Saturday, May 25, 2013
Just read my last blog from October. My daughter's cancer spread so quickly. In early November we were told there was nothing more medically that could be done for Karen. I started sleeping at her house & taking care of my grandkids. Family & friends helped out, so I could get to my house each day. About a week before Thanksgiving, we put her in the hospital for some IV fluids. She remained there until her death on Dec. 18. My husband, an RN, was able to take time off from work and stay with Karen during her time in the hospital. We have spent the first months of 2013 taking care of her affairs. Our grandchildren have moved into our home & are with us most of the time.
Around Thanksgiving, I gave up trying to keep up with SparkPeople (& a lot of other things), but as we adjust to the "new normal" it is time to pick-up the pieces of my life. So here I am but not really needing to start over completely. I have some life foundations that are still in place and just need to do some rebuilding and repair.
My faith...I still believe in God's goodness, love, & plans for our lives. I believe in Jesus' death, resurrection, & the promise of eternal life. (I will see Karen again!) I believe in the Holy Spirit & His guidance & comfort. Some other beliefs I am rebuilding: Do I hear God correctly? What about healing? Do I understand His promises or do I try to make them fit my wants?
My SparkPeople foundations...I have learned what to do for my own health & now must actively start doing. I first need to review my goals...what is important. Then revamp my daily activities so I can reach the goals. This is where I am now...looking at what works for me.
With 2 teenagers in the house, life has changed so much, but they give me incentive to live well. We are going through our year of "firsts" without Karen. It isn't easy, but I have wonderful friends & family to just be there. The Holy Spirit has also been the comforter Jesus promised He would be. So I am on with the business of just living.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
The blog title is from my grandson, but he has a good reason...his mother (my daughter) has Stage 4 cancer (melanoma). She first noticed a lump in February & it was confirmed as cancer in late spring. Since then life seems to revolve around doctor appointments & treatment...surgery, radiation, chemo...& difficult news. First the lump on the shoulder...surgery...a CAT scan showed a 2nd on the back...a scan of the head revealed 3 more...radiation...then a chemo treatment that she violently reacted to...so 4 days in the hospital & a couple months just trying to recover from the treatment...more scans showing more tumors...a change in treatment plan...severe pain because the tumors push against nerves...now the wait to see if the treatments will shrink the tumors.
How does someone cope during such a time of high stress & do the lessons learned through Spark People help?
Trusting God is my "first line of defense." His grace is getting my family through each day. We are praying for Karen's complete healing, and even though that hasn't happened yet, everyday I feel God's love, compassion, comfort, & peace that He is holding us in His hands.
I am also trying to practice some of the major themes of SP to maintain my health...drink water, 7-8 hours of sleep, eat fruits & veggies, find support through friends & family, exercise.
1. Log-in streak...a 300 day streak...there's something about just logging into SP that gives me a feeling of "normal" during chaotic days.
2. Watching my health by drinking water, getting my sleep, and making sure I have fruits & veggies during the day. I'm not logging this information, but I understand its importance. Before SP I probably wouldn't have even been thinking of these.
3. No weight gain...I'm not stressing about losing weight, instead I'm working on not gaining any.
4. Although my exercise plan is inconsistent, I walk when I can...it does help.
5. Allow friends & family to "be there" for us. A huge "silver lining" has been supportive people. Karen has friends clean house for her, contribute sick time at work, give money to help with expenses, supply meals, & just be there for her.
Karen is a single mom with 2 kids (15 & 12). I spend my afternoons/evenings at her house trying to help manage her home...cleaning, supervising kids, dealing with paperwork, cooking. Some days it feels overwhelming to deal with 2 houses, but I remember that little steps forward are better than not moving at all.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Last Saturday I walked/jogged my 1st 10K. I am slow, so my goal was to do it in under 2 hours. In training, I had done the distance but at a slower pace, however I know that on an official run, I go faster. My son & daughter-in-law did a 1/2 marathon so we were running at the same time although they started 1/2 hour earlier.
