Sunday, March 20, 2011
The weather has been okay here, still cold but when the sun is out things are melting.
It's been great working downstairs with my daughter and her showing the excitement for learning.
I didn't realize how many calories I burn during the day when I'm in the soap room. I was listening to Jillian Micheal's podcasts (she's back and down-loadable from iTunes!) while making more bath bombs ( lavender and coconut lime today) and for some reason I seem to pay more attention to myself then when I listen to music. I noticed I move my feet a lot even if I'm standing in one area like when I'm mixing things. And of course it all adds up at the end of the day. Plus the strength training portion from the mixing and lifting. Plus today I did the stairs like what felt like a gazillion times between the kids yelling for me, husband asking for things, and the dogs barking - which turned out to be at the movie the kids were watching..lol.
Went for a quick 20 minute walk after dinner. Grabbed my poles, it went much better tonight, as long as I kept my mind on just walking and moving and not on the details. And the kids came with me. I think I will start the C25K program again on alternate days of the Nordic walking and hopefully I can get at least one of the kids to join me. I figure once the weather is warmer, my asthma flared tonight in the cold air, I can even do the Nordic walking in the mornings and then run after school with them. And leave the kettle bell workouts for rainy days.
I need to focus on getting outside as much as possible this year.
Over the next few weeks I have to start planning where the new veggie/herb/medicinal gardens are going. I have so much going through my head on what I want to make and try.
With the snow melting, I can feel my attitude changing and lifting.
Friday, March 11, 2011
7 months ago shortly after my lost blog, life went completely downhill. Long story short, I ended up in a deep depression (I have issues in winter to start with as I am barely ever outside), our oldest disowned us, which turned out to be just me cause I took over "his" room as my soap workroom, and to this day we still haven't spoken. I had some bloodwork done, numbers according to the doctor were just a smidgen high, but he wasn't concerned supposedly. And found out my husband was putting on an act of being supportive - he didn't want me to be overweight, but he didn't like the changes that were coming with me getting healthy, so he started to sabotage with arguments and foods.
So here I sit today. I have come to a place of understanding that I can live with that I may never speak to my son again. But as long as he doesn't stop talking and seeing his siblings that's okay. The husband and I are trying to work through things. He agrees he has to change his mindset and stop living and dredging up the past. We aren't the same people we were 20 years ago. And he needs to get active and stop letting life pass him by.
Last week I got a call from the Dr.'s office, he wants me back in for more blood work. So Monday I go in for that and I'll have the results on the Wednesday.
That phone call was the low point. I know why the tests, family history of diabetes. And I've had symptoms but didn't say anything, just tried to ignore them when I could. I know I need to change things, if I'm not diabetic I'm border lining it.
Other things that have happened over the last few months: I slipped and fell in the tub, had a nice black eye from hitting the toilet. Three months later, the week before my birthday, I slipped on the stairs outside after the husband and younger son had shoveled off the roof and lets just say I'm still healing. We were going to the high school for free family gym night, and we still went. My son has friends that go and their parents and we all play different sports together. Sadly my daughter and I are the only females there. Next day I could barely move and even today almost 4 weeks later, if I sit too long or wrong or push on it just right it still hurts. I think these once a week trips out to have fun and exercise with others has been helping me get back into the groove. Even the husband comes with us when he's home.
I think I will leave it at that for now. I have to get laundry and soap cupcakes made before we have dinner and head to the gym tonight for family night.
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