Thursday, November 18, 2010
I belong to an off line support group TOPS. Take off pound sensibly. I have been going to the group for about 15 years. I have lost weight and gained weight and my support group is always there to cheer me on and cry with me when I fall.
Due to work I have not been able to go for about 3 months. Tonight was my first night back. I was nervous that I had gained. Every scale is different and I knew that because mine said I lost did not mean another scale would say the same. I was glad to see my sparkfriend Irene there to greet me. I say many new faces and some old friends. I was nervous as I stepped on the scale.
I wish I will I wish tonight I hope I lost with all my might.
I have not always ate sensibly. I have not always wrote in my journal. I have ate some ice cream, pizza, and cookies. Oh not did I gain.
I am proud to say I lost 2.5lbs.
Some may think big deal but it is a big deal to me. I thought I needed the weekly motivation and accountability to stay on track. In the past I would cheat and think to myself I will walk extra the next day. Or who cares nobody saw me eat that ice cream. I do not have a weigh in who cares what I weigh.
My Spark community has helped so much keeping me focused and on track.
I have been encouraged to run in 5k races. Something I never would have done with out the support of my Spark Friends. I am not bored at night and thinking about eating because I am so busy reading and writing to my spark teams. I am reminded daily to stay on track, to try harder, to be honest with myself, to love myself, and to exercise.
In the past I would have gained weight especially with the stress of work, emotional eating and just plan not caring.
I am happy to have lost. I still have a ways to go on my weight loss journey but with the help of my online and offline friends I have the support I need.
Thank you SparkPeople you have kept me focused.