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Man Overboard

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I did, I went a little overboard yesterday. It wasn't just that I went over my calories, after all I only went over by 100 so I'm not beating myself up too much about that. What happened is I went into "indulge" mode, as in I worked hard all week and it's Friday night and Hubby's studying for a test so we're not doing anything fun and I'm going to sit on the couch and indulge. I should have just gone to gym, together time be damned. Instead I had a second (small) serving of ice cream after a pretty hefty dinner and I had a beer after I'd had wine with dinner and I had a shot of bourbon in my Chai 'cause damn it I deserved it. Really? What did my butt ever do to me that it deserved extra calories and no exercise?

Part of me wants to blame the hubby (I asked if he wanted to go for a walk, he acted like I was a crazy person), but the rest knows that not only is it bad that I went over, it's bad I didn't even let him know about the shot I put in the tea.

When we were going to bed he gave me a kiss and said "You smell like booze."

I said "That might be because I was drinking."

He said "You know, if you want to lose weight you might want to have the wine or the beer rather than both."

Which is true, and leaves out the extra naughtiness. Who do I think I'm fooling? I'm a grown woman, if I want a drink I can have one but if I want to lose weight I can't pretend that secret calories don't count.

On the plus side I tracked all the calories and I'm confessing here. Self-accountability at its almost finest. I've got two parties to go to this weekend, both at my house :) and a dinner out so wish me luck, I'll try to stick to the veggie platter.

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ALPHAPREP 11/17/2009 12:48PM

    I've been having similar problems, I really need to find separation between me and the man - him: anti-gym/not a healthy eater (yet has lost 40+ pounds since living together/ still has 50 more to go) - and sometimes I think it's sabotage, but really, it's my own personal choice when I decide not to go exercise because he is whining about it!

If I don't motivate myself, nobody is going to do it for me. I just need to get over it and get to changing my own life!

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JAZZLEBUG 11/17/2009 11:31AM

    Self-accountability is important. A defiant attitude is okay, as long as you temper it with some humility to keep it real - and you did.

You're doing well. And...damnit, bourbon and chai sound really good. LOL

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MIRDREAMS 11/16/2009 2:18PM

    Actually I was relatively good on the weekend, didn't go over once, even though a lot of the calories I did get were empty ones.

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SPARTANJAI 11/16/2009 11:45AM

    Of course they count, but there are days when you just go with it... it's not like you are doing it every day.
Hope the weekend worked out for you... I imagine you ended up working hard on the prep so if you went over on your food/drink it probably cancelled out.

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Surprise Food Mine Field

Thursday, November 12, 2009

So the office I work in had a meeting last night. They had snacks. They had candy, they had pizza, they had soda and they had cookies. They didn't finish any of them. So this is what greeted me this morning:

And this:

And just for fun, this as well:

Now normally I know that if I have peanut butter with my breakfast toast, I won't be hungry again until 11:30 ish. Today at 10:30 those cookies were calling my name. I went in to the kitchen, threw a hand towel over them and went back to my desk with a cup of tea. Lunch and snacks for today will come from here:

And blogging this has weirdly gotten my mind off of cookies. Not sure how that works, but I'll take it.

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HUGMONKEYMOM 11/12/2009 5:17PM

    I wouldn't want to eat donuts or pizza from a meeting LAST NIGHT...ick. You know it stayed out on the counter for the whole meeting getting cold and icky (or stale, in the case of the donuts) and only finally got put away just before everyone went home.

By the way, your lunches are always so pretty...I am working at home right now, so I don't have to pack one. But when I do, I will be using your lunches as inspiration.

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SARANGEREL 11/12/2009 2:50PM

    Great job in saying no to the temptation! You lunch looks so yummy! Keep up the great work.

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SPARTANJAI 11/12/2009 12:14PM

    Wait! I see grapes in the fridge... nevermind, those probably aren't leftovers, they are probably part of someone's lunch ~grin~
MMmmmmmmmmmmmmmm laughing cow! That's my favorite!
Good job just throwing the towel over the evil temptation!
Contact who orders the food for those meetings and ask them to either order "better" quality food, or to order less of the normal stuff. We did that at my place and it seems to have worked. No more big trays of cookies at every meeting.

