Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Well today wasn't the best day.
I didn't sleep well last night, probably dreading the fact that I would have to no only go outside, but speak to people, and have some one touch in (in my private area no less).
Yup today was my yearly "Woman's Wellness" exam. Got to get my birth control somehow.
So I didn't sleep, and I got up later than I wanted too. My alarm on my phone decided it didn't want to work today. Weird. I got in a little bit of exercise. I did an ab and lower body DailyHIIT routine. It was about 34 minutes, but it was enough. Dang am I sore. And dang do I feel weak. Oh well. Abs are kinda of the bane of my life. I can do crunches to kingdom come, but ask me to do anything with my legs up in the air, and I'm kinda screwed. The lower body one went well, and got my heart rate elevated pretty well.
After that I grabbed a protein shake and started to get ready for the doctors appointment. Of course, my stomach decided it was going to be a butt and I had to go to the restroom for a long while. My appointment was at 1:30pm, and I was still on the toilet (sorry) and yet to take my shower at 12:50. I was getting nervous for more than one reason.
So I quickly showered, forgoing my hair, and got ready. Low and behold I got there too early. I decided to take the stairs because a family was in the elevator, and well you know me. I got in and had to fill out some paper work. There was this cute baby, a boy, probably about 9-10 months old with his dad. When his mom went back, he started getting kinda fussy. Poor thing was so tired. Every time he started to get fussy, I would look at him and smile. Made him get all happy and bashful too. I don't know what it is, but I am just really great with little boys around that age. They are just so cute, and they like me. Maybe it's the boobs. Hehe.
I got lead back and changed. And I waited, and waited, and waited some more. I was probably back there for 30 minutes before the doctor came to see me. That's okay, I had time to calm myself down and practice my breathing. Plus she, herself, was busy and just had a baby boy. It went pretty easy, and when she asked if I was still happy with my medication, I say yes, but it's a little expensive. I told her how much and she was just in shock. So she gave me 5 months worth of samples, a prescription, and a coupon. I was so happy. Then when I went to pay, I had a credit. WOOO! I guess I over paid a few times, so I didn't have to pay this time, or most of next time. All in all, went okay.
So I got back and changed, and started making food. I know I'm early, but hey I wanted time. I made my psyllium husk rolls into a flat bread for pizza and attempted some low carb butter cookies. The cookies probably didn't work, but I have plenty of ideas how to change them up next time. The flat bread though was a HUGE success. Only issue is not eating all of it myself tonight. In fact I might want to make mom one as well. I think I will. Hehe.
On a side note, my cauliflower brownies were awful. Not only did they take forever, but they tasted just...wrong. So I gave in and made a half batch of normal brownies for my mom. Of course she complained that I didn't put enough nuts in there. Gosh darn it, I just can't please that women.
So that's it for me. I am going to make some "lunch." Another piece of flat bread for my mom and then some knitting doctor who time! Woot woot!
Have a good one guys!
Monday, December 16, 2013
Hope everyone is having a good Monday so far. Only a few days left before Christmas, so all the crazy people are out. I am thankful I am safe and sound at home.
Saturday my dad and I actually went out to get Mom some gifts. Of course, I knew what I wanted to get here, but REI didn't have it. Go figure. I found a nice substitue though. I wanted to get her a nice rain/wind coat. The current one she uses was a $10 thrift store find. It works okay, but the rain protection comes from that spray waterproofing you get at the store. So it wears off. And as much as she wears it, I wanted to get her a nice North Face one. I am thankful my dad doesn't really bat an eye at expensive things for mom. Hehe. They didn't have it, but I found probably a bit heavier one at REI from Columbia. That should work well. I also got her a nice soft knitted beanie and some socks. I don't know if it's the socks she wanted, so we only got one pair. If she likes them, there is always her birthday on February 1st.
We also had to go to Bath and Body Works to get the usual lotion stuff. She really likes this one scent...just one. So I load up durning the season. Anything that falls short, I get for Mother's Day. She'll let me know if I need to get her more of one kind or another (spray or lotion type of thing). It was extremely busy, and a nice old lady tried to talk to my dad and I. Of course, she touched me, and already being in panic attack mode I jumped. I literally jumped and flinched away from her. She left us in peace after that. I felt bad, but hey...I am a no touch object. I have a bubble. Do not cross the bubble. I don't think I took one good breath the entire time we were in there.
We came home after that. Dad was a bit hungry so I made him a snack. I swear he is helpless.
