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Thursday, October 23, 2008

I wonder sometimes why we are always in such a hurry? Then when we get to where we were headed we just pause and look around sort of puzzled and say, "OK now why did I come here?".... Ever do that? You know, walk into a room and just stand there wondering why you walked all that way, because you forgot what you were going after? It happens to me often...

Life can be such a distraction and along the way our purpose gets foggy. Our goals get foggy. We just forget what we want...

So, that's my line of thought this morning. Reassessing what "I" want for myself.

One of the things weight wise I want is to actually learn something about how to maintain weight loss. I've talked about this before but it's a place I'm at right now so I'm trying to actually learn from this point in my experience. I've lost 35 pounds and would like to know how to keep my body as is, without putting it back on. Playing with that threshold is like walking a tight rope. I find days I say - OOPS!... I ate too much this week!... OK back on track. What do I need to do differently?... Keep it at 1300? 1400? 1500?... Um.. eat less carbs and more protein? Drink more water? Get more exercise? ..... It's really just a total juggling act.

So far it's working pretty well. One pound keeps bouncing up and down, so I think what I've learned is my body doesn't tolerate a lot of carbohydrates. Well I know that's not rocket science but I know how much now it can handle and what types of foods send my blood sugar through the roof and make me feel sluggish and useless.
I never learned those things last time I lost weight.

My particular body needs less fruit, less carbs, and more protein.
Now, not all fruit but, certain kinds mess me up... During peach season I don't lose weight! LOL I love peaches... (grin). But, the natural sugar content just shoots my system with too much insulin and my body won't lose weight, when that happens.

So, I learned not to eat so many peaches... Also watermelon does it to me. Apples not so... and oranges don't bother me either.. OK so these are simple things but, things I have learned about my system.

Also... I need more protein daily than some people might. So I boost that up and reduce the carbs.

Ah I also learned not to wait so long to try on old clothes which "did fit"... One sweater I really loved and wanted to wear again is now too large! Gez... I should have tried that one on earlier than I did. :)

OK, so I'm tired typing now... Things are good. and as ever I'm sending you guys hugs


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    Thanks for making me think of trying on some clothes...I don't want to wait too long!

This really is a crazy balancing act, isn't it? I'm learning that more and more.

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DEBPONZIO 10/24/2008 9:30AM

    Hey.... great lesson for us all.... never thought of analyzing past just the calorie intake!

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QUILTINGB52 10/24/2008 12:06AM

    Aha...learning to understand what your body needs & wants!

Waking up in the morning to a growling stomach has been a new learning experience for me!

As far as the memory thing ~ when I bend over to tie my shoes I often wonder what else I can do while I'm down there! LOL

Great blog!! Thanks!!!

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JLVANPEL 10/23/2008 1:17PM

    It is awesome to hear you so self-reflective. I think you are really starting to understand your body which is a HUGE accommplishment. emoticon

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HUGGERS1 10/23/2008 12:48PM

    I hear ya loud and clear :) I am trying some thing different right now to see how I react to different levels of carbs and proteins. I will let you know how it turns out.

I am glad you are learning through this process. I am too and am hoping that I can move that scale now that I have better information to help me.

I do hope your day is wonderful.


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MARTY19 10/23/2008 12:26PM

    I call those senior moments. LOL I also worry about how to maintain. I actually wonder why I am in stage 4 of the SP diet. I am still working on eating right and getting in the right amount of exercise. Somedays I need to stop and re-evaluate what I am doing and the results I see. But I know that it is all work the effort I put in.

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LIFES*2*SHORT 10/23/2008 9:35AM

  Were you in a hurry when you were typing this? LOL Just kidding! Talking about being in a hurry... I was at the gym yesterday and as I got out of the car, Joshua's sock fell out of the car (don't ask)... anyway... because I was in a hurry... I bent down quickly to pick it up, and came to a big fat realization that I had not closed the car door yet. Yep... corner of door met my nose. OUCH!! It even drew blood. Then I had to remind myself to SLOW DOWN!!! Why couldn't you have written this blog yesterday BEFORE I went to the gym? LOL

Nomi :O)

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KAIRIS 10/23/2008 9:07AM

    emoticon This diet, or new lifestyle rather, can really be a juggling act! But once you get into a groove, things always manage to work out.
I think when we start to become forgetful and wonder why we came into a room just means that life is telling us to slow down and take time for ourselves again, because running on that hamster wheel of life can be tiring!
So stop and smell those roses every now and then, or maybe peaches! emoticon

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Self - Self - Self

Monday, October 06, 2008

I have 100 and 1 things to say here.. really. However the entry I began is looking more like a chapter to a book... God help me. I really don't want to post all that here. Most would leave before they even got to the reason I was writing it in the first place. So, I'll skip the other stuff and just type out this...

