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Saturday, October 01, 2011

So it's definitely been a while. . . I've been away from spark for months now. I think my last blog was in May or something. It's been quite a while.

At first I got away because I was letting all the little things get to me. Other people were celebrating success (as well they should be) and instead of feeling like I was part of everyone's success and succeeding along with them, I was feeling like everyone was succeeding but me. And I needed to get away from that mindset because it was helpful or encouraging for my friends and it wasn't helping me. So I got away from it all and starting trying to do things on my own.

And then every time I started to get back to it, life got in the way. I got busy and I didn't make the time.

Normally, I feel like this would be the point where I would admit defeat without having sparkpeople around. But the truth is, I've done just fine without it. It hasn't been nearly as much fun, but I've done a lot. . . . here's where I've been for the last few months:

I finally reached my original goal weight of 135lbs in June. And I've been more or less maintaining since then. I've actually been at about 130lbs for a month or so but creeping back up in the past few weeks. I've realized that not only can I be 135 lbs but I can be 135lbs and eat pretty normally and be happy and satisfied. . . I never knew this was possible when I was heavier.

I also completed my new years resolution of running 4 races. I've run a 5k, a 6 miler, a 10k and a half marathon. Yes, that's right, I ran a half marathon! In 2:20!! It was something I had always wanted to do but something I never really thought I'd be capable of doing. . . it turns out, I'm perfectly capable. I absolutely loved it. I loved the training, the run itself and I felt great afterwards. I'm definitely not planning to run a marathon. . . I just don't have the motivation to do it. But I definitely plan on running another half in the spring. Hopefully I'll be able to keep my endurance up until then.

In other news, I'm still unemployed and losing my mind that I can't find a job, my little man turned 3 over the summer and started school a few weeks ago (I can't believe he's in school!!!), and I just got back from a family vacation at Disney World.

I came back to spark now because I realize that while I have it in me to lead a healthy lifestyle on my own, it isn't nearly as fun. I enjoy (and missed) the encouragement and community of sparkpeople and sending out some encouragement myself! The challenges of maintenance are becoming very clear and I need to be sure that I find ways to keep challenging myself and changing things up.

Right now, I'm looking forward to my cousin's wedding in Siesta Key at the beginning of November and I'm trying to come up with a plan for the next month to start toning and keep running.

I hope that everyone has been well. . . from what I've seen tonight from pages, it looks like everyone is finding much success! Way to go Spark friends! I hope to start re-connecting with everyone and getting back into challenges soon! Have a great weekend, all! emoticon

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I82MUCHB4 10/6/2011 12:18PM

    Wow girl you look awesome! Looks like even thought you weren't sparking, you were still workin it!

Shoot, sometimes I spark and don't work it!

Glad to see you back! and again.. emoticon

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BEACHGIRL76 10/3/2011 12:33PM

    Awe so proud of you! You look so happy and healthy in your picture! Glad you have reached goal and ran all those races that's amazing! Woo hoo! Have fun in Siesta Keys, it's awesome!-Jennifer

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JEN-LOVES-LIFE 10/2/2011 9:26PM

    Welcome back Megan! I was wondering what happened. I'm glad that you came back.

Congrats on all of your races! That is awesome and I am proud of you for taking the chance to try it.

I'm looking forward to catching up with you.

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TARAHA 10/2/2011 1:03AM

    What a fantastic blog! You go girl, you are doing fantastic! Love the picture, you look great.

Just call me the plateau queen. Can't seem to move forward, but at least I am not moving back! Welcome back and I look forward to more blogs.

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It's been a while since I blogged. . . but I'm still here.

Friday, May 20, 2011

It's been almost 2 months since I last blogged. And honestly, I have been a little MIA on spark. I've been logging in pretty consistently but life has gotten "in the way" a little and I just haven't had as much time to spend on spark. I've still been eating pretty darn well and my exercising has been consistent. I've been a little in limbo. I've maintained my weight within a couple of pounds. I've been trying to stay within the 135-140 range. This week however, I've started to realize that maybe I do want a bit more before I "settle" into maintenance. . . . we'll see. I'm going to let the idea play around in my head a little before committing to anything. Sometimes I think I tend to jump into new goals a little too quickly. I'll keep you posted.

