Monday, June 13, 2011
I was so tired last night, I was asleep by 11pm, early for me. I got up early today; 6:30am. Wish I could have slept longer, but I was feeling hungry, which made it hard to relax in order to get back to sleep. But I was able to leave earlier than I normally do to do my grocery shopping. I also stopped at Walmart before getting my groceries. I don't normally do 2 big stores in one day, but I had short lists for both. I was back home around 9:15am.
My tai chi and yoga DVDs are not here yet, but I did buy a yoga mat in Walmart. I can also use it to do my sciatica exercises, which I have to admit, I've been slacking off on; I really need to be more consistent with those.
It was a chilly start this morning; I actually had to use the heater in the car on my way into town, but it warmed up pretty quickly, got up into the 70's by early afternoon.
I only took 1 pain pill for the entire day yesterday; today so far I've only taken 1, but I cut it half and took those halves at different times. They half pills still make me feel sleepy, but my fatigue wasn't quite as bad as it was yesterday. I skipped my workout today though, I was pretty tired out from my shopping this morning.
I shop on Mondays because my chemo is always on Tuesday, and the days following that I'm not feeling very good. I do not like to shop Fridays or Saturdays because the stores are too crowded and busy. I am thinking though of switching to Sunday mornings for my grocery shopping, since it tires me out so much. That way I have Monday, the day before my chemo, to hopefully have a little more energy to do something more enjoyable at home and get my workout in too. Some Tuesdays are longer than others, and that way I won't have 2 days in a row of energy draining activities.
Tomorrow will be one of my long days. Besides the chemo, I have my once per month oncologist appointment, and my monthly 2 hour Aredia infusion.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Didn't get quite enough sleep last night, but I still felt better today, at least the first part of my day. The weather was nice today, and my hip and knee felt a little better too. I didn't have to take a pain pill until 12:30pm today.
But before I had to take that pill, I got a little cleaning done today. I paced myself though and took frequent breaks. House wasn't looking too bad, but I needed to catch up on a few things, since I start the chemo cycle again on Tuesday and it will probably be another 3-4 weeks before I felt that good again. I also washed a load of sheets.
Started getting very tired this afternoon; I don't think it was from the cleaning though. More like not enough sleep and then the pain pill making me sleepy. Managed to get my grocery list done for tomorrow, nothing spectacular on sale this week so it's a very short list.
I have some chicken in the oven right now, and I made enough to have leftovers for the next few days. Then some tv and reading time before I go to bed, will probably turn in early tonight.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Woke up to the sound of rain this morning; I thought it was going to rainy day all day, but it stopped around mid morning, and very late this afternoon, the sun came out.
Feeling pretty good today, except the hip/knee pain. The pain pills have been helping, but they have also made me feel very tired. I think those last injections in the lumbar spine helped with the back pain, but not the sciatica. Hopefully the TENS will be more helpful with that. I am anxious for the 23rd to get here; I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high, but I really want to give the TENS a try.
I haven't been able to be too active today, but I did get clean sheets put on the bed, and did a load of laundry. I also did a short stability ball workout.
Watched the movie Wild Hogs this afternoon; it was funny but it had a heart; just the kind of movie I needed after the week I've had. I might watch another movie later on tonight. I recently found Elizabeth the Golden Age at Big Lots for $3 but haven't had a chance to watch it yet. I love history, especially Tudor stuff. My favorite thing to read is historical fiction.
Friday, June 10, 2011
I am feeling a little better today, expect for the pain in the areas where I usually feel it. So far no headaches today and my stomach is feeling better. I took a sleeping pill last night so that I would be able to get some good sleep, otherwise I would have stayed awake thinking about Angie's death.
I was reading all the posts last night that people have left on her Facebook page; I wonder if she ever had any idea how many lives she touched. I hope that knowing that will bring some measure of comfort for her family.
The article in the paper today said that Angie had been found in the computer room, and her husband was in the living room. They do not know the cause of the explosion yet; I had been thinking maybe they heated with propane and the lightning hit the tank, but it said they had no propane tank.The cause is still being investigated. They had their own trucking company business, and had just come back from Texas, their longest trip, and sadly, what turned out to be their last. I can't help but wonder about their last moments, if they had any time at all to know what was coming. I can only pray that they did not suffer.
