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Feeling better today, thank you Spark Friends!

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Thank you to everyone who commented on my blog yesterday and gave me some much needed support!
Just want to clarify one thing; it's not the chemo I was considering stopping, just the Neulasta injections I get the day after. The side effects of the Neulasta injections are worse than those from the chemo. And on the days I get chemo, they also give me steroids along with it, to prevent nausea. When those steroids start to wear off, it makes me feel somewhat depressed, so I think that's where a lot of my feelings of hopelessness came from the last couple of days.

I gave my TENS unit another try last night while I was watching TV, for a longer period of time. I think it helped a little, but it's hard to say, since I also took a pain pill. But my pain pill seemed to work better, so maybe it was because of the TENS. It's not painful to use, but feels a little strange, something I need to get use too. I think until I get use to it, I'll just use it in the evenings when I am sitting down. When I get more adjusted to it, and if it seems to be helping, then I can wear it while I'm doing my everyday activities.

I'm a little tired today because I had to take a pain pill. While I am still not feeling "on top of the world", I feel content and peaceful today. Got some light housework and a load of laundry done, and got caught up on my paperwork for the week. Also got some more old photos scanned into the computer.

I also did a short, gentle workout with the light weights and stability ball. Ended up with 72 fitness minutes for this week, which for me is not bad for a "chemo" week.

  
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LIFE_IS_SO_GOOD 8/16/2010 8:18AM

    emoticon you are such a survivor!

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2BHLTHY4LIFE 8/8/2010 1:31AM

    Happy today is better for you,I admire your strength and positive attitude! You are a treasure! emoticonDiana emoticon

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ORACLE2010 8/8/2010 12:42AM

    Now you sound like your old self again!!!

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HOPE2BE 8/8/2010 12:27AM

    I'm glad to hear you're doing better Shari. I didn't think you'd quit the chemo. I figured it was the shot you were talking about.

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ELLFIN3 8/7/2010 9:44PM

    WooHoo glad you are feeling better! Hope maybe the TENS Unit will help! Have a fabulous Sunday!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CARRAND 8/7/2010 7:57PM

    Glad you are feelimg better.

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DENI_ZEN 8/7/2010 7:49PM

    Those are some terrific fitness minutes, Shari! Wow...you were a regular dynamo! Well done :) - Sandi emoticon

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TUFFYBIRD 8/7/2010 6:20PM

    I'm so glad to hear you sounding better ... very glad!!!

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LOVES_ANIMALS 8/7/2010 5:51PM

    You are sounding a bit better today

Hugs,

Sally

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TERI99 8/7/2010 5:43PM

    Sounds like a productive "work day" to me! emoticon

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BKWHITE3 8/7/2010 5:39PM

    Glad you are feeling better. emoticon

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Feeling in a funk since yesterday, recovering from chemo and Neulasta

Friday, August 06, 2010

I have not felt good since yesterday, mostly due to the side effects of the Nuelasta shot. I still have at least 5 more chemo treatments to go, and I am seriously wondering if I have it in me to keep going with them. I'm not really sick from them, from feeling rundown and crappy. I think the "mental tiredness" of it all, not just the physical side effects are getting to me. I have to wonder if it's all really worth it. Since my cancer is stage IV, this chemo won't "cure" anything; the best that can be hoped for is that it will slow the disease down.

The side effects of the Nuelasta injections are worse than those from the chemo; it makes me ache all over. I am seriously considering just not showing up the next time I am scheduled for the shot.

And it bothers me that some people are still wondering why I can't work, because I "don't look sick". Since I haven't lost my hair to the chemo this time, it doesn't really show from the outside how I really feel. And usually, if it's a day when I'm out shopping or running errands, it's on one of my "good days", but even on those days, no one knows hows much of a struggle it is to get out of bed and get moving in the morning, and how long it takes me to style my hair to cover up the thinning spots from the chemo, and how much concealer I have to spackle on to cover up the dark circles under my eyes because it's so very hard to get enough sleep most nights.