This past week, I went to Denver to see my family and ultimately celebrate my brother's graduation. It was really great. I love my brother. We're very close. And getting to see him (finally) graduate was awesome. He was so happy and I was so proud. When I realized that he was definitely graduating, I decided to make it a week long trip (since I'm unemployed and no one will hire me) to spend some time with my family. My sister has just started to embark on a healthy lifestyle journey and since I was going to be in town for a little while, I checked into area 5ks while I was in town. Wouldn't you know there was one right down the street from my parents house. So I signed us up. . . with my Dad too who used to be a big time runner. My sister has been following a training plan but still wasn't up to running more than a mile or so. We had planned on walking and running in intervals. . . whatever made he comfortable. Imagine my surprise when she not only ran the whole thing but we finished in 31:30. . . .awesome! I was so proud of her (and my dad for that matter). It was great to do something like this together so I could share my passion for running with my family. Now I just need to pick another one to do soon. :) I'm trying to convince my husband that he should register for one with me. . . we'll see how that goes.

I basically wanted to write a quick blog to say that I'm still here. . . and I'm still trucking along. I'm working to figure out what I want next. . . what goals I want to work towards and what things I want to do with the new healthy me. I'm making a definite effort to get back on spark and get more involved again. Keeping up with my spark friends and reading blogs has always kept me going and I need to get back in the habit. They'll be more to come from me soon, friends! I hope everyone has a great weekend!

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MARIAND123 5/25/2011 2:11AM

    I am glad that you are still hanging in there. Just keep coming back we are here to help you . emoticon emoticon

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JEN-LOVES-LIFE 5/21/2011 10:29PM

    What an awesome run time! How cool that you got to do it with your dad and sister!! I ran a 5K with my sister a week ago and we came in under 40.

I know what you mean about being away from SP. I log in almost daily, but have not been too active.

I hope that you are able to figure out your goals and what you want your weight to be. I'm sure it can be overwhelming sometimes. You seem to me to be doing great and I am proud of you.

I am sorry that you do not have a job at this time. Just look at it as bonus time with your son and husband.

Take care and I'll talk to you soon!

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How do you become the new you?

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I've had a really bad week so far. So please excuse my whining and my semi-hopeless, "please help me" attitude. I really am not usually this person. . . I am usually much more optimistic. But I just feel like I need to vent a little and I do need some help from my spark friends and teams.

For the last two weeks, I've been lingering right over 140 pounds. On any given day, I'm as high as 143 or as low as 140. And I've been thinking that I might be done losing weight. I'm within my healthy BMI range, I feel so much healthier and I'm just not sure I feel any major pressure or push to be 135lbs. If it happens, great. If not, I think that's ok too. I think I need to tone up some areas still but weight wise, I feel pretty good. Also, I'm realizing that I need to adjust my eating and exercising habits because they're just not working for me. The truth of the matter is, I know how to lose weight and I know I can do it. But I usually go about it by focusing on eating toward the minimum of my calorie range and exercising all the time. . . . sometimes for an hour or more 6-7 days a week. And for me, that's not realistic. I need to find something that works with my schedule and doesn't make me feel so drained by the end of the week that I completely lose motivation.

