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Meet the Ghost!

Monday, February 03, 2014

From Brooks, the Ghost 6 is my running-shoes-to-be!

I went to the running store today to find the perfect shoe. I love them. I'm not picking them up until Thursday.

There is a 2 week exchange/refund policy and I want to test them out while out of town for a friend's wedding -aka someplace it isn't snowing! emoticon and then I can exchange them after if they aren't a fab fit. but i think they will be iyh emoticon

Also, it will be nice to pick them up after achieving a goal.

Reward for sticking to my meal plan, making sure my meals take 20 minutes and for not weighing myself.
Still need to work on rating my hunger before and after meals- but let me tell you. after spending so much time mindfully eating- I realize how much I don't need to eat. And that I'm full on my dietitian's meal plan.

However, there are always treats that aren't about being fuel but are just yum. So still challenging.

Also a reminder to be kinder to myself.

Reading Geneen Roth's When Food is Love- which had some interesting insights. Highly recommend for an easy and thought provoking read.

What are some rewards you're looking forward to? AND/OR what's your favorite workout shoe?

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    Congrats on your new shoes! Also thanks for sharing about them and the book. My favorite pair of workout shoes have been Nikes. I've tried other brands, but have always gone back to Nikes because they usually fit me the best.

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BARBANNA 2/4/2014 6:34PM

    They look great, hope you like them! Try Sierra Trading Post for purchasing shoes at a great price and google discount codes for the best deals ever. emoticon

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LJOYCE55 2/4/2014 5:08PM

  Congrats on your reward. I hope you get many happy miles out of them.

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MANDY_CANDY 2/4/2014 4:07PM

    Congrats on your new sneakers! I have Adidas Kanadia's and love them. I usually wear Merrell shoes (work shoes, hiking boots, etc...) but when I tried their running shoes I found that the shape encouraged my foot to roll. Since then, I stick with my cheap Adidas sneakers (that I actually bought for walking, not running, but they're perfect for both!). Love them!

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The 20 Minute Path

Sunday, February 02, 2014

I started to weigh in backwards so I don't know how much I weigh at the dietitian's.

I'm focusing on sticking to my food plan, making sure each meal lasts at least 20 minutes (very challenging for me as I'm always on the go). I also have to rate how satisfied I am before and after each meal.

It isn't just about the food plan. It's about taking the time to eat food and to acknowledge how I feel when I eat.

So now instead of thinking of my next goal weight when I went walking I thought about my legs getting stronger.

Mindful eating which I had been skipping before.

So I'm altering my rewards list from 'pounds lost' to sticking to the meal plan 6/7 days of the week or 18/21 meals of the weekly section of the meal plan.

1/30-2/4~ fabulous new sneakers
2/5-2/11~ primer/foundation
2/12-2/18~ something special while on vaca
2/19-2/25~MONTH STUCK TO PLAN buy a laptop
3/5-3/11~ 2 WEEK PRIZE start laser treatment__Stuck to plan for 12/14 days or 36/42 meals
3/19-3/25~laser treatment??
4/2-4/8~laser treatment??
passover. mindful eating. maintain.
5/1-5/7 laser treatment??

1. stick to meal plan 6/7 days of week or 18/21 meals.
2. make meals last 20 minutes
3. rate how I feel before and after
4. 5 senses when I eat (taste, feel, sound makes when eat, smell, colors).

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KATWELL88 2/6/2014 11:44AM

    Yeah, enjoy in the moment...( take in the sights, sounds, etc... little bit at time..) where you are with nature, or at the city watch some people walking by...
Good set some goals and reward yourself when goals are met is a wonderful idea. emoticon
dolly katwell88

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THINRONNA 2/3/2014 8:38AM

    I love your plan! I think it i very great that you want to focus on mindful eating. It really matters. I think when we don't then we tend to over eat with our even enjoying food. You are doing great! emoticon

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BARBANNA 2/2/2014 4:14PM

    I am pleased you are doing so well! Keep up the great work! We all need to work on mindful eating. There are many distractions and its built into our culture. emoticon
Wow, thats a very rewarding plan and if it doesn't work I will be surprised. I love your rewards the laptop was going to be mine at the end of my goal cycle but I could not wait. I could use some laser treatments as well! emoticon

Good luck! Happy Ground Hog and Superbowl weekend! emoticon

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LJOYCE55 2/2/2014 3:13PM

  I like that you build in some leeway in your plan - allows you to be human.

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    That is an awesome plan!! emoticon emoticon

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Binges, Emotional Eating, Ideas for Recovery Please

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Good Morning!

I've been totally off it the past two and a half weeks and the 2 weekends before that.

