Wednesday, February 09, 2011
The last time I was this nervous I was in High School. I remember as a Jr. I was in a room full of students and everyone understood what the teacher wanted. I was the fat, ugly girl and I just could not get it. The teacher was handing back the writing papers and mine paper had in red ink, "see me after class. " I just could not get it. I had so many ideas to write about but the spelling, punctuation and everything just got in the way. I hated writing.
Now I am an adult. I went to college. I am a teacher/librarian. I have written many papers. Why do I want to eat chocolate? Why do I want some cookies? Where are the M&M's?
On Friday I am giving a workshop to 4th grade students on how to be a better writer. These wonderful kids are looking to me to help them improve their writing skills. Me? Me?
What do I know about writing? Why does the principal think I can do this? I do know anything about writing.
I feel like I am the last person in the world these young students should be going to for help. I need help!! I need someone to proof my papers!
I will not eat chocolate. I will eat a Special K snack bar. I will drink Hot Chocolate. I will control my emotions.
I am not that scared fat girl any more. She is grown up and she can do it.
Thanks for reading rant. I need to just get it off my chest.