Thursday, December 01, 2011
I grew up in a family where the only vegetables were canned, and the only leafy greens was iceberg lettuce. So I'm still struggling wit getting more fresh veg and leaves into my life.
Today and the grocery store, I decided that I'd just take the plunge. I bought swiss chard and kale and figured that I'd find recipes for them. I also bought lots of other veggies. I'm committed to getting that part of my eating up to where it needs to be.
Of course, now I'm completely intimidated by my purchases, and relieved that we have plenty of my turkey soup leftover for today!
Thursday, December 01, 2011
At last hubby can't resist the Christmas movies anymore! We aren't going to be home for Christmas, so no tree for us, and I have a huge project at work so probably not going to decorate. But Christmas movies always put me in the mood.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
I missed my Monday workout. I couldn't sleep Sunday night, so didn't get up early enough on Minday, and the whole day was filled with work and then company in the evening.
Then Tuesday morning I overslept because I'd forgotten to set my alarm clock. My body was grateful for the extra rest, but it meant that my whole schedule was thrown off. Because my schedule is that I get up early enough to wake up with Spark People, then I work out, then I get to work. And now it was past the time when I was supposed to be into the "get to work" part of the day, and here I was just staggering out of bed.
Earlier this year, this would have been my "giving up" trigger. My workout schedule for the past year is riddled with short bursts of actually doing something, followed by weeks and weeks of no activity at all. And for a moment I felt resignation, and that little voice in the back of my head said, "aw, you can just try again tomorrow."
But I have learned: "tomorrow" is my enemy. Because it never really gets here. I can't do a thing with tomorrow; I can only work with today. And every today I let things slide is a day that might send me back down that slope. There are going to be "todays" where things are out of control - like Monday, when I had appointments and couldn't shuffle my schedule. I'm not going to beat myself up over a day like that; sometimes they happen.
But Tuesday was a flexible day, and just because I was starting late didn't mean that all was lost. So I pulled myself up short, tied on my shoes, and got that workout in.
Today, I'm up on time, and as soon I finish and post this, I'm tying on those shoes and heading for my workout space. When the alarm went off this morning, there was no question about it. I didn't lose momentum after all. I'm still on track.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Imagine a TV program whose contestants were grieving widows trying to get over the loss of a spouse. Imaging that program included a host who screamed into a widow's face that she were disgusting and unworthy and weak-willed, that she should just suck it up, stop feeling sorry for herself and go on this date, even if she wasn't ready.
Or how about a show featuring adults who were abused as children, where the host sneered at their pain, called them *$* babies, and told them to just get over their problems and stop being traumatized.
We wouldn't stand for that. We would object to active abuse being heaped on almost any group of people.
And yet we accept it as okay if the people are fat. As if fat itself defines a person, and that definition is "lazy, weak-willed, stupid." As if fat people don't deserve the respect we pay to other people.
As if fat makes people second-class citizens.
The Biggest Loser creates an artificial environment where the contestants have one job and one job only: get less fat. And it makes them do this job in an appallingly unhealthy way. The amount of exercise that people endure, and the way they are made to eat, are nothing short of torture. If this was happening at Guantanamo Bay, human rights organizations would be up in arms.
Instead, millions of people tune in each week to watch far people get tortured. Because fat people don't deserve any better.
This is appalling. It would be appalling even if The Biggest Loser was successful. But the fact of the matter is that the failure rate of contestants after production is right up there with the failure rate of all diet programs, which is abysmal. Fast weightloss is an artificial panacea, and dieting is a rube's game designed to make big corporations rich while sacrificing the health of ordinary Americans.
But more than promoting the fantasy anyone can be thin if they just allow themselves to be tortured and treated like dirt, The Biggest Loser teaches people to hate themselves for being fat. It radiates loathing, and treats responsible weight losses like some kind of failure.
It tells people like me that they have no dignity.
You know what? I'm not buying it. Yes, I'm fat. Yes, I am working on becoming a healthier person, and being a healthier person means that I should weigh less. But on every step of the journey I am still a worthy human being deserving of respect. I am a person who has the right to laugh and love and enjoy a good meal.
I will not let reality TV take that away from me.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Hubby 2.0 (an excellent upgrade) and I are celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary. Now, our actual anniversary was back in September, but the autumn was so busy that we never got a chance to celebrate. This weekend, which was supposed to be filled with travel and other people before the car breakdown, has finally given us the breathing space for some time to spend cuddled up together just appreciating each other.
He's a wonderful guy, and I feel very fortunate to have him in my life. It's wonderful being with someone who really cheishes and appreciates me.
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