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Oooh I have been so very very bad!!!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

I don't know what to say really, I've been gone a long time. I feel a little bit like someone who broke off a relationship and guiltily is asking to be taken back, even though I really don't deserve it. Maybe I got too busy in my life, maybe i became a little prideful in my success. I was doing so well at playing the weight loss game that I thought I didn't need Spark in my life any more. Oh, and it was quite a lot of work actually. Finding a place to hang out with internet access so I could log the food I ate, keeping track of food until I found a place. Finding time to exercise as my job became more and more consuming of my time. I was talking to a friend recently and she pointed out the stupidity of it. I have been blessed with a fairly flexible schedule, and I don't think twice about leaving work to take my daughter to her riding lessons, or other other commitments on her schedule, and yet I use my schedule as an excuse to not make time for a workout. Why do I sabotage myself like that? I didn't even realize how long it has been since I have had Spark in my life until I logged on and my last post was in February.
So my dear dear Spark. Please forgive me. I strayed but it meant nothing. I was stupid. Without you I just am not as successful as I could be. If you will have me, I will stick with you. I am a better person with you. I was so silly to think otherwise. I will be a perfect angel. emoticon

  
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CRAFTINWIFE 12/26/2012 11:27PM

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KATRINAKRAUT 12/25/2012 1:22PM

    We don't care where you have been, just that you are here. welcome back and Happy Holidays!

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Giant Pop Bottles, Tea Rooms, and Undeserved Success

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

Wild Wednesday. To start off I just want to say I did not deserve to be successful. Yes I worked my but off on the trails near my home. Still walking but actually running for spurts. I hope to work my way up to a complete run in the near future. I could feel it a little. The way it feels when you run and you no longer have to think about where to place your feet or the rhythm of your breath, a little like being on auto-pilot. I fly. And then my body realizes I have burdened it with a lot of extra pounds since it's last run and starts to complain. But that's okay. I will get there again, and this time I will appreciate it for what it is. Freedom.
I did well again for my weekly weigh in losing a couple undeserved pounds, undeserved because I did NOT eat well over the weekend and was very very bad. So bad I refused to log onto my spark page at all. I felt very guilty about it too. But the good thing is that even after totally annihilating my hard work over the weekend I made an amazing come back, worked my but off this week and still had a loss.
So what did I learn? I learned the key to success is hard work and persistence despite failures. I also learned I should plan some activities over the weekend so I am not entirely bored and end up eating.
Speaking of eating my project this week and next is working on some soups and sandwiches for
my tea rooms that will be opening in April. I am trying to fine tune a French Onion and also working at making some fun colored french macaroons. If anyone has any amazing recipes for said items please share! I need to get a serious menu together really soon.
And in other miscellaneous news I went to see a giant pop bottle on the old Route 66 the other day with my daughter. It's Gigantic. Reminds me a little of the eiffel tower (but tackier) It even lights up at night! They serve like 500 flavors of pop, even a hot wing flavor, and while I don't generally drink soda at all it was a fun place to see. So if you are ever on route 66 check out POPS. It's actually a service station/ diner/ pop emporium. Here is the giant pop bottle:
Have a great week!

  
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COOPAH 2/1/2012 5:54PM

    Three steps forward, two steps back is still one step forward. What you do next is the key...Love the giant pop bottle lol.

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My first week!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

I love to journal, I have a ton of them. Leather bound with beautiful designs, pieces of art really. I don't so much love to blog though. The reason is that when you blog, there is the possibility that others may see what you have written. In blogging I am baring myself to be ridiculed, laughed at, and seen as ridiculous. I may Be ridiculous, but just would rather not others know about it. emoticon So I have been reading others blog post and seen such courage from everyone, that even though I never intended to blog, here I am writing public confessions. Confession: I did not post a picture because I am so ashamed to let others see it. I know how big I am, know it's my own fault I look that way, and for your information I actually have not allowed my photo to be taken in years. Not by family, not anyone. I don't want a personal record of what I have done to myself. I am not proud of it.
But you see, I am reading through the blogs of others and I see all these amazing people posting their before and after photos and it inspired me to be a little less selfish. Yes I can prevent others from ever seeing on line an example of what I have allowed myself to become, but then it really is just about me isn't it? Me protecting myself from embarrassment. I received so much encouragement from those photos! I see them and say, there is hope for me too! Maybe posting my photo or writing my thoughts is not so much about me, but about how it can encourage others.
So I will try and post a photo. I will write my thoughts. But may I ask to please be kind and realize I am just a silly girl who made some mistakes and is paying for them but trying to remedy them at the same time?
That said here is my little celebration for my first week I actually lost a little more than four pounds, I think. Which is a yay! Sad news is I did submit to an urge to binge a couple days ago so could have been better. I find I do better if I eat a later breakfast, lunch and then still have calories to burn later in the day. I know that goes against what you are supposed to do by eating your bigger meal earlier in the day but I tried that and ended up so hungry at night I binged. I can handle hunger earlier in the day but not at night. So maybe I am just weird, if it works, it works, so I will stick with it.

  
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DIGGING2GRAVES 1/29/2012 2:57PM

  Hi MissAngelFace, you commented on my blogpost and I wanted to visit your page and say thanks! Also, I read your first post and it was so beautifully insightful - I could totally appreciate what you mean. I don't post my picture for being self-conscious as well, but for other reasons - my fitness and diet journey is part of my recovery since I survived my former spouse's infidelity which only two people in my life know as the real reason for my marriage ending and I need to be anonymous as it might affect my kids and other situations as well (I know people in real life who use Sparkpeople). That aside, I wanted to say you are a beautiful person, outside and in!

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