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Looking in the Mirror

Monday, October 20, 2014

I looked in the mirror yesterday and I saw the old me, very over weight. I asked myself, "How did you get back here?" As I walked back to my seat and finished my high calorie meal. I thought about the meals that I ate within just a week and there is no wonder how I got back here. simply put, I lost my way. After losing my job I went back to many of my old habits and every day is met with the thought that tomorrow I am going to start doing right. Yes I walk everyday but that is a necessity, I have no car.

The truth, not only is my weight spiraling out of control, the rest of my life is too. My weight like the sniffles of a common cold, is just a symptom of an out of control life. Rather than feel the disappointment of life, I eat 4 slices of pizza or have a entire bag of ginger snap cookies. My house is a wreck, my career is stalled and my weight is out of control. It's not that I don't like the person in the mirror. She is a warm, generous, caring person. But she dropped the ball on everything she worked hard for.

I sat in that restaurant yesterday thinking "this has to change."

Well my friends, tomorrow is here. Now what? I don't have the answers just yet, But I know where to start, setting (SMART) goals. I will give them serious thought and write them down.

Thank you for reading my blog. Feel free to leave advice or well wishes. Glad to have spark to turn to.

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LOSE4LIFE47 10/20/2014 1:08PM

    Stress does a lot to our bodies. I am happy to hear you are going to get back on track. You are an awesome woman. YOU CAN DO IT!!

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1CRAZYDOG 10/20/2014 1:03PM

    Missy: All I can say is stress causes us to have all kinds of reactions that are not necessarily healthy for us. During stressful times, so often food = comfort.

I am proud of you that you're going to get yourself back on track. You're worth it!


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Mind over Money

Friday, September 06, 2013

For the past two years I have been struggling financially since I lost my full time job. I do get work here and there. Just enough to hold on but it has been a struggle. It has also been a blessing to have family members help me out from time to time.

The reason that I wrote mind over money was my shopping and eating habits. they have gone down quite a bit since I have started Spark. I could easily blame it on finances but the truth is I do not have the motivation to do the things that I need to do. I realize just how blessed I am that I still have shelter and food. That I am blessed to not go hungry. However, while this is the time I should plan the most, I plan the least. Having a plan when shopping not only saves you from bad purchases but saves you money. So why am I not planning as much. Why have I reverted back to fast foods? Why am I choosing the fries after giving them up for 2 years? It is clearly not about the money. The dollar spent on a sausage biscuit can easily be used to buy a container of oatmeal that will last a whole week. The cost of potatoes is cheaper than a few orders of fries. A bag of frozen fish beats a few burgers even if you order from the dollar menu.

I guess it is my motivation. I am sad and while I have not gone back to ice cream, cookies and chips in the middle of the night, I am eating my sadness and disguising it as breakfast or lunch. I can't seem to get myself out of this cycle at the moment. I say that I am going to do things differently but I am stuck in this moment. I know that my bad eating right now is NOT about the "eating healthy is expensive" excuse. I hate that excuse and if I were in a better mood I would challenge anyone with that excuse but I have to pull myself out of this funk before I can.

So, My spark friends, can you lend me a hand? What can I do to get out of this funk? My self pep talks aren't working.

Thanks for reading my blog

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CMBELISLE 9/10/2013 12:48PM

    Ok - I didn't read what everyone else said so I'm not sure it hasn't already been said - one factor in eating out is the social aspect. It gets you out of the house and around other people, whether you talk to anyone or not. Keep that in mind while you try to reign in the eating/spending - there may be some need to be out and about. Maybe walking at the mall will help - it's free and there are others who walk there in the early mornings too, so there is a social aspect.

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    Sending Positive Thoughts and Energy your Way. I also went through similar situation as you and finally had that AHA moment last November. You are not alone.
Exercise always seems to help me and I hope you keep up your walking. Using the Food Tracker and Fitness Tracker are a great tool, even if you don't change anything.
I am an emotional eater and it seemed like a viscous cycle for awhile but adding one small healthy change gradually gives you a feeling of accomplishment.
Getting together with a group can also be good. I read a lot from The Secret, Joel Osteen and many more books and try to surround myself with Positive. Keep a journal, I love to write down my feelings. You will learn what triggers your emotional habits. I have seen where people focus on the Positive and write what they are grateful for. Thank you for posting.

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NOE1234 9/9/2013 11:48PM

    Thanks for posting. This got me thinking. Get excited about what you can do. My motivation always comes back to me if I give myself a challenge. When funds are low in our household, I always go to our food budget and get super creative with meal planning. I grab the sale circular, look at what we already have and get calculating, it's not always easy but it can be kinda fun. I wish you all the best and success !!
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DISCOVERLLH 9/9/2013 10:02AM

    Missygeen, I hope it helps to know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I am in the same situation you are financially, and while I am so grateful to have a roof over my head and food to eat, I am embarrassed every time I hand the food stamps card to the grocery store cashier, and I know I am only in a home because of my parents. From my point of view (because this happens to me), the overeating is from STRESS. Also, when you are in a financially bad place, it is easy to have low self esteem, and then you just get to a place where you just don't care about what you are eating anymore. Try to do one positive thing for yourself today, no matter how small. I have found that if I set one small goal and then achieve it, I feel better about myself and don't eat as much. Also, you mentioned you were feeling sad. When I feel that way, it really helps to take a walk for 10 minutes to clear my head and get the "happy hormones" kicking in. I'm here if you need a shoulder! emoticon

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4EVER21B 9/7/2013 2:25AM

    Emotional eating is a challenge for me as well. And since your emotion is also tied to a reduction in income, that makes it more challenging. Perhaps, this is a great time to join a Spark Challenge or a team challenge. Something that will make you more accountable and reinforce all the good things you used to do and still do in terms of eating selection and exercise.

