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Wednesday, August 15, 2012

The thing about accomplishing a big goal is that it's easy to go into "completion" mode afterward. And completion mode means that I've gained almost 10 pounds.

I know that it's mostly water retention, it being that time of month, but I am finding it a bit difficult to get back out of the "I'm working out 4 hours a day and can eat EVERYTHING" mode.

I have to get myself into a new mental state, one that is aimed at longterm, steady training. It's necessary not only for weightloss, but also to get the rest of my life back on an even keel. Lots of work stuff got set aside because I was putting in those really long hours of workouts.

It's easier to contemplate than to enact.

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TATTER3 8/16/2012 6:22AM

    Keep Sparkin'!!

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TRAVLNWOMAN 8/15/2012 11:15PM

    Achieving a big goal that you have worked extremely hard to achieve is a double edge sword. You have the elation from the accomplishment followed by the depression of not striving toward something.

You are on the right track though. I recently changed my thinking of exercising to lose weight to exercising to get fit with weight loss as an added bonus.

As DOGLADY13 said, ask yourself if you want to be doing this at 80? I'm loving biking with my 11 yr/old grandson. He said I'm not like a normal grandma because I go out and do stuff with him instead of sitting at home being old! I told him we will be doing this 20 or 30 years from now when he is in his 40's and I'm in my 70's or 80's!

THAT'S what I want to be doing when I'm 80 so THAT'S my long term goal. It's going to take a life time of training to get there.

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 8/15/2012 10:12PM

    You are so right.

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MAHGRET 8/15/2012 8:59PM


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DOGLADY13 8/15/2012 8:48PM

    One of the things that helped me get over that type of behavior is to re-frame my way of thinking of my goals. Rather than the number on the scale, I think about "do I want to be doing this when I'm 80?" It could be anything from weight fluctuations, to eating food that makes me feel terrible, going for a bike ride or putting on a dress that looks terrific.

So now I think about doing things that I want to be doing long term. I dunno. I can't explain it, but it makes it easier for me to not beat up on myself when I gain 4 pounds on vacation, because I actually do want to be able to eat junk at my niece's party and not feel guilty but I don't want to be eating junk every night.

In any event, you are right on target in thinking that you need to change the way you think. Much better than giving up!

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ATHENAPOWER 8/15/2012 7:07PM

    I agree with so much of what you said... except for getting yourself down about water weight! That number is lying! emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 8/15/2012 4:38PM

    I know I've seen others who make a point that making a new "big goal" is necessary - something to keep us pointed in the right direction. Good luck finding that and the mental state to go with it.

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CHEFSOPHIE 8/15/2012 4:29PM

    Sounds like you know what is needed, and I'm sure once you get started it will all fall into place. You are so good about setting goals and then working to accomplish them.

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MICKIE27 8/15/2012 4:25PM

    You've already done the most important thing, which is to acknowledge that you need to change something up. You already know how to succeed, and as long as you keep that in mind, you'll be back on track in no time!

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CAKEMAKERMOM 8/15/2012 4:13PM

    You can work it back out one meal at a time. Have you been tracking everything so you know where you can cut back? Time to change things up again!

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Half credit for my work

Sunday, August 12, 2012

According to Spark People, I have engaged in 801 minutes of exercise so far this month.

In reality, I have engaged in 1,619 minutes of exercise in August.

Because my time tends to be in distance events, I only get credit for the daily maximum of 2 hours. Now, some part of Spark People recognizes the time expenditure because I was awarded my 1,000 minutes trophy on the 4th, after a day when I rode 81 miles over 7+ hours. But as far as my SparkAmerica Fitness Minutes are concerned, I only got my 120 minutes for that day.

I know that in the greater scheme of things, the fact that I DID that exercise is far more important than SparkAmerica Fitness Minutes. But it's still a little irksome.

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    I think it is to help those who are prone to overexercising keep a more realistic view of their activity. If you got 7 hours of credit today, you may be compelled to do that again tomorrow because of the eating/body image disorder. I know it seems a little strange, but many do get this obsessive about exercise.


It is great that you have these very busy days and are so active. You will benefit from the exercise anyway.

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ATHENAPOWER 8/13/2012 8:28AM

    In the big picture, absolutely it matters more that you did it! But I agree, if the idea of the credits and points is to keep us motivated - and it seems to work - then we should get all the points for all the workouts!

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CAROL- 8/12/2012 9:58PM

    It frustrates me too, sometimes. Keep up the good work!

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CHEFSOPHIE 8/12/2012 9:07PM

    It really doesn't seem fair, but you are correct you are getting healthier.

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Man plans, and gods laugh

Friday, August 10, 2012

Today's plan was simple: get up and do abs and strength training, get laundry done, go to Party City with DD to pick up costume bits for the Super Hero Bike Ride tomorrow evening (just a fun ride, but costumes! and the way we'll do it, 30-40 miles of riding), then drive over to our best friends' house to pick up their sugar gliders, which we are pet-sitting for the two weeks they are on vacation. After that, come home, change into bike clothes, and bike to the farmer's market to buy produce. After that, get home in time to greet our out-of-town, weekend guest.

