Thursday, August 06, 2009
Okay, Everything else that i have tried thru Sparkpeople has really worked for me, so since it is required to complete points, I am going to BLOG.
I have been here for a couple of months and at times have been real serious and at others I've been real serious about feeling guilty for not being so serious about my new lifestyle.
I don't say lifestyle to be cute. I always thought that people were using that "lifestyle" label to make dieting easier. I actually am starting to live the lifestyle that i used to enjoy. I don't have any desire to sit up and eat peanut butter out of the jar while watching Jerry late night. I still watch Jerry but that's because I work with children all day and need some adult trash entertainment :) Now I do my strength exercises or stretches while it's on :)
I know that I could be more committed in the exercise arena. I use the excuse of having four children, an in-home child care and all day preschool, working from 6:30am-6pm,, trying to help area providers, etc. etc. etc. Oh I can do the excuse thing until Sparkpeople says there's no more characters left in the blog LMaO
I know they are excuses and I know from previous experience that the more I exercise the more energy I will have to complete everything I need to do, including exercise!
I was a fat child. A just right teen. Thought I was too cute twinkling 20. And thennn I moved to a part of the country that's weather and overall lifestyle is not conducive to great health smh not only that but at 27 got pregnant. I didn't use the baby as an excuse to be overweight though! I used the bells palsy and the paralization of the left side of my face to become depressed and not care if I was becoming obese. I became 208 lbs. I dropped down to 150. Had my second child at 35 and blew up again. I didn't really care much for or about myself and got to 197. Now I'm 39yrs old (although for some reason thought I was 40 for the last 5 months . I teeter between 172 and 168 depending on what I did the day before.
I don't know that I'll ever even want to be 125lbs again. I think that I would like to get to 145 and then evaluate my health and my opinion of my looks then.
I'm having an issue with this blogging because i read other's and they are so uplifting and philosophical and quite frankly tell allll the author's business. I am very private. I share opinions left and right but not so much personal feelings. Who knows maybe that's why it is taking me so long to live the life that I want to live.
Oh, well. There it is...my first blog. Yep you just wasted an entire 4minutes reading it LOL