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Today- Stay away from the scale

Sunday, November 21, 2010

My goal today is to stay away from the scale. It's almost a compulsion to get on the dumb thing every day. I know I don't need to and that I shouldn't. I didn't have a problem before, because I just used the scale at BF's house. I bought my own a couple of weeks ago, and it's like a sickness. I know it's there even though I hid it in the cabinet.
I just need to get a grip and stop obsessing over every ounce. It just threatens to derail me if I don't see the smallest drop, and forget about it if it goes up! Yes- it will do that, especially since I have started to add regular exercise. Muscle is heavier than fat, Michelle, and it burns more fat.
Ok...I'm good. My ultimate goal this week is to stay off the scale until Saturday when I do my weekly weigh in. One day at a time tho ;-)

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WANAKA 11/21/2010 2:56PM

    I know where you're coming from....good luck!

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DAWNDMOORE40 11/21/2010 10:33AM

    I was reading everyone's comments to your blog, and I started to laugh because I used to be the very same way! It is hard not to want to get on the scale every day because we want to know that our hard work is paying off. However, I soon realized that many different things going on in my life, would make the numbers on the scale go up or down and it drove me nuts! I am right there with you! I wish you the best because I know how difficult it can be! Hang in there! It will get better! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LASARRE 11/21/2010 10:28AM

    I tell myself the same thing all the time. Remember the scale is just a number. It doesn't tell us what that number represents. Is it muscle, fat, water, sodium, gas..there are just too many variables with it. I found myself starting to obsess about it again and I am done with it. Kick the scale to the curb.

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DONNAEDA 11/21/2010 10:23AM

    I used to play the numbers game and it drove me crazy. You have to realize that the numbers can vary up to 5 pound in one day for various reasons, most of which are not related to food.

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MKELLY72 11/21/2010 9:50AM

    Well, I'm dressed for the day now! Won't be tempted until bedtime now, because I won't get on that thing in anything but my underwear or nightgown :-)

Thanks for the support, ladies!

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RANNA57 11/21/2010 9:20AM

    I can get obsessive with the scale too and I let it dictate my mood for the day. I am working on this. It's good to monitor your weight but I don't think it's good to be so obsessive. Let's work on that together! Good luck... have a great day!

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PAMINHALF 11/21/2010 9:19AM

  I have the same obsession - hope you're able to stay strong.

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Awake at 5:30 on Saturday, AGAIN!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

This is the second week in a row I have been awake by 5:30 AM on a Saturday. I put it to good use again though. I went for a walk, and returned home to find the rest of my family still asleep. I didn't even leave the house until 6:27. I spent the first almost hour paying a couple of bills online, organizing my day in my head, and writing in my journal. I'm going to work on my motivational visual today. That's my plan anyway. As it turns out, I have an enormous list to plow through today. I guess that's what happens when you wake up early with a lot of energy. It would be great if my kids all get up reasonably soon too and pitch in with smiles to help. Then all the chores can be done, and we can move on to the more fun stuff :-) I'm going to think happy thoughts. It could happen. They all want something from me later today. Maybe that will help motivate them.

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MKELLY72 11/20/2010 4:18PM

    It really has been a great day. I feel like I accomplished so much. The kids got up on their own, helped me dismantle the living room, dust everything, rearrange pictures on the wall, update some multi-picture frames, and got laundry and dishes done. We listened to some beautiful Christmas piano music on a CD. We are winding down now, as my sons are both at friends' houses and my daughter and I are going to tackle the construction of my "Vision Collage" this afternoon after we both get cleaned up after all of our cleaning. Now I'm craving some really delicious toasted garlic bread with olive oil for supper, so I'm going to make one of the 0-point soups to go with it. I feel like cooking now that my space is all clean and organized anyway :-)

Oh- and the good mood that I started with really served my beautifully when I had to have a discussion with my oldest about behavior/decision expectations concerning a decision that he made that didn't follow the rules. I kept my cool, treated him fairly, while still making it clear to him that I expect better decisions from him. Our relationship can be tense at times, and it's been so pleasant lately, so I'm glad we were able to have a reasonable discussion without having anyone get angry. Everyone wins :-)

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DONNAEDA 11/20/2010 10:28AM

    how wonderful to get your day started with a walk and solitude. Now you are ready to take on the world. Put a smile on your face and it will be contagious.

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Thinking about food all the time, so I don't think about food all the time :/

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Seriously, does this make any sense? I literally think about not thinking about food all the time. I'm really proud of the progress I have made to change how I think about food, and what kinds of foods I choose and the portions, but I feel like I have to be on constant alert that I might start to forget what I have learned and consequently changed- falling backward again into the abyss of unhealthy habits that I have so easily reconnected with in the past.

