Monday, July 07, 2008
I'm so bumbled and fumble fingered I guess.....
The recipe builder is hard to use for me. Looking up foods it doesn't have or adding them in manually.. OH MY HEAVENLY DAY! Grrr..... sigh.
Here is the recipe I ate for lunch and dog-gone-it, it says all kinds of nasty stuff about calories! LOL There must have been an error in how I added in the stuff for the recipe builder. But,that doesn't take a wonder woman to figure out. I'll just have to add in the stuff separately and my food log is going to look like a disaster area!
I think I biffed somewhere in my calculations... Ah well.. Here ya go for cruds n giggles...
No Guilt Pasta Salad
* Beans, black, 1 cup
* Sliced Black Olives, 1/4 cup
* Sliced Spanish Olives w/pimento - 1/4 cup
* Spanish Capers, canned, 1/4 cup
* Peppers, sweet, red, fresh, 1/2 cup, chopped
* Mushrooms, canned, 1 cup
* Onions, raw, 1/4 cup, chopped
* Parmesan Cheese, grated, 2 oz
* Ronzoni Smart Taste Rotini, 12 oz
The Dressing 6 servings - (2 TBS per serving)
* Nakano Rice Vinegar, 3/4 cup
* Extra Virgin Olive Oil, 2 tbsp
* Pepper, black, 1/4 tsp
* Garlic powder, 1 tbsp
*Onion powder, 1 tbsp
* Pepper, red or cayenne, 1/4 tbsp
and Mrs. Dash Original if you have it for extra ZIP!
OK so I pour on my dressing after I measure out the other stuff...
1 cup pasta 1/2 cup veggie mix. Two tablespoons of the dressing.
Peace - Mino
Monday, July 07, 2008
I remember someone recently reminding me of that scripture which says, "Whatever overcomes you becomes your master".
Whew that's a real wake up call for life and dealing with health on a mater- of- fact basis.
Life is like this on any level really, whether it's attitudes about health issues or people or anything else. Basically whatever you can't deal with, toys with you and dogs you out, eventually it becomes the rock you stumble over.
I've stumbled over bad eating habits all my life; never quite getting success over it. "One" of the issues with my old habits, is that I am very easily bored and am a sensation eater. I like to eat things for instant gratification. Salty - Crunchy - Sweet - Squishy - Smell. So, it's really for the sensation that munching gives me more than the desire for the actual Food. I don't really think finding a healthy food replacement for the sensations is the key here. I think that finding a way to gratify myself without sticking crud in my face is far better.
Back when I was a child I remember bacon sizzling on the grill outside our tent as a kid, was a happy reminder. Now smelling bacon cooking brings on those same happy memories. I'm really not one to drool over eating bacon, but smelling it really sends me smiling. Coffee brewing the same sensation... It's it amazing how smells and sensations of old things bring into view situations which cause us to relive happy times? (Yes I know, sad ones too, but I'm not going there).
It's good to know that bit by bit, I'm overcoming bad habits and forming life changing new ones. I really want to do this so my life can be what I want it to be. Healthy and one where I can move more.
Ah well, that's about the most of my thoughts today. I wish you all happy days and success in your new life.
Peace - Mino
Saturday, July 05, 2008
About a year ago, I remember being so woebegone and feeling like my little world was closing in on me. I was sitting in my garden swing crying and praying wishing for a whole new life...
This may sound a bit like your struggle too, so this is why I'm telling you how I felt.
I basically stopped gaining weight at 200lbs (Well mentally anyway). I never really change what I saw in the mirror. I was 200 and that was it. The new clothes I had to buy because the others wouldn't button were just being sized differently than they use to be, so that's why I had to buy a 3X and not the Extra Large anymore.
It's a bit hard to explain how I accomplished this but I did; let me tell you. It also made it very hard to begin SparkPeople because within this program you have to be honest and open and upfront with YOU to YOU. Wow... I was totally fudged up.
My 200 lbs went from that to a "wowzers" 230!.~ Moan~... Reality time and me had hit the wall. Well, what will I do now? (I mean besides cuss and be angry?)
Did I really want a "Whole New Life?" ...
If so, how bad did I want it?...
Was I willing to put my whole life and habits on the table?...
