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Friday, September 23, 2011

I've been really stressed out recently, but trucking on. I have been sticking to my plan of walking 2 miles every day, which is awesome (of course I have the negative mind chatter of YOU SHOULD BE DOING MORE! WHY DONT YOU RUN YOUR FAT ASS!!! constantly).

Foodwise, eh. I've been pretty alright about tracking most things and generally sticking to my calorie guidelines. Last night we ordered chinese takeaway and not being used to such greasy, sugary, salty food I felt pretty awful this morning. Almost as if I had a hangover although I hadn't drunk a drop.

Today I sort of binged. Not sort of, I did. I ate an entire packet (2 servings) of chocolate covered rice cakes, a whole box ( 4 containers) of chocolate soy pudding, and a small bowl of strawberry soy yogurt with cut up strawberries. I'm looking at this thinking that it doesn't sound too bad, and granted it could have been much, much worse but I still ate too much food when I wasn't hungry at all, distending my stomach to discomfort and only because I was pissed off at something else. So. not. cool.

Now I just feel all gross and stupid.


It has been 2 years!!!

Monday, May 17, 2010

It's been 2 freaking years since I was last on SP. I'm slightly fatter. I have to reset my ticker, hehe.
But I think I am happier :) I have spent the last two years acquainting myself with raw foods and transitioning slowly.
I've also gained quite a bit of knowledge in the realm of wild edibles, so yay!
I decided to come back to see what I am eating because I think I have an allergy of some kind that I haven't been able to figure out and I can't afford the doctor at the moment. I'm hoping that by seeing exactly what I am eating in a normal day will help out with that.

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MCJULIEO 5/18/2010 1:22PM

    Welcome back!

I hope that you can find the answers you are looking for.... funny how our questions change with time...

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TXGAL2007 5/17/2010 5:07PM

    It's been probably 2 years since I was also on SP for keeping tract of my meals, etc. Good luck and hang in there

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Body Love

Thursday, June 26, 2008

So, I havenīt been very good recently about keeping up with my SP details. īm not inputting my calories or even really participating in my groups which I love.

Itīs because Iīm struggling with two main themes here in my life...weight loss vs. acceptance of what is.

It feels to me that when I focus on the weight loss aspect of this journey that iīm not actually loving myself as I am NOW. Iīve always struggled with loving myself, feeling worthy enough, feeling attractive enough, etc. I think this is so important. I need to accept who I am NOW not who I may or may not be in one month or six months time. I need to love my body NOW not what it may or may not look like minus 10 or 20 or 30 pounds.

Maybe this goes hand in hand and iīm not seeing the bigger picture. Maybe when I truly feel love for my body as it is right now iīll be less likely to binge eat and iīll be more likely to eat the kinds of foods that make my body FEEL good.

But iīm tired of waiting for goal weight or whatever other point in the future to start feeling ok with myself.

So hereīs to Day One of treating myself like the goddess that I truly am ;)

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MAZZYR 6/28/2008 10:46AM

    Hi MissVeganLove,

I hear you. When I changed my focus from weight loss to health gain I was able to see that I actually did love me and my body enough to be willing to make the effort to make changes.

I'm also starting to see this journey as a practice of patience... LOL. You are never alone on SP. Mazzy

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BASSLION 6/26/2008 11:49AM

    Hey MissVeganLove,

I don't know if this is true... but it seems to me like maybe you are taking things a little too seriously. I mean your health is serious and how you feel about yourself is very important, but the journey should be fun.
That's what I think. :)

Several years ago I started going to aerobics, and I was really frustrated. I was bad at it, it was hard, I hated telling people I went to aerobics because I thought they would judge me, etc. Then one day I stopped taking it seriously. (It helps that aerobics is inherently a goofy activity). ;)

I still tried hard, but rather than beating myself up about all the things I couldn't do - I stopped judging. I laughed at things I was bad at. I smiled about the things I was good at. I just lived.

I would suggest trying to do the same with weight loss. Try hard (especially to build good habits) just because. It's not hard to drink water and eat vegetables. You like riding your bicycle so why not? Maybe focus on the process and not the end result.

I think people are their beautiful when they are happy. So be happy.

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Ugh! Itīs out of control...

Monday, June 16, 2008

So a few days back, I quit my raw food challenge. It was a rash decision, spur of the moment, and I was almost finished anyway.

It was becoming a serious chore whereas before I was enjoying it a lot. Considering my issues with food, I thought ok, if itīs not feeling good, then donīt do it.

So what happened....about four days of total anarchy is what happened.
Not only havenīt I eaten well AT ALL, but I havenīt even been accountable for what ive eaten. Raw food is MUCH more food tracker friendly! :)

I think that really I HAVE to do raw foods because itīs the only way iīve found to control myself, my portions, my habits, my binging, my hunger. If I can have a little of something then I take it, eat it and then promptly feel unsatisfies and eat more. It doesnīt feel good to feel so out of control.

My whole point of going back to cooked food was to have MORE control, and here I am feeling like a slave to my big fat tummy. UGH!

Advice, anyone?

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KSTARS 6/17/2008 11:32AM

    Hi! I love your candor. I would like to do raw foods, but feel that it owuld be a daunting task. If it is easy to track, why not! Could you give me an example of a day in the raw ? :-)


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MAHITA-DEVI 6/16/2008 3:31PM

  Frustration must be in the air. I am not in balance with my work outs or my food. I try to look at this time as a way to re-evaluate. What works and what doesn't and why? it really is an individual thing and the hard part is it changes and shifts over time as our own needs change and shift. For me, it isn't static. I am currently working on re-doing all of it, my entire life seems to be calling out for me to dig deeper--to get at the real issues and to see where I can bring things back into balance. Try to use this time of upset--this time of inbalance and not see it as a bad thing, but as an opportunity to realign--to re-think and re-do. Life seems to be a constant re-take and re-make, but well worth the process.

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    I feel the same way. I can have say, an orange, and I'm fine, but if someone hands me veggie fajitas or something, I'm going to just keep eating (first choice here was going to be cheesecake, but then said no, cheesecake is going to kill me one day, change that to something more user friendly. lol.)

could you try something cooked with something raw? not like a salad with your meal, although that would work. or maybe even some extra snacks?

I'm trying to figure out a system here that works for me, too, so I know it's irritating. I hope you manage to find something that helps!

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Wild Greens

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Today we went and did a little urban foraging :)

We got loaded up on dandelion greens, plantain and clover. I had some dandelions in my spring rolls earlier and Iīm planning to have a smoothie later with banana, strawberry and a mix of the wild greens...yum!

We have absolutely no place for a garden as we live in a box in the sky, but as I think it is of the utmost importance that we learn a little about how to feed ourselves for the coming revolution, we are growing some spinach, some radishes and a chili plant. Have had success in the past with an indoor tomato plant as well as a really prolific chili.

So to be able to go outside and find an area that hasnīt been sprayed or peed on by dogs or tramps in the middle of a city is a little difficult, but when you do itīs awesome to have free greens for a while!


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