Meeting my nutritionist on Tuesday and am not looking forward to the results.

Usually I manage to circumvent weight gain with walks but not in the polar vortex. emoticon

I realized that though I lost 8 pounds over the last 3 months (hopefully didn't gain any back) with my nutritionist my binge eating habits have remained the same. emoticon

I really need to focus in on that.

So I got out a few Geneen Roth books. On feeding the hungry handle the emotional side of challenge to living healthy.

One thing I'm THINKING about doing is continuing to get weighed at every appointment but asking my nutritionist to not show me the results. so that way I focus more on how I feel versus what the scale says. Though I may cheat on the scale at home-but it always differs from her scale.

How do you deal with binges and/ or emotional eating?

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THINRONNA 1/27/2014 12:29PM

    There is so much good advice here. I especially like and echo what HEALTHYNEWPAIGE writes. Drinking your water will help that empty feeling as well. Two other things I think are to remember that once you start to binge that doesn't mean you are done for and need to keep going. Stop…think a bit and realize that you can make it be over. You have the power to end it before it gets too bad. The other thing I think is to think of some other delicious thing that makes you feel good to do instead. When you feel like you are going to binge…stop…think about what else feels good…what ever it is (healthy things) go do it. Your favorite things. Go to the library to read…drink some tea while soaking in the tub….play a video game…anything that is an indulgence. Allow yourself that….a different indulgence…something lovely, wonderful and delicious in a completely different (and better) way.

You are so worth it! emoticon

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    I'm kind of in the same boat. What kind of helps is not having my trigger foods at home so that when I want to go on a binge, not much is around except for mostly healthy foods. Also getting eight hours of sleep helps, which I am trying to get done. Recovery? Don't beat yourself up, the next moment is a new moment to make a good healthy choice . emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 1/27/2014 1:10:25 AM

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KITRONA 1/27/2014 12:52AM

    It sounds like you've identified a problem, and are getting closer to solving it. Good for you! I don't have any advice, unfortunately, but I wanted to cheer you on! emoticon

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LJOYCE55 1/26/2014 7:13PM

  Binge eating might be a habit for you with a recognizable trigger. Mine is when I am alone, even for a little while. Once the last person walks out the door, I am tempted to go raid the kitchen. Even if all the food in the house is healthy, eating too much is still not useful to my body. I do not have an ansewr except to try to do something else when you feel the urge to binge.. So simple, yet so hard. Good luck.

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BARBANNA 1/26/2014 3:37PM

    First, let me say I feel your frustration and hope I can be of some assistance. I may not be the best person to give you thsi advice but I might actually be the PERFECT person as I am in the same rocky boat. Spark People has been my salvation for many reasons.
Develop your plan with Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic, and Timely goals. This is very critical to making gainful progress. You need some motivators that are things you really want. Once you set your focus on getting these goals accomplished and have a motivator you can do it. You may need to find other activities to take the place of eating. Make a list of all the things you can do with your time that doesn't involve food. Use Spark People to keep you focused by using the journel and listing all the things you get done or ways you are spending your time to avoid eating. Avoid going longer than 3-4 hours without eating so you do not reach the level of starvation that makes us eat like animals in the wild.

Winter should not be drawback unless you are not motivated. There are a multitude of exercises and ways to burn calories without going outdoors. You just need to be truly motivated
I eat out of emotional overtones that I don't even recognize. I have a fantastic life and really have little reason to stress. One of the best techniques I use is staying connected to SP so that I am focused on my objectives and avoid allowing myself to go into the I can't care attitude that get us into trouble.

Read all the SP advice and recommendations. Most of the information you need to be successful is here on thiis website! God bless you! emoticon

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Sunday, December 08, 2013

Thank you THINRONNA, LJOYCE55, HEALTHYNEWPAIGE, CHALKDRAWJUMPER for your support. Your comments and encouragements mean so much to me. emoticon

I've lost 6.8 pounds in the past month and a half. I feel glorious (total weight loss of 27.6 pounds). I am 13.4 pounds from goal. I have never been closer. I weigh 14 pounds less than I did when I graduated high school (having graduated with 30 pounds extra). emoticon

I found a sweet spot- hopefully my sweet spot: A nutritionist.
I've done Weight Watchers but it wasn't structured because I just saved my points on mad stuff.
Fad diets didn't last. Remember South Beach?

My nutritionist told me the portions I'm supposed to eat every day and then told me to plug it in. I eat 4-5 carbs a day, 4-5 fats per day, 3 servings of protein, as many vegetables as I can handle and a 100 calorie treat. emoticon

Before this, I never really knew how much or what types of foods to eat. Though I had heard of the numbers of calories.