The important thing is to remember that this is something you want. If you did not want it, you wouldn't ask for help.

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1CRAZYDOG 9/6/2013 2:51PM

    It IS difficult to have to financially worry day-in and day-out. Have to take care of you though. You may not be able to make the absolutely healthiest food choices (since you are relegated to what's on sale and what you can afford) but you CAN make sure it is as healthy as possible. Instead of the white bread, buy full grain. Instead of the sugared cereal, get a less processed cereal or do oatmeal. Things like that do help.

Wishing you success. Only you can pull yourself out of a slump, but you know we're behind you 100%.


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DUSTEDTWIN 9/6/2013 1:55PM

    I find that when I lack the motivation myself, I definitely reach out to others. There are SEVERAL groups within Spark and outside of that are FREE to help you combat this. I have a gym membership and like to get myself to group fitness classes that are included in my membership in order to make new friends and help with my plateaus. Even if these people aren't around for the long-haul, they certainly provide me with some perspective and when I get to know the "regulars" they keep me accountable. You may also see if there are any free meet-up groups for walking in your area of if some of your friends/family will start a walking group with you. places to check for this are 1) your local sporting goods retailer's community board; 2) Sparkpeople city teams; or 3) Meetup.com.

You're doing great on your journey - keep up the awesome work, chica!

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FIRYMIST35 9/6/2013 1:55PM

  I think you know what you need to do, you just have to do it! And that is the most difficult part! If I were in your shoes I know I would be stressed out and would be more easily tempted to make bad choices. For me deep breathing and exercise work wonderfully to reduce stress, but you probably have to find what works for you. Then before you buy any food ask yourself if you want to record it. If you keep a nutrition log, that can help you make better choices, since it forces you to look at what you eat.

Just suggestions! Feel free to ignore or pick and choose! Hopefully something helps you out!
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Week 6 of 6!!!

Sunday, June 30, 2013

I have completed my 6 week challenge. I focused on nutrition, fitness and my professional development.

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I am now more than ever convinced that you can eat healthy on a budget. No, I can't get the organic or even the leanest cuts of meats but I can make good choices within the budget constraints that I have. I may have to buy chicken thighs instead of breast or ground turkey that is not the leanest, but it beats a fast food burger any day. Oh and this is BIG. When checking for a recipe I do not choose recipes with more than 5 or 6 items this is financially affective as well.

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I lost 8 pounds in 6 weeks!!! I am very happy about that. I've increased the length of my walks. And now I've met a friend at the gym. I do not need someone to workout with but a buddy in the way of support even if we are not there on the same days somehow feels like I have a gym buddy now.

Professional Development
I did reach out and risked a few rejections that later led to at least one yes. It is not a full time job but a small contract that will begin in the fall. I must be willing to risk rejection without allowing it to attack my self esteem. Enough no's can eventually lead to a yes. Actually after each no I practiced my initial approach to potential clients.

This was a successful challenge. Now I am considering a new challenge.

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1CRAZYDOG 7/7/2013 8:34AM

    Sorry it has taken me so long to get to your blog, but wow! VERY good job! I am happy to hear that you have a contract job and you're right . . . it IS hard, but you have to take chances and risk rejections to get ahead. Good for you. VERY proud of your accomplishments.

8 lbs. kicked to the curb. EXCELLENT!

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Week 5 or 6

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

This blog is coming a little late in the week but I am happy to report that I have made a lot of progress on this 6 week challenge.

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I got almost everything I needed when I went to the market this time. Although my son is 21 years old, it is still a good idea to leave him at home when I go to the store(or find a baby sitter, LOL) somehow when I get to the counter there are few things that end up in the cart that I had not anticipated.

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Can you believe that I really look like this emoticon? NOT, LOL. Good new. I made a new friend that just got his certification as a personal trainer and he will work with me at no cost as he build up his clientele. Maybe he just likes me but that's OK too.

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SUZANNE65203 6/28/2013 4:26AM

    That is great news about the trainer!

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1CRAZYDOG 6/26/2013 8:24PM

    No matter how old they are, they're still our "babies", right!?! emoticon

Sounds like you've had a good week and I'm proud of you! Good job.

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Week 4 of 6

Saturday, June 15, 2013

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I noticed that whenever I make one good decision that pushes me to make better decisions. If I opt for a healthy breakfast I can't not bring myself to make a bad choice for lunch. I simply remind myself of what I did for breakfast and not blow a good choice. This is different from the past when I would have "rewarded" myself with a not so healthy choice.

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I learned the same lesson as far as fitness goes. If I have a good workout I can't bring myself to throwing it away on an unhealthy lunch or dinner.

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PINKYYSUEE 6/16/2013 1:43PM

    Good job!

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MJLUVSANIMALS 6/15/2013 9:14PM

    Good for you!! Optimism and good choices. We learn every day. Sometimes it takes us an "AHA" moment to finally get it. But with an outlook like that, you will meet us at the finish line!!! emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 6/15/2013 9:04PM

    Great lessons learned! HUGs and smiles. Keep it up. emoticon

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