day with my DD. I'm so excited to do this with her.
My first run will be tonight. I don't have my orthotics yet, but I am going to be starting from scratch on the C25K, so it will be pretty easy.
I have a lunch planned with friends. We're going somewhere that doesn't list calories on the menu. That's okay because I will make my decision based on ingredients anyway, to avoid flours and sugars.
Have a great Friday!!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Last night went great. I had planned to eat some leftovers I had in the freezer, but my husband had made tacos for him and the kids and they smelled so good. I couldn't get those tacos out of my head. Instead of ignoring it and thinking about them all night or instead of eating them mindlessly, I got on my nutrition tracker and figured out a way to make myself a healthy, filling taco. I used corn tortillas, refried black beans, tomatoes, lettuce, 2% cheese and only 2oz of taco meat. They were so good AND with only 2 tacos I was pretty full. Win!
I thought today would be a good time to take a look at my goals from Monday and see how I'm doing so far this week.
For goal 1, I haven't done my to-do lists. I will make one for tonight as soon as I'm done with this blog entry. I also haven't done prep work the day before like I wanted, so I will look at this for next weeks menu and see how I can plan that better. I have done some laundry during the week, which I normally save for weekend, so that is good.
For goal 2 I have done exceptional. No sugar since Sunday. No flour since Sunday. I have stayed within my calorie range also. I have walked the last three days. I completed 1 strength training session last night. I will do one more this weekend.
I am proud of myself for doing so good with my second goal, and I will do much better next week on goal 1.
Today I plan on getting in at least 45 minutes of walking. I have my food all planned and prepped for the day.
On a really personal note, my stepson is 13 and he's been living with us for about 2 1/2 years now. Ever since he started living with us and maybe for a year or so before that he's been extremely distant and non-communicative. It's been really hard for my husband because he really wishes he had a good relationship with his son. It's hard on us as a couple sometimes because we get so frustrated with dealing with his silence - it's so bad sometimes that he won't even tell us if he's hungry or runs out of shampoo. Anyway, I have just been feeling so fed up that after all these years no matter what we do he just doesn't even try to communicate with us. I asked him directly what was wrong, without going through the whole conversation, basically he said that he wasn't acting this way because he is angry with us or because of anything we did. He said he does want to have a better relationship with us also. I encouraged him to open up and be himself, to sit with us in the evening instead of sitting alone. Well, long story short, he did last night. On his own he watched tv with us and even offered up a little conversation. I am so proud fo him! I know it made my husband feel good. Now I just need to find ways to keep him engaged and willing to communicate with us. I think I'm going to start a family game night on Fridays (he loves video game). I wanted to start this a couple years ago, but then I let things get in the way. No more - I am going to make sure that this is a new tradition in our house.
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