Sunday, Mom had to work. Yup the one day she gets off a week, and she is forced to go in. If you ever hear the US government claim that the United States Postal Workers would be fine with a 5 day work week. Don't believe them. So of course, she was forced to go in from 10am to 2pm. I mean seriously, why does it have to be durning lunch man!
I had a bit of snack, and fixed one for dad, so we could wait on mom to get back. It was after 3 before we got lunch. I decided I wanted Fowlers, a local wing/sports bar joint. Best Caribbean Jerk wings EVER! So we went there. It was busy, and loud, but it was tasty. And I didn't get kicked out of keto! We even had leftovers, which is rare.
After that the both parents and I went to the grocery store. It was packed, but with both Dad and Mom to hide behind, I did alright. A couple of times I freaked out, but nothing out of the ordinary. That's so sad though...
We didn't get much, but I found my almond flour/meal, which means brownies for mom and I. She's getting really pushy about wanting brownies. Also I think I am going to try to make a keto Danish butter cookie. Mom brought home some as a gift, and I have been having one or two a day. They are small, but yummy. I think I can make them pretty easy into keto cookies since they already have an almond flavor too them.
I got Mom's card and ordered dad's gifts. I had a couple in mind, but only two really panned out. I got him this wine course book he has been wanting for a while, as well as a fancy box wine stand thingy. I think he will love that! Especially since what he does now is put the box wine on his knee...
I was hoping for Mom to have Sunday off so we could go get some t-shirts at Gander Mt for him. But I don't know if we will have time. And I need her there, because his size has changed, and I need her opinion.
Okay so that was the weekend...today I decided to change up my workout a bit. I am still tired, and sore. So I needed a break from all the HIIT-ing I was doing. Of course, I just changed up my BodyRock a bit. I joined this DailyHIIT (BodyRock's sister site) 5 day email thingy. It's called the Burn Fat Fast Challenge. Five days, five workouts. Of course it's the more tradition BodyRock type of thing, 50 second workout, 10 second rest, 4 exercises repeated for 4 rounds for a total of 12 minutes. I couldn't leave well enough alone of course, so I added in an upper body DailyHIIT workout I found as well.
It was so nice outside, I even decided to try and run a bit. It was a little odd, my heart rate recovers pretty well, but considering I haven't run in a while, I did okay. I just kinda am taking it easy on my running. Not doing anything other than running when I want, and walking when I want. So I got some sun and some cardio. Downside though, my heart rate was a bit high because of anxiety. The downside of an agoraphobic wearing a heart rate monitor outside. Oh well, at least I got some sunlight, right?
Tomorrow, I was planning in adding in a core, butt, and leg one, but I don't know if I'll get anything other than the main one done. I have a doctors appointment and of course it's at 1:30 in the afternoon. I really am dreading it, but it has to be done. I need to go and see my other doctor as well, but that requires blood work, and I don't have the paper work (I lost it in the move).
Still focusing on my diet. I feel like I have been eating too much "fake" carbs lately. Fake sugars, fake flours. It's better than eating the real thing, but those little fake ones, have small amounts of carbs that can add up quick. It's especially hard because of the holidays. Mom gets sweets and treats from people on her route, and since she has been doing one route for over a year, a lot of the people are giving her money, gift cards, and food. It's quite nice really. But the stuff she bring home! Like a tin full of those danish butter cookies, and a box of 9 of those hazelnut chocolate wafer things (I am not going to even attempt to spell that name). So it's hard. And on top of it, she wants brownies. My mom has more issues with sweet than I do....hehe.
I am still working to getting my Swagbucks. Nothing really in particular in mind, just the only way to get money. Haven't heard back from the cat care position either. At least I tried. Never know unless you try, right? I wish I could have given to them in person, but I just couldn't do it.
Well, shower, then making some cauliflower brownies. And yes you read that right! Hehe.
Have a good Monday guys!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Sorry I didn't do a blog/update yesterday, but honestly since I haven't been working out (I'm still "recovering" :P) there really isn't much to say.
I had planned to workout today, but yesterday took a lot out of me. I was forced to wake up at 6:45am. My parents, for some odd reason, tend to forget that not only do I only need 5 minutes to get ready in the morning, but I also woke myself up for 5 years when I was at college. Oh well. I set my alarm and woke up at 6:45am before my parents could do the deed. Not even 3 minutes after I woke up, did I hear my parents come to check that I was in fact up. I was in the bathroom, brushing my teeth. Silly parents.
We went to this appointment thingy. Yes, I know I am being vague, but I really don't want to say anything just yet. Of course, this means I will not be saying anything for a few months. Sorry, just bear with it for now.
