Sunday, April 01, 2012
This has been a great weekend so far. Nothing monumental happening, other than the fact that I feel so much better than I have in months. I'm just amazed at how the changes in just one week have made such a difference in the way I feel. It gives me even more motivation to continue.
I started reading The Spark this weekend. I bought it a long time ago, but never really read it. Now i'm glued to every word trying to soak up as much as I can. I really want to do it this time. I keep visualizing how I will feel and look when I reach my goals. I even got the courage last night to take a few pictures so that I can see my progress along the way. I've always steered clear of doing this because I can't stand to see myself and what I've become. But now I see it as motivation to change. For so many years i've been content with my weight going up and down. I always felt like if I didn't hit 200 lbs I was ok. But i've realized that i'm still overweight...and I need to do something about it before it's too late.
It's only been a week since i've started, but it's been a very positive week. The changes have made a huge impact on how I feel. In the past, I was always miserable and starving. This time it was different. I do a lot of self talk, or shall I say I talk to myself a lot. Being so addicted to food I have to constantly remind myself that the mindless overeating I was doing was killing me....not just physically, mentally too. It's hard because I love to eat. I enjoy food. But I have to keep reminding myself that it's eat to live, not live to eat. I have to stay mindful and not mindless. It's challenging. There are days I just don't know what to eat. I need variety and sometimes I run out of ideas and end up eating the same things over and over. I'm trying very hard this time not to do that so that i'm not tempted to binge. I allow myself to eat "normal" things and not just "diet" foods.
Well one week down and feeling great...can't wait to see what next week brings!