Wednesday, May 16, 2012
When I woke up this morning I felt like it would be a good day. I woke up before the alarm clock went off and cuddled up to my husband. He was not in such a good mood and so I got up and went into the living room to do yoga and meditate a little before the rest of the family got up. My meditation focus today was on making good choices and not stressing myself out. I have a bad habit of not taking things one step at a time and trying to solve every problem I've ever had or will have in one day and I wind up overwhelming myself. As I was deep in meditation my husband came into the living room and started discussing my 15 year old stepson who is causing us quite a bit of pain and suffering right now. He told his dad last night that he did not have school today (he does not go to the regular high school. He was asked not to return last year, he is now in an alternative program) and his dad did not check with the school and was now regretting his decision. I told my husband to call the school and check with them because I thought my stepson was lying. It turns out I was correct, my stepson was of course, lying as usual. Today is not going as planned to say the least and so I'm hoping that by writing about it and keeping myself occupied today, I can keep myself on an even keel and not have some sort of binge or rash action. If you have ever felt like life is overwhelming and you just can't think straight, take a moment and listen to your breathing. You can do this anywhere and it will help you to slow down and really think about what is really going on and not what your mind blows it up to be. I have the alarm set on my phone at different times every day and when the alarm goes off it tells me to calm down and breathe. It's a nice reminder for those days when I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff. Hope someone will read this and relate.