There are people that I use to work with that think I have life so easy now, not having to work. But believe me, living with stage IV breast cancer is no picnic. Life is not a bowl of cherries for me. I tried to work with this disease as long as I could, until I got to the point I just couldn't do it anymore. It's not that I don't want to work, it's that I can't! But I feel sometimes as if I am being judged for that fact. Some people have said that I am "so lucky not to have work any more" and I would like to say, (and I think I WILL start saying it, sarcastically) "Yes, I am so LUCKY to have cancer!"

I know that life isn't fair, yet I have it a lot better than a lot of people, despite the cancer. But last night was one of those nights where I forgot about that, and was just thinking about myself, and cried myself to sleep out of frustration. I know I am not alone in this world, but last night I felt like I was. When it's 3am, and you can't sleep because of that, it's hard, because all the friends and family you have to talk to are asleep.

I ordered a TENS unit from Amazon last week, and tried it out today. Can't say it really helped, but then I still don't know quite what to do with it. It's going to take some trial and error to figure out the best settings for it, and where to place the electrodes. I am not disappointed though, I wasn't expecting any miracles on the first try. I'll keep on trying until I figure out the best way to make it work for me.

Back to the subject of my hair; even though it's thinning out from the chemo, it's still growing too. It's too soon to start letting it grow out yet to the longer length that I prefer, but it needs some trimming, especially my bangs. I made an appointment to get it cut on the 19th of this month. (My stylist is on vacation next week, but she did such a great job the last time, I am willing to wait a week for her.) Maybe a freshening up of my current cut will help me out of this funk I have been in lately.

  
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LIFE_IS_SO_GOOD 8/16/2010 8:07AM

    Shari, I know you are feeling better now but my heart goes out to how you were feeling when you wrote this. Cancer treatment is so hard.

Even now, my husband will sometimes say someone doesn't look 'sick enough' when they use handicapped parking. I want to smack him ... I was in so much pain for a while and 'looked' fine .... and he was there so he knows that you can't always see how someone feels.

It's hard to accomplish anything when you have absolutely no energy. People who have not had or been around someone going through chemo don't really get it because it is not simply feeling just tired ... it's more like the life is being sucked out of you.

But another day comes and somehow we are given enough of whatever we need to get through it. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ISLANDRITER 8/8/2010 1:03PM

    Shari, I feel the same way often. It is the frustation and the fatigue of just pushing so hard all the time. You always inspire me and when you are down, you make me feel human. I have an MRI on Monday for suspecious areas from an ultra-sound. It is near where the recurrent tumor was in '05. Now I am in a new state,CA., a new town, Redding, and just saw my new oncologist for the first time for this news which came out of my mamogram and the ultra-sound I request along with it every year. This time I asked the tech to extend onto my under arm area because I wanted to see around the radiated section from 05. That's how this suspecious tissue was found. God has me in a bubble of peace right now...but I am very tired. MRI is Mon and findings on Tues pm. Shari, I love you girl and am with you every step of the way!!

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PMCFARM 8/7/2010 6:16PM

  Shari...all of your blogs have always helped me put this Cancer journey into its' proper perspective, but todays blog was so welcome. You perfectly described my last 2 weeks. Thank you for sharing that "funk" times are part of the journey! BTY some people, intentionally or not, will judge others. Just consider your new job as self-employed. emoticon emoticon

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PAT3ONTHEBACK 8/7/2010 12:28PM

    There are so many angles to consider when sleuthing down your sleep problems. I know you'll either figure out how to get more sleep or to live without it.

People die from infections and that is what the neulasta is for. I'm sure you were just being glib--you'll show up for it, right? Or at least make an informed decision with your Dr. not to get it.

You are not actively dying, you are still living very strong! You'll know when it's time to throw in --not THE towel, but one issue at a time--A towel, the Neulasta towel.

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DIANESNEWLIFE 8/7/2010 9:56AM

  emoticon emoticonI should give you my number. You can call ME at 3 am; I'm usually waking up in pain about then. I also understand about 'looking just fine' but feeling like crap. We can't let what others think about us get to us. They probably wouldn't understand if you explained it to them!
Hang in there, Shari! We're all pulling for you!

