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What I learned doing the BLC 25

Friday, July 18, 2014

My experience this round of BLC hasn't been good. Just couldn't get into it like I have in the past. I gained instead of losing and feel so frustrated. emoticon I did enjoy the friendships I have made on team FBI, which makes for a great time even though I didn't participate as much. emoticon I feel so down on myself since I feel I let everyone down, but mostly I let myself down, also I feel like a failure since I just can't get out of this funk I'm in right now.

NSV- I have lost inches, even if I haven't lost pounds. Can get into smaller clothes, which makes me feel somewhat better.

What I plan to do now since this round is coming to an end- hopefully find my spark again and start back losing weight. Get back to eating the right food, drinking emoticon instead of emoticon , also getting off my butt and start back emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon . It will take alot but hopefully all my spark friends can help emoticon , emoticon and encourage me to get back on the right track.

  
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WALKINANNI 7/25/2014 10:17AM

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THEGROOVYCHICK 7/21/2014 8:19PM

    You are not alone Jean! I have been gaining and losing the same two pounds for a few months now. Very frustrating! I am finding it a lot harder over the summer than during the school year. I'm sorry this wasn't a good BLC round for you. I took this last one off but I am thinking of joining the next one.

Congrats on the inches lost. emoticon

You'll get your spark back! emoticon emoticon

BTW, Love your wallpaper!

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MOMTO6CUTIES 7/19/2014 11:48AM

    You can do this!!

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STEPH-KNEE 7/18/2014 9:05PM

    You are fabulous and I just want to say that you are not a failure, and the fact that you never give up shows you are a winner! emoticon I won't be back for BLC 26, but I will always be around Spark. emoticon

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My thoughts for today

Friday, July 04, 2014

While sitting here trying to do homework been thinking about what has been going on with my weight lose journey. It has been a downhill slide since about April and just not happy with the outcome. Seems so hard to stay on track or even feel like doing anything. Yes I know everyone feels this way from time to time but am really tired of it emoticon .

There are times I feel like giving up and then I think I have come so far, why give in to the emoticon . I have been doing different challenges and am on several different teams but still feel like nothing is going my way. Sometimes I just feel like I'm on this journey with no support but I realize I have support on Spark but it is always hard for me to reach out to people. Being an introvert has its disadvantages, because I just feel so alone even with everyone here cheering me one.

Sometimes I wish that I had some close friends that could just come and kick me in the rear end and say that they are here for me but I know that just won't happen. It is hard when the support I need from my hubby isn't there and he doesn't see how I need to have friends around to help feel like I belong. have people on here that says reach out to them but I just have a hard time reaching out to people I don't know well. So this fits the way I feel right now about friends:




I know I don't always say this but Thank You all who will comment on this or have commented on my blogs in the past.





I guess that is all for now, Have a great day everyone.

  
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ANNEMARIE3451 7/8/2014 2:48PM

    It's funny -- I'm more likely to talk to a complete stranger in person than I am to reach out in a semi-anonymous forum like this one. Go figure!

I, too, have been in a bit of a backwards slide (and I have only made intermittent progress in recent years). My motivation and excitement about improving my health come and go. I did have a success recently -- I convinced my husband and kids to eat the way I think we all should for the summer. This is about the 8 millionth time I've tried to bring them on board and we have been doing it for a week now. They are happy that the meals are yummy and satisfying. My family, while verbally supportive, has never really done this with me before (no weight problems but my own). I had to convince them that they would be healthier and feel better (and now I have to prove it!) I find it very, very difficult to stick to my eating plan when all around me are eating like crazy!

I hope you are able to give yourself a break and acknowledge that this is a challenge just like school, work, and family are. But like those other areas of our life it is a challenge worth attempting!

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GODZDESIGN95 7/7/2014 9:10AM

    Molly we have a lot in common.....I am shy naturally in person until I get to know you but on spark I am more opened. I am a lone wolf...But I know I am not alone in this journey I have God on my side and a cloud of witness in heaven cheering me on and that gives me strength. You are not alone....But I can relate when I first came to spark I have two special friends we both clicked and talked often even into the night. They both died but I can not bear to delete there names from my page. So I keep them to remember our special friendships. One is youogirl51 and the other one is on my page. They both had extreme health problems. God how I miss them!! I will see them again and we can catch uo then in heaven. Just know I am here. I am not a butt kicker not my specialty but I am a pursuer and a hunter. I will start checking in on more. I really appreciate your support on my fitness minutes. Remember you are not alone! emoticon

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AVANELL 7/5/2014 8:38AM

    There is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. He is always available when you need support or encouragement. He is warm and easily touchable and responds to your faintest cry. His name is Jesus. Reach out to Him when you need a friend. He'll be right there to see you through!