We did the appointment thingy. Of course, it was only 10am when my mom and I started to complain about wanting lunch. So when we got out, 30 minutes early, we went to a local joint that is right across the road from the neighborhood we live in. It's called Blue Corn Harvest Cafe. OMG! It was the best food I have had in a long time. So good. This kinda Tex-Mex meets Baja-Mexican fusion stuff. DELICIOUS! My mom had just some enchilads, and well I am ordering those next time. Hehe. I had crab stuffed chicken, and Dad had salmon with crab/avocado salsa stuff. Funny thing is, Dad hates avocado. And well, he cleaned his plate. Yup, that good. Mom really couldn't taste our stuff because she's allergic to crab, but this is a definite keeper!
After that, both Mom and Dad took the entire day off, so we decided to check out the Costco that opened right in front of the neighborhood. If you have been following me for a while, remember when I first moved here, and I was excited about this loop around a pond? Well Costco took over part of that loop. That's how close it is. We are pretty loyal Sam's Club people, but recently we have found we never shop there. With the new Costco opening up, we wanted to see if it would fit our somewhat new shopping habits. We have to be careful with big box stores, because since it's just 3 of us, we don't need a lot. We were all very impressed with the store. The selection was good, and they really great brands.
We didn't get a membership right away, but will probably get one in January when Sam's runs out. We went back home, and basically I started getting my Swagbucks and listening to my mom snore super loud. In fact it was so bad that I had to listen to my music. That goodness for earbuds, right?
The rest of the day went by pretty easily, though I did experiment with making some "bread." Being low carb means bread is a nono, and let's just say I wasn't the happiest camper when I was eating just a hog dog and mustard with no bun. So yesterday I decided to make some bread. It was surprisingly easy. Psyllium husk powder, coconut flour, salt, baking powder, (and I added some onion powder to cut the sweetness of the coconut flour), egg whites, and hot water. Took 3 minutes to make, 2 minutes to shape, 55 minutes to bake, and it was just like bread.
Mom tried a piece and liked it. Dad tried a piece and was like, "It's bread." So I have a successful recipe. Plus it's quick. It puffs up kinda funny, so I had to flip it over, and since I was making it into a "hot dog" shape, it looked like two potatoes baking. Hehe. But a keeper, with only 3 net carbs or so!
So needless to say, I was pretty wiped out from yesterday. I am still tired, and sore, so I took another day off. I need it, though I hate knowing I took 5 full days off of working out. I am trying to keep my diet on track, but dang I would kill for a donut, or Pizza Hut pizza.
Well everything is still going okay. Busy, but good. I am sleeping better too, so that's a plus. Only 13 more days until Christmas, which means pumpkin pie and bread. Hehe. Oh well, it's the little things that make me happy. I really need to go shopping, but I need money, and you know, a cure for agoraphobia. Last Christmas when I was agoraphobic, dad kinda screwed things up, so I really need to make sure I can do stuff.
Well that's it! I hope you guys have a good weekend, and I'm off to make some more bread. Hehe. So yummy.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
...I really need a day off. Even though I won't workout tomorrow either, I really need some time off because I am sore. Not like DOMS, "ohmygosh I can't move" sore, more like "just sore." You know the kind of soreness you get when you don't sleep well, or you sleep too well. Like general aches and pains. Nothing bad, just sore.
Plus since my motivation is down the toilet, I might as well take today and tomorrow off. Especially since I will be forced to get up at 7:00am, get dressed and go to this thingy with my parents at 8:00am. Don't worry, it's a good thingy. I just don't want to mention much about it because, well, I'm kinda superstitious, and I don't want to jinx myself.
So today and tomorrow no working out. Though tomorrow I will be fairly active, especially with my mom being home, which means errands.
I really don't have much to write about today or tomorrow, but boy do I have some stories about last night.
So as I mention yesterday, I had this delicious carby sweet cookie staring at me all day. Okay, not really, but you know how it is. So after looking up sweet low carb/keto recipes, I found a peanut butter fudge one I decided to try. It was easy, and pretty yummy. My mom doesn't like it because you can taste the vanilla protein powder in it, but it's much less prominent today.
I also decided to make some low carb/keto mozzarella sticks. Those where just okay. Not enough batter,and probably would have been better if they were deep fried. I just couldn't get the coating to, well, coat. They were all right, but not something I find worth it in the long run.
