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Apology to my Bursting Belladonnas Family

Thursday, March 28, 2013

This week has been really rough on me. I know I shouldn't put off exercising or eating right, but I can't seem to get myself to anything but sit in my room or sit on the front porch. I've had two anxiety attacks in the past couple of days, and I know working out will raise my endorphin's, even just a walk on the treadmill, but I've been in such a funk lately. I feel bad for myself, because I'm not doing whats best for me, and I feel bad for my BB family, because I'm not earning points for them. :( I promise, for both myself and my BB family, that I'll work harder during next weeks challenge. emoticon

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*RENEAT* 3/28/2013 4:23PM

    Its OK - tomorrow is another day!

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PEETBRIT 3/28/2013 4:04PM

  I feel the same way!

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Monday, March 18, 2013

I had my first anxiety attack today. Thought I was having a heart attack, which I almost didn't believe at first, because I'm only 20 years old. But I figured with my weight issue, it was possible. I told my mom about the pain I was feeling, she had my dad check my pulse and talk to me about how I was feeling while my mom called 911. The paramedic told me that my vital signs looked good, and that it wasn't a heart attack. Ive never had this happen before, so it was really nerve racking to know that I had an anxiety attack. :(

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BLINGANDBOWS27 3/20/2013 9:33AM

    Oh no! I hope you are feeling better. I myself have never had an anxiety attack but a few years back my ex-stepmother had one and she too felt like she was having a heart attack, very scary. I'm going to be thinking of you and praying that you find some peace. Sputniks counseling and stress management might be a route you want to look into to. I'm here for you and so is this blog. Let it be your outlet. Take care.

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SPUTNIK512 3/19/2013 9:26PM

    That is not a fun feeling. I suffered from anxiety attacks while I was in college, and it's scary. I met with a counselor and a stress management specialist and it really helped. I highly recommend finding someone you can talk to you to find out how to control your anxiety. Good luck.

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Starting fresh

Saturday, March 16, 2013

This past week has been rough. I wasn't working out because of my surgery, and I was on spring break so I didn't have anything to do during the day. I feel so slow and lazy. I'm hoping that the March into Spring challenge is what I need to get moving again. Thankfully I didn't gain any weight this week, but I still feel like ive walked backwards, because I need to start over trying to make a habit of exercising. I'm just going to have to remember that losing weight is what's best for my health, and I will feel so much better soon.

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BLINGANDBOWS27 3/19/2013 10:33AM

    Recovery is most important. Remember weightloss will happen by making smart food choices too. Take care of yourself girl! I'm right alongside of you in this challenge so stay strong! emoticon

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SPUTNIK512 3/17/2013 8:26PM

    I wouldn't worry about it too much, you need to give yourself time for recovery. Hope it's speedy!

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FITMRSJACOBS 3/16/2013 8:37PM

    I imagine that surgeries are rough and I hope you are feeling better and healing well. But don't beat yourself up for past days. You can't do anything about them. Every day is a new day. Start tomorrow knowing that you can change your outcome with each new morning and do something different for yourself tomorrow. Not gaining weight in the last week is a great start. Build on that and keep it up. You can do it!!!! emoticon

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GOLFLADY11 3/16/2013 8:32PM

    Yes, losing weight is good for your health and I hope you do feel better soon. It is hard when you want to do something and you have health restrictions. I would encourage you to believe in yourself and add back the exercise as you are able in small increments. That and proper nutrition and tracking everything will lead you to success. Good luck with your program. The upside to achieving your goals is the compliments and well-being that you get from all your hard work. Even if it's 2 steps forward 1 step back it is still progress and habit forming!!! emoticon emoticon

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Falling behind?

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I had surgery yesterday, and I'm not supposed to be doing a lot of moving, or I risk tearing open my stitches. Not a lot of walking, no heavy lifting, not a lot of stretching any muscles around the abdomen or hip area. I really don't like this. I went from doing so well to falling behind because of my sister having a baby, to slowly catching up back to falling behind again. :(

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BETHS60 3/6/2013 2:35PM

    You can only do what you can do. If you push yourself now, you risk a bigger set-back. If you can, try to eat really high nutrition foods. Lots and lots of fresh green vegetables and fresh fruits. These will help your body heal faster by giving you the vitamins and minerals to promote healing.

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TLG71567 3/6/2013 12:50PM

    Let yourself heal. Do yourself that favor. If you don't you will regret it for the rest of your life, because you won't heal properly and will end up with ongoing problems. This happened to my sister in law. She didn't let herself heal after a surgery because she had to move. We were all there to help, but rather than tell us what to do she tried to do it herself. She has regretted it. There will be plenty of time for exercising after you are all healed. Relax. That's an order from a Spark friend! :)

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Created my own recipe today...

Sunday, March 03, 2013

...it had a lot more calories than I thought it would, but it was delicious, and super filling. It was a breakfast hummus wrap. I used two tiny tortillas, hummus, 2 eggs, and mixed veggies. I feel really good already today, because I feel so accomplished. I haven't lost any weight from last week, but I haven't gained either, so I count that as a positive thing. And waking up when I wanted to wake up(though a little later than usual), just to make a nice breakfast is such a good feeling. :)


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