Saturday, November 28, 2009
Last night I did another 25 minutes on the treadmill. All the while watching my 12 yr old play a video game with his 31 yr old cousin. :o) I do have to find an armband that will hold my iphone as it's a pain trying to clip it to the waist band of the yoga pants, plus it tend to work it's way loose. I remember seeing them, I just can't remember where.
Today I did 45 minutes on the treadmill while watching Ever After..lol. My hips are tender tonight so I spoiled myself with a scented salts bath and read a Prevention magazine. I'm still tender but I'm moving better. I expected this pain. I've had problems with my hips since my oldest was born. There is a reason they say don't ride horses, especially competitively in the last trimester. For years the doctors told me it was all in my head cause their x-rays which had me laying down (doesn't bother me when I lay down) never showed it. Then I went to a chiropractor that took the x-rays while I stood and there it was! You could see the swollen area, and the hip out of alignment putting pressure on that area. As the weight is coming off, this nerve occasionally gets pinched (best way to describe it) and once I have an adjustment done by the chiropractor I'm good to go again. In the past I used this as an excuse to give up cause the pain can be excruciating. But not this time. I'll work through it, do the adjustments and look forward to the day where it doesn't bother me anymore. Just glad I don't pay full price for the chiro - it's a friend's brother so he gives us a great deal.
I've also been doing a lot of soul searching on what I want out of the rest of my life. I think it's part of the journey to losing weight and a healthy lifestyle, you start to really look at what is important, what you want and how to get to that point. Other than the obvious of losing the weight and getting my asthma under control or at least back to border-line (no meds required). I want to go back to work, or at least go back to school and update my education so I can get a good job. After being home raising kids for 18 yrs, I think I could use some updating and refreshing. I've already talked to the hubby and he is willing to support me in whatever direction I decide to go in. The only thing holding back the education part is of course...money. Once we get through Christmas I can start thinking more about what I want to do in that area and start saving.
Life is starting to look up...or is it just my attitude is?? Either way, I'm liking the way I feel and starting to like what I see in the mirror!
Friday, November 27, 2009
I'm back on track and feeling much better.
The funeral was really nice, I know my sister in-law would have liked it. Afterwards there was a tonne of food at the house, I ate none of it. Instead I was prepared and had brought along some almonds and supplies including my magic bullet to make myself a smoothie. Course hubby's family looked at me like I was nuts, but I'm use to that...lol.
This month was chocolate sales at the kids' school. Every year we wind up buying what ever the kids haven't sold and for selling a full box their name gets put in a draw for some prizes. For the second year in a row my daughter won the 5lb solid milk chocolate bar. Yup 5 lbs! Here she is with it:
Needless to say I now have a HUGH temptation cut up in the fridge calling to be eaten.
Yesterday I got my Christmas/Birthday gift early! I came across a good deal for a treadmill. So I borrowed a friend and his truck to pick it up. It's a Tempo 620T. I've heard good and bad about them, but the bad was from long time runners, so for now I think it will do what I want - get my bootie moving and my son has been using it too. Hopefully he will continue using it so he can compete better in the cross country run at school next year. He was disappointed with his placement this year but I can't run with him...yet! I do have to be careful though cause of my asthma. I was doing good till it hit 4mph, a minute and a half into that speed my asthma kicked in and I had to stop and get my lungs back under control. My pulse was still good though so when my attack subsided I went back on and put in a total of 25 minutes. I did have to adjust the speed a little so the goal will be to finish the full 45 minute weight loss program on it without having to adjust the speed. I'll work on it in smaller time intervals and work my way up. But it gives me a goal to work towards. The bigger goal once I get myself in shape/running, to run in the run for breast cancer hopefully next year if not for sure the following year.
Went and bought new exercise clothes today too. I was needing another pair of pants and I found on sale another pair of yoga shorts in the next size down so I grabbed them to put away and a top so I can have a workout set of clothes (my profile picture). Pretty much I will wind up wearing them everyday unless I am going out so I can always be ready to jump on the treadmill or workout to a dvd when I feel like doing extra during the day.
I think for the rest of the day, I may take it easy. My chest always hurts after an asthma attack. I may just go for a walk on the treadmill tonight while hubby works out on his punching bag. At least he's starting to want to move too!
Time to get life back to some sense of normal...
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
First, thank you all so much for your condolences, thoughts and prayers. Though we are extremely saddened by my sister in-laws unexpected passing, some good has come from it. Her sons have started speaking again after not speaking to each other for over 2 yrs.
I have spent the last few days beating myself up over not exercising and semi-poor food choices (when home I eat pretty well, but when with the family...) and not filling in my food tracker. Last night I decided to forgive myself. We all have set backs, this happens to be the first of mine and after things return to "normal" and I can think straight again, I will be able to look back and see what could have been done different so I have a backup plan and know I can still manage my life no matter what is happening around me.