Could I be committed to the changes?...
These are some of the questions you are no doubly being faced with, if you are on the way to changing the way you eat.
I don't type this out as a person who is gloriously "there". I type this out as I am working out the situation as you are. ONE MEAL, ONE DAY, at a time.
My scales say 208. Then I'm moaning, because I see that number so often! Then it retreats back into the fold of fat and becomes hidden back under 212.... Ah then it does it reappearing act again and peeps back at me, showing a 208. Well, if that's not enough to confuse you, My little head has me convinced I weigh 200.
Now that is really stupid ... But it's true for where I'm at.
Honestly. I don't even recognize the successes I've made for long, because to me with my brain being set on 200lbs anything under that is successful to "ME". ... Gezz Just shoot yourself in the foot MINO why not? The pounds you have lost don't matter a hoot do they? (smack!$%@&) YES YES YES THEY DO!!
YOU WERE 230 just admit that and shut up! You have lost a nice chuck of real estate in the nether regions of the map! And it's GONE! Those 3X's fit because the Rump Room ratio of your body had expanded!" So, be honest there girlfriend"~~ I say to myself.
This is the sort of "self talk" I go through every day of my life.
I read member blogs a lot and cry sometimes because I know that sort of pain and heartache and how empty life feels when you live like that.
Let me say, that if you are reading this, then you are a member of SparkPeople and if you joined then you made the first big step in getting that "Whole New Life" you dream of. Now that you are here, get involved in something which interests YOU. There are so many groups out there to support you and help you through your challenges. If you don't get involved with something then it's fairly likely you will fall down and go back into your old habits. It's a lot easier to be with people who are working with you on the same tasks. The momentum produced by many is much greater than the work of one.
Become part of something! Make a Change! Do it one moment at a time....one meal, one day, one week, one month, one year...
But DO IT!
This is long but, I'm feeling what I'm typing out pretty strongly. If you make no changes, then your life will not change. Nothing we want in life comes without making changes... Nothing.
I'm sending you big Goonie Hugs (It's the team I've been involved with). And I'm wishing and praying for you to find some light and keep moving forward. If you need me just shoot me an email. We'll walk together.
Peace and Hugs,
Mino the fish......
Friday, July 04, 2008
Happy Buzzes are usually that amazing feeling you get when you know something is going on soon and you can't wait for the day to get there. Or some other happy moment which thrills your heart.
I had happy buzzes last night. Its been a long time since feeling that sensation.
Every time I thought of being smaller and feeling better I got the Buzz. Feelings like that are foreign; usually being replaced with anything negative and self defeating. That's being removed now, due to the changing mentality of taking control of bad eating habits.
Isn't it weird how just eating unhealthy can degrade your self-esteem. I've been out of control for 10 years with only brief moments of sanity.
About 5 years ago I tried the whole Weight Watchers thing (again) and lost a bit yes, but, I lost more money paying out the rump every meeting time. To compound the difficulty my daughter was going with me and she wasn't loosing any weight. She was trying so hard, but frankly 42 dollars a week was getting a bit much to see her sit and be angry. I don't blame WW no. It was just wasn't what she needed at the time.
I was looking online for online-carb counters when my search engine found SPARKPEPOPLE. I was surprised to locate this "free" support system. However, I was still not committed to changing, so my sparkpeople membership sat and sat. Occasionally I'd log in to read the boards and see what others were doing. Secretly I'd be angry for their success and my lack of control. It's always easy to blame someone else eh?
Feeling every range of emotion on weight-loss and non-weight-loss it's fairly easy understand the frustration associated with any program designed for that purpose. Change is never easy is it? I think it finally comes down to answering some strong questions. "Am I ready for change?" - "Do I want to die fat?" - (Then my question) "Do they make piano cases large enough to accommodate my rump to bury me in, should I keep eating like I am?"
No one can do the head work or leg work for you or me... Life has personal cost on every level, and that includes being in control of you.
I'm wishing anyone reading this blog to know you can do this. It's not too large for you to tackle. What's nice is that if you get into SparkPeople, you won't be alone in your adventure. We'll be right with you working by your side with the same desires and same project which is "Project Change"...
We can do this together one meal at a time.
Blessings and Peace
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