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Meditation Fail

Thursday, October 16, 2014

I did my first guided meditation tonight. It was nice, but I don't think it worked.

OK, so I wasn't expecting it to solve all my problems and remove all my stress for the rest of my days. I didn't expect it to change my life, or even my attitude.

What did I expect, you ask? I expected to feel totally relaxed. I did feel relaxed, but not as much as I expected. The main reason? My big bloated tummy! I overate (again). In evaluating why I have been continuing to eat long after I am no longer hungry, eating myself into discomfort and near-misery, it occurred to me that maybe I was reacting poorly to stress. I thought, "I will try meditation for stress relief." I typed that into YouTube and found this video. www.youtube.com/watch?v=o94tvFUttco

The narrator talked about breathing and relaxing. Breathing deeply was difficult because my belly is so distended from all the things I poured into it over the course of the evening. Relaxing was hard because my belly was uncomfortable. I hope that next time I am tempted to eat beyond necessity just for the sake of eating even though there is nothing I really want, I will think of how I felt during my meditation. I hope that I will consider meditating *before* eating too much, possibly becoming *instead of" eating too much.

So maybe it wasn't a meditation fail after all.

  
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JITZUROE 11/9/2014 11:18AM

    Baby steps my special lady, especially with meditation. I have been trying it for years and still have so many days that seem like hit or miss. Lots of 'miss' days but I'm still trying.
Let's keep it up ok?
Hugs!
Bren

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CINDHOLM 10/17/2014 7:55PM

    YOU are not a failure.. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AJDOVER1 10/17/2014 4:42PM

    not a fail at all!
You're learning and that's always a success

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Before meeting with health coach

Monday, September 29, 2014

I am fortunate enough to have a wellness coach in my life. I am currently checking in with her about once a week. Having recently begun my seven-year plan, I am focused on one of the most difficult aspects of it: carbohydrate consumption. I have been focusing this month on reducing my intake of sweet treats to a minimum. Much of the month, I have had to set goals to go an entire week or more without any sweets just to help myself detoxify and get control over the cravings. Today starts a new week and my cravings seem mostly to have passed. It seems unreasonable to expect myself to go without any sweets for the rest of my life, but two treats per week seems feasible. Therefore, my goal for this week is to limit my sweet treats to two this week (Monday through Sunday).

Next month, I will continue my focus on sweet treats and add to it limiting sweet drinks. Sweet drinks do not seem to be the problem for me that sweet foods are, but I have greatly increased my amount of coffee over the past couple years. My coffee has more creamer and sugar in it than coffee, so it is time to either learn to drink it less sweet, or skip it altogether.

November, my plan is to focus on increasing fruits and in December, vegetables. It is clear to me that carbs will be a huge hurdle for me to overcome and four months will definitely not be enough to develop lifelong carbohydrate balance. I will have to use my bonus term later, I'm sure, to work through this again. It is a good thing I have allowed lots of space in my plan for easy terms where I can continue working on progress made in previous terms.


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CINDHOLM 9/29/2014 12:08PM

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AJDOVER1 9/29/2014 11:34AM

    Wow this was great to read! It's all about a lifelong balance, isn't it? I love the idea of a long-term plan. Please keep checking in and letting us know how it's going.

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It's a new day!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

I binged last night. Not my worst binge, but a binge nonetheless. I ate too much from the fast food restaurant and followed it with three Klondike ice cream "candy bars." As that was not enough, I decided to have a wine cooler too.

Yet this morning, I feel amazingly guiltless about it. Today is a new day. I feel fresh and ready to treat myself well again.

In looking back to see why I binged, I think I was so busy thinking about what I couldn't have and what I was trying to avoid that I was forcing myself into a lack mentality. Finally, my self-control and will power gave out. I was tired of denying myself without remembering why.

Today, I am focused on making the most of my life. I am happy for the opportunity to start again, to work on things (like homework) that will move me in the direction I want to go, to have relax-and-recharge time at home, and to just focus on giving my body what it needs. Why should I feel guilty about what is in the past? I have never felt so free after a binge. It is a wonderful feeling, I must admit. I truly do feel free to focus on treating myself to whatever I need to take care of me and to allow my body to develop the strength and energy I need to keep moving forward.