So here's my new exercising dilemma (or exercise excuses). I was used to working out during my 2 year old's nap time but he's suddenly decided not to take consistent naps and sometimes I just can't make it work. So then I started getting up early to workout in the morning. But I'm not a great early morning workout person. I hate working out on an empty stomach and I'm just not willing to get up even earlier to eat (it's the honest truth). And even worse, little man has started getting up at 6:30 for the last week. . . and really, I just can't get up at 5:30 to work out . . . it just makes me so tired all day. And evening work outs are a challenge as well. . . it's my only time with my husband so I try to give him my full attention. He works crazy hours and I hate being busy when he is actually home. And I know it's a whole bunch of excuses. But all of the sudden I feel like I can't find the time to get a whole hour in even if I wanted to. Some of my "lack of time" has been because the weather has been so nice and I've been at park or hiking in the woods with my little guy. . . so still some exercise, but not enough. I need to find a way to make exercise fit into my life instead of making my life about exercise. But my problem is that doing something like walking with my little guy in the stroller for 40 min isn't "up to par" with my prior workouts. It's not running and it's not strength training and it's not burning 400 calories. I feel like because I pushed myself so hard while I was losing weight, I can't now decide that I want to just walk as my form of exercise. . . it doesn't work that way. I'm supposed to be pushing myself further and taking on new challenges. . . and the only new challenge I want is to not feel like I have to run for an hour six days a week to maintain "me". I want to feel like a normal, fit, healthy person. I need to figure out how to make this work for the long run.

Today the scale said 144. I shouldn't be surprised. . . and in fact, I wasn't. I haven't eaten great this week and so I'm sure some of it is water/salt weight. But I also think it could be because I've only been walking and doing short runs for the last two weeks because it's what's worked for me. . . so of course the weight is just going to creep back up, right? I just want to be able to enjoy being the new skinnier me. I bought capri pants yesterday and comfortable fit into a size 6. And it feels awesome but I'm so afraid that I'm suddenly going to be squeezing into a size 14 again if I don't workout like a crazy person that I'm getting stuck. I don't want to be so afraid of becoming the old me again that I can't make the change to maintenance. I also don't want to be so afraid that I start to sabotage myself or over-extend myself to the point that I do start to gain weight again or that I am just exhausted.

I about to turn 28. . . . I need to be able to maintain this for many, many, many years. . . not just until I wear a bathing suit this summer. How do all you maintainers make this adjustment?? How do you become the new you instead of striving to become something better or someone skinnier?

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BEACHGIRL76 4/27/2011 4:22PM

    I just focus on making ME happy. I do what makes me feel good and eat for my health. It's changing me, but mostly changing how I feel about myself and makes me love ME even more!

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SSGAVIN 3/28/2011 2:27PM

    Hi Megan! There are some great suggestions here and you have probably thought of several others (one idea usually sparks another). I'm not sure if you have a MOPS group around but maybe getting with other Mothers of preschoolers to walk/jog would be helpful - make it a playdate and let the kids play after jogging. I seem to do better when I have a chance to workout with others and I tend to be more consistent when I have the accountability.
Don't beat yourself up over the 5 lbs. between 135 and 140. As you said, you are in the healthy weight range and have made some great changes in your life. Look for the blessings - can you jog up the stairs without getting winded (Ooh, another great exercise! You can do it several times in a row taking one thing at a time upstairs and coming back for the next piece of clothing or toy.) and you can keep up with a preschooler - not easy and definitely a workout! Have a good week:) emoticon

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GRANDMACOO 3/24/2011 11:36AM

    Try not to let the scale define you; it is not always the best judge of how things are going. You are into a size 6? I would depend more on clothes fitting rather than the scale. We all fluctuate on a daily/weekly basis; besides water/salt, it's a hormonal thing for women.

Small chunks of time for exercise is good advice until you find more time. Trying the jogging stroller if you can is a great idea. Besides from getting an aerobic workout, you are building strength, because they aren't light, especially pushing a 30# youngster.

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BETHKK 3/24/2011 10:46AM

    Hey, have you checked out any of the consignment shops for jogging strollers? I know when I used to go to those (like Once Upon A Child) they usually had at least one or two available. Much cheaper than new! I know it's a challenge with little ones around, so you have to take the time when you can. If you can relax the "regimen" and get little bits of exercise in when he is down for a nap, that will work better than trying to force yourself into a routine that will ultimately frustrate you! Have you tried a HIIT type of routine? That worked really well for me when I had less time to work out because of kids and their activities!

I'm gonna PM you in a second. I have another suggestion!

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RUNNER12COM 3/23/2011 8:10PM

    You've already gotten great advice here about a running stroller and breaking your advice into smaller time chunks, so that might help.