And in the natural there are those of us who will support and encourage you as well. Break down those barriers and reach out to others! We need each other!

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WAY2GOCAT 7/5/2014 6:57AM

    Be encouraged! By writing this blog, you've come a long way! I'm here for you to offer my support, encouragement and friendship! I have faith in you, emoticon

Don't hesitate to drop by my page or leave me a SparkMail! I'd love to have you as a SparkfFriend! I'd love to help you out any way I can! emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 7/4/2014 7:00PM

    I am so sorry you are having a rough time! I am feeling it the last few days as well, and was feeling it for weeks in April and May... even with the support from Spark friends it isn't always easy to keep going. It sure helps and the support is always appreciated, but at the end of the day we have to pick ourselves up and push forward and that is not always easy to do!!

I am right there with you, a part of different challenges and teams, and while it is helpful, I feel like I struggle more now... the longer this journey is the more I seem to struggle. I guess by now I thought it'd all be automatic and easy, and while I have days where it is so easy, I have many days where it's so hard. I hope you feel better, and that you keep trying! You are stronger than you realize!! You can always spark mail me at any time. I know you said it's not easy but I am here for you. emoticon

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A little humor for today

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

  
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AMARILYNH 6/21/2014 5:14PM

    Love it - this is GREAT advice!!

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STEPH-KNEE 6/18/2014 4:31AM

    Love it!!

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MOMO7YROLD 6/17/2014 4:39PM

    so cute

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TRUNKJUNK 6/17/2014 1:31PM

    Love it. Visiting your spark page always makes me smile.

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    So cute! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 6/17/2014 12:49PM

    would be nice emoticon

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LOSER05 6/17/2014 11:26AM

    you got that right!

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NKING1982 6/17/2014 11:10AM

    Sounds like a good diet to me

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Starting to get back on track

Friday, May 30, 2014

Finally feel like myself again after two months of feeling crappy. Woke up yesterday feeling like a million bucks and that I could do anything I wanted. Went to college and passed my finals and it felt good to prove my hubby wrong, he said I couldn't do it but I did.

Today I decided that I would start over again and take baby steps but will not let anything get in my way. I plan on getting all the junk food out of the house and my hubby can eat the healthy stuff or go hungry, ok will leave some stuff around for him that isn't healthy but I will not be tempted to eat it. Also am going to get off my butt and work out and get these pounds off for good. So with that said off to the flowerbeds to clean them out cause they are a mess and so is my garden but not for long will it look like this






  
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PATTYJ48 6/2/2014 3:37PM

    Congratulations Jean. I am so proud of you for sticking with school and passing all your finals. I know it is not easy, but you did it!!!!

You have a great plan to start again and I know you will do it!!

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SERENE-BEAN 6/1/2014 1:28AM

    You passed! Way to go!!!

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CM_GARDNER78 5/31/2014 11:35PM

    YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! That is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!! Way to go Jean!! That is fantastic!!! Now it's time to kick some fat's booty straight outta there! ;-) Way to go!

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THEGROOVYCHICK 5/31/2014 12:24PM

    emoticon Congratulations on passing your finals! emoticon You can do anything! emoticon So glad you are feeling better. emoticon emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 5/31/2014 12:05AM

    Your hubby needs a light smack, I don't know why he said you couldn't do it. You are so strong, you can do ANYTHING! So proud of you and glad you are feeling good again!! :D Love your background btw!!! emoticon

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LACEYKYLE 5/30/2014 10:45PM

    emoticon passing your finals!! emoticon

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SQUIRRELMOMMA1 5/30/2014 8:39PM

    emoticon on passing your test! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/30/2014 7:52PM

    hope you post after photos of your garden,lol.so proud of you and so pleased you passed your finales love.what did your husband say when you told him?hope he appologised.like you said time to get back on track.if you use the same determination you used to do and pass your exams you are well on the way to being what you want to be. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MNABOY 5/30/2014 6:41PM

    Send some dust my way, you are taking off! Congratulations on college!

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JMOUSE99 5/30/2014 5:59PM

    emoticon That's pretty much what my veggie garden has looked like for 3 years, but I got it cleaned up and planted this year. You'll be so thrilled when you get it done!

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GIRLGETTINGFIT 5/30/2014 5:26PM

    emoticon I can relate to the stress of school. I felt like a ton of bricks was lifted off of my shoulders when I finished my finals. It is a great feeling! Keep working towards your goal and you will get there before you know it! emoticon

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Stressing out

Friday, May 23, 2014

Right now I'm stressing over nursing school, finals are here and need to really do good on my one final to pass the class or will have to take it over again. It doesn't help when the hubby has a negative attitude and says things like I know you wont pass, you never do good on test's. It doesn't matter that he interrupts my study time, for little stupid things he wants me to do. Looking on the positive side that I can do this, just need to stay focused and stay positive.