This is what I needed. It was as simple as servings. And as hard as servings.

I don't always keep it. my hundred calorie indulgence is usually more. And sometimes I eat over the portions.
But I work it out with my nutritionist. I see her every 2 weeks and e-mail her in between.
If you live in the NYC area I'll gladly pass on her information. I'm incredibly grateful for her.

Overall it's been

The best part, for now, is that I'm losing weight without doing any intense exercise. I'm walking 3 miles most days of the week. The speed ranges from 15 minute mile to a meandering stroll with a friend. emoticon

Except it is getting way to cold to do that. And I can't skate like I used to.

I haven't been able to run since dislocating my knee cap while running in the summer. Going to a PT next week iyh as I finally got a MRI done. I'm excited to go to the PT as I'm hoping for running tips and ideas for weight training.

My goal is to start strength training.
A health care professional told me that as you lose weight your metabolism slows. To increase your metabolism, you have to exercise. Specifically with weight training as metabolism increases with muscle growth. emoticon

I don't just want to be thin, I want to be strong. I feel lighter but I still get winded going up the steps. I want to be fit and strong. I will be fit and strong. emoticon

That's the health side.

Career/academic side: Finishing up the fall semester, thank G-d it's almost over! I have one more semester to go before I graduate with a finance degree. emoticon

I've decided not to pursue a master's in education right away and take a year off to just work, find a job in a different field (been an assistant teacher the past 4 years) and experience new things to add to my identity capitol.

My internship has been awesome bh. I've been learning lots and have been working on my public speaking as I've been tours.

I have also started seeing a speech therapist who is helping me to stop "cluttering" enunciating every sound and talking slowly.

My weight and my speech have always been some of my biggest insecurities since childhood. It's a huge breakthrough for me to be facing them.

My next big goal is to find an apartment after I graduate (and find a new job). Living on my own will help me discern who I am aside from my familial identity. emoticon

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THINRONNA 1/9/2014 6:32AM

    What a wonderful blog! I am so happy for you and proud of you! You are an inspiration in the way that you are facing your challenges and thinking to the future. I would say that you are quite special in that way. Not so many 20 somethings are as brave and committed as you are. I know I wasn't! I was confused! lol!

Fantastic job on your weight loss! I understand your predicament with regards to exercise. This may sound crazy but can you dance? Would it bother your knee to do that? When I first started trying to lose weight and Liam was a baby, aside from walking I realized that dancing would raise my heart rate so I danced with him in my arms. If you can do it I would try it. You seem like the kind of spirit who would thrive on that!

Hugs to oldest Spark friend! emoticon

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    It's so good to hear from you! You are looking wonderful!!! When it's too cold outside, I stay inside with my treadmill, which is boring but made better with some good music. Take care of your knee and check with your PT on what you could do and how much. Best wishes to you on your upcoming job hunt! And congratulations on your upcoming graduation! You have so much going on, glad that you are doing well emoticon emoticon

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BARBANNA 12/9/2013 3:18PM

    You look awesome! Congratulations for all your successes. There are many low impact exercises that take the weight off your knee. I love the elliptical as you can work the arms to avoid the stress on your lower body. There's the bicycle and swimming or if you want to go cheap a trampoline. I have used this as an altenative for running outside when the weather is bad. In all of these you can integrate high intensity interval training that will definitely revive your metabolism and burn a tremdous amount of calories so you can eat more of the good foods. I knee brace will help stabolize your knee. You may discover that since you lost weight your knee will be fine!

Good luck and Merry Christmas! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LJOYCE55 12/9/2013 8:22AM

  Sounds like you will have a great start next spring at the end of your first four years of college. As far as exericse, that will depend largely on what your PT specialist says. They will have lots of ideas and you can also look into what your school has to offer. Most have gyms open to the students and there may be a wide variety of cardio machines to choose from: stationary bikes, eliptical machines (my favorite), treadmills. Some gyms have TVs, so you can watch the news while doing cardio and most pipe in some kind of music. You can always bring your own music, which really makes the time go faster and will likely make you move faster. Good luck.

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scrapbook of how i feel after my first full day at the museum

Sunday, August 25, 2013

how i feel:
i'm mobile.
here's to getting back what you put in.
the leadership test.
though there's risk, there's also sweet reward.
you've started to make your passion your profession.
tomorrow starts here- go willingly.
the league of extraordinary women.

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LJOYCE55 8/26/2013 4:56PM

  Congrats on your first day!

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THINRONNA 8/26/2013 1:38AM

    Fabulous! Well done!

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