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It's Time To Regroup...Again!!!

Friday, December 07, 2012

I have logged back into sparkpeople after a long hiatus. I met my weight goal, had my surgery (one year ago), and recuperated mostly. I lost down to 140 pounds. Over the last year I have gained almost 20 pounds. It just kind of crept up a pound or two at a time...then over thanksgiving and the week after I picked up six pounds!! So...reality time! Face the reality that I have to get serious by focusing on what I did before to lose the weight.

By getting back on SP I can begin to track my calories and my exercise I become more conscious of how and what I eat. Belonging to this community helps me stay motivated and focused.

Let's Roll!!

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NESARIAN 12/7/2012 10:21PM

    Welcome back!

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Fighting a Krispy Creme Donut

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My daughter walked in last night about 8pm with a especially large bag. I looked at her and the bag incredulously...it was a krispy creme donuts bag with two large boxes of doughnuts. From where I was sitting, it looked like dozens. I shrieked, " I don't believe it! Are those krispy cremes? You must be kidding"! I finally calmed down when she explained that they belonged to both she and Morris, her friend. I peeked in the boxes and started to droll and fantasize about each and every one; the glazed, the raspberry filled, my favorite, the chocolate glazed creme filled, the chocolate cake. As I have raised her, she offered me donuts. Okay, I said, I'll get a couple and put one away in the freezer, and I'll eat one with my coffee in the morning.
Well, it's morning and I'm checking the calorie content, along with the fat, carbs, and sugar in this decadent piece. No, lets retract...I haven't just checked it, I'm agonizing over how I can possibly eat this donut, the raspberry filled one. I can't possibly eat this; 350 calories, 36 g.carbs, 18 g. sugar 9 . I don't even remember the fat grams.! Okay, maybe if I eat half...only 175 calories, 18 carbs, 9 sugars. With a cup of coffee it's about 241 for breakfast. nutritionally zero, then I have to figure out the rest of my day to compensate nutritionally and calorically for this moment of exquisite pleasure.
Am I up to it? I have worked so hard. Do I want to even introduce the taste of a donut into my palette and my psyche? So much sugar!
Well, here's the deal. I'm going to eat one half of a raspberry filled krispy creme donut and put the other in the freezer. If I don't eat it, I will think about it all day and this is my day at home when I get chores done and catch up on everything. Not the best day to hang around the house when you have these kinds of treats. So, I'm going to eat it, enjoy every morsel and "average" the calories, sugar, fat and carbs, in my whole day!

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MCCLOD 12/28/2010 11:30PM

    :) If you're gonna eat a donuts, definitely enjoy every mouthful! I read somewhere that we get the most enjoyment out of the first TWO bites. I've been experimenting with that this christmas. For me I found that it was mostly true, much to my surprise.-- the bites after the first two were more habit than craving. So I had two bites of everything this christmas that I had been terrified of (all those starchy and sweet things) .... no weight loss, but no weight gain, so I'll take it. Interesting being so much more aware of my food reaction. Anyway, we gotta get back on track to lose! I've had my share of EVERYTHING this christmas, now lets go hit the weights!

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Recommit Time...Again!

Friday, April 09, 2010

I spent part of the month of February and most of the month of March in medical testing, evaluations and various procedures in preparation for lung transplant surgery. So, I had maybe 2 days each week to exercise and was pretty much off my routine. This was not good because I thrive on routine and consistency. By not exercising, I was off of my schedule and also off of my eating plan. Each day when I went to the hospital or clinic, I packed a lunch or snack of fruit, nuts, water and sometimes a sandwich. There were times though that I had a breakfast sandwich because I had time between appointments. Also, after one really gruelling, painful procedure, I was feeling vunerable, helpless and defenseless. My sister asked what I wanted to eat. I told her something decadent, understanding that I wanted to lick my wounds with food. I did! I had bbq ribs with all the fixins'. I felt kinda bad, but I knew exactly what I was doing...emotional eating to assuage my pain. Immediately after the last test, I went to a fundraiser in my hometown three hours away. I spent a week there and only exercised once! Of course I watched my eating but took some liberties!!

