Tuesday, February 01, 2011
With January coming to a close, my resolve to stick to my goals seems to dwindle. I am one of those people that love to sit down at the crack of dawn on New Years Day when the household is sleeping; pen and journal in hand. I look back over the year and beat myself up for not losing the 10 lbs, not reading the Bible 365 days and am not any closer to being organized. Then I look at all to be thankful for and write out the next year's goals. As I glanced at my calendar this morning and realized I only have 4 more days to lose 4 more pounds, I started to get a little discouraged. Before I fell into a deep depression and throw in the towel, I decided to take a deep breath and look at all that I did accomplish so far this month.
I started training for a 1/2 marathon. This will be my 3rd time, but the previous ones I ran/walked. This time I am running the whole thing. The furthest I have ever ran is 6.2 miles before training started. I am now up to 10 miles. Besides running, my strength training workouts are right on track. I have some muscle definition in places that I didn't think I would - like my abs! Besides fitness, this month I may have not been in my Bible daily, but my prayer life has improved.
It is so easy for my to go down the trail of negativity with myself. I learned a few years ago that it does absolutely no good. It does not motivate me to get on track. What helps though is looking back at all that is going well. This truly is motivating for me. I am learning that as important as spending time in God's Word, He isn't up in Heaven keeping a tally sheet of how many times a week I read the Bible. What is important is purposefully pursuing a deeper relationship with Him. Some seasons of our lives are crazier than others and He is so gracious to us. He understands. Anyway, I digress...
As a personal trainer, I educate my clients on how important it is to take a rest day each week. Our bodies need the time to repair and build the muscles. I KNOW this. Besides being one of those crazy people that make resolutions, I also keep track of all of my workouts. This past Tuesday, I was so tired and my muscles were so sore. I knew I needed to rest. I looked at my workout calendar and realized I worked out 13 straight days. No wonder! You would think that knowing this I would be happy to rest. I actually felt guilty on top of feeling blah! My mood was grouchy and I didn't make very good food choices. As I layed in bed that night, I learned two things. The first, I am addicted to the endorphins! The other lesson learned is that I am out of balance. Yes, exercise is vital, but so is rest. I wasted this rest day being grouchy. Next week when I have my rest day, I am going to include Jesus. I am going to rest in Him. This is where the balance comes in. There are numerous verses that give us not only permission, but God commands us to rest in the fourth commandment! Matthew 11:28 says, "Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
With only four more days of January, I am exactly where God wants me to be...resting in Him!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
You have been there through the times of celebration as well as the times of frustration and stress. You are there before I even call, you know me so well. When I am bored, you are there. When I am sad, again you show up. We have been so tight for my entire life. Although I can rely on you to satisfy me, I realize you and I are in a very toxic relationship. You see, our goals are very different. We worship a different God. You worship the god of instant gratification - I worship the only One who can satisfy me completely. We are unequally yoked my friend and it is time to part ways. Thank you for listening. Thank you for filling me for a time. I am now ready to let go and allow the only One who can satisfy me to take control. I will not meet you secretly late at night when everyone is asleep and I will not make plans ahead of time to indulge with you. I will miss you, but trust that you have lots of other friends. Goodbye my friend Sugar.....I will miss you, but am ready to allow God to completely fill all of my needs.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
I forgot to mention in my last blog that one of the things that is helping me stay on track is blogging. I love to write and will blog here, but I also have a blogging site. Check it out...I'm hoping it will inspire, motivate, encourage and help others in this journey!
Thursday, December 02, 2010
How did this happen? How could someone who is very passionate about health and fitness be stuck for a whole year? I have threee choices here...one is to focus on the negative, the other is to focus on the positive or I can look at the negative and learn from it, then thank God for all the positives. What in the world am I talking about? Well, this past year has been one with so many things to adapt to. Being married for one. Becoming a step-mom, stepping away from a ministry that I dearly loved, and trying to transition from one career to another. All of these things have been a little on the stressful side to say the least. I am so blessed though because through all of this God has been so faithful. These things are just part of life, I don't really consider them huge trials, just little bumps in the road. God has taught me many lessons through it all.