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PRETTYSPECIAL 8/7/2010 3:11AM

  Shari,

I know what you are going through my son has bone cancer. its easy for anyone who isnt going through this to say keep fighting--only you can know when is enough.
Its a damned if you do/dont as far as the Neulasta if you take it you have the aches and the bone pain and if you dont you run the risk of becoming neutrapenic.

You have been fighting for awhile I see I can understand that you feel like throwing in the towel sometimes but I hope you keep fighting and keep praying and leave the rest to God. I pray that God will heal you.

Take care of yourself and ignore what others say--they just dont get it or understand what your going through.

I will keep you in my prayers.
Teresa


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TWOTIMESS 8/6/2010 10:07PM

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I know the feeling! Make time for yourself and find things to laugh at - I watched many comedy shows and cartoons during my treatment (10 years ago). Allow for crappy days, but embrace the funny, positive side and hang in there.

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HOPE2BE 8/6/2010 9:41PM

    Shari you are such a special person. There is nothing I would not try to do for you that would help ease the chemo and the feelings you have afterward as well as the Nuesta shot. I just wish there was something I could do except know that I will continue to pray for you.

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MUSIC66 8/6/2010 8:52PM

    SORRY THE CHEMO IS KNOCKING YOU AROUND.

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LOVES_ANIMALS 8/6/2010 8:44PM

    Hi Honey,. You are not alone. I have so much respect for you, and all that you do, and who you are. Don't worry about the people that do not understand you and your situation. Really, thank God that they don't have the medical problems that you have so that they can afford to be naive!

We love you here, and we all have a lot in common.

Hugs,

Sally

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TRISHAANN56 8/6/2010 8:33PM

    I also hate the Nuelasta shots and the effects they had. I'm sorry you are so down today, and the good lord knows you have enough reasons to be down. Try to think of the things you do enjoy; your family, your garden, your friends, and beloved cats. You are in my prays and thoughts. Pray and think for awhile about what you want for quality of your life, and then decide weather you want to continue with chemo and Nuelasta shots.
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2BHLTHY4LIFE 8/6/2010 8:06PM

    Shari, you have a wonderful kind and caring son and I agree with him. I can not believe how cold and insensitive people are about going to work,you are at work and you are working so much harder than most,you are battling Cancer that is a 24/7 job and it doesn't give days off. I wish,before people would make comments like these they would take some more time to think about what they are going to say and instead,ask you if you feel up to going back to work or nothing at all.I get this too,my inlaws are always comparing me to my dh siter in-law who is healthy and no heart or health conditions and expect me to go to work even though I have permanent heart disease and did work 16 hard years in retail and am a stay home mom of 3 now. When I feel alone,which I feel sometimes and than I talk to God about it and I feel so much better and not so alone. Hang in there and I believe you will have sme better days to come. Many emoticonand prayers, Diana emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CARRAND 8/6/2010 7:44PM

    You are allowed to be in a funk once in a while, especially when people have said insensitive things to you and you're feeling weak and in pain. I wish I could give you a big hug. I feel like you are a very special person, and certainly an inspiration to the rest of us on how to handle an illness with grace and dignity.

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DENI_ZEN 8/6/2010 6:45PM

    Shari, this has got to be so frustrating and discouraging for you right now. Whenever a person suffers from a serious illness (*and* its very difficult treatment), for them, it's like moving into a lonely, uncharted territory. You're in a darned-if-you-do, darned-if-you-don't situation where local friends are concerned. On the one hand, you lead an amazing effort to live as normal a life as you can, and you just blow me away with how well you succeed at this!

On the other, it's precisely because you look great (and put time and effort into doing so) and manage to live a rich, full life that people lose sight of the stage IV breast cancer you have, as well as its implications. Little do they understand that it's really a full-time job to manage it. So, they (quite erroneously!) assume you've got it "easy." It seems that people who don't understand like a person to look good and be upbeat, and they insist this person is well, even having an easy time of it!

