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Thursday, December 11, 2014

I have decided to add another business to my quilting business as I am not sure when my hand will be 100% again or if it will at all and this is a perfect fit for me as I love all forms of holistic healing. Please check out my site and place an order to enhance your life

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GEORGE815 12/11/2014 6:30PM

    Hope your hand gets better!

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LOVINSHERRY78 12/11/2014 5:55PM

    ooo awesome! wishing this many blessings :)

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ROBBIEY 12/11/2014 5:47PM

  Awesome, I will check your site out.

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Was ready for it all to end

Saturday, December 06, 2014

This will probably be the most personal thing I ever write. A while back I started slipping into a depression but couldn't really admit it, I did everything to try to curb my feelings, I was so busy.1) My family has been dealing with my middle daughter having a heroin addiction for roughly 5 years which I won't go into great detail of everything we have gone through but it was so close to tearing my whole family apart. 2) my husband has been laid off from work now for 9 months...very stressful. 3) we took every bit of money we had so I could start my own quilting business and I got my dream order to do a wedding dress quilt and then I went and broke my metacarpal bone of my ring finger in 5 pieces had surgery and still can't move it. 4) over the summer I had 3 tumors removed from my back. 5)here's the real life changer for me......I had a mental breakdown. I didn't care anymore about living, I didn't see a point. Up til this point I kept a smile on my face, tried to be the one for everyone to turn to, tried rationalizing everything to everyone. Oh and to add to it all I gain about 20 pounds :(

In the last few weeks I have done so much soul searching and I have come to a few conclusions 1) I cannot control my daughters actions or am I to blame in any way, it is still so painful but I am taking the blame away. 2) this is also something I have no control over other than to be as supportive as I can, he is out there looking and picking up small WILL work out! 3) My quilting business will still be there, I will just have to be patient with my recovery and realize everything Will work out. 4) done and over with, it had set me back but it is in the past. 5) it IS ok for me to take care of myself and to put my needs first, it IS ok not to always smile, it IS ok for others to take care of themselves, it IS ok not to have all the answers and to put my trust in a higher being. I'm not saying I have it all figured out now because I don't, not even close but I am saying I'm not giving up!

I am back on SparksPeople for.....honestly I'm not all that sure except when I have been on here in the past it made me feel good and that is an ok answer for me. Last time though I tried to not make many friends because I didn't want to have to pretend to be "happy" to more and more people but one thing I have noticed is that EVERYONE has issues and EVERYONE needs someone. I know I have said a lot, trust me I only gave a brief history but I don't want to feel fake,if I'm going to reinvent my future I feel I need to be honest with not just myself but with everyone.

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LOVINSHERRY78 12/7/2014 3:41PM

    dang love...thats nuts! boy i tell ya.. i'm sooo proud of you for coming here and talking about it all. the one thing i've learned about spark is that we really don't have to put on that fake happy face. it amazes me how the people here truly care about each other when most of us are all complete strangers. sometimes i feel closer to my sparkers than my own friends/family, lol.
u know i love ya and am so sorry you've been going through all this. and i see that wow...what a strong woman you are! super duper big hugs!!! hang in there (kitty hanging from a tree poster, lol) :)

at least you still look super hot going through it all. 20 lbs..i can't tell! xoxo

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KELLIEBEAN 12/6/2014 4:38PM

    Yes we all face challenges and need each other. Some days are lower than others for sure.

I admire your attitude while dealing with everything on your plate.

Thank you for sharing such personal issues. We are all here for you!


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STRONG_SARAH 12/6/2014 3:42PM

    Hi, Thanks for writing. It's helpful to get it out, isn't it? We're here to offer virtual support, it's not the same as a big warm hug, but it's something. It sounds like you are on track to turning it around. Well, what you can of course.
I'm sorry about your daughter, just remember she has her own path to take and though you can offer help, only she can change her life. I wish you all the best. Lean on me if you want, I'll do what I can to help.

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A simple routine.....but it is my morning routine

Thursday, July 18, 2013

My days start off with my gentle yet persistent alarm going off so pleasantly in my ear at 3:45 a.m., I make my husband his coffee, breakfast and his lunch for the day, take my doggie out and then I get to sit down and talk with the hubby for 5 minutes before he leaves for work at 4:30. I then get into the most comfortable position and meditate for an hour, such a great way to start the day off. emoticon I take my dog for a mile walk, this is also a great slow start to what is to come, I drop him off at home then I'm off for a 5 mile walk/jog/run this puts me back home before 7 a.m. This is when I get my wonderful, delicious and much appreciated coffee!

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LOVINSHERRY78 7/18/2013 8:07PM

    Sounds like a pretty great routine if ya ask me...niiice!

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KMCASSADA0515 7/18/2013 8:57AM

    WOW!! That is a busy morning. You must feel SOOO productive every day!! emoticon

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I am so proud!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

A few weeks ago a letter was sent home from school telling us that Caitlyn would be receiving an award but did not tell us what is was for. Caitlyn has been a cheerleader her entire high school career and that is what we assumed she was getting an award for. Well let me tell you, the tears were flying from my eyes from complete pride when they called her name for the $30,000 scholarship this year. She is the first in our entire family to ever receive any type of scholarship.

Tears are flowing down my face as I'm writing this emoticon

So so happy for her

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ALEXSGIRL1 6/14/2013 8:01PM

    so very happy for your wonderful family especially for your amazing daughter it is not easy to get a scholarship well done

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EMELEE82 6/13/2013 9:05PM

    Wow!! That is so great! Your girl is a champ! Way to go proud mama!

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SNOWANGELDIVA 6/13/2013 5:32PM

    HOLY COW!!!
That is is so awesome!

Congratulations to a the mama behind the superstar and to the superstar.

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BEFIT014 6/13/2013 7:58AM

    WOW!! That is emoticon I know you're proud of her!

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NUTRON3 6/12/2013 9:02AM

    WOW,WOW,WOW!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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TIG123GER 6/12/2013 8:25AM

    That is fantastic!!! should be so proud.

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Slow and steady......yup, just slow and steady :)

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

emoticon giving myself a big smile emoticon today is day 51 of my streak! I have been moving slow but I have been moving. I have only lost 5 pounds but I'm so proud of myself. Instead of trying to push myself to hard and asking way to much from me, I have been making very small changes everyday. My favorite part of my day is having a healthy breakfast with my daughter every morning ( we always have Quinoa) she LOVES it.

Here's to the next 5

This is part of my small changes. It was always hard for me to get in all my veggies in a day let alone a week, so I make up this salad and it last me all week and I get all my servings in a day. It has onions, red, yellow & orange peppers, tomatoes, cucumbers, zucchini, broccoli & cauliflower no dressing added.

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NUTRON3 6/11/2013 8:50AM


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    All those baby steps of small changes are going to add up to more loss. Congrats on 5# loss!

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WHYNOTJ1 6/11/2013 7:46AM

    Congratulations on losing 5 pounds and making small changes that work! Awesome!

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SNS1968 6/11/2013 7:44AM

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JUDYHELP 6/11/2013 7:20AM

  emoticon emoticon smiling back at you!! Only lost five pounds!! That's a great big emoticon emoticon !! It's wonderful that the best part is breakfast with your daughter. emoticon emoticon Judy

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EVIE4NOW 6/11/2013 7:10AM

  Slow and steady is the way to go. It insures you of making and keeping habits without all the pressure of "I MUST lose 20 pounds this month". Building habits is difficult so baby steps are the way. Good for you!!!

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