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Wednesday, December 17, 2014

I was watching someone over the weekend.
She made a batch of Christmas cookies for a fundraiser and didnt eat any or lick any bowls or spoons.
She threw away food on a plate after she felt full
She drank only water or herbal tea.
She appreciated the colors and art of Christmas treats but didn't eat any except a beautiful 'cutie'
She did not preach or feel deprived or criticize others.
She felt tired and unmotivated but took the dog for what seemed like a really short walk-'only' a mile.

She looked sort of like someone I used to know who would
Never take less than 3 pieces od candy out of a box
Could eat an entire row of Oreos without blinking while watching TV
Thought walking a mile to the store was only if she had all afternoon and certainly not for anything perishable
She could drink a 2L diet soda on the way to work.

It was funny. A lot of things, the basics, are the same but the "package" is different-the simpler, smaller package is much nicer.

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MARIANNMC 12/17/2014 1:35PM

    Great blog! CONGRATS on making so many positive changes. You are AMAZING!

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NILLAPEPSI 12/17/2014 9:44AM

    That's so emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LBMAMA2015 12/17/2014 8:39AM

    You've made some big changes. Good for you. Keep up the good work!

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The injustice of "just"

Monday, October 20, 2014

When I am saying just, I am not talking about "fair" I am talking about the descriptor that diminishes your accomplishments.

My sister and I went to the Waddell and Reed Kansas City Marathon Saturday. We weren't doing the full marathon. I was "just" doing the half and she was "just" doing the 5K. And we are not runners. We are "just" walkers. At the last half marathon I did, one of my acquaintances introduced me to her friend and said "She does the races but she walks - it's "just" so she can say she did it"

Enough JUST!

Mariann finished the 5 k, then walked to the gear check to get jackets (it was chilly-- she was so excited by her first heat sheet). Then she went to the car to get some fun signs to hold along the route She went to the 12 mile mark and stood for about an hour waiting for me. She found a real calling in being a motivator. She held her "The Royals did it! SO CAN YOU!! " sign and called encouragement. She said people really appreciated it . She wasn't "just" killing time til I was done.

The race has pace teams and I talked to the 2:55 pacer. That was my goal. I was passed by her about 1/4 mile from the finish. She crossed ahead of me but I pushed and finished in 2:54:56 -- I "just" made it by 4 seconds.

After I finished (and the announcer said everyone's name when they crossed from 5K to 26 milers), we went to the post race festivities. It's funny to me that this ritual is always a surprise to people who've never raced. "They give you food?" "There's a DJ?" "People hang around after the work they have done?" We got our beer and BBQ (it is KC after all). My sister ended up seeing a lot of people she knew. We had gone from chilly predawn intimidation as we tried to find our start line to sunny warm victory -- defined not by any "just"

It is so easy to discount our successes. Why do we qualify what we have done. This is what I should tell the people when they ask about my weekend:

I have been working very hard over the last 2 years and have lost 60 pounds and I completed a half marathon in 2:54:56 which is my second best time ever. I walked about a 13 minute mile for almost 3 hours without a break and this after I worked all day Thursday, flew in Thursday night, walked to the store Friday AM, went to Zumba and tweaked my ankle before the race expo. You know what, don't say anything about my choice to walk, not run or walk-run and I won't mention the people who were running behind me.

You know what, I am not "just" a fat girl working to be healthier. I am a winner, I am a hard worker, I am AWESOME -- -- yea, that's it. Don't need to add to it.

I am "just" AWESOME.

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KALANTHA 11/30/2014 9:15AM

    What a GREAT blog! Very motivational!

You are FANTASTIC, TERRIFIC, and AWESOME all rolled into one!


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ROXYZMOM 10/22/2014 9:40AM

    You are totally awesome! That was really fast for "just" walking!!


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TERI-RIFIC 10/22/2014 6:37AM

    What a great blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MARIANNMC 10/21/2014 9:37PM


I laughed and cried as I read your description of your KC weekend.

You ARE awesome. I'm so proud to call you my sister.

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KIWIANN 10/21/2014 12:16PM

    emoticon You are emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NHES220 10/21/2014 11:39AM

    Congrats on the half! You beat everyone on the sidelines or sitting at home on the couch!

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HIKING-4-ME 10/21/2014 9:58AM

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NILLAPEPSI 10/21/2014 3:55AM

    Sometimes that "just" word is just . . . well . . . not necessary. Hey, whether you walk or jog or run or wog a 1/2 marathon, you still did a 1/2 marathon.

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POPSY190 10/21/2014 12:19AM

    You are, indeed, emoticon !

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But because I do...

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

There used to be a Weight Watchers commercial where Jennifer Hudson said, it's not that I never eat cheese pizza but because I do." (Or something like that)
We had a party last night to celebrate the release of my sister in law's book--Beyond Grief which looks at sculpture and art in the context of funereal art.
We had salad, ham, and scalloped potatoes. I didn't stress. I had a big salad, a small piece of ham and some potatoes. I also had a piece of cheesecake. And I enjoyed everything. I feel like I have made the mindset and lifestyle changes that I can trust myself. I didn't track the dinner because it's hard with homemade food and pot luck but even if I was over a little, I am not worried.
Monday I had to go to a 6:30 meeting and miss my usual Zumba. After work, I got home, did some quick calculations and decided to walk to the meeting (about 3 miles) instead of driving-- worked that exercise in rather than trying to do something when I got home (which wouldn't happen). The others at the meeting were all agog- to me it just made sense. That's what I mean about my mindset being different.
This was not overnight. This is years in the making. We have to live in a world with social gatherings, overpacked schedules, bad moods, and things like halloween candy. But I can live in that world.
How about you?