I guess there's no "middle ground" for people who have difficult chronic conditions. Too many people have expectations for them, and it is surely not your job to fill those expectations. Right now, the only person you owe anything to is yourself. You owe it to yourself to explore pain relief and perhaps, to talk with your doctor about better ways to relieve and/or manage your pain if the TENS unit doesn't fill your needs in that respect. You're a strong, proactive lady, and I have such tremendous admiration for you as you take an ongoing trip into uncharted territory.

If they don't understand, we're here 24/7, always anxious to hear from you! Lots of emoticon, Sandi emoticon

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TERI99 8/6/2010 6:40PM

    It is abundantly sad that any human being could be so insensitive to say that you are lucky that you don't have to work. They have no clue, and they clearly don't even stop to think about how much work it is for you to do all the things that are so easy for them. The difference is, you do not get a paycheck for your work, though you are probably "working" much harder than they are. I'm sure they never give a thought to the fact that you would willingly change positions with them in a heartbeat.

Try not to let the rude judgments of unfeeling people get to you. (I know, it's easier said than done.) You are an inspiration to so many of us who admire all that you do in light of what you are going through, always making the best of everything, and never just sitting around wallowing in self-pity. You show us how to make the most of each day. Hang in there, Shari!

Hugs and prayers,
Teri

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PIMPINELLAN50 8/6/2010 6:36PM

    Shari,people can be so insensitive sometimes...they really dont have a clue.My thoughts and prayers are with you.Hoping you are feeling better soon.
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ORACLE2010 8/6/2010 4:37PM

    Hey Mom,

Please don't give up! Just stick with your treatments and follow through. Even though you never asked for it, you have a huge responsibility to those people who have cancer, or who will get cancer, that there is HOPE! I think Elizabeth Edwards is the only person I've heard of who has this type of treatable cancer, but you've made it real to us!! Hang in there and do what you have to do girl!

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ELLFIN3 8/6/2010 4:36PM

    You tell those people who think you are so lucky not to have to work that you will gladly trade places with them and they can have cancer and you will work! Most people do not think before they speak! You just hang in there and be you! To heck in a hand basket with them! Keep trying with your TENS Unit, I think once you figure it out it will help!! You cheer up and know you are in my thoughts and prayers all the time! You will perk up once your hair is done! It Sounds like you are half way through the Chemo and you have to hang around until they find a cure-Very Soon We HOPE!!!!!! Try to have a good weekend! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IVYLASS 8/6/2010 4:34PM

    Shari, hang in there. I think your response to people who think you lounge around all day eating bonbons is perfect, so start using it.

You're just feeling a bit low. Go over to see your folks, play with the kitties, maybe invite some friends over to sit with you. What you're feeling is natural, and you need to rely on your friends and family to get you through the bumps in the road.

I know how you feel about the chemo and the Neulasta. Ask the doctor if there's any prescription pain med he can give you to combat the Neulasta joint aches. When I finally asked, the doctor was out and the PA couldn't prescribe narcotics, so since I only had one more they agreed if my WBC were high enough I wouldn't have to have it.

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BRAXO5 8/6/2010 3:58PM

    I just read your blog and my heart goes out to you. My best friend has stage 4 lung cancer and is unable to work. People say the same things to her, even her own sister-in-law can't understand why she can't go back to work. People can be so ignorant sometimes. Please know you are in my prayers and that you are not alone. If you don't get your hair done how about your nails. I am not sure what condition yours are in but my friend's nails are the longest ever. She lost her hair with chemo but is getting her nails done to treat herself. Take care of yourself!

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Recipe: Upside Down Lemon Cream Pie For One

Thursday, August 05, 2010

This is another Hungry Girl recipe.
You can find the True Lemon products in the baking aisle of the grocery store near the sweeteners.
I made this last night and it was so good! It really did taste like pie.
I added some fresh strawberries to mine too.

UPSIDE DOWN LEMON CREAM PIE FOR ONE

one 60 calorie sugar free vanilla pudding snack
2 packets True Lemon
1/4 cup fat free whipped topping, divided
1/2 sheet (2 crackers) low fat honey graham crackers, crushed

Place pudding, True Lemon, and 2 TBSP topping in a bowl.
Mix well. Top with remaining 2 TBSP whipped topping and crushed crackers.