A few hours before that happened, I talked to her briefly on Facebook; we had talked about how we both loved the book a Tree Grows in Brooklyn. It was a trivial thing, but I'm glad our last interaction was a positive one. It is a lesson for us all, to stop and think before we speak words in anger; what if something happens to that person before you have a chance to tell that person you are sorry?
No matter what you are going through in life, no matter what your troubles are, each day of life is truly a gift; you never know when it can be cut short suddenly and unexpectedly. I once read a quote that went something like this; I can't remember the exact wording, but basically it said that even if each day is not good, it's possible to find some good in every day. There is always something to be thankful for, no matter how bad the day is going or how miserable you might be feeling.
Please forgive my ramblings today; I guess I'm trying to process it all and make some sort of sense out of it. It's hard to lose anyone that we care about, but I think sometimes it's harder when that person is young and it happens so suddenly and tragically.
It's been a rough week for my with my health and emotionally too, but I am hoping to feel better this weekend. After 3 days without doing a workout, I did my tai chi dvd today.
Thursday, June 09, 2011
We had an evening of severe weather last night. We had a thunderstorm go through around 6:30pm, the worst of that one was some heavy rain. We had a few hours of quiet after it had moved through. I ended up with another migraine triggered by the weather, and had to take my Imitrex.
Around 11pm, another round of storms started. While I was watching the weather on the local news at 11:15pm, I heard the wind suddenly get stronger, and the lights began to flicker. They had just issued a severe thunderstorm warning for my area, but before I heard for how long it would last, the power went out, and stayed out. I tried to check the local radio stations here in town to find out more about the warning, but they had lost power too. I knew I would not be able to relax and sleep until the storm was over, so I got out my battery operated lamp, and did some reading, (or tried too, it was hard to concentrate at times being anxious about the storm.) Timmy and Kallie were curled up on the bed with me too. When I finally went to sleep around 1am, the power was still out. Not sure what time it came back on but I had to get up and use the bathroom around 5am and it was back on then.
It really cooled things off. I got up around 8am and it was only 55°F, and the house felt a little chilly inside. I was hoping that once the storms were all out of the area, that I would feel better, but I woke up feeling achy in all the usual spots, and my stomach still feeling a little upset. I also had bad cramps in both feet before getting out of bed. I know I haven't been drinking enough water the last couple of days, so that is probably why. I'm doing better with that today, been drinking lots of water; haven't had to make many trips to the bathroom, so that tells me I really was dehydrated.
My upper back bothered me the most today, but I sat in my recliner so I could use my ice pack on it and it feels much better now. Right now I am mainly feeling very tired, from not quite enough sleep and having to take more pain pills today than I normally do. I've had a headache that has been coming and going all day too, I can feel my sinuses hurting from it. Stomach still feels a little "off" too. Even though the weather has been quiet today, I'm thinking maybe the cold front isn't quite done going through yet, so maybe my not feeling good today is partly related to that.
This afternoon, I received some very bad news. One of my former coworkers and her husband were killed during the storms last night. There was an explosion in their house believed to have been caused by lightning. I saw the report on the local news and there is nothing left of it but the foundation and rubble. I still feel stunned, and very sad; I first met Angie when I started at Walmart about 20 years ago. She was one of the most caring and supportive people that I have ever met. When I left Walmart in November 2008, we kept in touch through Facebook; in fact, we had talked a little bit on Facebook last night a few hours before that 2nd round of storms had started. Her husband also had a 6 year old daughter, but she was staying with her grandmother last night so she was not in the house when it happened. I just felt kind of lost and not able to settle down and do anything after I heard. I finally started some laundry but that's about all I got done today. I didn't try to do a workout today, my GP symptoms started to flare up again, probably from stress. I feel like I'm still trying to process all this; it's so hard to believe that someone so upbeat and positive, and so full of life, can just be gone in an instant.
For my friends that pray, I ask that you please say a prayer for their families, especially for the little girl who now will have to grow up without her daddy.
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