I had my plan...start with a brisk 1 min. walk then a 4 min. jog...repeat. Well, everyone else started with a brisk jog & I yielded to peer pressure & started jogging. Of course, I tired too quickly & there was still 5 1/2 miles to go. Back to the plan...walk...jog...walk...jog. There was also a 2 mile run so for the first mile there were plenty of people on the course.
At the first mile the course turned a corner then about 1/4 mile further there was another turn. I made that first turn & there were no other runners ahead of me! That was such a lonely feeling, everyone else was fast enough that I could no longer see them...I was all alone...I wanted to turn around! Then I realized that there were a couple walkers behind me, so I kept going. Around the next turn & I could see other runners again. In fact, I passed my DS & DIL as they were on the return stretch.
I will admit, I had a mental battle going on. Did a mention that it was raining...just a drizzle but enough to soak through the clothes. At least the air temperture was okay, so it wasn't cold. But back to the mental battle. The 10K is a challenge for me, so I keep telling myself that I could turn around at any point & head back. As I got tired, I seriously considered turning around & not completing the run, but at the 2 mile marker I checked my time & I was doing an okay speed. So on to the 3 mile marker & the turn around point.
I'm jogging along & I realize that one of the walkers is catching up. A WALKER is going to pass me...that's just not fair. As he catches up, we start the usual little chit-chat. He is walking as therapy for an injured back & we continue the run together. His wife & daughter are further back...walking the 10K as a PE make-up for the daughter. I have not tried to find a jogging partner...I'm too slow, so this was a new experience to have someone alongside encouraging me on. This gentleman became my pace setter. (He said I was going at a good pace for him too!)
This 10K was one of the best runs ever. Even tho my DS & DIL were running a longer course, we were still having the experience together (we finished within minutes of each other). I had a pace-setter & encourager that helped me complete the run & not give up. AND, I finished in 1 hour 40 minutes...20 minutes faster than my goal!
Maybe I will try another 10K.
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
GMINYARD posted a message on Wildflowerr's Live-It Team discussion board asking for advice on finishing projects. Made me stop and think about how often I start something and then don't see it to the end. My craft room is full of projects in various stages of completion. I've been known to wash all the dishes except one last pan. I started 3 SP 5K walking/running training programs without completing any. I have participated in 5K's, just didn't finish the training program.
So, I am on a mission in 2012 to complete projects, which is very similar to setting goals. I've made my list of things to do, decided priorities, and broken the projects into reasonable daily and weekly pieces. Now I am posting about this so I have some accountability.
First 3 projects:
1. Finish a quilt for my granddaughter before her birthday on May 8. (I've been at this for 5 years & she keeps asking when it will be done. )
2. Finish the bedroom closet. (We are remodeling.)
3. Complete the 5K training programs.
1. Decided how much I needed to sew each day, got the room set-up to sew, actually followed my plan & did some extra. It'll be a bonus if I have the quilt done several days before her birthday so there's no last minute rush.
2. Finished the 1st sanding. DH needs to check it & do more mudding.
3. Completed the 1st walking-a-5K training program. Got the trophy!
1. Continue the plan to complete the quilt.
2. Have to wait on DH, so I will concentrate on the other 2 projects.
3. Do 3 days of training suggested by the training program.
Now that I've "told everyone" my plan, it won't be so easy to put it aside & say, "Maybe tomorrow."
Thursday, April 05, 2012
I had quite a shock on Tuesday. I had made brownies for a potluck and there were some left. After my walk on Tuesday I thought that the last brownie would taste good, so I headed for the kitchen. Guess what, the pan was EMPTY. Normally I would blame my DH, but he wasn't home! I have not considered myself a mindless eater, especially after starting with SP, so it was a very sobering moment to realize mindless eating was staring me in the face.
I read an article recently that said logging what you eat, even if you don't count calories, can help in weight loss. Now I really know why!
Well, I pulled out my food journal, have it handy, & am writing down everything that I eat even if I don't always count the calories. Goal...stop the mindless eating and (from past experience) lose weight in the process.
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