Thursday, December 29, 2011
Is there a fine line between obsession and commitment? My best friend and I had a talk about this yesterday, and it was a conversation we both needed to have with one another. Bottom line- we are both really committed to being the new healthy selves we have created, but we both recognize that sometimes we need to check the chatter, because it does feel like a line that is easy to cross.
No one has expressed annoyance with me (directly anyway) and I keep getting compliments on my accomplishments. It's wonderful to hear, and reinforces my efforts to continue, but it also triggers a dialog that I wonder if sometimes people get sick of hearing. Again, I'm not getting any indication of this- just expressions of happiness for me and congratulations for all the progress I've made over the last year and a half.
I am immensely proud of myself (and the friend that I had this talk with yesterday) We have both made such amazing changes- and it wasn't toward a vanity goal- but toward a healthy, treat-yourself-well goal.
I can truly say that I have-for the most part- enjoyed this entire journey- not that it's over or ever will be, but the slow progress, when I look back, has been a blessing. Gradual change has been well received by me, and I think that has been a key element to accepting the new me as she emerges. I feel so much less likely to welcome back the unhealthy woman that I used to be. Would I love to find a balance between letting loose and letting things happen and the meticulous tracker that I have become? Maybe, but I really don't mind the tracking, since I have found a method that fits me so well, and as a bonus- I think it has helped me become more organized and balanced in other aspects of my life as well.
To all of you just beginning this path to a healthy life of mid-way along and doubting yourself or your motives...keep plugging away! You will find your way and the "you" you are meant to be :) For those of you who have met-or nearly met goal-Be so proud of what you have done! It is no small feat!