Saturday, July 11, 2009
I've been training for a 300 mile bike ride my wife and I do every year. Last week I rode 20 miles per day for 5 days, and this week I've ridden 30 miles per day for 5 days--all at an average of 17 mph, which is fairly fast for me and takes a lot of effort to maintain. I've been eating pretty well, though I have had an ice cream or two, but I've kept my cals in range all but one day.
And yet, I just cannot lose anymore weight. Weight loss is not the main thing for me, health is, but I must admit that I was hoping to trim another 5 lbs in July so that I'd be a clean 210 for my long ride--the lighter I am the faster I go! But it looks like that won't happen.
I really don't know what to do but keep on keeping on. Eventually the weight will come off, I suppose.
Friday, July 10, 2009
All my life I've been impulsive, and for my entire teen years there was rarely an impulse I didn't give into, no matter how destructive it was (I was a pretty severe drug-addict from 11-20 years of age). This has a lot to do with why I'm an "emotional eater" and why I've put so much weight on over the years. But by the power and grace of God, and with the help of family, friends and of course SP, I know that I can overcome!
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Yesterday I blogged about how my parents trained me to give into my impulses because all I had to do was pout loud and long enough and I usually got what I wanted. But at some point a boy becomes a man and has to take responsibility, and I must say that in my 24 years of adulthood I haven't done much to tame my impulsivity. So better late than never, right?
I take responsibility now and I vow to be a better parent to myself by saying "no" when that's what I need to hear. Of course, I can't do this on my own. I need the Lord Jesus, I need his people, I need my best friend and wife, I need SP. But given all of this, I know that I can overcome this life-long struggle.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Yesterday I blogged about another trigger to emotional eating--hanging out with my wife. We love being with one another and it usually sounds good to us to go to a coffee shop or restaurant, which is great for the marriage but not so good for the waistline! I said that yesterday I had a choice between taking her to a Chinese Buffet or Subway and, knowing that the buffet would mean 1,000 cals, I chose the buffet. I knew what was best but gave into the impulse.
As I thought about this incident a little more, it occurred to me--not for the first time, by any means--that I was trained to be impulsive from an early age. Basically, if I pouted enough or in just the right way I always got what I wanted. And when it came to food, there were almost no restrictions put upon me. My parents were good, loving parents but they were very busy and not very health conscious and this is one area in which they didn't train me well.
So basically all of my life--I'm 42 now--I've given into many of my impulses. I have a very difficult time being the parent to myself and saying "no, not that, but instead you may have that." If I'm to lose all the weight I want to lose, and maintain that loss over time, I'm going to have to overcome this.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
I'm on stage three, part five of SP's plan and the topic I'm supposed to dwell on for a couple of weeks is triggers to emotional eating. I realized today that another major one, though i'm not sure I'd call it emotional, is spending time with my wife. I love to just hang out with her and talk and it always seems a good idea to us to go to the coffee shop or dinner. Today we decided, in the middle of a 30 mile bike ride, to stop at a Chinese Buffet which was good but cost me 1,000 cals. As we were on our bikes, I was actually thinking how it would be better to go to Subway but how I adore Chinese food and then when we arrived at the restaurant I noticed that just across the street there was a Subway. But I opted for the 1,000 cal Chinese food instead.
If I'm to lose weight over time, and keep it off, I have to learn to deal with these impulses and do the right thing. It's not like I don't enjoy Subway because I do, it's that I have a hard time not giving into my impulses.
More about that tomorrow.
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