Take time to love you... Why?

Well, you are here on this planet and in the flesh... You may as well figure out a way to be happy. Being happy is only really possible when you love yourself.

That sound so simple doesn't it? OH we know inside it's not so easy.

It's likely one of the hardest things we do. Daily and moment by moment we are barrage with all manner of negative self-doubting talk. It's playing in the back of our heads every second of every day.
(Unless you are me and you hear the music, "Iron Man")... :)

I'm not sure how you personally can LOVE You more. Each one has to find their own place of peace while they are here on planet earth (the insane assailum of the universe). For me it's recognizing the negative in the first place and begin to replace those spots with positive input.

"You will fail, you always do..."
- "I'm learning how not to fail this time"

" You are kidding yourself here - Who do you think you are?"
- " I am a child of my god, with the birthright of a king, and I am learning daily how to be stronger and stronger - moment by moment"

"You will never live a normal life....."
- " I am living a life I chose, and I will do a good work and be happy"

Amazing the crud that plays in the background if we ''Que'' into it huh? We all have a story line...

No matter what is playing in your "noise", you can overcome it. Just listen to it, and then replay it to yourself in a positive light.. Reprogram those parts of your head with a Positive Visual and Positive Audio. Then move on... When it tries to replay the old line, recall the one you just created. It will take a little practice, but we can untie the bonds of negative self talk and free our minds of self-doubt.

I love you guys a bunch -

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LEVARFICART 10/12/2008 5:00PM

    Thank you for this blog, even though I'm reading it almost a week later. My Dad was so critical, negative, and verbally abusive toward me that now that he has gotten better, I'm extremely critical with myself.

This was definitely something I needed to hear once again.

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QUILTINGB52 10/7/2008 1:03AM

    It's even more damaging when those negative thoughts come out of the mouth of someone you love.

Every time I pass the mirror - I stop, turn and look at myself. Then say out loud - "I'm NOT a bad person! I AM worthy of this healthy journey!!"

It's working........

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    You're right, it is a lot harder to do than it sounds. All of the times that I've tried to get healthy and lose weight in the past, I've noticed that the negative self-talk is pretty minor in the beginning. Then I start to become afraid. With fear, comes negative self-talk.

I'm going to be more vigilant! Thank you for blogging about this.

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DOINTHS4ME 10/6/2008 12:37PM


What you say is so true. Thank you for reminding me I am special. We all are. God bless you this day!


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MARTY19 10/6/2008 12:19PM

    Thanks for this. It takes what seems to be forever to learn how to love me. But once I started I began to believe that I could succeed at whatever I started. I look at negatives and I try very hard to find positives. It has made me a happier person.

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HUGGERS1 10/6/2008 10:27AM

    wub you too :) thanks for this :)


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LIFES*2*SHORT 10/6/2008 9:37AM

  Once again... the always inciteful Mino! You always write such wonderful blogs. I agree! Negative self talk only makes matters worse.

ps... thanks for not writing a novel. LOL

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Obesity Monster

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Obesity Monster

What people will do to lose weight is sort of scary. I am no different.

In 1980, with my weight ever increasing and being the tender age of 23 I felt my life was doomed to be one filled with Fat Clothes and Plus size everything. I was desperate to be smaller and live a normal life.

I walked into the Doctors office and felt horrible about myself. I would have sacrificed a kidney at this point in my life. I'd just given birth to our first daughter. I'd gained 50 pounds and after my daughter was born I still had 30 pounds of weight left over. So the dramatic total was now 250 pounds. I'd never been so large... or so scared.

Do what to myself? Sure... where do I sign?

I was this passive about cutting myself up into pieces so I could lose weight. Never hearing warnings, never thinking something might go wrong... This was my bright and shining moment of freedom. I no longer cared about anything else except this. I could go into a long lengthy description but to save time, just suffice it to say any surgery comes with a warning pamphlet and I heard about .01 of it as I read.