I have now dropped 31 pounds since I got back on track again- Last time I had lost 40 before I somehow decided to stop paying attention to what I was doing. The result was a gain of 50 pounds over the course of 2 years before I started to care enough about myself again to do something about it. I can't even remember what triggered the lapse in the first place. So, now I think about food all the time- not like I can't wait to eat necessarily, just thinking about making the best choices without getting too hung up on it. It seems pretty ridiculous sometimes.

When does this come as second nature? When do I safely allow myself to not think so hard about it all the time?

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LAURAB_143 3/14/2013 10:14PM

    I know what you mean!!! I can't wait to keep reading your blog to see if you got to a point that it became natural.

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Lost another point :-)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I went from 220 to 219 today, and since I'm tracking what I eat with WW Points, I lose a point today. I always have mixed feelings about that. It means I've lost 10 pounds since the last point reduction, but sometimes I miss that extra point. I'm sure it's more psychological than anything. I guess that's why the flex points are good...sometimes even GREAT! I also think I'm going to have to move down another pants size soon. Good thing for resale shops! Some of the new smaller dress clothes I just bought are going right back there. My best friend who has been passing on her now too big clothes as she shrinks, says, "think of it as leasing :)" She is staying about one size smaller than I am, so it's working out great. When I'm done with them, they go to our favorite resale shop, where we get to share the credit on a replacement wardrobe. We are such good recycle-ers. :-)

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MKELLY72 11/11/2010 4:27PM

    Thanks guys. It gets easier to give up the points as I keep progressing toward my goal, but in the beginning it was so bitter-sweet. emoticon
I feel like this one is easier to say emoticon too than the first two times.

Thrift stores/resale shops are the best!!

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ZACKSMOM7 11/11/2010 2:03PM

  Awesome and I wish I had someone to change or exchange clothes with!! I love shopping at Thrift Stores and glad that another opened in town again!! emoticon emoticon

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CARRKM 11/11/2010 11:59AM

  Good going! I know it stinks to have one less point to eat, but it means you're that much closer to your goal. Congrats!

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November Goals

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Last night, while I was looking at my town Walmart (that's all I have locally :-( for the newest fitness video of Jackie Warner's (suggested by 2 of my friends- one who has reached her goal), I found another video instead. I didn't find the JW one- we have an incredibly limited selection of everything there. This one is some kind of fat burning yoga done by Jillian from Biggest Loser. I hope it's good; I plan to give it a try tonight.

That said, my goal for November is to make a regular habit of doing some kind of aerobic/strength training exercise 2 days each week. I also want to continue to make sure I'm using my WW points every day and my flex points too. I am not so obsessed with food, thinking about how hungry I am when I was allowing myself to eat more this past week, and since I still lost, I apparently should be doing it that way. I may still need to tweak it here and there, but generally speaking I need to stop depriving myself ( I didn't realize that's what I was doing) like I was. It was too depressing to be so strict with myself, then get on the scale and see that I had gained a pound back...WHAT?!!

I am going to listen to and apply the knowledge I gain from the experienced and successful people in my life. Choosing healthy foods is not a problem for me- I enjoy them very much. I just need to be more careful with restricting myself too much...and yes, I am going to establish the simple exercise routine that I need.

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MKELLY72 11/4/2010 11:20AM

    Thanks, REEDSKI! Felt so good about setting specific goals, but I didn't quite get started on the exercise last night as planned. Too many other tasks to complete before I hit the pillow last night. I can, however, feel good about it anyway, because all the busy tasks I had were keeping me physically active. It kind of bummed me out that I didn't get to try out my new video last night though.

I got up earlier than I usually do this morning and decided I would head out for a 25 minute walk. How awesome was that?! I had forgotten how much I love walking early in the morning. It was 6:30, and still kind of dark. It's so quiet and peaceful, and the street lights look so mesmerizing. I really feel like I started off my day on a good foot. I needed that, especially since last night was so busy and stressful. I even had a dream last night about cake! In the dream, I was at church with BF, and communion was white cake with strawberry and whipped cream filled layers. I'm apparently obsessed with food if I'm trying to calculate points of this delicious cake in a dream. I leaned to my BF to confer with him about how many points he thinks is in this cake. He has no idea what I'm even talking about. Now I want that cake I dreamed about :-)

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REEDSKI 11/3/2010 4:01PM

    This is great! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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