So, here I am now. I have gained and lost the same 5 lbs or so all year. My goal was to finally hit my goal weight of 138 lbs, yet I have been stuck at 150-155+ all year. I wanted to be in single digit clothing, yet size 12 remains. This is frusterating, but it is what it is. My fitness is great. I am very healthy and strong. I just did a 10k on Thanksgiving and finished in 58:00. Fastest time yet. I did 2 triathlons this summer and am on week 11 of P90X. I am happy with all of this, even proud of myself. Why am I not losing weight? I have been eating relatively healthy, but not tracking my calories. I started eating clean in May and feel great. However, my portions were either way over or way under. I have also had some bouts with binging on candy. I just went through Beth Moore's Breaking Free Bible study and have surrendered this to God. A few weeks ago I did the hydrostatic weighing and RMR testing. Since the last time over a year ago, everything was the same, except my metabolism went from slow to fast. Good news! Anyway, I know exactly what I need to do to lose these last 16 lbs....TRACK MY CALORIES!
A friend and I, we both did Breaking Free, are now accountability partners, We weighed measured and too pictures of each other in two peice bathing suits (uuuugh!). We are doing a Bible study together and being accountable to each other with our goals. Yesterday was my official day 1. I did great and am excited. I started tracking here on SP again and am going to get more active here. I haven't been for a while and know that all the encouragment and motivation I get here is needed!
Thursday, September 09, 2010
I am finally posting my triathlon experience here. I did my 5th triathlon a few weeks ago and it took this long to let it hit me. I have done 5...me...can I say I'm a triathlete yet? It's funny, because I still feel like a wannabe. Someone who wants to be one, yet is not there yet. I realize though that I actually am a triathlete. And if you are reading this and think that because you walk/jog you are just a runner wannabe- - you are not - you are a RUNNER! I have a hat made by Nike and there is a tag in the inside of the cap that says, "If you have a body, you are an athlete". Ok, I digress....
The Luna Bar Women's Triathlon is a 1/2 mile swim, 20 mile bike and 4 mile run. I did this one a few years ago and finished it in 2:30. I really wanted to beat my time and trained all summer. In fact, this was tri #2 this season. As always, the swim scares me to death. I am not a swimmer and when you stand at the shore and look out at where the buoys are to swim to, I think, "No way"! They are so far out there. But, I came this far, I gotta do it, no backing out now! So, I get into the water with all the other women, try to find a spot where nobody will hit me and wait for the start gun. My heart is racing. I try to pretend I am at the pool at they gym and this is just a nice little swim. The gun fires, I go. I try to get away from the crowd, but women were everywhere. I got about 3 minutes into the swim and got my rythym when a faster swimmer swam right over me. No apology, she just kept going like I was a little piece of seaweed. I recover, keep going and bam, another girl swims right over me. Well, that was brutal! Somehow, I managed to not drown and actually felt pretty good. They put you in groups called waves according to age. The next wave started and I was trying so hard to just stay ahead of them. To my amazement, these older women swam like fish right by me. Thankfully, I finished with lots of ladies still in the water! My biggest fear is being the last one! So, I get out of the water and start trying to unzip my wetsuit, run and wave to my supportive husband. I get to the transition area, quickly put on my socks and bike shoes, hat and shirt. Not easy being wet! I jump on my bile and go. This 20 mile ride is somewhat easy although there are some moderate hills. I passed lots of those faster swimmers and wished I knoew wich ones swam over me so I could stick my tongue out as I passed them! The road is not closed to traffic and there were hundreds of motorcycles out. It is a one lane highway, so you can't pass another bike if there is traffic. So I got stuck behind slower riders a few times, which messed with my time. I finished the ride, put my running shoes on and hit the trail. My legs felt like rubber and it took a while to make them feel right. Now this 4 mile run is horrible. Lots of hills, no shade, dirt and rocks. I did a walk/run through the whole thing. I was not alone, lots of people did the same. The last mile was tough. I was tired, my hip hurt and it was hot. When I got to the point that I could here the announcer, I knoew the finish line was getting closer. I dug down deep, fisnished strong. I didn't think I beat my time, but was happy to just finish. The next day when they posted the results, I was so excited. I finishe it in 2:26 - 4 minutes faster! Woo hoo!
I felt good afterwards. A little sore, but not too bad. Then on Monday, it hit me - exhaustion. It took me all week to get my energy back. I did though and am now ready for the next thing - a 10k. I haven't ran one in over a year and really want to increase my milage. At the same time though, I want to build lean muscle. These are two totally different goals and take totally different types of training. So what do I do now? I decided to try p90x beginning on Monday. I have heard lots of great things about it, but it is tough. I will continue to run 2-3 times a week and do spin 1x per week. I'm excited to give it a try. I like changing things up a bit every so often!
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