My advice is to remind yourself that you are already a success story. You have made amazing changes in your life and they are going to carry you through many years to come.

For now, let yourself experiment with different ideas. Don't worry if they don't work right off. Be open to new ideas and experiences and trust that your instincts will be enough.

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I82MUCHB4 3/23/2011 5:29PM

    By no means am I an expert, but I can say I know more than I practice! But I wanted to let you know I hear you.

With regard to the weight fluctuations, I believe it is normal for your body to have minor fluctuations on a day-to-day basis. Don't be discouraged by the scale. You can use it as a tool, but if you are feeling better in general, maintaining a weight range and making good choices, as long as you stick with that you are successful.

I have read here and there that your body can get used to the same series of exercises and you need to switch it up every once in a while. Maybe some HIIT or some short sprinting every once in a while during your walk might help. Also, are you lifting weights? If not, this will help your metabolism burn calories even when you are done with your workout!

You can take this info for what you feel it's worth... I can't speak from my own personal experience, but maybe this will help.

Good luck either way!

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BJW-FARMGIRL 3/23/2011 5:19PM

    Hey, Megan. I know it's hard, and after some months I still don't have all the answers. I've picked up a few pounds, beat them off, picked them up, etc. You get the idea--since the end of last year. I'm hoping that spring helps me out. Join the At Goal and Maintaining Team--you're close enough--and look over the team message board. Ask questions there, too. The gals who are active are great to jump in with what has worked for them. Diligence is a key. Remember this is a lifestyle, and it's your life. It may never be as easy as we wish, but it'll be worth it! I like the idea of a jogging stroller, if you can spring for one. My niece has a little cart she attaches to her bike--he would probably love that!

And also remember, your hour doesn't have to be all at once. If you can get in 20-30 minutes in the morning, then maybe another one like that later, it still works you out and doesn't take a whole hour at a time! You wouldn't have to get up at 5 or 5:30 if you were just working on a half hour basis.

Experiment, girl, and be creative! You can do this! You've worked too hard to throw it out. I've been where you are and didn't stick with it. Believe me, as hard as it was, I sure wish I had! emoticon Just don't give up!

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ACROSONIC 3/23/2011 4:12PM

    How about one of those running strollers? Then you could run outside in nice weather with your little one along for the ride.

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Yeah, I'm struggling. . . so what?

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

So, the fact of the matter is that I'm struggling. Ever since I left for Denver and then came home, I have not been consistent with eating or exercise. I know this. I know I've eaten really crappy things and skipped work outs when I should have gotten up and gotten it done. I am 100% aware of what I'm doing and yet I'm still doing it. Isn't self-sabotage a beautiful thing?!?!? But the thing is, I'm not writing this blog to get a pep talk from my spark friends. I know what I need to do. I'm writing it because I need to be accountable to myself and I need to come to terms "on paper" with some of the real reasons my self-sabotage is taking place.

My downward spiral began with my trip to Denver. It was fun, don't get me wrong. . . and wonderful to see my parents. And the fundraiser for my Dad's hospital was amazing!!!! But I fought with my sister ALLLLLLLLLL week and found myself frustrated that no one really noticed I was looking skinnier or more toned or that I was wearing a size 4 dress. And then I started thinking, well really who cares?? If I look good and feel confident, why does it matter what size I'm wearing or if anyone notices how much I weigh? Why am I obsessing over wanting people to be proud of me for being skinny? My mom had told me at Christmas that I looked great and that she was hoping to get down to my weight soon. At Christmas I was right around 148-150 pounds. But that weight wasn't good enough for me. And my husband has told me countless times that I don't need to lose any more weight and I look great just how I am now. . . and that was easily 5 pounds ago. And yet something inside me keeps telling me it's not good enough. I keep going back to the stupid BMI scale that tells me for my height, I could be 120 pounds and still be in the healthy range. 135 lbs is right near the middle of the healthy range for me so that's why I picked it. It has no meaning to me. Which then makes me wonder why I can't just be happy where I am. . . I'm much healthier than I was at 185lbs and I in the normal weight range. So when is enough, enough?? When can I finally stop stressing about how many pounds I can lose in a week and just start living my healthy lifestyle?