Today is weigh in day for me. I don't know how considering the last 4 days but I managed to loose another 4 lbs! So I'm up to 7 lbs lost.
Today I have been filling in my tracker, I've done some yard work and have a little more to do, as well as all the housework that has been building up over the last 4 days. The kids claim they would like clean clothes to..lol. Today the plan is to just stay home and get things done here and prepare for the funeral tomorrow.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
The last 24 hours have been such a roller coaster of emotions.
My mother in-law called at 4 o'clock yesterday morning to let us know that my sister in-law passed away and have us go to our brother in-law. They were getting their car fixed and had no wheels to get to him till later in the morning. Of course we couldn't leave as quick as Mom wanted us to, we had to get the kids on the bus and off to school - we told them after school about their aunt when we had the answers to their questions. It was harder having to call my oldest and tell him. Hubby's family use to be very close but over the years we've all grown apart but this sister in-law was the one member we saw often when my oldest was young. She would babysit him for us to go out on "dates" and her boys are the ones that got mine riding his bike without training wheels. We spent almost every weekend either visiting her or having her boys (they are now 31 & 30) stay with us. My son took it pretty hard, thankfully he has some great friends to help support him and pray with him as he is not able to come home for the service. She wasn't a healthy woman by any means. She has always been severely overweight and smoked since way before I met her. She was diagnosed with diabetes a few years ago, paid no real attention to it using her medication as a band-aid rather than correct her diet and lifestyle, and over the last year she'd been having mini strokes. This week she had been sick and then almost completely bed ridden. She passed away at age 52 from a heart attack.
I did "fall of the wagon" so to speak yesterday. Those that know I'm trying to change my lifestyle have said it's okay, look what your dealing with. But for me, I did nothing but kick myself last night. I didn't exercise at all, and my eating well, fried foods (fries, fish, wings) were the menu for lunch which seeing as I had missed breakfast I was hungry. I will say I didn't over due it with the food and even the amount I ate which was small for me made my stomach upset for most of the afternoon.
But today is a new day, and I am feeling strong and ready to face the day head on with my exercise and meal plan intact. And I know I have my kids to help back me up just like last night at the grocery store. Staring at the ice cream, cakes, and pastries just wanting to eat my way through my emotions but my kids wouldn't let me. They helped me stay focused on getting what we needed and getting out. I am so thankful they are so supportive and wanting to be a part of the change. This isn't just a change for me, I'm asking them to change to even if a little. And it's working, they are starting to use the exercise equipment downstairs and going for walks with me.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
In my infinite womanly wisdom I had booked the hubby off all this week. The main reason being, we don't take vacations so he had alot of vacation time that had to be used up or we'd lose it. But what better time, then to spend our wedding anniversary day together, and then spend the rest of the week getting the yard and house ready for winter. Well the plan almost worked. It fell apart when hubby decided that this is the week he's going to do some BAKING. Temptation has been everywhere! From cookies, cakes to yesterday's brownies with gobs of chocolate fudge icing on it. I held strong up until last night...I had a small piece of the brownies. I just couldn't resist. The kids picked the smallest, littlest icing on it piece they could find - that's what they claim anyway...it was more of them scraping the icing off my piece and eating it themselves..lol.
Even with this little "cheat" as the hubby called it, I'm still on target though my fats were a little high after we had homemade mac n cheese for dinner.
I will be so glad when hubby is back to work..LOL.
I finally did my weigh in. I've been avoiding the scale. I lost 3 lbs over the last two weeks! I know to get a better weight loss I have to up my exercise time from 20 minutes of Turbo Jam with a 20 minute walk when I can fit it in, I'm going to start trying to do 45 minutes a day. I've got the consistency of working out daily going but I need to add some diversity to it also. I've been toying with the idea of joining a local gym. I say toying cause I loathe gyms. I have tried gyms before and have never felt comfortable. The first two I ever tried were back in the '90s and they just wanted my money. I didn't even get help to learn how to use the equipment so needless to say I didn't go much. The last one I went to, the trainer herself made me feel like I was being judged and then ignored. Well, the ignored I was. I was there for a try of the equipment and get help on where to start (I paid for this!). She takes me to the treadmill, sets it up for me, didn't explain how to use it and left me there. Didn't show me the rest of the equipment or even tell me what they were. And worst of all, she sat in her office with the other "trainers" glancing at me, one even pointed at me and said something and then all you could hear was laughter. Right there I got off the treadmill and left.
But if time allows today, I have so much running around to do, I'll be stopping by and checking out a place. They specialize in rehabilitation but have general memberships available, they've been in business for about a year. If not, I'll do it tomorrow. Maybe their attitude and atmosphere will be different. If it feels comfortable and the staff are truly helpful, I'll try it for a month.
Off to exercise...
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