Monday, March 02, 2009
I was just looking at the calendar; do you realize we have 5 Mondays this month?
Also, if you live in an area that does the Daylight Savings Time, we "spring ahead" this Sunday too.
Once again I didn't get going and out of the house as early as I wanted too. I got up in plenty of time, it just took me awhile to wake up. I wasn't as sore this morning though, as I was when I got up during the weekend. And I didn't even take a pain pill last night; the only one I had was the one I took yesterday morning. So far, I haven't felt I've needed one today yet.
I made the pierogy lasagna for dinner last night; I like how it turned out! Made more servings than I though it would; I was thinking I'd get 3 out of it, but I ended up with 4. But that's ok; I had one serving last night with a small salad, and I'll save another one for my dinner tomorrow night. The other two servings I put in the freezer. I posted the recipe in a separate blog entry. I tried to do it through the recipe calculator, but it was just too complicated for me.
Maybe I'll try it another time when I have more patience.
I did my weekly grocery shopping today; my hip hurt, like I thought it would, but I did ok with my knee, just some very mild pain. It's still an improvement from the way I felt the last few times I went shopping. I bought ingredients to make some muffins from a recipe I found here on Spark, but I think I will wait another day to make them, I'm going to give my hip a break the rest of the day and take it easy. Tomorrow is my Zometa day so I don't want to go to that appointment not feeling good.
I'll also be trying a new chicken recipe; I'm planning on that for Wednesday. Tonight's dinner is going to be something easy I've had before, I'm making the taco salad from the Hungry Girl cook book.
Monday, March 02, 2009
I tried to enter this into the recipe calculator to get the nutritional stats, but it was just to complicated for me. Anyway, this is what I made for dinner last night.
makes 4 servings
This is based on a recipe from Mrs. T's Pierogies. I made a few changes to mine, using some different ingredients and reduced the size of the recipe to make fewer servings.
I made mine in a 6 inch square baking dish, but I had it filled to the top and had 3 pierogies left over that wouldn't fit, so you will probably want to use a slightly bigger dish.
12.8 oz package mini perogies
9 oz. package chopped frozen spinach, thawed
1 1/4 cup pasta sauce
1 1/4 cup Boca crumbles or other meat substitute
1/2 cup shredded mozzarella cheese
Place frozen pierogies in boiling water 5-6 minutes until hot; drain.
Heat Boca crumbles in microwave until thawed.
Add any additional seasonings you may like, such as garlic, oregano, etc to the pasta sauce.
Pour half of sauce into a baking dish lightly coated with nonstick cooking spray.
Layer with half the Boca crumbles, half of the spinach, half of the pierogies, and half of the cheese. Repeat layers.
Bake at 400°F 30-40 minutes
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Once again, my Spark Friends were there to lift me up and give me a confidence boost when I needed it. I want to thank you for that, I took all the comments to heart, and your words were very wise. That's one of my favorite things about Spark; besides just focusing on physical changes, it also helps us to be a better person on the inside too.
After I posted my blog about "Sally" yesterday, my best friend Donna called me and we had a long talk. She was very supportive too, and made me realize that I did what I could, it's Sally's problem and not mine. But I think it's good I'm going through the mourning process now. Even though it was not a death, it was still a loss; a loss of a friendship. I think maybe that is why it came back to bother me again; I never gave myself the time to grieve over it, I chose to push it to the back of my mind and ignore it instead.
I believe that God puts people in our lives for a reason, and when we need them. Sometimes things don't work out where those people stay in our live permanately, but that is ok; it doesn't mean we have failed. I believe those situations are the ones we really learn from and make us better people.
It's not quite noon yet here. I got up around 9am, and had a nice, relaxing breakfast and just took my time waking up. I decided on a couple of new recipes I'm going to try this week, and I have my shopping list made for my weekly grocery shopping tomorrow.
My hip is hurting a little more today, but I took a pain pill and it's helping a little bit. I can't take them if I'll be driving, because they make me sleepy, so I am going to get to the store as early as I can tomorrow so if I do need a pain pill, I'll take it when I'm back home. There is a Subway in the store where I shop, and I'm trying to decide if I want to have breakfast there before I shop, or eat something at home. I know they have some breakfast items there, but they don't post what they are on the company website, so I don't know the nutrition info on those items. But I thought it might be nice to do just for something different, and it would enable me to get going out of the house a little sooner.
