Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Had a sugar binge yesterday--but today is a new day!
I forgot to pack my two apples and two pieces of string cheese in my lunch bag for morning and afternoon snacking patrol--got into my girl scout cookie stash--was only having a couple--then it became a couple more....my daughter stopped at Dairy Queen and brought me a Dilly Bar...couldn't save that for later--it would melt at work..finished that then finished off he pack of cookies too. Today is a new day though, and I will have several rounds of snow shoveling to do today (thank goodness for built in activity :) No beating myself up--these things happen every now and then--and that's better than every week or every day like has happened in my past.
Pack that healthy snack---it's important to defend ourselves from the "dark side"!
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
-On to year two of maintenance!! How excited am I about hitting that one year milestone?? More than I could have ever imagined! I think it’s super fun that my maintenance anniversary comes at time of year when I get my tax refund back, so it’s not a burden to reward myself nicely :)
-Last year, when I reached my goal, I gave myself a Pandora bracelet with a gold star charm--then added one with a key when I got my key charm for becoming a Lifetime member at Weight Watchers. I’ve been looking forward to giving myself the next star charm for my bracelet since then...and I am now waiting for it to arrive from my Amazon account!
-I have to say that rewards are so important to a maintenance journey--just like they are during the loss phase. They don’t have to be elaborate or expensive, but they can really help to keep you focused and motivated to reach your goals/maintain them. Some of my rewards have been things like jewelry...I do like the bling--but I don’t have expensive taste generally, so it’s not a huge expense. I recently got myself a digital food scale to celebrate my eleventh month of maintenance. I make a trip to Goodwill to refresh my wardrobe about once a month too-after I weed out some things from my closet that I’ve not worn in a while--am bored with--whatever, and I take them with me to donate. It makes me feel good to give back too, and the prices at Goodwill make it sos easy to have some fun -new- things :) without overspending.
-Another thing I give myself is just plain old me-time. Time curled up with a book (which I have given myself as rewards as well) is something I enjoy a great deal, and I don’t have to spend money to read a book.
-For the most part, the past year of maintenance has been pretty uneventful for me, until I started HRT medication--that was an adjustment, but I worked through it, and I feel like I have that tackled now too. Having taken this whole journey the slow way and as a lifestyle change rather than a radical diet better prepared me for these kinds of adjustments. After all, life happens, and I know this won’t be the only potential obstacle that will cross my path for the rest of my life having the potential to derail me if I allow it. I just don’t plan to allow it--I will continue to take each day, week, month, year at a time--I will lean on God, my family, friends, and fellow sparkers as needed along the way, and I will continue to look forward to creative ways to reward myself for maintaining my goals. When I’m really struggling, sometimes the rewards need to be smaller and more frequent (daily if needed :) I think that this year, in addition to my star charm to add to my bracelet, I’m thinking of getting myself a pair of girly western boots. I haven’t had a good pair of those since 1991, and I was never able to wear them again after I got pregnant in 1992 and gave birth to my first child--who knew then that your feet get bigger when you have babies??
-I really feel like I have done something amazing!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I've been so frustrated the last two months since being prescribed birth control pills for hormone regulation, because my weight has been on an upward trend. My net gain since beginning them on January 1st is 5 pounds. I know 5 pounds isn't a lot, but it seems that my maintenance window has shifted up 5 pounds instead of that being the top of my window! I love the better mood control that the hormones are giving me, but I've been on a mission to figure out a way to compensate for the gain. I would be ok if I knew it would be a 5 pound gain and just stay there, but is it going to be a 5 pound gain every 2 months?? I don't know yet, so I'm just keeping track of it, meanwhile, I'm eating in a range for weight loss....AGAIN, and it seems to be moving back down again. I'm just a little less than 2 above goal right now, and that makes me feel a lot better. I have changed up my meals a bit--just to be different, because I wondered if I'd been getting bored with some of my same old, same old...and thought that may be triggering some of my sweet/salty/crunchy binges...(some of these binges are in my mind...I feel like an addict of some kind...having food on my mind all the time as it is...and it's been worse lately).
Forgive me for my redundancy...as I know I have blogged some of this exact same material recently...and it's been in lots of my message board posts, but it's really an obsession of mine lately...I think being on top of my 1 year maintenance anniversary has me obsessing more about it than I might otherwise. (1 1/2 weeks away!!!)
I logged into my WW account today to make sure I had all my weekly weights in for the last 12 months, so I could look at the line graph and compare it to the last 2 months, so I'm armed with it when I make my next trip to the doctor to see if there are some adjustments she might suggest to avoid that kind of upward trend again. I haven't made the appointment yet...but I think I will soon for a follow up.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
January 15, 2013
It’s been so long since I’ve posted a blog. I’m trying not to be too frustrated about not meeting what I had set in my mind for increased frequency. I journal in my own hand on paper, because in my heart, that’s usually my outlet of choice. The end of December through the first week of January was tough for me emotionally, but through the support of good friends and their gentle (sometimes quite forceful actually:) nudging me to be more open with how I’m feeling instead of holding everything in and waiting until I’m so sad and disappointed that the ones I love aren’t understanding what I’ve left unsaid and haven’t magically “fixed” what was broken, I think progress has been made!
During this time, I have also been reading Unglued: Making Wise Choices in the Midst of Raw Emotions by Lysa TerKeurst, at the recommendation of someone in a message thread in the Spark team: Perimenopause to Menopause What should You Expect www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
I have really enjoyed the book, and I feel like I have gained a better perspective on communicating emotions in a more productive way. I’ve learned that, with most people, I’m a stuffer rather than an exploder, but over time and excessive stuffing, I can explode with the best of them. I’m less scared to share what’s going on in my head emotionally a little at a time now than I was. I spent some time examining why I have developed that coping mechanism, and also had a nice long “talk” with myself and with God and pointed out that the situation that encouraged me to develop those habits hasn’t been in place for ten years plus now, and that it’s time to move on to more healthy emotional behaviors.
After an initially difficult conversation to initiate got rolling, and many tears later, I’m happy to report that the person I was having difficulty approaching about my feelings has rewarded me with overwhelmingly warm understanding, love and respect. Why did I wait so long to get to this point?? Everything comes to us when we are ready, I guess. I know that my poor/irrational coping skills have played a major role in my past that have contributed to my yo-yo-ing in the weight department, and now that I have achieved a healthy weight after 19 months of diligent work losing it and another almost 11 months maintaining, I must be willing to identify potential de-railing situations- to an extent. Who can predict all life events? No one, but making “imperfect progress”’ toward better coping skills when something unpleasant comes my way is a great place to start.
So, this is where I start with my first goal of 2013-to improve my emotional communications skills. So far it’s made my current relationships better, and I haven’t even been making a conscious effort to do this for very long. Of course I have willingly invited God to help guide my words and my timing of conversations, and I believe that has made a big difference in my confidence and follow through. It’s funny how reminding myself to put God first is something I have to keep doing over time, because I stray after a while and forget to stop trying to fix everything myself, because I can’t...but God can.
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