There are so many new bariatric surgeries now. Twenty-Eight years ago there was one, which was the "golden child" of bariatric surgeries, Jejunal-ileal bypass. In June of 1980 this is what I had done.

Within six months, body lost down too 180 pounds, but I had constant diarrhea and couldn’t leave without knowing I could find a potty any time I needed one. This pretty much was a constant in my life for a year. I lost down too 138. Then got pregnant… After so long being heavy I wasn’t about to let being pregnant derail my new body. So along with the whole pregnancy thing I dieted. When my second daughter was born I was even smaller than my 138. I weighed in at 134 after all was said and done. Something happened though… I began to gain weight shortly after that. I don’t even remember why. It’s been too long and the details are a bit dim.

I do remember my doctor saying during the consultation, that depending on how fast a body tries to repair the surgery procedure the faster the weigh loss would stop working. – One of the quirks of this type of surgery is that the small intestine will begin to thicken up to compensate for the now by-passed segment. So, in fact the body will gather nourishment any way it can and intestines do this. It was one of the oddities.

My grace time to get control of my eating habits was over… Did he actually say I’d have to change my eating habits? … Well, I vaguely remember something like that...Very vague.

Slowly my body was trying to regain weight… At 190 pounds I was back at desperation mode. I could not do this… I began to diet with a vengeance, but was having very minimal success. I’d lose down too 170 then begin to creep back up…

Finally I ended up at Weight Watchers at 218 pounds. I really remember that number because of how frustrated I was at that time. It took me about a year and a half to lose but I did get down too 126. When I got to goal weight I started working with WW international and became a TV spokesperson for the company. Eventually I did guest appearances and all that jazz. You’d think I could stay with the program and not gain the weight back huh? Not so… Slowly it began again to creep back on. Sure I fought back and tried to “diet” and had some success, but I just lost the spark the inspiration to keep trying. So much was going on at this time of my life and I’ll spare you those details, but it was a bad time. I felt I needed to eat for comfort. So, I did… It was my medicine.

Twelve years later…. Enter SparkPeople. Here I am doing my best to change from the inside out and along the way reassign that left over padding I acquired in the years I felt I needed to console myself with food.

I know I have the skills to lose weight. Heavens knows I should after my long history of working at this project. Coupled with those skills and Spark People, I think I can do this. But this time keep it off. Oh I get tired yes! I want to give up sometimes, YES! But, I already know the outcome because of the issues I just typed out. I will stay focused on a new future and a new Me. One where the pressure and the situations of the past will not pull me down and cause me to react in the same ways. And yes, I am an ongoing project…

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DOINTHS4ME 9/27/2008 6:38PM

    I totally agree with Sarah, every time we try and get up again to fight another day, we are not failing. We are running a race and sometimes we fall down, take a wrong turn or stumble but the end will be the reward of a lifetime. We are all diamonds in the rough, shining more and more each day. I can see you sparkle already!


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    Good blog. You know, I really believe that every "attempt" we make at weight loss (and other areas of our lives, for that matter) should not be chalked up as failures. I know that every attempt has taught me something about myself - something I can change or something that works for me. You have experience and that makes you wiser than you were all those years ago when you first started on this journey. You are stong and you WILL do this.


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MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/20/2008 10:10AM

    I love the picture of the obesity monster! We are all ongoing projects, aren't we - the way of life I suppose - that's a good way of putting it. You've had quite the tiime of it - glad you found your spark. Enjoy your journey and your new lifestyle.

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    You obviously found your spark again! You're vibrant, happy, and lots of fun! I know that you'll reach your goals because you know what it takes, and even though you know it's a long, hard journey you're doing it AND with panache! Keep it up. I'm so proud of you and so inspired by you. emoticon

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QUILTINGB52 9/18/2008 3:30PM

    Wow... As I was reading this, I was reminded of a doctor I had back in the 70's ~ he was determined that I would get gastric bypass - then the surgeon talked me out of it, because I was in my 20's and they told me I would never be able to have kids if I had the surgery.

Times certainly have changed ~ but the surgery doesn't fix the emotional side of WHY I eat...so I still have not had this surgery.

While you have been to hell and back again ~ you are stronger and more knowledgable of what needs to be done. Only this time you have the love & support of all your SP friends ~ we won't let you stray off course. We will carry you when you falter or kick your butt if the need arises.

