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Stress, stress, and more stress..

Saturday, April 07, 2012

Haven't been able to blog the last couple of days because life has been crazy. My job has been unbearable this last week. And my attitude about my job has been so poor. I know I need to dig deep and just suck it up. Change is always hard. To add to that my son decided a few days ago to be difficult. It's so hard to focus on yourself when you have all these outside stressors weighing on you.

Needless to say, i'm still persevering. Last night I let myself cheat. BUT I was still mindful. I had a piece of cheese pizza before we went to the movies and at the movies I had pretzel bites with cheese. I was proud that I forgoed the gallon of soda and box of candy that I would usually woof down. Granted my choices weren't healthy, but it wasn't enough to add pounds to the scale. And I didn't beat myself up for straying. I felt like I was still in control. I made the choice and I didn't go nuts. Normally i'd say the heck with it and just eat out control until my stomach would bust...and then feel guilty and eat some more. I find that i'm more AWARE of what i'm eating. I think that's important.

So as the weekend continues...I have housework to do, which will keep me moving and my son mentioned going for a bike ride. He's been pretty humble the last few days since I took everything that was near and dear to him. I'm hoping the rest of the weekend is pretty quiet, i'm on call at work and i'm really not in the mood to have to deal with too much else.

I'm just going to keep pushing toward my goal. Forward progress!

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LITTLEBO 4/11/2012 9:33PM

    just remember that it is small changes that add up.,think of those choices as small steps toward the larger goal. and remember to take time for yourself

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BLUE42DOWN 4/7/2012 3:34PM

    You've got it quite right - it is quite a success to be able to have foods by our choice rather than mindlessly wolfing them down. When we do so, we also appreciate the food more, I find.


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AZMOMXTWO 4/7/2012 11:33AM

  you are doing great keep up the good work and lets hope that the outsids stressord go by the wayside

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The battle continues...

Thursday, April 05, 2012

Well that battle continues on to stay focused. Lord knows i've had numerous road blocks thrown my way this week. Major stress with my job and a teenage son...need I say more? I'm still staying focused and still eating healthy. I've been trying to incorprate little walks in my day when I can. Things have been so busy and hectic, it's been challenging.

So far this week, i'm down another pound! I knew that things would slow down a bit, but that's good. Slow and steady wins the race. As long as i'm seeing progress that's all that matters.

Here's to hoping that the stressors in my life lessen and that my son CHILLS OUT! emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 4/5/2012 7:55PM

    Ah, teenagers.

emoticon continuing to fight the battle!

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What goes up must come down....

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

Yesterday definately burst my bubble. Went to work feeling great and extremely positive about everything. Within an hour or two it went right down the crapper. I actually at one point broke down and cried. I hate stress.

So I put on my big girl pants and went for a brisk walk on my lunch break. I walked for about 20 minutes and did feel a little bit better. Didn't make the problems go away, but did help a bit with my stress level. I was proud that I still ate sensible and didn't do my normal stress binge. I have no control over some of the other things going on in my life, but I have control over me and what I eat. I did however smoke more than I have been. All of last week I went from being a pack a day smoker to less than half a pack. Yesterday...not so much. One step at a time.

Today I have to stay focused and hope for the best. A positive attitude wins out!

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LITTLEBO 4/3/2012 9:53PM

    Great decision to take a walk to deal with the stress. Stress will never go away, so when you can find something other than eating...that is a huge WIN!

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BLUE42DOWN 4/3/2012 2:13PM


Well done not letting the external stresses overcome your internal determination to push forward!

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GRATEFUL-DAD 4/3/2012 10:43AM

    There is something to that control thing, I have been thinking a lot about that lately. My wife is pregnant with our second and she's had a terrible time with morning sickness. It's been a tough couple of months for us. But instead of using it as an excuse to perpetuate unhealthy habits like I did last time she was pregnant, I have changed my attitude around and I see my eating and exercise habits as one of the few things I can control right now. I have found a lot of comfort and sanity in that realization. And instead of gaining weight along with her like I did last time, I've lost almost 20 pounds since she became pregnant. I'm proud of that.

You're going to have lots of bad days along the way. But you hit it on the head with the control thing. Don't let the bad days control you. Do everything you can to control what you can and you'll come out on top in the end.

Keep your head up and never doubt yourself, you are very capable of doing this.

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Week 2

Monday, April 02, 2012

Today is the beginning of week 2 and i'm so excited! I've lost 6lbs so far. That's a lot for one week, but I always lose quite a bit at first and then taper off to a lb or two a week. I don't mind though because it's 6lbs!! I feel great and I don't feel deprived or starving to death.

Last night we went out to dinner. I did great. I allowed myself to eat what I wanted (did my research before we went) but I was mindful of how much I ate. I even allowed myself a glass of red wine. And when I stood on the scale I was happy to see that I didn't sabbotage my progress like I usually do.

This week I am really going to try and make the effort to incorporate some exercise in to my schedule. I have an hour for lunch so i'm going to pack some extra clothes and maybe fit a walk in. Or maybe a bike ride when I get home....or maybe both? emoticon

Here's to another week of health!!

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BLUE42DOWN 4/2/2012 5:01PM


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Cheers to another week of health! emoticon

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Great weekend so far...

Sunday, April 01, 2012

This has been a great weekend so far. Nothing monumental happening, other than the fact that I feel so much better than I have in months. I'm just amazed at how the changes in just one week have made such a difference in the way I feel. It gives me even more motivation to continue.

I started reading The Spark this weekend. I bought it a long time ago, but never really read it. Now i'm glued to every word trying to soak up as much as I can. I really want to do it this time. I keep visualizing how I will feel and look when I reach my goals. I even got the courage last night to take a few pictures so that I can see my progress along the way. I've always steered clear of doing this because I can't stand to see myself and what I've become. But now I see it as motivation to change. For so many years i've been content with my weight going up and down. I always felt like if I didn't hit 200 lbs I was ok. But i've realized that i'm still overweight...and I need to do something about it before it's too late.

It's only been a week since i've started, but it's been a very positive week. The changes have made a huge impact on how I feel. In the past, I was always miserable and starving. This time it was different. I do a lot of self talk, or shall I say I talk to myself a lot. Being so addicted to food I have to constantly remind myself that the mindless overeating I was doing was killing me....not just physically, mentally too. It's hard because I love to eat. I enjoy food. But I have to keep reminding myself that it's eat to live, not live to eat. I have to stay mindful and not mindless. It's challenging. There are days I just don't know what to eat. I need variety and sometimes I run out of ideas and end up eating the same things over and over. I'm trying very hard this time not to do that so that i'm not tempted to binge. I allow myself to eat "normal" things and not just "diet" foods.

Well one week down and feeling great...can't wait to see what next week brings! emoticon

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MISSB222 4/2/2012 9:38AM

    Thanks! I'm really feeling a difference in my mindset this time. It's not always easy but it's forward progress!

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BLUE42DOWN 4/1/2012 3:09PM


I really should pick myself up a copy of The Spark one of these days.

It sounds like you really are going at this as a lifestyle now, which is great!

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