In some ways I know that I'm happier now than I was at my heaviest. I can keep up with my little guy, I feel more confident in clothes, and I just feel healthier. But part of me feels that as I've lost weight, I've become more critical with myself and it drives me crazy. When I was heavier, I knew I needed to lose weight but I was able to get dressed in the morning without analyzing every aspect of my body. I can distinctly remember when I was first able to fit in size 12 pants. I actually thought I looked so much better and really thought to myself, what's so bad about size 12, I look good now. But now I can't look in the mirror without seeing where I still need to tone up and lose more weight. And it's all driven by these arbitrary numbers. So then I'll start to think well maybe I can just stop stressing about it and just live without all the analyzing and the numbers. But that thought is almost debilitating to me. What happens when I'm not focused on the numbers and on the losing weight? What if I start to eat too many calories and I don't realize it or what if I don't burn enough calories in the week to lose or even maintain. . . it's like a slippery slope. I'm almost dependent on the numbers and I don't think I like that very much. I need to come to terms with myself and decide why I want to continue losing weight. . . and if I can't come up with a good reason then maybe it is time for maintenance. I also need to stop getting down on myself and start loving this new, skinnier me. Enough already, it's almost shorts and bathing suit season!!! I'm clearly still a work in progress.

I've been trying to figure out what to do for this past week and in the process have stayed away from spark a little. So I'm sorry to all my spark friends and my spark teams if I let anyone down this week. . . I'm promise to start doing better. But the truth is, I just feel like I'm letting myself down by not reaching some number that I'm not really sure I need to reach. (Does that even make sense???) I'm still working out where I need to go from here. . . with Lent beginning tomorrow I'm hoping to find some guidance in this season of meditation and fasting. I keep thinking maybe I should give up the scale for Lent. . .or give up my crazy workout schedule and just go back to running with the occasional ST thrown in. . . we'll see. I just need to get back to doing this for good reasons instead of doing this for Mr. BMI (who came up with that stupid scale anyway??!). Here's hoping everyone is having a wonderful Fat Tuesday. . . but not eating too many fattening foods! :)

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SARAHFAILLA 3/20/2011 2:46AM

    I could so relate to the beginning of your 3rd paragraph. i think i had that conversation with my man last week. I wanted to lose the last 5 so bad that i let the scale get to me. and wasn't looking at my body but just that number. luckily, like you, i realized what was going on in my head and am back on track this week. if i stay at 150 for the rest of my life i look dang good! Somehow I just got that 145 in my head~ I've let it go, put the scale in time-out for the week and it was beautiful.

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BETHKK 3/9/2011 10:13AM

    Girlie, you are going through something I've gone through before. A few years ago, I did "Body for Life" and lost a good deal of weight and got very fit. I was a size four, too. But the scale didn't show the number I thought it should. One time, a lifetime ago, before marriage and kids, I weighed 117. So I thought "I KNOW I could get littler than this". But I couldn' my age it just wouldn't have been healthy and I would have looked AWFUL! But part of me didn't see it that way. Long story short, the weight came back on. Right now I weigh's at the top of my range. But I feel healthy and fit and I think I look pretty darn good "for my age"! If I lose more fat, great. But if I stay this big deal. I will continue to work on eating healthy and keeping my body fit and flexible. You have come SO far...and you should be proud of where you are. We can ALWAYS improve in one way or another. Part of the struggle of maintenance is deciding where to put our focus next...since we aren't focusing on "losing" anymore. For me, it's focusing on new fitness challenges. First it was C25K, now it is the Wii Active challenges. Next...well...I really want to do the sprint triathlon that Fishers hosts in September!

Just know that we are all here to listen to these problems. We don't have all the answers, but CAN give you a sympathetic ear!