We can ALL do this together, cuz 'we are family'!! And we are ALL so worth this healthy journey!!

Take care, my friend!!


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KAIRIS 9/18/2008 12:29PM

    Yes you can do this. This website has so many resources that are so helpful. You can't help but keep going when you joined Sparkpeople. Don't give up! emoticon

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LIFES*2*SHORT 9/18/2008 9:53AM

  Ongoing project? You and me both sista! I noticed you said that you lost your *spark*... but now you found it in *Spark*people, right? lol You can do this chickie... I just know it. You already look amazing!!

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HUGGERS1 9/18/2008 9:32AM

    You will do this Mino and we will be right here with you. You are doing awesome and you are learning so much about your strength.


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And the Beat Goes on...

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Remember the song? I love Cher.... She's timeless.

With resolve to keep healthy and keep moving forward, life is different. Fattening foods, I once loved, I don't really enjoy as much. My taste buds are even being reprogrammed. Portions are being adjusted and so is the size of my tummy. LOL It's weird. When I want to be intentionally bad and eat a large meal my stomach almost gets sick. Just too much food inside it's newly acquired size (They do shrink you know). What was the size of softball is now about the size of a baseball. Sure it will stretch out but I can feel it now and I don't like the way that sensation makes me feel. Recognizing now when I'm FULL is way easier than it once was.

So for me "The Beat Goes On"... Still doing what I know to do and getting even better at it. Am I losing weight? Nope. I do feel good most of the time though, so that's one trade off that is worth keeping.

It would be discouraging to look at numbers on the scales saying the same thing over and over again. So, I decided about a week ago to just stop weighing myself except once a month. So, I'll weigh again at the end of September.

Today I see the Rheumatologist and I can finally get off of the prednisone, which tends to keep weight on people or cause weight gain. The fact I've lost 30 pounds while on it is astounding and one I'm very proud of. Perhaps with that medication gone I can begin to take off a few pounds again.

Well, that's my update on what's happening with Mino... Not a lot of exciting stuff huh? LOL nope... but, I'm good. :)

Hugs to you all,

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    Good for you, Mino! I know how hard it is to lose weight on meds (and also with medical conditions). But losing while on meds shows how strong you are and how hard you worked to get there! Even if you don't think that's exciting - I do!!


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    I know people who have been on that stuff, and I'm really impressed that you were able to lose weight while taking it. Getting off of those meds should make a difference.

I admire your decision to weigh yourself less frequently. Don't let that stupid hunk of junk stand in your way!

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KAIRIS 9/18/2008 12:20PM

    I think that going off the meds. will kick start more weight loss for you. I've known some people on that stuff and man is it rough on your body.
I'm glad to hear that you are off of it. The 30 lbs probably had alot to do with it.
Have a super day!! emoticon

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Just a Rant

Thursday, September 18, 2008

OK, I'm gonna rant a little...

GRRR... People... I think the older I get the harder it is to deal with people who refuse to take responsibility for their own life. Maybe it's because I can see from the sidelines what is happening and how easy it would be to turn things around. (I'm talking about family members now, not SPers).

If things are bad, then one needs to figure how to make it better... There is usually a way, Honestly.

This week I went out of my way to get a family member a job with my best friends husband, assuring him that this person would work hard and not be a bad choice... W R O N G. It went really badly. The guy absconded with $700.00 of his new employer's money last night... Whew... I've been up most of the night trying to console my niece (cuz this is her man (double ugh)...)

I could load this up with details but, it would profit nothing blabbing about negative crud.

Its just a bit frustrating... Now I have to call my best friends husband and tell him.... This should be funzy...


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    Wow. Bad situation. We had something semi-similar happen, except the employer turned out to be the bad deal... it's never fun dealing with that kind of crap - hope it all turns out somehow!


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    I'm sorry that you were taken advantage of like that...after all, he didn't just steal from his employer, he put you in the middle!

I hope that things work out for the best.

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KAIRIS 9/18/2008 12:14PM

    So sorry to hear this. All you can do is move forward. Don't let it get you down.
This to shall pass. emoticon

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QUILA927 9/18/2008 5:55AM

    Mino, Sending comforting hugs to you and your neice. How awful that he thought $700 was worth that big of a mistake. I hope this doesn't ruin your relationship with your freind and her husband.

Goonie emoticon

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