Friday, July 10, 2009
All my life I've been impulsive, and for my entire teen years there was rarely an impulse I didn't give into, no matter how destructive it was (I was a pretty severe drug-addict from 11-20 years of age). This has a lot to do with why I'm an "emotional eater" and why I've put so much weight on over the years. But by the power and grace of God, and with the help of family, friends and of course SP, I know that I can overcome!
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Yesterday I blogged about how my parents trained me to give into my impulses because all I had to do was pout loud and long enough and I usually got what I wanted. But at some point a boy becomes a man and has to take responsibility, and I must say that in my 24 years of adulthood I haven't done much to tame my impulsivity. So better late than never, right?
I take responsibility now and I vow to be a better parent to myself by saying "no" when that's what I need to hear. Of course, I can't do this on my own. I need the Lord Jesus, I need his people, I need my best friend and wife, I need SP. But given all of this, I know that I can overcome this life-long struggle.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Yesterday I blogged about another trigger to emotional eating--hanging out with my wife. We love being with one another and it usually sounds good to us to go to a coffee shop or restaurant, which is great for the marriage but not so good for the waistline! I said that yesterday I had a choice between taking her to a Chinese Buffet or Subway and, knowing that the buffet would mean 1,000 cals, I chose the buffet. I knew what was best but gave into the impulse.
As I thought about this incident a little more, it occurred to me--not for the first time, by any means--that I was trained to be impulsive from an early age. Basically, if I pouted enough or in just the right way I always got what I wanted. And when it came to food, there were almost no restrictions put upon me. My parents were good, loving parents but they were very busy and not very health conscious and this is one area in which they didn't train me well.
So basically all of my life--I'm 42 now--I've given into many of my impulses. I have a very difficult time being the parent to myself and saying "no, not that, but instead you may have that." If I'm to lose all the weight I want to lose, and maintain that loss over time, I'm going to have to overcome this.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
I'm on stage three, part five of SP's plan and the topic I'm supposed to dwell on for a couple of weeks is triggers to emotional eating. I realized today that another major one, though i'm not sure I'd call it emotional, is spending time with my wife. I love to just hang out with her and talk and it always seems a good idea to us to go to the coffee shop or dinner. Today we decided, in the middle of a 30 mile bike ride, to stop at a Chinese Buffet which was good but cost me 1,000 cals. As we were on our bikes, I was actually thinking how it would be better to go to Subway but how I adore Chinese food and then when we arrived at the restaurant I noticed that just across the street there was a Subway. But I opted for the 1,000 cal Chinese food instead.
If I'm to lose weight over time, and keep it off, I have to learn to deal with these impulses and do the right thing. It's not like I don't enjoy Subway because I do, it's that I have a hard time not giving into my impulses.
More about that tomorrow.
Monday, July 06, 2009
I'm on part 5 of SP's stage 3 now and one of my tasks is to blog about the triggers in my life that lead me to emotional eating. So I think I'll probably stay on this subject for a week or so just to give ample time to explore it. It is an issue for me, though not a massive one.
I haven't actually thought about it much yet but I think the main trigger for me is stress, or better put lack of sleep. For instance, last week I had three days in a row where I had late meetings followed by early meetings the next day which eventuated in 4 nights of 4-6 hours of sleep. That's not nearly enough for me, especially when it happens several times in one week.
When I get tired like that, I don't make good decisions. I tend to turn to caffeine to keep me going, which I did, which then makes it harder to sleep at night (I don't usually have caffeine and therefore am pretty sensitive to it), and also diminishes the quality of my sleep. Being thus tired I become less disciplined, more impulsive, and my diet is usually the first thing to suffer.
What's the solution? Be a little wiser with my schedule and don't make evening appointments just before I have early morning appointments. I'm going to work on this and hope that it helps me to overcome this particular trigger.
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