Per serving: (entire recipe) 120 calories, 1.5g fat, 25g carbs, 4g sugars, 1.5g protein

  
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2BHLTHY4LIFE 8/6/2010 1:18AM

    Sounds really good Shari,I am going to try this one! Thankyou for sharing this with us.* emoticon*Diana

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TRISHAANN56 8/5/2010 11:32PM

    That does sound good, I'll have to look for that True Lemon, lemon pie is one of my favorites.

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DENI_ZEN 8/5/2010 9:48PM

    Thanks so much for yet a new use for my True Lemon and Lime! I even love them plain in ice water - so refreshing! But I had never thought of adding them to a cool dessert like this one. We can never have too many dessert recipes, too! :) - Sandi emoticon

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STOP-IT-KNOW 8/5/2010 9:27PM

    sounds good going to try it,

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LOVES_ANIMALS 8/5/2010 6:34PM

    MMMM sounds good!

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HOPE2BE 8/5/2010 4:33PM

    OMG I got free True Lemon in the mail. I can use this already. What a fabulous recipe.

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SHARONGD 8/5/2010 2:29PM

    OMG - sounds delish and I love lemon! I just happen to have all ingrediants (except cool whip)
think I might make it for dessert tonight! Thanks for sharing! emoticon emoticon

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ELLFIN3 8/5/2010 1:49PM

    Sounds good! Thanks for sharing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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BKWHITE3 8/5/2010 1:05PM

    Sounds yummy!

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Chemo again yesterday

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

Yesterday's chemo took a little longer than usual. My doctor is still short one chemo nurse, but she should be back in about 2 weeks, recovered from her foot surgery. They didn't have me see the doctor before chemo, as they usually do, just got me right into a chair to do the blood draw for the CBC they need before they start. But that was ok; I didn't have any new symptoms to report or any questions.

They are changing the computer software at the hospital, and they started yesterday; the computers were down a lot and it took a long time to get my blood back from the lab. I had my Zometa first, then nausea meds, then the chemo. My appt. time was 2:45pm, and I didn't get out of there til after 6pm.

Have been feeling kind of "gassy" and crampy since then, but they gave me different nausea meds yesterday, so that might be some of it. Or perhaps just something I ate. Only got 5 hours of sleep last night. Can't blame it all on the steroids they gave me with the chemo, as I stayed up til 2am to finish a book. I woke up at 7:30am and couldn't get back to sleep, so I got up at 8am.

I got my TENS unit today from Amazon; I still have to read the directions and get it set up. I'm usually pretty achy on days 2-4 after chemo, so I will probably try it out tomorrow.

Went for my Neulasta injection at 2pm. I was at the hospital a half hour for that because the staff was still learning how to use the new software, and all my meds had to be re-entered. Lucky for me I remembered to bring a book with me this time.

The steroids are keeping most of the sciatica pain away today. I felt like I had a walk in me today, but it was too hot and humid. So I did a Leslie Sansone Power Mile DVD instead.

We really need some rain here; just came in from watering my plants. Gave them a good soaking because I probably won't be up to it tomorrow.

  
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STOP-IT-KNOW 8/5/2010 9:29PM

    take care your in my prays emoticon emoticon

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69NURSE 8/4/2010 10:16PM

    Hi Shari - just saw your blog and wanted to convey my best wishes for the days/months ahead. I haven't had time to read much to know what type of cancer you have but it sounds like YOU have it together. I hope you have a strong support system to help you through this traumatic time. God bless you and know there will be lots of people praying. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DENI_ZEN 8/4/2010 9:29PM

    Shari, I really admire you...and for so many reasons! You manage to stay fit and slender, you pick beautiful clothes!, you're a wonderful mom to your cats, you're a magnificent gardener, and you're one very patient patient. Not only that, but you diligently craft such a well-written blog for us readers! Tanks o' thanks...and I can't wait to hear how the TENS unit works! All the best - Sandi emoticon

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SUEJENN 8/4/2010 9:12PM

    I am always amazed at how much you can do even when you are on chemo. What a woman! What is a TENS?

