Monday, February 18, 2013
I just posted my goals. I am going to be journaling and not letting my emotions control me. I may incorporate yoga to my routine but don't want to do to many changes at once, so for now I'm going ot try to do the morning meditation and the 2 soulcycle workouts in the pm. One today! And then when I move and hopefully have a gym I won't have to spend as much on soul cycle. I don't need to thin k about that now though. One step at a time!
I am now reading an article on SP on how to destress in 3 minutes. I'm onto the last part about putting things in perspective. This is totally where i go way off track. for example, I'm so stressed about the CFA exam that I do no studying and think the world is going to come to an end if I fail. It's not! I don't know why I feel so much pressure. I have a lot of other stress in my life and I can't deal with all of it.
I moved, need to find a new apt for next month, am trying to turn my job permanent, and and having struggling with eating well and exercising which really stresses me out. Then i've got living in a new area and not really knowing a ton of people plus this exam. I need to figure out my priorities.
1. Mental health (I am officially putting myself first - eat better, exercise, sleep)
2. Focus on the job (I can always take the CFA later, the job is the priority)
On one hand with the exam I really do want to pass. But I get so nervous about it that i don't know what to do. I end up doing nothing. This is where I just have to suck it up and just do it. So what if i fail? I take it again? Is that really the end of the world? No. I want to feel good about myself. I will do the best I can and that is ok!
Monday, July 02, 2012
My schedule has been more hectic than I was planning on it being. Yesterday I went to my brothers house and ate a veggie burger with a salad with lots of avocado and beets with goat cheese and corn. No, it's not unhealthy but the portion was too big! Today my mom prepared dinner and of course i ate it. I realized that I need to make dinner for myself, even though I keep wanting it to work when my mom makes it, because I know I will get full by the meals I make, plus I will be able to control portion sizes. If I go over my daily limit by even 100 or 200 cals, it makes a big difference in terms of not losing weight. When i'm home I feel pressure (mostly from myself) to eat with the fam, but I need to just make myself cook dinner! Not that it's a big thing, but when my mom makes it I end up eating more because 1) i will eat before dinner when i get too hungry and 2) my portion sizes are bigger. Plus then I can't track calories and then i get nervous that I'm eating too much. But then if i don't eat enough i eat too much later.
tomorrow I wanted to go to spin class but i can't go anymore because I have a drs apt which i had to switch to the morning. And then wednesday is july fourth. ugh i feel like i'm never going to get on track with this! so frustrating.
I'm good once I have a routine established, but trying to establish one with all this stuff that I'm needing to work around is stressful and difficult!
sorry if it's repetitive, i have a million thoughts at once!
Sunday, July 01, 2012
I have not been eating well by any means. I have gained a lot of weight back and am so sick of this process. I tried switching around my weight loss plan but have been unsuccessful, so I'm going back to (for the most part) what I did at school. However, i'm taking out my night snack and adding an extra day snack. pleaaaase work!
Here is my plan:
meal 1: (300 cals)
meal 2: (150 cals)
meal 3: (300 cals)
meal 4: (150 cals)
meal 5: (450 cals)
For the fitness part, next two weeks:
Mon. Yoga Workout
Tues. Spin Class
Wed. Yoga Workout + 20 mins cardio
Thurs. Spin Class
Fri. Yoga Workout + 20 mins cardio
Sat. Longer Run?
When my monday morning meetings end in 2 weeks I can bump up spin to 3x per week. If I switch then I plan to do:
M - spin
T - yoga
W - Spin
R - yoga
F - Spin
S - yoga
I'm also going to start tracking all my food again. It hard being at home because there is all this other food around, but I can do it. I also was trying to work it out so I can eat my mom's dinners, but it just isn't working. It's not that her meals aren't healthy, because they are, but her dinners are served anywhere from like 5:30-7 and they're not always that filling, and I also feel self conscious sometimes when I eat them because i'm hungry and she serves these little dinners too late for me so then I'm really hungry and i don't know how many calories are in them.
I also realized I like journaling after I get up. So I want to start doing that. One thing that I wrote on my profile page when I just updated it was that when I feel in control of my physical health everything else falls into place. Like when I have a good workout and feel like i'm losing weight I have a lot of mental focus and can be really productive. I need to focus on that instead of the other way around. Recently i've been like well I need to find a job and then in my extra time I can figure out how to lose weight, but that has not been working because my mental focus has been so off. I need to make myself the priority and then once i'm there I have plenty of time to do everything else i need to do.
That's one of the reasons I think this yoga routine will be good for me. I did it at the beginning of the year when I lost weight. It's not the most challenging routine, but it should help calm me, which is necessary because i've been so stressed!
Coming home is always really challenging for me because I have a complicated relationship with my parents, and living at home just brings me down. But I think the yoga routine mixed with the high energy spin classes which always put me in a good mood should help!
So today is the first day of July.
Here are my goals:
- lose at least 6-7 lbs (120lbs)
- establish set routine that I feel happy continuing with
- be happy!!
- get back my mental focus!
- be able to work in fun activities while still eating well (feel comfortable going out to dinner, drinks, etc with friends and still lose weight)
- hopefully be closer to finding a job! or have one :)
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
Today was another successful day. I didn't get as much done on my take home final as I wanted to, but my brain is also dead and continuing to work on it is painful...so I'm stopping.
Aside from that though, I had a tough workout this morning and I ate well all day. Slight issue with going to the beach next weekend though, because the flights I found are super expensive and of course since i'm me i didn't buy the plane ticket any earlier...so I don't know what's going on with that and its stressing me out. I'm just ready to be done with this final. I also got my first grade! A- in portfolio management. yay! Too bad the class that is going to bring down my grade isn't required and isn't of any interest to me...although maybe that's why i'm doing the worse in that class, hah. I sort of wish I hard more time to relax before going to myrtle (if that works out due to the plane issues). I kind of just don't want to deal with it but i know i'll regret it if I don't go and everyone else does. I'm just not good and focusing on more than one thing at a time.
Now time to relax then onto day 4!
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