Well, we were starting our workout when the repair guy came to look at the treadmill. That took way longer than we expected, and though we got some chores done, suddenly it was afternoon. Then the costuming took three separate stops, partly because figuring out an effective costume that is also safe for biking is a bit of a chore. She's going as Cat Woman, I'm going as Mighty Mouse. Mouse ears are hard to find!

Then we drove across town to pick up the critters. Though they had promised to leave the door unlocked for us to get in, they forgot and locked up. So there was an hour of waiting until the friend with the spare key arrived. By this time the farmer's market was closed.

We got home and had just enough time for a short bike ride, only 9 miles. We have no produce in the house, but at least we got in most of the exercise we wanted for the day.

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EUPHRATES 8/12/2012 1:43PM

    Still sounds pretty productive to me! :) Hope you're enjoying your weekend!

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CHEFSOPHIE 8/11/2012 10:47AM

    Well you still got a lot done and produce will be there today .

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ATHENAPOWER 8/11/2012 10:02AM

    That ride (not this one, but the planned super hero ride) sounds amazing! This ride sounded fine too, ha ha, but costumes??? Yes, fun!

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MAHGRET 8/11/2012 8:40AM

    I think the ability to roll with the punches when plans go awry is I think the biggest stumbling block for many of us.

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OPTIMIST1948 8/11/2012 7:19AM

    Mouse ears: get a headband and some heavy felted fabric. Cut a half circle, bend it slightly in the middle and then sew it to the headband. Have a great time on the Superhero ride!

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TATTER3 8/11/2012 6:56AM

    One of those Augh days!!!

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 8/10/2012 11:09PM

    Sounds like an interesting day. Sometimes things just don't work out but glad you got some fitness in.

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This very hard thing we are doing, and why we need to be both vigilant and kind

Thursday, August 09, 2012

There was a discussion in one of my forums during which someone said that people fail at mainenance because they stop eating right and exercising. I think it's unfair and too simplfied to say that people just stop trying. There are biological components going on that make maintenance extremely difficult, and all the weightloss research in the world hasn't found a way to circumvent those yet.

No one wants to get fat again. None of us who have yoyo-ed hundreds of pounds are happy with that. Losing weight causes measurable metabolic changes that our bodies resist and try to "correct." Staying lighter is staying at war with our biological makeups, and that constant vigilance gets exhausting.

If there was ever anyone who had a million-dollar-a-year motivation to stay thin, and access to all the resources for doing so, it was Kirstie Alley when she was Weight Watchers' spokeperson, and that wasn't enough motivation.

Oprah Winfrey could PAY people to slap food out of her hand, and that isn't enough motivation.

To expect Joe and Jane Average, who have the daily stresses of life to juggle and the occasional life crisis to meet, to be able to do better than these celebrities who can afford every advantage is unreasonable. And to BLAME Joe and Jane Average for failing at something that 90-95% of people fail at is to deny years of science and research and about as realistic as believing that leprechauns are the secret to weightloss.

I've read numerous studies that conclude that weightloss is simply ineffective, and is more likely to lead to longterm weight gain and worse health because of lost muscle mass in the weightloss attempt--and then end with a conclusion that people should keep trying anyway. If that research had been for a cancer drug and the conclusion was that in 90-95% of cases it had no effect and might actually make the patient worse, but we should go ahead and administer it anyway, the authors would be laughed out of the scientific community. But because it's fat, and because we cling to the belief that somehow willpower is enough--despite all the scientific evidence that it isn't--we just keep on blaming the patient and hoping for the best.

We are playing a lottery with very long odds. I am playing it right along with everyone else here on Spark People, even knowing those odds. I am not focusing on being thin. I will never be thin. I am focusing on being healthy, and on being able to move around and do lots of physical activity that I couldn't before. I am focusing on eating healthy foods, and paying attention to when I am full, and not denying myself good food so that I feel compelled to binge. Weightloss is coming with that, and I'm pleased about that. But I am also aware of the issues that surround it. I can't deny or ignore those.

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    Thanks for posting this! I lost 45 pounds last year, and this year I've been majorly backsliding and regained 10! Maintaining is so hard - it seems like I'm either working really hard at losing, or I end up gaining. I really appreciated your wisdom, and I friended you :)

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EUPHRATES 8/12/2012 1:41PM

    :: applause ::

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ATHENAPOWER 8/10/2012 9:05AM

    Yes, I've been dealing with this very beast - lost weight, not as much as I wanted, stopped working that hard at it but remained active (which, like a poster above, was curtailed by sports injuries) and now that I'm trying to lose it again, it seems a lot harder. But ultimately it's all about feeling good and being healthy - good blood pressure, eating good healthful foods, being able to be active - not being skinny. Thank you!

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ARTHURTOM 8/9/2012 5:47PM

    "I am focusing on being healthy, and on being able to move around and do lots of physical activity that I couldn't before"

Herein lies the key for the 90-95% of the people that fail.