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MIRDREAMS 11/12/2009 11:45AM

    The flower is Fat Free "Cheddar" Cheese on top of left over mac and cheese (made with a little BBQ sauce mixed in). It'd be better if it were whole wheat but at 3.5 fl. oz. worth I don't think it's a huge deal. TALESIN, it takes about five minutes to throw most of my lunches together. As JAZZLEBUG has noticed they're mostly cut veggies with a wedge of Laughing Cow cheese for dip. So if I have bell peppers or baby carrots or celery or grape tomatoes in the house I'm already mostly set. For the rice balls (onigiri) I make up a big batch of brown rice, add sushi vinegar, shape and freeze them. Then just pop them in the lunch and nuke before eating. I keep little containers of leftovers from dinners in the freezer too (the mac and cheese, lots of soups, really whatever we're having). So I pull out a few and throw them in. There's no egg white in this one but that's another favorite trick, I'll boil up a bunch and then just keep them in the fridge and snag as needed. The "cookies" in this lunch are Trader Joe's Very Chocolate Mini Meringues and Trader Joe's Very Mini Vanilla Meringues (9 and 1 calorie apiece respectively). I add those last minute 'cause otherwise the moisture from the cut veggies will make them very soggy and weirdly vegetative tasting.

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TALESIN 11/12/2009 11:21AM

    Wow! Pictures speak a thousand words. And I thought my office was bad! But your healthy lunch looks very tasty! And pretty, too! How long does it take you put that together?

Stay strong!

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JAZZLEBUG 11/12/2009 11:19AM

    Your lunch today looks so much better than any of that crap at the office, anyway. You sure love those bell peppers! :) You and my husband. LOL I love tomatoes, though.

What's the flower?

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 11/12/2009 11:19AM

    Isn't it funny how pure crap is almost always leftover but I bet if there had been a relish or fruit tray there, it would've been gone! Your stuff looks WAAAAY better than leftover pizza!

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A Splurge Is Not A Binge

Sunday, November 08, 2009

This has been an important distinction for me since I started my SP journey. It's ok, even healthy, to indulge a little from time to time. My problem in the past was always a "In for a penny, in for a pound" mentality where if I was going to be bad, I was going to be very bad. If I was going to have candy, I would eat the whole bag. Chips, ditto. And it's not say I did this often, less than once a week but it added up. Now I can have a chip or two and feel like that was a treat, that was naughty, without needing to just keep eating.
Today I had a moment, with my hand in a bag of candy corn, where I thought about eating a handful. I'd already counted out five pieces, three times. And I thought about just grabbing a handful. But then I thought about not being able to track it, and I opened my hand, and closed the bag. And then I went outside and did leaves for 90 minutes, instead of staying on the couch. My ass and my lawn are both happier for it.

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SPARTANJAI 11/9/2009 2:30PM

    Great willpower! Keep up the good work! It's so important to know if you don't give yourself a little taste now and then you'll end up jumping in a bowlful of it! My hubby laughed at me the other day when I asked if he wanted to split one of those tiny Twix bars. He said "It's bite size, what's to split? Just eat the whole thing" I said "I don't want the whole thing, I just want to taste it, so either you eat half, I throw the other half out, or I put the other half in a zip top bag". ~eyeroll~ Only since SparkPeople!
Keep up the great work!

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KUANGIE 11/8/2009 10:51PM

    It is soo hard to stop sometimes. But when it gets past enjoying it... to just eating to do something, is when it is bad. I justy posted today about conscious eating- I wouldn't mentally pay attention to what I out in my mouth. I think being in control of it makes the food more enjoyable.

Do you watch the new show "Cougar Town?" I laughed the other week when she needed to have chocolate, but had the 10 second rule. She put the chocolate candy in her mouth, counted to ten, then had to spit it out. I wish I could do that!

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V-RON_CAN 11/8/2009 8:01PM

    That is SUCH a hard thing to do. Once you feel like you've already flubbed up it is an uphill fight to put down the candy and admit that 15 pieces of candy corn does not need to mean chowing down on it for the evening. You're an inspiration!

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TONNIJ 11/8/2009 7:20PM

    Good for you! I agree, they are 2 different things. I do make sure that when I splurge it is on something worth splurging on. There is nothing worth than splurging on something you kind of like instead of something you LOVE!! Thanks for the reminder!!!! emoticon

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HUGMONKEYMOM 11/8/2009 6:41PM

    Congrats on fighting that demon. I've been working hard on small servings of treats...it's hard though. If I make a cake, or a pie, or cookies (storebought ones aren't worth the calories) it's just the man and I to eat it, so it winds up going bad before we finish it...then I feel guilty about throwing it out...so one more slice isn't gonna hurt...

yeah. So I'm impressed that you said STOP and went and did something active instead. I bet your lawn looks great! (I won't comment on your ass.) emoticon

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RHYMEANDREASON1 11/8/2009 6:15PM

    Way to go! I blogged today about how I tasted a brownie and couldn't just have a bite. Had to go for the whole thing since I wouldn't be able to track the bite and it'd drive me crazy. Came very close to a binge because of this decision- but overcame it. :) Go us!

