Saturday, October 06, 2012
There is stress at work.
There is stress at home.
I haven't found time to go to the grocery store in a week.
I've had long hours and too many things on my plate. In the midst of this I begin to stress out about not reaching my exercise goals. I stress that I'm not eating all the servings of vegetables that I want to eat each day. I stress that I cannot complete everything that I need to do nor everything that I want to do each day because there is currently just too much happening.
Then I stop and breathe. I think about what IS happening. And I realize that though I might not be getting in the extra workouts that I wanted this week, I am still walking 30 minutes each morning. And, though I haven't made it to the store for fresh vegetables, I have been clearing out the frozen broccoli and canned green beans that have been lurking in the depths of the freezer and cupboard. And, extra servings of fruit have been appearing in my life, like the apples and bananas left from a meeting that were sent to our team's work area because "you guys like fruit." I love that we are the team that's known for eating healthy and that the leftover cookies went to the third floor!
So, all in all it has been a more challenging week than I had hoped for, but I have exercised and eaten well. Looking over my nutrition tracker, I note that I have even stayed within my calorie guidelines each day. I feel as though I am making the shift to a healthy lifestyle. I feel that this way of eating and moving is becoming part of who I am, not just what I'm doing before stepping on the scale.
Finding and maintaining balance is hard. But I am enjoying the dance.
Thursday, October 04, 2012
I realized that I haven't blogged for a couple of weeks. It's been a stressful couple of weeks with a lot going on personally and professionally.
I went to the doctor last week for my diabetes check up and was so frustrated. My A1C had gone down 2 points and I had lost 12 pounds, but I still got the "not good enough" lecture. So, even though I am frustrated with my doctor, I will still move forward and continue what I am doing. At this rate, he will have no choice but to be impressed when I see him again in January!
In addition to all of that, I took a long weekend and went on retreat with several women I know. The beach was refreshing and healing.
But, with a mini vacation and a change in hours at work, I am struggling to get back into my routine. So, I've set some mini goals for myself for for the next week and a half:
1. Continue to walk 30 minutes per day.
2. Gazelle 30 minutes 3x per week.
3. Strength training on the Total Gym 2x per week.
4. Ride my bicycle 60 minutes 2x per week (Ordered a bike rack - so excited!)
So, on that note, I am off and running.... errrrr.... off and walking, gazelling and bicycling!
Think fit! Get fit! Stay fit! (New mantra!)
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
This morning I weighed before going for my walk. The scale showed that I had lost another pound. Which is good, but I really had wanted to see 2 pounds. So, while walking I thought about my ups and downs over the past week. No earth shattering binges, but I had made some choices which were not part of my food plan. I had chosen not to do a couple of my additional workouts beyond my morning walks.
But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that even though the scale wasn't showing the significant change that I wanted to see, I knew that my body felt different.
I feel stronger and healthier already. When I go through the day, I can feel my core muscles. I am aware of all the muscles that I hadn't been using, but am now!
I decided it must be time to measure myself. Since coming back to SparkPeople one month ago today, I have lost 2 inches on my waist and 2.25 inches on my hips! That is in addition to the 11 pounds that I have lost!
I had become so focused on this week's goal that I had completely lost sight of the big picture. Since returning to SparkPeople I am more aware of what I'm eating and how much exercise I am getting. I am accountable to myself and it is beginning to pay off!
Monday, September 17, 2012
Yesterday wasn't much better than Saturday. That heavy, lethargy just kept hanging around encouraging me to eat. And I did. Again, the benefit of not having unhealthy choices in the house is that it really curtails bingeing. After all, who wants to binge on celery sticks?
As I took my walk this morning I thought about why I had felt this way all weekend. What was behind it? My motivation to get healthy hasn't changed. I'm loving the way I feel physically and am looking forward to moving back into the smaller, cute clothes in my closet. I see the difference my eating has on my blood sugar every time I test.
This has been a year of loss for me, deep and unexpected loss. A number of good things have come out of the pain, but I am still working through it.
As I walked this morning, I realized that this week is a big marker for me in dealing with this loss. By refusing to deal with the this fact, by pushing down the emotions of sadness and anger this weekend, I didn't let my heart deal with things.
So, I leaned towards old habits of feeding the pain. Thankfully there wasn't chips and cookies and pizza in the house to feed it. And because my newly found commitment to health refused to go to the store to purchase anything unhealthy, I fed the pain turkey burger, tomatoes and celery sticks. So there!
And so the challenge continues. Day by day I must deal with the physical, emotional and spiritual aspects of my life to continue to improve my health.
And I am.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
I was so excited on Friday to realize how active I'd been and the SparkTrophy proved it. Then I woke up yesterday feeling very un-motivated to move, to prepare healthy meals, to do anything.
I struggled most of the day but since there is currently only healthy food choices in my house, I ate fairly well. Finally around 2 pm I decided if I was going to workout this was the time and I crawled onto the Gazelle and did 20 minutes.
Today I am still feeling that lethargy that comes from having been too busy the past several weeks and pushing myself hard. But not pushing myself is what got me in such an unhealthy state.
So, this is where the sidewalk ends. This is the point at which the change to a healthy lifestyle, losing the weight for good and becoming fit and healthy stops being easy and becomes more challenging.
This is where the sidewalk ends and the adventure begins. I am ready to go off-road!
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