Now the really fun thing I made that is totally out of my comfort zone was stuffed chicken. Now I make a killer spanakopita. That's basically a Greek spinach cheese puff pasty food. I even make a good vegan version of this too. Shocking I know. So I did my normal stuffing, which is cream cheese, spinach, mozzarella, parmesan, and butter toasted pine nuts. I put it on a flatted piece of chicken that had a light sprinkle of cajun seasoning. I then toothpicked the edges of the chicken together to make it more like it was "stuffed." It was enough to make three. I was able to also do this ahead of time, stick it in a pan in the refrigerator, then just put in the oven when I was ready. So that was a great big ol' plus in my book.
Well my mom loved it and ate one. I loved and ate one. And my dad, that never eats in the evening because of heartburn, ate half of the third one. Which Mom and I proceeded to spilt and share what was left of that. It was so good, my dad gave me a hug. Wow! I'm getting good at this whole cooking actual meals thing. It was a surprise success. The only change I think of, is adding just a touch more cajun seasoning.
So yeah, that was a big plus for yesterday. I also slept okay as well. I am just so tired though. My body needs a break. And that's okay. I just hope I will get my Christmas wish, to see 139.9 or lower on the scale.
Oh and I also sent in my application. I really wanted to go in person, but in all honesty, I'm not ready for that. I know that if I get a call about the position, I will be able to do it, but just kinda doing it out of the blue, is still too hard.
Well that's it for me today. Have a good "hump" day and rest of the week!
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
I have no idea what the heck is wrong with me. My agoraphobia is getting bad, which means when I am forced to go out into public, like today, I end up being rude and all b-i-tchy. My depression is acting up so all I really want is loads of sweets and to do nothing but sleep. And it doesn't help that there is one of the last cookies my dad brought home, which is the second best chocolate chip cookie I have ever had staring at me. Grrr.
So today was and is blah. I woke up kinda late, around 10ish, but I was sleeping well, which is an accomplishment in itself. I got to my computer and started doing my Swagbuck thing. Of course this usually means spending an hour clicking and being rejected from all of the surveys. Well today I seemed to qualify, and qualify....and qualify some more. Which is good, but at 10-30 minutes a survey, I spent some time. On the up side, I got 361 Swagbuck today. Which is only 89 shy of a $5 Amazon gift card. I also bought two of those today as well.
So I didn't get working out until nearly one this afternoon. I wasn't really in the mood, but I figured a bad workout is better than no workout. And since I still might not workout on Thursday, I am figuring I better workout now while I can.
It went okay. Honestly I really didn't try very hard. And even though I am sore, and tired, and all that jazz, my heart rate wasn't as high as it normal is. But I did it. Not well, but I did it. After that I planned on a medium length Zumba session. I got to the 6th song and quit. My heart rate wasn't even in my 60% zone (which is over 140). It was like 110 or 120. Weird, but I guess I just wasn't feeling it. I'm really tired though.
I pretty much just quit and went to pick up my medication before the schools get out. The HEB (a local grocery store) is being redone, so parking is a nightmare. I was already dreading going today, and then having to deal with people and having to wait forever with no line (they can't see me, I'm THAT short), my anxiety was super high. I snapped at the women when yet again they asked if I knew how much my birth control was. I have been on this stuff for years, yes I know!!! And no, I don't want a cheaper version, because I take it for a valid medical reason and not to get pregnant. So yeah, I was a bit of a b. Which I don't like being.
Anxiety, making people sound like asses.
I quickly got out of there thinking the entire way that this isn't worth it. Life, working out, going out, medication, all that jazz. Yeah, no one said depression is easy.
I ate probably way more than I should have. But if I am full of meat and fat, then I can not eat that last yummy chocolate chip cookie.
I am still trying new recipes left and right anymore. Tonight I am making a spinach stuffed chicken breast. Which is really freaking me out. Chicken scares me. I got use to cooking it cubed in a pan, but now it's going to be cooked in the oven. Another first for me. I am also toying with the idea of low carb/keto brownie, low carb/keto coconut cookies, and low carb/keto egg nog. I want to make some for tonight, but then again I don't. I have other stuff I need to eat, like my yogurt. But my mom has been hinting she needs her brownie fix. And if I make any for her, 70% will be thrown out if it's "normal brownies."
So that's the plan for tonight and this week food wise. Mom also grabbed some hotdogs and hotdog buns, so that will be good for maybe tomorrow. I'll just have left over chicken. Hehe.
Well that's it. Sorry I'm not more positive, I try to be, but it's not going well. Hope you guys are doing better than me!!
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