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Listen All Of Y'all This Is Sabotage

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Not that it's deliberate. I'm sure everyone finds in this journey that as much as people around us support us in trying to be healthier, there are times when the same people can be a stumbling block. There's something innately selfish (in a good way perhaps but still selfish) in saying, I'm doing this for me, I'm focusing on making me better. And there are times when that's going to get in the way of the wants and needs of others in our lives.

My hubby has a very demanding job with weird hours. Sometimes this is great (I can run out to the gym when he's at work late and not worry about there being no dinner yet), other times not so much (we decide to have dinner together only to have him get home at a quarter of 10 so neither of us want dinner and I come in at a grand total of 758 calories for the day, so not good, as happened yesterday). And when he's home we both want to spend time together but he's exhausted so time together is time on the couch unwinding with some TV. And apparently me walking up and down stairs for cardio while watching TV drives him out of his head crazy. So I walked around our deck on Monday night, which wasn't what I had in mind impact-wise.

The thing is, I'm not sure I should even be complaining. One guy who supports me in my goals is nothing compared to the kids/unsupportive family/health issues that a lot of people face as they try to get healthier. I have a very flexible job, a cheap gym I like and the best hubby ever. So things don't always go to plan. Make a new plan and drink some milk before you go to bed :).

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ALPHAPREP 11/6/2009 4:50PM

    I have the same problem - the man has full time both work and school going on, and depending on his schedule he can get home at 6:30 or at 11 - which often messes up my eating/working out (he has the car, which I need to go to the gym). Usually we just make it work, but sometimes it's really difficult for me to deal with!

Mine has just had to get used to me occasionally stepping (ok, on my wii fit, but a stepper would be healthier), or doing some strength training while we watch tv, or fast spurts during commercial breaks. It's a little embarrassing for me personally, but he just has to get used to it!

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SPARTANJAI 11/5/2009 9:34AM

    Tell him it could be worse, you could buy one of those tiny trampolines and be bouncing while you watch tv with him ~grin~ it's all about perspective... what a great attitude, keep it up!

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MIRDREAMS 11/4/2009 7:55PM

    Yeah, I'm kind of wondering if just an aerobic step, since it wouldn't squeak the way our 100 year old stairs do, might be less irritating :). Thank you both for "listening" to me vent.

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JAZZLEBUG 11/4/2009 7:40PM

    Is there a chance you could find one of those stair stepper machines for cheap? Not the gym equipment kind, just the little foot dealy. It might be way too boring, though.

Don't forget to allow yourself to feel whatever you're feeling. If you feel like complaining, there's nothing wrong doing it in your own blog (there's also the private "Journal" feature here and if you still feel guilty about it, you can delete it afterwards). Helps you work through it and get past it instead of pushing it away to rear its' ugly head if something else comes up. Just saying...all of the things you feel are valid - they're you. It's okay.

I don't really have anything else to add to HUGMONKEYMOM's response. :)

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HUGMONKEYMOM 11/4/2009 12:43PM

    He wants you to be happy, healthy, and with him for a long long time right? Then it's not selfish because you're doing it for him too! LOL!

We all have crazy lives with obstacles, but we do what we can with what we've been given. Giving up all your time with the hubby isn't going to work for long, but neither is giving up all your exercise time either. It's all about balance. Can you include him in your exercise plans on weekends? Can you workout as early as possible to maximize the chance you're done when he gets home?

Balance. It's all about balance. Good luck.

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

I did exercise. Yeppers, I was tired, it was late, I climbed the stairs. For 25 minutes, with a few walks around the living room thrown in. I burned calories, I did my minutes and it feels good.

Thanks Heartstopper for the suggestion, 'cause I so wasn't getting to the gym and it's cold and dark out there. Stairs, I got those in my living room.

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PAPERARTSY 10/30/2009 7:39PM

    Congrats! Glad you found a way to get your exercise in!

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SPARTANJAI 10/30/2009 8:09AM

    Doesn't it make you feel good? Congratulations and I hope you have a great weekend!

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