Sunday, December 30, 2012
While I love Christmas break ( I work in the school system), I am looking forward to the return of my regular routine. I know I have had a lot of trouble this year steering away from tempting foods. I'm a sucker for sweets and salty, savory foods too. Not fast food or prepackaged stuff as a rule, thank goodness, but I really love all the unique homemade things that people make during the holidays. I also enjoy cooking/baking those things myself.
I feel like I've done a good job of keeping lots of healthy choices in my daily routine too, but I know that if I continued to eat the way I am right now, I would be right back on the gain-train in no time at all. Getting on the scale every day has really helped me to continue to gather information on the trends of my weight paired with the habits I'm practicing over this holiday season. I haven't gotten outside of my maintenance range, and I'm happy about that, but I have been doing some reflecting on my previously practiced habits. I feel reasonably confident that I am just practicing some freedom right now, and I'm not just just leaving all my hard work in the dust.
In the past, I would have looked at some of my recent indulgences as reasons to just give up and give in for the long haul- accusing myself of not being able to really make any real change- so why put myself through it?? Well, I know now that I was wrong about that, and I will not let my recent indulgences become regular habits.
I enjoy food too much, and sharing good food with good company is something that still gives me much pleasure, and I refuse to deny myself that pleasure. I just look at it differently in my new life- these events are occasional- not the rule. I don't beat myself up for indulging in special meals, and I do as much as I can to plan ahead for the splurge- I check online menus/nutritional information before going to a meal out. I bring healthy choices as my contribution to a potluck style celebration, and I take advantage of opportunities to get in extra activity as much as I can.
The last two years, during the holiday season, I have been more restrictive with myself than I have been this year. I was also in lose mode then- not maintenance. My goal during the 2010 and 2011 holiday seasons was to NOT gain, and to possibly continue to experience small loss- which I did. This year, now that I've met my goal, I planned to stay no more than 5 pounds over my goal, and I have stayed under that mark, so I am really happy with that! My confidence in my ability to continue to enjoy my life and maintain my new healthy weight has continued to grow. Finding balance between freedom to indulge some and not crossing the line into oblivious abandon has been a challenge, but I have had success with it these last few weeks.
I am less than two months from my one year maintenance anniversary, and it seems almost surreal to even be able to say that after 20 years of cycling through :lose some, gain it back, gain more, repeat.
Monday, December 17, 2012
I subscribe to WW CEO, David Kirchoff's blog, Man Meets Scale, and his post this morning must be shared! It's called: Holiday Gifts That Matter: The Human Spirit on Display.
He includes an incredibly inspirational video of a WW member success story.
Read it here:
Sunday, December 16, 2012
December 12, 2012
Starting to see some significant trends with my monthly cycle. Today is day 16, and last night I noticed I was starting to feel overly irritable, overly sensitive, having sugar cravings: giving in to it and having a small binge. I looked back through the last 5 months of data I have been keeping at mymonthlycycles.com, and it is pretty much on the mark; every significant emotional event I have experience over that period of time had been between cycle days 14 through 20.
Last month I did not have any notes indicating any events, but that might just mean that I didn’t take/have the time to document the events.
What is my take away from this? Well, it gives me the time frame that I know I need to be more aware of these changes. When I was young, I don't remember having significant symptoms associated with my periods, but as I progress toward menopause, I am definitely feeling them, and I'm glad to have the data to show the trends.
I feel like my next step is to identify some concrete, successful coping strategies for myself to use during that time to help me get through it without feeling so out of control and without resorting to fighting with my family and having mean thoughts about the ones that I love, or anyone else for that matter.
What I’m wondering is this, ladies: Does anyone else have some ideas for coping strategies that have worked when dealing with the emotional mood swings of peri-menopause and menopause? I would love to develop a bank of things that I can turn to when I feel this way that do not include binging on sweets, slugging down wine :), etc.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
I'm pleasantly surprised lately that I seem to be holding about one pound below my first goal weight of 148. Since I have been trying to work to that end for a while now, I'm really quite excited about it. There's just something that really makes me anxious about seeing that scale hit 150- It's perfectly fine too, and I know that, but for some reason I feel all warm and happy inside when it stays in the 140's. I imagine that is rooted in some kind of neuroses, but I think we all have at least one- to some degree anyway.
I've recently gotten back into the groove of regular, planned exercise again after getting off kilter for a few weeks, and I've been feeling pretty good about that. I was actually feeling like I was becoming quite accepting of not going out of my way to exercise, and the little red flags were starting to wave at me. I probably owe that to one of the Spark Teams that I'm active in-At Goal & Maintaining + Transition to Maintenance ( www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1111 ). Participating in the daily check in thread has really made me aware of how much I've been slacking off- especially when I look at the wonderful example laid out for me from my fellow Sparkers. Thanks bunches, guys!
I have quite a few things I want to accomplish this weekend- one of which is to get Christmas gifts wrapped- and to access what else I need to be shopping for. I'm not finished yet :( I'm also planning to do some more Christmas baking. So far it hasn't been a big temptation- of course I'm sure a lot of that has to do with the fact that what I have already made isn't at my house...it's at my BF's house, so if anyone has to deal with temptations, it's him :)
Must get to bed if I plan to tackle my early morning routine...early meaning...when I get up, and I hope that it's not too late :)
Thursday, December 06, 2012
December 6, 2012
It's been a struggle lately for me to be happy with my weight progress. I know it's fine. I'm still within range, but it seems so difficult right now to stay here. The scale swings back and forth every day lately, and the trend seems to be more in the up direction than in the down/maintain. I have aimed to drop to 143 (my original goal weight has been 148), because in my mind I want that extra 5 pounds for security. This is the first time in my life I have ever re-claimed a healthy weight since beginning my upward movement in the mid-nineties but not the first time I have experienced weight loss throughout that time, so it’s really important for me to do a good job of maintaining it this time.
I have never- since before adolescence- been this thin in my life, and I am very comfortable in my clothes, and with my general appearance. Is everything as tight and smooth as it was in my youth?? Absolutely not, but the general population would only know that at my admission.
I don't really know if my struggle comes from the temptations/worries of holiday insane food opportunities or if it's partly from stress. I feel like I’m doing pretty well with the knowledge that a fair number of my family members have been dealing with some really significant health issues lately, but I wonder in the back of my mind- am I allowing this sadness/ worry/etc covertly to influence my emotional food appetite.
I want to remain positive about the things my family members are facing, because I know that no good comes from excess worry, but it has really made me think more about the reality of aging and the impact on health along with the decisions we make about our health while we are young. The health issues of age have just made themselves abundantly clear to me that they have moved one degree closer to me than they were a decade ago...it was great grandparents and grandparents who were in this category- not my uncles...which allows me to make the logical lateral move to my parents.
My takeaway from this- in this moment- it is the personal responsibility of each and every one of us to take active steps to value our health every day and to learn the steps and habits that make the best health possible a reality for all of us for as long as possible. I have been blessed with good health my entire life- and I intend to continue to treat that as the gift that it is by doing everything in my power to remain in my best possible health. The truth is, I believe I’m doing that, so would it be fair so say that a reality check is in order for me to quit fixating on the minutia of my up and down daily weights....probably.
I still would like to see my weight stay in the 142-147 range instead of the 147-151 range that it’s been bouncing in, but I’m going to work on being more accepting of where I am (as long as it doesn’t exceed 151).
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