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CARRAND 8/4/2010 9:10PM

    It was really hot and humid here today, but we are supposed to get storms later. I walked on the treadmill after dinner. It really brought my blood sugar down, and that's a good thing for me.

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AVALONAPPLE 8/4/2010 8:48PM

    It is hot and humid here too...hopefully some storms tomorrow. Books are a great reason to stay up late:)

Jennifer

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ECHOBLUE1 8/4/2010 8:28PM

    I went through part of what you are doing now. Was not able to discuss it with anyone. No one wanted to know about it. Wish I'd had Spark back then, 1992. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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2BHLTHY4LIFE 8/4/2010 7:58PM

    Hello Shari! That must have been a really fantastic book to stay up that late. emoticonI am most curious to find out how well the Tens unit works for you.My dh has sciatica as well and they wanted to give him one of these,he won't take medications for pain as they make him to sleepy and dopey feeling.I hope you feel better and get some much needed rest for your body to feel better.Our weather here has not been to hot,but it sure is dry.I wouldn't mind some rain to help in the watering all the gardens and all that we have as well. Have a pleasant evening and hope you feel better in the days to come. emoticonDiana emoticon

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TRISHAANN56 8/4/2010 7:24PM

    I know what you mean about gassy after chemo, I don't know what causes it but it sure is unpleasant. I do hope the tens unit helps your pain. Be well and take care.

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ELLFIN3 8/4/2010 7:09PM

    I am anxious for you to try out your new machine!! I sure hope it helps!!! I just came in from watering the very few plants I have out front!! It is so hot here! Stay safe, hydrate, rest well!!!!!!!!!! 2am to finish a book! emoticon That must have been some book!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BKWHITE3 8/4/2010 6:41PM

    Take care of yourself. emoticon Bonnie

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Will be getting chemo #7 this afternoon

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Had another sinus headache last night that was turning into a migraine; had to take my Imitrex at bedtime last night. Tis the season for my allergies again. My eyes are red and watery all the time now, but the worst part is the sinus headaches. Unfortunately, I can't take any allergy meds to prevent my symptoms, because I am too sensitive to the side effects, and I've tried them all.

It was hard to get up again this morning, but I had to get my groceries since I didn't do that yesterday. It's hot and humid today; wonder if that's why almost all the other shoppers looked so grumpy today. They are probably the same people who complained about how cold it was this winter. I don't like the heat and humidity either, but I don't see the point in complaining about it. And we don't have it as bad here in Michigan as some of the other states have had it this summer. The only smiling faces I saw in there today (other than the employees) was a lady I use to work with, (she was smiling because she was on vacation!) and a disabled man in one of those electric carts; and that made me think, if he can be smiling, why not all those other people who should be thankful that they have two good legs to walk on?

I'm not saying people need to have a smile pasted on their face constantly, but it doesn't hurt to give someone a smile when you pass by them, or at least take the frown off your face. I just felt a lot of negative vibes from people today, and that tends to make me feel grumpy too.

I bought a lightweight sweater today that I had been admiring; I was waiting for them to go on sale, and today they were $10. I really wanted the cranberry color, but it was out in my size, so I got this gray one instead. I have a pair of dusty pink jeans that will look great with it. The sweater has a cowl neck, is fitted, and has 3/4 length sleeves.


I am blogging early today, because I have to leave for my chemo in about 2 hours, and I will probably be too tired to blog when I get home. This will be #7; not sure how many total treatments I am getting, but I think it's 12; if that's the case, I am half done. I'll be there about 3 hours. Already have my book and my snacks packed in my bag. And when I get home, I have the chicken and noodles I made last night that I can reheat.

  
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PIMPINELLAN50 8/4/2010 1:12AM

    Hi Shari.
Hope your chemo went well today.You sure know how to find all the good deals!Love the soft color of the sweater,and it will look sharp with your jeans.
Have a relaxing evening,oh yes...your cats are beautiful!