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BIGPAWSUP 9/24/2014 6:30PM

    Absolutely AWESOME!!

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POPSY190 9/24/2014 5:13PM

    emoticon That's a huge NSV.

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MARIANNMC 9/24/2014 11:04AM

    What a great blog -- clearly written by a happy person! Continue to ENJOY life!

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NILLAPEPSI 9/24/2014 9:50AM

    WooHoo! Way to go. Everything in moderation.

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KIWIANN 9/24/2014 9:29AM

    I am happy to hear that you have found a way and mindset to live well in our world - I am definitely working on doing the same!! emoticon

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JAROL7 9/24/2014 8:23AM

    Enjoy your plan. Mine is at:

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ROXYZMOM 9/24/2014 8:10AM

    Sounds like a nice, rounded day!
Great choice on the walk! Good for you!!

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The happiest 5k on the Planet

Monday, September 15, 2014

I know - it's the slogan, but the Color Run really was fun and happy.
The traffic and parking were bad- I didn't know there would be 10,000 paricipants! It was crazy. I got there and actually ran into my college son. I got my swag and gave it to my very sweet husband who hates crowds and doesn't "get it" but was kind enough to come with me.
I left him to line up. I met my "team" at the start arch. Oh, but there were 2 more arches before the actual start. The race kicked off at 0900. We got to the start at 0950.

I jogged the first quarter mile

Then settled into my race walk pace.

We went through 4 color zones - yellow, purple, pink, and blue. I ran toward the sides to get lots of color- I had heard horror stories of asthma etc but didn't notice anything.

At the finish I got green- I took it to other folks on their final block. "Who needs green?!" It was fun.
At one point, I sang " If you're happy and you know it, then you shirt will surely show it" to my fellow racers.
My son and his girlfriend had a great time and really liked the after party

My husband just wanted to drive home. (And the party seemed geared to the younglings)
Here's my face after:
It really was a great, fun, HAPPY day.
BTW- this is my "before" picture

PS-- it all came out in the wash emoticon but a little emoticon

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MARIANNMC 9/16/2014 12:25PM

    Wonderful description. It sounds pretty wild. How's the car upholstery? CONGRATS. 14 races in 2014 -- you make it look easy!

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BIGPAWSUP 9/16/2014 10:57AM

    Awesome race. Congrats.

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NILLAPEPSI 9/16/2014 4:00AM

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POPSY190 9/16/2014 1:08AM

    I enjoyed reading this! Well done on the exercise and fun fronts!

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ROXYZMOM 9/15/2014 9:35PM

    Looks like you had a great time - you are definitely all smiles. I am not sure that I would like getting stuff thrown at me. Did it come off of your running shoes?

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GERRYH2 9/15/2014 9:30PM

    Congratulations! It sounds like you had a lot of fun. Maybe your husband will join you next time.

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Yeah, I know... (Catching up on prechallenge homework)

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

(I really don't expect anyone to plow through this emoticon )

Once again, I have let myself slide between challenges. So, a cram course blog with the activites. Some I know I know and just have to DO. Some I need to recreate.

This AM I am exhausted from lots of physical, mental, and social stress. I have been letting myself just sit in my nest after supper ( corner of the couch with mail, water, phone, iPad, TV remote) and not get up. Here are my commitments, plans, motivations to stop that.

I'm a 53 year old into my fourth year on spark down about 50 pounds. I enjoy walking and doing races. My son doesn't understand paying to go on the course with others but I like it. My goal for this year was 14 races in 2014. I have a Color Run this weekend, 2 half marathons in October, 2 more races for the Y and I need one more. Training for the 13.1s is good but I need to do more strength training. I also do Zumba 1-2 days a week (I miss the Sat class from time to time)

I generally eat pretty well. I need to track more. I'm great til 3 pm but then it's hard. My husband cooks so I have to "guesstimate" a lot. He is still getting used to being empty nesters and sometimes forgets thing I eat (like lunchtime veggie burgers) that he doesn't when he shops. I have developed a pretty good internal measuring cup for portions WHEN I USE IT.

I do plan for today and tomorrow. I'm motivated by some health issues and also a job with the public. My insurance deductible can be partially reimbursed by healthy lifestyle changes.

Like most of us, triggers are fatigue, stress, feeling ignored/slighted/mistreated. Alcohol and lack of sleep make it easy to ignore my inner dietician and coach.

I have succeeded most challenges, but not as much each time. I've done worse when I have more negativity in my life, work, etc. I need to "let go and let God" more

I sometimes "fudge" but I try to count INTENTIONAL exercise--if I am unable to go to Zumba because I am tearing down a set at the local theatre, I will count "strike" but that's unusual.

A friend who lost weight gave me her old fat pants and I want to be in them by the end of the year. I also have my eye on a jacket I'd love to wear this winter.

I'll find what my Marine Corps son calls MOT (motivational) quotes through the challenge.

Now to update my page

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POPSY190 9/11/2014 12:10AM

    We're on the same page!!! BL26 starts the coming week and I dread what the weigh in is going to show about the intervening weeks. But we just have to keep on trying. emoticon

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NILLAPEPSI 9/10/2014 7:36PM

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MARIANNMC 9/10/2014 12:52PM

    I love the look of your new page and your "catch up" blog.

The thing that really rang true was the line about "feeling slighted, ignored, mistreated." I HATE feeling disrespected. It's hard for me to not "soothe" those feelings with tv and food!

You're doing GREAT! THANKS for being an inspiration.

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KIWIANN 9/10/2014 8:25AM

    Wishing you well in the Fall Challenge! emoticon

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ROXYZMOM 9/10/2014 7:12AM wonder we get a long so well -- sounds like me!!

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ELRIDDICK 9/10/2014 7:04AM

  Thanks for sharing

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