To wear a swim suit or not?

Saturday, June 04, 2011

I know some of you might think this is going to be a blog about skinny dipping no!!!!

Today I answered the poll question Do you avoid wearing a swimming suit because you will be judged

Most people voted yes

Well I want to tell you swim suit or not people will judge you.
We need to let God be our judge. I think that we do not fear other people judging us as much as we judge ourselves.

I wear a swimming suit and I am proud of the body I have.
I am proud that I have lost 70lbs and I need to love myself.
So my legs wiggle more than they did when I was a teenager.
So other things have dropped a little too.
Gravity it pulling my body down in many places.
So I do not look like the swim suit model in Sports Illustrated.
Well I do not want to look like them. I like me.

I am glad I live in an area with a beach South Padre Island. The sun is so hot that I am out in it for 1 hour and I am red red red. Yes I wear a swim suit but I also wear a shirt and shorts. I see the young things in the bikini but they do not get in the water they just walk up and down. If they got in the in the waves the bikini is gone.

When I go to the beach or the pool I do not think about what others are thinking of me. I am just enjoying live and Praising God that I have the energy and healthy so I can swim or kayak if I want to.
Moving and being in the water in the hot summer is the best way to exercise. Going to the pool and walking just walking back and forth is a great workout and it does not hurt the joints. Just jumping with a young child up and down is so much fun. Or throwing them in the water really works the arms.

So this summer do not fear others thoughts have pride in yourself you are made in the image of God. Your temple is under construction every day it is rebuilding itself. Enjoy life and do not feat the swim suit.

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Negative feelings and darkness

Friday, April 29, 2011

Today I read the article "Surround yourself with the Positve."

What a great article.
In Texas we have a test for students in Grades 3-12 called the TAKS.
This test is to assess how well the students are doing in school.

In reality it tests how well the teachers are teaching in school. So if the students are failing it means the teachers are not doing their jobs and the teachers are failing. Negative! Negative!
"Surrounding yourself with negativity will drain the energy, life and hope right out of you like a leech. Seems pretty obvious, but too often, we allow these negative messages to seep through."

This is a quote from the article. It is so true. Since January I have been tutoring a few students to try to get them to understand the basics Math, basic writing and basic Reading.

Why can they not remember I just went over it? Why can they not focus? Why can third graders not tell time??? Why I am not a good teacher? Why I have not found the way to teach them so they will remember I am not good? They are failing. I have failed them. ect, ect ect. Everyday these are the thoughts I have. Every night this is what I am thinking. I am looking and listening to other teachers say the same thing and feel the same way.

The Government is saying the teachers/librarians and our schools are no good. That means I am not good. My job may be cut because librarians are not needed to help students learn. Teachers/librarians pay is being cut. I went to college got a degree but I am not important enough to get paid even $1 dollar per hour per student I work with. According to society as an adult my worth is with my pay how much money I make. I do not even get $25 per hour for 8 hours of work and some nights 13 hours of work. Even a babysitter gets more than $1 an hour.

"Everyone runs into a wall at some point. You’re not alone if you feel discouraged. " says Mike Kramer in his article Surround Yourself with the Positve.


I hear a song on the radio that says if people really knew the true me would want me. I think no. No I am not worth it.
I am glad I have a God who does know the real me. He knows my darkest thoughts and he knows how I feel. He died because he felt I am worth it. I am important in God eyes. Society is wrong. I am worth it.

I have time now to listen to the voice that will say I am an important person. I am a important member of society. I do a good job. I need to tell myself that every day. I was important enough for someone to die for me.

I asked the kids when they were finished with the test was it worth it. (I am talking about third graders) Was it worth staying late until 5:00pm at night. Was it worth all the homework, coming to school on Saturday, being scolded my me for not listening, not going out to play ect ect ect. The group I was with all said yes. It was worth it.

I do not know. I do not think the stress of the test is worth it but I do know the kids are worth the time I spent with them. They are worth it.


I am not going to listen to the negative voice. I am going to surround myself with the positive. I will listen to the voice of God saying I am worth it. I am going to be a positive person and not the negative one. I need to remember to help shine the light that is in me cause I have a God that knows I am important.

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Shortcuts

Monday, April 11, 2011

"There are no shortcuts to any place worth going."
Healthy reflection

I want to be thin.
I will do anything to be skinny.

Really what will I do.
Will I be willing to take drugs that will damage other organs in my body to be thin. Will I take a drug that can damage my heart. Will I take drugs that make me move fast and feel like I can do anything.
How about the drug that forces me not to eat fats. If I eat fats I pay the price at the stool.
How about all those other quick weight loss machines.
In just 5 mins a day I can lose 50 lbs. (right)

Will I have a medical procedure to change my stomach so I am forced to eat less. I can lose weight fast.

Will I go on fad diets that promise weight to fall off.
What shortcuts really am I willing to take just to be thin.

Instead of taking the quick way. I am going slow. I am learning how to change my attitude about food and how I feel about what I eat.
I am learning to love to exercise.
I am taking the hard way so I can learn that being skinny will not make me happy. I need to be happy and then I can become thin. Being thin and unhealthy will not make me happy.

Ok so I am going to take the hard way.
Write in a journal, weigh my food, exercise daily and eat under 1500 cals.
God gave me a wonderful body. He promised me a wonderful life.
He did not promise me shortcuts. He did not say that my life would be easy.

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Is my body a temple or a prison?

Saturday, April 09, 2011

"A healthy body is a guest-chamber for the soul; a sick body is a prison."
- Francis Bacon

This was today's healthy reflection quote. I really like these quotes. Along with Irene's daily devotions the quotes really get me thinking about myself and how I look at my world.

When I am not physically feeling well it is hard to stay on a healthy diet. So I eat the wrong food and I feel worse.

2 years ago I started to take allergy shots. I was always sick with a head cold, congestion and sinus infections. I did not physically feel well. My body truly felt like a prison. When I was overweight I felt like a prisoner. I did not want to leave the house. I did not want to go to parties. I did not want anything. I was a prisoner.

I started to change by taking allergy shots. It took a few months for my body to feel better. Then I could focus on my eating and exercise. That is when I made a change. A change for the better.
I need to care for this body so it will not become a prison.
I need to care for God's Temple.

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April's Fool

Monday, April 04, 2011

Well I fell off the wagon.
I just read the article about food addiction. To many of us Science has finally confirmed what we already knew. Food is addictive. Food can give a person a high just like a drugs.
I am a food addict. Or more I am a sugar addict. I can not eat just one cookie, cake, m&m or anything. If I start I will eat until I am crazy. F
Finally Science has told me what I already knew I am an addict.

So do I give up and just resign myself to the fact that I can not help myself.

NO NO No

But just like anything addiction I have the power of God to help me.
I have the power of my friends to help me.
I have the power to help myself.
I will stumble along the way. I will get mad at myself and I will fall but I have the power to change myself.

My tools are my journal, my calorie book, my food scale, my measuring cups, my weight scale, my computer (sparkfriends), my treadmill, my TOPS friends and my Bible. These are the things that will help me stay strong.

I can do this.
I have fallen but I am getting up and dusting myself off and trying again.

I will not be an April Fool.

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