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CARTOONB 8/3/2010 11:40PM

    I do like the sweater. Very nice.

Agree with you about people trying to be less cranky. I've never seen a face crack from smiling! LOL!

Hope your treatment went well. Good idea to plan ahead so you can just rest when you get home.

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DENI_ZEN 8/3/2010 10:20PM

    What a beautiful sweater! I think you'll look terrific in that color, too :) I'm so sorry the already rough time chemo presents has been compounded by this severe sinus headache...and your allergies. You should be back in the saddle soon, though. In the meantime, you're weathering chemo extremely well! Sleep well and soundly tonight.. - Sandi emoticon

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CARRAND 8/3/2010 9:31PM

    Good luck with the chemo today. I'll be thinking of you.

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2BHLTHY4LIFE 8/3/2010 7:53PM

    I really like the sweater and that is a nice neutral color that will go so nicely with so many colors. I feel rather guilty,we had a hot 90 degree plus week early in July and have been comfortable at around the seventies for the rest of our summer,thus far.It's been really dry,and unseasonably cooler than normal.I hope your headaches go away,I had one this morning too,I think for me to much screen time for my eyes.The people around here seem to get grumpy too,when our weather get's to hot and humid.I try to just smile and try to be pleasant and ignore the unhappy peoples.I will send you healing energy for a positive chemo.treatment.Get lot's of rest,Shari. emoticon emoticonDiana emoticon

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SUEJENN 8/3/2010 7:20PM

    Yes it is hot. It becomes a passtime, talking about the weather. We haven't had a summer like this in some time. And the bugs! They just love it. As I was reading your blog about the 'grumpies' you felt today, it made me think of Michael Fox. He was talking about his Parkinsons disease. When he was explaining why he didn't make it the centre of his life he said the disease was his 'bag of hammers'. He pointed out that everyone carries their own 'bag of hammers'. SO those pleasant smiles you gifted today may have been what those 'grumpies' needed to lighten their load. You are a very strong person. You are experiencing difficult times yourself and you have support to offer others in need.

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LOVES_ANIMALS 8/3/2010 5:12PM

    Looks nice!

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CARRENK 8/3/2010 5:00PM

    We'll be thinking of you - hope treatment goes smoothly.


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LOLAINSC 8/3/2010 4:05PM

    Chemo along with a sinus headache sounds like a bit much for one day. At least you crossed the hump. Love the sweater--gray with dusty heather pink is one of my favorite color combinations.

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TERI99 8/3/2010 3:04PM

    Hope all goes well today and your headache goes away. It would be awful to start out with a headache!
Prayers for you,
Teri

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CHANDANI 8/3/2010 2:51PM

    Cute sweater! Hope your treatment goes well today. emoticon

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SHARONGD 8/3/2010 2:16PM

    Hope your treatment goes well today ....get a lot of rest and I'll be praying for you! Love the sweater...I love cowl necks...Good luck! emoticon emoticon

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IVYLASS 8/3/2010 2:14PM

    How's the hair?

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BKWHITE3 8/3/2010 1:14PM

    I like the sweater. Pray that all goes well with the chemo treatment today. emoticon

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ELLFIN3 8/3/2010 1:07PM

    I like the sweater!!! Hope the day improves along with peoples attitudes!! Have a safe day! Rest Well!!!
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BECKY3128 8/3/2010 12:55PM

    That sweater is gorgeous! I have to agree with you about smiling to strangers. I can be quite the sarcastic person but when I'm out I smile at strangers and try not to be generally grumpy; you never know what that other person is going through. Kudos to you for not giving in. Good luck with chemo today, I'll be thinkin of ya! emoticon

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LYNNOTT 8/3/2010 12:39PM

    Nice sweater! And it'll go great with dusty pink jeans. Hope you're not too tired out from the chemo treatment and that all goes well.

Take care!

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NEXT30YEARS 8/3/2010 12:33PM

    Thanks for giving me a smile today. Hope treatment goes well.

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