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BJW-FARMGIRL 3/8/2011 8:45PM

    Oh, honey. You need to be kinder to yourself. And think of this: BMI is a tool--not the Bible on what to weigh. I'm at the top of the healthy range, and feel that if I lost more to get into the middle, I would look too little, and maybe even ill. Even some Drs. will agree that the BMI numbers can be too low, esp if you are a muscular person. Have you asked your Dr where he/she thinks you should be? Relax, breathe, and get back on track, in a gentle sort of way. Don't be so hard on yourself.

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GIVINGINOW 3/8/2011 8:44PM

    I hate the numbers game too. I think giving up the scale for lent would be a great thing!! I am thinking of moving mine in the garage so that I am not so tempted to jump on it every morning. A size 4 is already so so tiny. I am sure you look amazing :) I am realizing that my main focus during the day is on my workouts and eating. I am more than that aren't I? Who am I anyway? That is what has been going through my head. I am praying about other hobbies and things that I could involve myself in that do not include food, cooking, or health!

I want you to be able to look in the mirror and love your reflection, not pick yourself apart :) You have worked so hard to get where you are and I would love to see you be able to enjoy it and get the focus off the numbers :)

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SKIRNIR 3/8/2011 5:36PM

    You know, maybe you are over reaching. If you are in a healthy bmi and feel healthy, maybe now is the time to tone, and not try to loose anymore weight. This could be just me talking, as I am now in a healthy bmi for probably my first time ever and I am trying to get into a maintenance mode and be happy with where I am. I am not happy with my stomach area, or my thighs, but I think toning is what I need, not more weight loss. But I guess you have to decide for yourself. Decide, and go with it. Don't beat yourself up whichever way you decide. Oh, and don't get below a healthy bmi, there are problems with being underweight too, I am told. I am nowhere near there, but my husband has always been light, but with my weight loss, he is now considered underweight on the bmi charts.

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GOCELTICSGO 3/8/2011 5:32PM

    Happy FAT Tuesday!

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Shoveling heavy snow leads to sore muscles.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Yesterday I was going to take the day off of exercising. I had worked out hard all week and I just felt like I needed a physical rest day. That was until I realized that I needed to shovel the snow we got. Granted it was only about 4 inches or so but it was the heavy, wet kind of snow. I was sweating, my muscles burned and today my shoulders are feeling it. It was kinda nice to get in an inadvertent workout! :) But today I could definitely use a massage. . . do you think I could teach my 2 year old how to massage mommy's back?!?!?

My husband, son and I are leaving tomorrow to head to Denver for the next week. I'm really looking forward to seeing my family and having some down time with my husband as well. The big fundraiser for my Dad's hospital is on Thursday night and I'm excited to have the opportunity to dress up and get out without the little guy. I finally picked a dress this week. I've found that since I've lost a lot of weight, I really have a hard time shopping. I think now I'm overly picky about things. I start to find the most ridiculous flaws in myself when trying on clothes and it just becomes a frustrating process for me. I'm definitely going to need to work on this because once the weather gets warmer, I will need new clothes. My husband pretty much made the decision on the dress for me. I'm afraid I'm not self-confident enough to pull it off but oh well. It's time to rock the dress and enjoy my new skinnier body. The dress I bought is a size 4. That's right, a size 4. I have no idea how I fit into it, I really don't. I'm not a size 4. But amazingly it fits. I'll make sure to take some pictures so I can share with everyone. My husband says you can't complain about any body flaws when you're in a size 4 dress. . . so I'm trying to keep that in mind as I keep trying it on again and again to reassure myself that it does, in fact, fit. In order to help myself maintain/lose the last couple of pounds, I'm committing myself to wear this same dress to my friend's wedding in July. By telling myself that I'm not allowed to buy a different dress, I know I won't gain any weight or it won't fit.