It's a beautiful day! I feel alive! No one is going to stop me now!
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EILEEN828 9/25/2014 1:42AM

    A binge is really only a problem when it's the start of a habit. Otherwise its only a one day speed bump on your journey. Keep them rare but Ive always been a believer in the indulgence as being a technique for keeping from going crazy or flat out giving up. If you really work it and pay attention to how your body felt you may get some really helpful information out of it.

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AJDOVER1 9/21/2014 6:07PM

    Let's focus on today!
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JITZUROE 9/20/2014 10:47AM

    Here's my two cents as to why you didn't plague yourself with guilt and self loathing: because you have been working HARD to change the wiring in your brain; to form new behavior patterns and thrive in your life by making healthier choices much more often than not!
Yes you binged, but as you say, it IS a new day. You have already made the choice to make it a GREAT one by not crushing your spirit with ruminating.
Is this a weird place to say that I'm proud of you??? Well, I am.
Just keep that uncomfortable over-filled feeling from last night in your memory as a reminder as to why it's not the best idea to react with food.
I promise to do the same since I am fighting thoughts of food nonstop for two days now. Likely stressing since I'm alone all weekend, but heck, enough about me! Ha!

Enjoy your Saturday wonderful gal!
Bren

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FELINEBETTER 9/20/2014 6:53AM

    Wow! Looking and moving forward! Atta Girl, MissLisa! We can't let the past hold us back from living in the NOW. YOU GO GIRL!! emoticon

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Sugar Addiction

Sunday, September 14, 2014

I really struggled today, desperately wanting to binge on sweets. Instead, I made a list of reasons why I want to reduce my consumption of sweets, and why I want to healthier and maybe smaller. I told myself (multiple times), "Today, I will live binge-free." I ate breakfast, which probably helped because I think I was hungry, and took some chromium to help with the cravings. In the spirit of doing whatever it takes to be successful, I reminded myself I had already made through half of the days and I could make it through the other half too. My sweets week begins tomorrow, so I can allow myself tomorrow to decide what items are worth taking up one of my allowable treats. For now, I am just focused on today. I did allow myself a half cup of cappuccino; I was lagging around because I am addicted to caffeine too. Between the little bit of coffee and some tea, I was able to wake up enough to accomplish something. All of these things have made me successful up to this point. The day will be over in just five and a half hours, and surely I will be in bed before then. I can definitely make it that long without eating a donut or an ice cream treat!

  
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OOLALA53 9/22/2014 1:54PM

    How did your week go?

I still like sugar, but I eat a fraction of it that I used to (for decades). I slowly decreased my binge days and amounts over a long period of time. I know that VERY few people ever swear off sugar and never eat it again, so I determined I would play the odds and work on reducing my attachment to it.

Hang in there! We CAN learn to live without consistently overeating.

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EILEEN828 9/15/2014 2:40AM

    Hey Misslisa, I have a suggestion for you to try. Get thee to a health food, supplement store and buy a candida cleanse product. Candida yeast exists in everyone's intestines, and when gut flora
diminishes then yeast takes over. It sends out chemical messages for sugars which it needs to survive and proliferate. Kill the yeast, you kill the cravings. I read many kinds of info on this, until one day at the store, on a whim, I decided to try it and actually bought one. It works. In fact I was a bit shocked at how well. Try it, at worst you are out the cost of a bottle of pills. At best, you'll end cravings, improve your metabolism and create improved health. Believe me, it's worth it!
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FELINEBETTER 9/14/2014 10:37PM

    MissLisa -- you are really working it! Good for you! You are bound to succeed because I can just feel your determination! I quit smoking several years ago and your blog reminded me of how I felt, watching the clock and working at reinforcing what I was trying to accomplish and why. And you know what, Girl? I haven't smoked for almost 30 years. I just needed to get through the initial worst part! You will too -- you're on your way. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GOODGETNBETR 9/14/2014 8:45PM

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I'm feeling a little of what you must be going through having just started Atkins today. I overdid it on sweets a few days ago and it was my wake up call to change things up.
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Day one: complete

Thursday, August 21, 2014

I used my lunch to take a mile walk yesterday, which definitely took more than 10 minutes. So it looks like I am well on my way to making my 11-day SparkStreak a reality.

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    Good for you!!

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