Sorry about this, just had to vent and get this off my chest so I can get back to thinking positive thoughts and not doubting myself.

  
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CM_GARDNER78 5/25/2014 11:48AM

    emoticon YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

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TEXASTITCHER 5/25/2014 10:05AM

    Good lunk on your tests. You will do well and be a wonderful nurse.

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SQUIRRELMOMMA1 5/24/2014 9:41AM

    Is there a local library you can study at? A closet in your house big enough for you and your books and flashcards? Perhaps you could get your hubby to help you study? Have him do the flashcards with you perhaps so he is part of the process instead of hindering you? Something to think about.

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STEPH-KNEE 5/24/2014 5:10AM

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MNABOY 5/23/2014 10:58PM

    Focus, you had the class and you can pass.

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SERENE-BEAN 5/23/2014 3:22PM

    Vent all you want. And tell that husband of yours that if he doesn't let you study to finish becoming a nurse, he's going to need a doctor!

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LACEYKYLE 5/23/2014 12:44PM

    I'm going to start praying now about your stress and your final. I know God will bring you through this because you are smart and you're studying to get through.
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LOLAINSC 5/23/2014 12:39PM

    Wishing you the best and please don't allow anyone to steal your confidence and drive. I always went in with the attitude that 90% (or whatever the bell-curve was for that particular test) of the people here are going to pass and I know that I am not in the bottom 10%. Arrogant, I know, but it worked; de-stressing is a large part of the battle. These tests are not designed to fail people, or we wouldn't have nurses. Get a good sleep the night before and have a solid, healthy, high protein, no junk breakfast to counter fatigue and maintain focus. Best advice, go to the bathroom just before it starts; everything is easier with an empty bladder.
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THEGROOVYCHICK 5/23/2014 11:18AM

    emoticon You can do it Jean! Maybe go to the library to study. emoticon

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NEVERLOOKINDOWN 5/23/2014 11:07AM

    You know what. Nobody can tell you what you can and can't have in this life. You can have ANYTHING you want in this life as long as you work for it, which you clearly are. As a college student I understand the stress of the tests, in fact, finals are approaching and the stress eating has began! There are a few things that help me that might help you to relax, which is important because you won't do as well stressed as you would otherwise do. #1 Study frequently but not for long periods. Be sure to write down any questions that come up in your mind while studying. Practice vocabulary and other important info with flashcards as needed, and review previous tests, quizzes, or exams. Be sure to do the activities in the textbook if possible. The most important thing about learning is that everything you learn is just a memory and short term memories are transferred to long term memory by an increase in emotional response but also by basically churning it around in your brain. For instance anytime you come across important information, take a few seconds to think about it, link it to other things in your life, other things you know, ask questions about it, visualize it, make up examples that explain it that are different from the text. #2 Relax, relax, relax during your study breaks and any other time you are not studying to something nice. Take a hot bath, do some yoga, go outside, walk around the room, paint, read, do something that makes you feel good. Always make sure you do something that makes you happy, its very important. Also don't look at the test as if its a make it or break it thing. If you don't get a good score. That is ok. You will have to take the class one more time, so what? You will do much better throughout the second time than you did the first and thats even better. Look at it this way. Getting a second chance is better than not getting a second chance, and trying again even if you don't do well is amazing.
And of course one last thing. IT WILL BE OK. YOU WILL DO WELL. RELAX. YOU GOT THIS!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/23/2014 10:57AM

    have you ever thought of going to a hotel or a friends for a few days just to be able to study uninterupted.i know that is what i did when my finals came or i wouldn´t have got anything don.keepon keeping on you can do this. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TRUTHNOW2 5/23/2014 9:18AM

    Jean... Don't forget to breathe and visualize and actually feel how you will feel having passed the test. You know you can do it... You ate a hard worker and want this for yourself, your family, and all the people you will help as a nurse... Breathe and believe... PS I really like the pic!!! And am going to copy it and send it to my stressed out friend who looked like that when she appeared at my front door yesterday...

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LADYSHERRY 5/23/2014 9:14AM

    I'm so sorry the person you need support from and be on your side isn't there for you. You will pass in spite of it all.

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FLAGLINDA 5/23/2014 9:12AM

    Jean, everyone stressed over nursing school and there will always be at least one test you are sure you are going to fail. But YOU CAN DO IT!!!! My friend is taking her nursing classes online and EVERY time she goes to take a test she insists she is going to fail but she passes each time.
Please don't pay attention to your hubby. Nursing school is hard!!Just keep on studying and try to stay calm on the day of the test. YOU CAN DO IT!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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