Tonight I am going to experiment a little with a recipe I found; it's for a pierogy lasagna and the recipe came with some Mrs.T's Pierogies coupons I got in the mail. It's made with perogies, pasta sauce and frozen spinach, all ingredients I have on hand. It also calls for peas and carrots, but I don't like those in tomato sauce, so I'm going to leave them out and have some veggies as a side dish instead. I'm also going to make a smaller amount and add some Boca Burger crumbles to mine.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
I snapped this picture yesterday, it's on of the hanging decorations on my porch awning. We had freezing rain the night before. Today it is sunny, but still cold.
I was feeling blue last night, thinking about an old friendship lost. It was someone I had been friends with for about 15 years before my first cancer diagnosis. At first she was there for me, but then I started avoiding her when instead of positive support, she was dwelling on all the negative aspects of my disease. I think what finally made me realize that the friendship wasn't health any more was the day I completed the radiation treatments to my hip in May 2007. At that time, I was very tired and worn out, so my parents were driving me to my treatments and back. On that last day, they weren't able to wait to drive me home, because my dad had a doctor appointment that was out of town, so my friend, (I won't use her real name here, I'll just call her "Sally" for the purposes of this blog,) offered to pick me up.
It was long 4-5 weeks of treatment for me, fighting fatigue and nausea most of those days. It was only a 15-20 minute drive to the treatment center, but it still felt like a struggle to me, to get myself ready to go and have to cope with carsickness at times, but I made it through to the end. After my last treatment, the nurse gave me a certificate and a really nice mug with a saying about hope on it. I felt so good walking out of there, like I had just won a battle, and felt like I was walking on clouds on my way out. But then Sally had to start talking about how the radiation is no garantee that the cancer wouldn't come back, that it could still kill me. That made me feel just like a little kid whose balloon had just been popped; I didn't say much on the ride back home, it was all I could do to hold back my tears til I was back in my house.
I already know about the uncertainties and the possibility that one day my current treatments may quit working, I don't need to be reminded of that from other people, especially if it's a day I am feeling good and full of hope. It was that day that I gradually quit calling her and finding excuses not to see her.
I still talked to her via email for awhile, and I included her in my updates I sent out to close friends and family about my health condition, and other family news. She stopped responding to those eventually, and I don't know why. I know she had internet, because she has 2 kids still living at home and they are on Facebook and other sites. The last email I sent her was in November, when I let her know of my decision to quit working and go on disability. Still no response.
I had thought I put all this behind me, and moved on, but for some reason, it started bothering me a lot last week. I don't even know what triggered it. She hurt me, but I know I am probably partly to blame too. But I decided today, that I am not going to beat myself up over it, or keep analyzing it. If her choice is no longer be part of my life, so be it. I can't control who likes me and who doesn't, but I can control how I react to it. I still have friends who I know are my true friends, through the good and bad times that I can count on. I don't hate Sally, or dislike her, just some of her actions. But it's time to accept that she is no longer in my life. If we are meant to be friends again someday, God will lead us back to each other.
It's really true what they say about having a serious disease, such as cancer; you really do find out who your friends are.
To end this on a positive note, my pain is still at a very tolerable level, not really any change from yesterday, but still much better than before I had the nerve block, and my knee is not hurting today either. I'm not healed yet, I know it will take some time, but I feel things are at last moving in the right direction for that.
I made plans to get together for lunch on Thursday with a few friends from my former workplace, looking forward to that.
I also cleaned out and organized a couple more cupboards this morning. I still have a cupboard full of plastic storage dishes to sort out and organize neatly, and I need to straighten out the cupboard under the island where I keep my pots and pans, but since they are low cupboards, they will have to wait until my hip is healed more and it's easier to bend.
Friday, February 27, 2009
We had rain all night and into very early this morning. It turned colder and then we had some freezing rain. Almost all the schools in the area were closed today. The sun is out now, but the wind is keeping it very cold. The sun is melting the ice on the pavement though.
I'm feeling my hip pain a little more than I did yesterday, but it's still much less pain than I had before the nerve block injection. I had to take a couple of pain pills, at 4pm and 7:30pm yesterday, and I took one when I got up today. I know it's going to take time for my nerve to heal. If the damage occurred during my radiation treatment, that was two years ago, so that's been quite a long time, so I am not expecting it to heal up overnight. Most of the pain is right around the hip, not through my whole leg, so that itself is a big improvement.
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