Now I'm taking the month of April to get back on board and get to ground. I have a major weighin next week and I'm watching my choices very closely. I am thankful that I can recommit instead of throwing in the towel, as I might have done a few years ago. I'm getting back on the boards and involved in the discussions so that I can stay motivated and challenged.

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    Good for you! I am so glad to hear about all of this and your way of thinking it through, giving yourself some breaks, and then getting back on track. This is all about a new way of living and making choices that maintain good health and positivity. You are doin´ it girlfriend and I am proud of you!

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NEWGUN71 4/9/2010 11:20PM

    The fact that you can recommit where you previously would not have shows how far you have come. Success is not just measured on the scale but in how you change on the inside. The outside will follow. Good luck to you.

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Working on My "Spark" List

Monday, March 01, 2010

I have dared to dream. Last November I began evaluations for a life saving lung transplant. The goal from the transplant team was to lose weight to 140, get off of any narcotic medication and meet a financial threshold. Well, since November I have lost 12 pounds, stopped the narcotic pain meds, and have raised a substantial amount through family and friends to meet the financial threshold (Its a million dollar surgery!!!!) Because the chance to live an active life is within my view, I have begun to believe that I can do some of the things I had put on hold over the last ten years.

One is travel-in the continental United States and abroad. I want to visit the UK, Greece, France, South Africa...I want to take the lazy river trip down the Grand Canyon. I can't do it all at once, of course, but now it is possible. I'm revamping my visual collage to include my new travel goals.

I've done some gardening but will now be able to move it to a higher level, like maybe a raised garden plot instead of using pots on my back deck. I could grow a lot more veggies.

I'd like to take a pottery class and make beautiful art d'object pieces!!
I'd like to take continuing education classes and maybe learn to play another musical instrument.

I will be able to volunteer in my church and community to help alleviate homelessness, hunger, poverty.

Okay, the Spark list is long. My job now is to really define and refine and prioritize my new goals.

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MOOOOW 3/19/2010 10:10AM

    Wow! You know what you want and need...now go get it. Is there anyway I can help?
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SCOOTERSMOM11 3/1/2010 10:27PM

  What a great list and you are a great inspiration as well. Best of luck keep the picture in sight. Prayers for you on the way.

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TASOGAREBAN 3/1/2010 6:30PM

    I'm wishing you the best of luck! It's a long list but it can absolutely be done. So how about you keep working on it? :)

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FERGSGIRL2 3/1/2010 5:21PM

    A wonderful list--keep holding on and never give up! You inspire us! Praying all works out for you!

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THREESONZ 3/1/2010 5:13PM

  You are an inspiration to us all! Thanks for sharing your story and keep the faith!

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CITYZOZO 3/1/2010 4:16PM

    wow, cool...

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APATRICK99 3/1/2010 3:57PM

    Wow, you inspire me! You can definitely do anything that you wish in this life. Keep Sparking!

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NGCHILD 3/1/2010 3:34PM

    emoticon job!!! You have overcome alot! I wish you continued success!!

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Spreading The Spark: Week Four

Sunday, February 28, 2010

I "Sparked" a friend today! I lunched with an acquaintance who, like me, has a chronic lung disease and is on oxygen therapy. I have been battling and managing my condition for ten years and she was just diagnosed 3 years ago. She suffers greatly because she, in my opinion, has not accepted the reality of her condition and it's limitations. That doesn't mean that she doesn't try varied and different therapies to get better although the nature of the illness is that "it is what it is" and there is no cure. For me, once I ran smack into the face of my illness, I decided to live the best life I could within the realm of managing this disease. Life became a lot easier and better. That said, my friend has gained some weight and each time that I talk to her she is complaining that she doesn't have anything to wear and she is so fat and yada, yada. Well today, I told her I know how hard it is to change habits and encouraged her to take just a step at a time, changing things. I told her everybody needs help and support and Spark People, a healthy lifestyle program that I go to on line is the best at that. Sometime you have to just try to control the things you can control but a program like Spark People helps round out and balance not just what you eat but your overall life. I truly feel her pain of frustration. I told her about the Emotional Eaters Team, for folk like us who like to eat our frustrations.

I told her she really ranks because I would let her hold my book. She said she'd take a look. I believe she may be "Sparked" for life!


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