Friday, May 15, 2009
I can't believe it--I weighed in at 219 this morning! I've been straining to remember the last time I was sub 220 but I can't. I know it's been several years.
So I had a good talk with myself this morning. The day I started SP (March 21 I think) I looked at myself in the mirror and said, "Charlie, you have to believe this is possible." Because to be quite honest, I didn't. I've been struggling to manage my weight for years and I've been mostly on the losing end in the last several. In fact, I said to some of my closest friends last year, "I've given up trying." I was deflated.
But then a couple of things happened in my life to make me wake up to the reality that I must take better care of myself and during the course of conversation about this one day, my wife told me about SP. I spent hours reading the material and setting up my stuff and then I went and looked in the mirror: "Charlie, you have to believe this is possible! You have to believe that your little bicycle can move down that weight loss scale."
Most of me didn't believe it could happen in my life, but a small part of me did--I chose to listen to that small part and do EVERYTHING SP told me to do. I chose not to think, "I know this, I can skip that, etc.," but rather to think, "I know nothing, they obviously know what they're talking about, I'm going to follow EVERYTHING they tell me to do!" So in stage one I followed everything; in stage two I followed everything and took every step; I'm now in stage 3 strategy one and I've done everything they've told me to do; as I move through the remaining four strategies and then on to stage 4 I'll do everything they tell me to do--and all I can say is that it's working and now I believe!
There's still a small part of me that thinks my goal weight, 185, is not possible--I haven't weighed less that 190 in over 15 years. But I'm going to keep doing the right things and I'm going to fight to get there! Honestly, I don't really care much if my weight lands at 205 or 200 or 190 or 185. Living a healthy lifestyle is what I'm after. BUT, just to show myself that it is possible I want to get there one healthy choice at a time.
SP, both the organization and the members, THANK YOU SO MUCH!