If/when your weight hits either your target or near your target, nothing changes other than your physical composition. Your everyday responsibilities outside of the realm of your health do not simply vanish into thin air. If anything, the challenges become more intense, especially if you're not prepared.

Just as having a battle plan helps you win the battle, one needs to plan for contingincies to be successful in winning the war.

I had successes beyond even what I thought I could do in 2009. My nickname from my neighbors in 2009 was Rambo. I let that get to my head. I had executed my original plan from September of 2007 flawlessly. By September 2009 I changed my physical self from a 380 pound sedentery home body into a 193 pound "I'm able to do whatever I want to do when I want to do it" type of person.

The sky was the limit. I felt good. I looked good. I ate good. I worked out like a warrior and I ate sensibly.

What happened to change that? Injury.

I didn't have a plan for being injured. I had a few incidences in 2009 that should have given me a "wake up call" if you will, but I ignored them because of my excellent physical health. 4/1/2009 (which I believe was the catalyst for my problems) I ran into a concrete trash container on Cleveland's Public Square while running at a full head of steam trying to catch a bus. At first I thought I had been hit by a car as I was falling to the ground. My left side of my body took the brunt of the impact and spun me off of the container and I landed face down. I blogged about that incident http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_p

Compounding matters, about five weeks later I took a tumble off of my bicycle while traveling at a pretty good rate of speed on the towpath which I also blogged about http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_p

Setting me up for the biggie in November of 2009 when I injured my left hip and could hardly walk and that sent me into a tailspin that I'm still recovering from nearly 3 years later.

The most difficult thing I've found is that when I'm injured, I can't adjust my nutrition to my level of inactivity. I've gotten better at it as this year on April 15, I injured my gluteal muscle on the same hip helping someone move a whirlpool jacuzzi. This time I backed off on my intake and rested myself 10 weeks before returning to my workout regimen on June 24.

One of the problems for me that comes along with injury is depression. I get depressed because I cannot be active.

Not saying this happens to that 90-95% of people but can give others insight to be able to plan for something that I didn't.

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MUGGLEMUM 8/9/2012 2:51PM

    Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

I've left various forums because they seem to have forgotten that SparkPeople is about SUPPORT.

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DOTTIEJANE1 8/9/2012 11:47AM

    Great blog we should all be focused on healthily and not a number or size, fitness and eating good food and a active lifestyle .

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CHEFSOPHIE 8/9/2012 10:55AM

    Well said. I do think people need to separate thin from healthy and concentrate on the healthy.

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CAKEMAKERMOM 8/9/2012 9:57AM

    Anyone can do a study and even so there is the 5-10% chance we'll be the ones who easily maintain the weight loss!

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NICOLED40 8/9/2012 9:54AM

    Excellent blog! You make a lot of sense. It's difficult to sometimes separate "thin" from "healthy".

Thanks for the dose of reality!


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Tuesday, August 07, 2012

It sounds crazy, after a weekend in which I biked 125 miles, to say that I have to get myself rededicated to my journey. But in reality my weight has bounced up about 10 pounds because I was eating EVERYTHING in anticipation of this ride.

Now that the ride is over, and my whole life isn't focused around the bicycle, I have to sort of "detox" from the continual eating, and rebuild a more even workout schedule. Not that I'm not going to ride--I'm pledged to get in another 650 miles before the end of the year, and I'd rather not be doing them in the snow--but that I'm going to balance it out with weight training, walking, and ab work to get a more balanced me.

And get back to eating appropriate portions for burning 200-300 exercise calories a day, instead of 1,500-2,000. My eating has gotten really sloppy, as has my tracking. I have work to do in those arenas. And I will, because I am determined to end this year as healthy as possible.

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EUPHRATES 8/12/2012 1:39PM

    I had the EXACT same thing happen with the marathon, and then added another 5 lbs in the mix somehow too. *sighs* Which is still hanging around, because with school I let myself make excuses regarding getting to the gym as regularly as I should have.

I rededicated last week. And today I'm up another pound, which is VERY frustrating. But I'm just that much more determined (and am off to the gym RIGHT NOW to take out my frustrations in a constructive way rather than eating my way through our already sparse and dwindling food stores). GRRRRR!

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CHEFSOPHIE 8/7/2012 10:47AM

    It sounds like you have a great balanced approach now that the ride has been completed, but don't forget to congradulate yourself for the work you put in for the ride. Getting healthy isn't always about the scale.

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CAKEMAKERMOM 8/7/2012 10:44AM

    I know you can do it because you said you will! We all get off track at times, but you will climb back on that horse (or bike in your case) and get everything back in balance!

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MUGGLEMUM 8/7/2012 10:02AM

    Yeah for you! It's always hard to re-dedicate. It's just not as interesting as the first time around was! Balance is the key, and I think you know that. I tend to get rather perfectionistic about it all---and then I go bazerko when it's not perfect. Don't do that! It's vastly ineffective! Good luck!

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