This week I've been really stressed about heading to Denver. My sister and I have a. . . . sisterly relationship. We love each other but sometimes we just do not get along. This has been one of those weeks. She's been making all sorts of nasty comments about how I must be trying on size 6's and how nice that must be. It's irritating. She's been talking about getting a gym membership and losing weight since October and she has yet to do. I used to encourage her all the time and make suggestions on exercises or checking out SP but now she's just mean about it. I know part of it is that she's mad at herself for not doing what she keeps saying she should do but it doesn't make me feel any better when she makes nasty comments about me losing weight or eating healthier. I'm just afraid we're not going to get along so well while I'm in town. Hopefully having my husband and little guy there will provide a nice buffer. I've been stressing out all week about how to talk to her but at this point, I've decided I just need to let it go. I can't control her choices and her comments. . . but I can control my own. I'm just going to keep doing what I do and hopefully she'll realize she's not having the effect on me that she wants and let it go.

On the other hand, I'm excited to see my parents and work out with my mom. . . she's an avid exerciser so she always helps keep me on track while I stay with her. I may not be able to get on spark as much this week because they have super slow internet but hopefully I'll be able to check in. If not, I hope you all have a wonderful week and I'll be sure to post updates and pictures as soon as I get back. For now, I need to get back to packing and cleaning up the house (I hate coming home to a messy house). Thanks for being so wonderful this week, spark friends. Your encouragement after my last blog has made a real difference and helped me stay on track all week!

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MISSLORI5 3/2/2011 11:42PM

    Wow! Sixe 4 is tiny to me and my 20's! I don't think I'll physically ever be able to get down that low, but I can admire those who can! You have done something wonderful, your sister knows it and doesn't know how to handle all the guilt for not trying harder herself. I see that often. I hope you have enjoyed your trip regardless. I know what you mean by not liking returning to a messy place, it puts a downer on the trip!
Hope to heaar from you soon! Take care and God bless, ML5 emoticon

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SSGAVIN 3/2/2011 3:50PM

    How was your trip? Did you rock the house with your new dress? Congratulations on getting down to a size 4. I know size is not as important as feeling good and being healthy but being in a itsy bitsy size 4 is awesome! emoticon

Hope you post lots of pics of yourself and the family. I like your motivation to wear the same dress for your friends wedding. Good idea! emoticon

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ACROSONIC 2/26/2011 6:48PM

    Hope you have a good trip!

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GIVINGINOW 2/26/2011 4:39PM

    I cannot believe you are in a 4!! I know you look great in it :) But, I get what you are saying too about finding more flaws. I cannot wait to see pics of you in it... and how sweet and supportive your hubby is!!

I am sorry about your sister. I am finding that the harder I work and the more I accomplish, the "friends" that I thought I had at work are not really true friends. Now I am just tuned out when I talk about anything having to do with healthy eating or running or ST. It has really hurt me and left me feeling quite alone.

I hope that maybe your sister can push past this and realize what she is doing. I am not sure if she even realizes the effect she is having on you, but if she does, I pray that her eyes are opened and that she realizes how wrong it is. You deserve to feel GREAT about all that you have accomplished and for those that you love to feel great for you too.

Have a GREAT time with your family!!! I'll be thinking about you :)

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TYBEWALLACE 2/26/2011 4:18PM

    emoticonon your size 4.... I hope you have an awesome vacation.

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BJW-FARMGIRL 2/26/2011 3:31PM

    You gotta start enjoying the shopping, girl! I know; I'm pretty picky now too, but it IS fun. At least we have choices, which is more than I used to be able to say. Your sis is really uposet with herself; but having to face you after your success is making her lack of being able to do it show up more (in her head). Just go have fun! I look forward to seeing your dress. Your folks will have a ball with the little guy! Make some memories!

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MIMIKK7 2/26/2011 2:57PM

    emoticonon the size 4 dress! emoticonTry to take a deep breath and just relax. I know family can be so frustrating but try not to let your sister get you down. She is jealous of your accomplishments. Enjoy being away with your husband and your son and spending some quality time with your parents.
Shoveling snow is hard work and equally as hard on your back but wonderful for your fitness minutes! emoticonI look forward to your pictures! Have an awesome week gorgeous!
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EFPACE 2/26/2011 1:07PM

  Congrats on the size 4! Enjoy your family. One of the things in life that i have learned is, friends my come and go, but family is forever. Don't forget to add shoveling snow to your work out time.

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