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February Goals

Monday, February 01, 2010

A new month is upon us. Again. And yet again I need to confront the fact that the previous month came and went without any weight loss. It's difficult to acknowledge this. I worked out 5-6 days a week. I ate okay, but not great. And the scale didn't budge. Despite being disappointed, I do need to take comfort in knowing that this is the level of exercise I need to do to maintain a weight. I can do that, I really can. So I'm not too worried about gaining the weight back.

But first I really want to get to my target weight of 65 kilos. 11 more kilos left to lose, in other words.

So what are my goals for February? Quite modest, I think.

* I want to lose 2 kilos.
* I want to lose 1 centimeter around my waist and 1 around my hips.
* I want to finish the Insanity program and start either P90X or Chalean X.
* I want to burn a minimum of 3500 calories a week.
* I want to get my hip looked at by a doctor and hopefully I'll be back to running by the end of the month or next month.

There they are, all possible to achieve.

I took photos before and in the middle of the Insanity program and plan to take pics once I'm done, hopefully in the next two weeks. I am curious to compare them and see for myself what has happened since I started the program back in October. I will post them here, of course. :)

Cheers!

  
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NUOVAELLE 2/2/2010 1:51AM

    They all sound achievable to me. I'm sure you can do it. I hope the doctor appointment goes well. Focus on your goals. Focus, focus, focus! (That's my motto for February.)
Take care of yourself, spark friend.
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MINNA72 2/1/2010 1:03PM

    Thanks for the comments and encouragement!

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MINNA72 2/1/2010 1:02PM

    Yep, Judy, I have an appointment with a doc on Thursday. I'm excited to finally get this looked at and maybe fixed.

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LOSLUWOM 2/1/2010 12:40PM

    Great goals!! Looking forward to seeing your progress pics. emoticon

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AUNTYT67 2/1/2010 10:25AM

    Sounds like you've got it all in hand with your forward planning and I'm certain you'll succeed.
Keep the spark faith.

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SEKSUNSHINE 2/1/2010 7:08AM

    The last is always the hardest to get rid of. You are doing great and I can't wait to see the pics. You really do need to get to the doctor soon. emoticon

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Insanity Fit Test #3

Thursday, January 07, 2010

It's taken me a long time to get to this halfway point in the Insanity program. First because I was mainly running and using the workouts as a complement a few times a week, but then because I had injuries and had to wait for the pain to subside.

The past two weeks I've been doing the Insanity workouts diligently and it seems to have paid off, because today's Fit Test went really well!

Oct15/Nov17/Jan7
Switch kicks 80/100/120 +20
Power jacks 40/45/54 +9
Power knees 75/85/96 +11
Power jumps 26/30/38 +8
Globe jumps 9/10/12 +2
Suicide jumps 13/16/18 +2
Push-up jacks 18/22/24 +2
Low plank obliques 34/43/60 +17

The push-up jacks were a killer, I have tendonitis in the left shoulder and push-ups are difficult to do then. Still, tried my hardest and even those were improved! Yay me! But I'm most proud of the low plank obliques: +17!!! Wow.

On to the second month of workouts! It's going to be so much fun!

  
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MINNA72 1/8/2010 2:36PM

    Thanks Laurie! Your numbers are going to be great, you're in much better shape than I was in when I started. :)

Hey Judy! Thanks a bunch! I most definitely will keep it up! Come too far to do anything but! :)

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FIT2BEHEALTHY 1/8/2010 1:44AM

    Wow! Good job! I'm looking at your numbers and just wondering what mine are going to be like when I try it. Grrrr, I'm almost afraid! I'll probably take the fit test on Monday. You're my inspiration in this, so keep up the good work!

Laurie

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SEKSUNSHINE 1/7/2010 3:56PM

    Great job! I'm proud of you and you should be proud of you to! Keep it up. emoticon

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Reflections

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Wow. That's all I really know to say right now. WOW. It's a new month, a new year and I have no idea how it slipped by me.

The new year is almost a week old. In the past week I've had the opportunity to reflect on a few things.

1. I hate New Year's resolutions. I remember how I would solemnly swear to myself to do something, achieve something, be something - to make THIS year different from the last. And it would never last. I never lost those kilos just because a new year had started. I never felt better about myself just because I had made a resolution to do so. It doesn't work like that, or at any rate I don't work like that.

2. Because I am not making a new year's resolution - because I am not starting anything new just because it is January 1st - I have given myself a break from the pressure that always used to haunt me, make me miserable, make me think of myself as a failure. And it feels pretty damn good.

3. Another thing I have come to realize is that I am finally doing something I feel so proud of. I don't know if I've ever felt that before. My instinct is to belittle whatever it is I do or have achieved. I don't ever think that I have done things well enough, or quickly enough or shown enough intelligence, resolve, or strength. When I ran a half marathon I berated myself for not managing to finish 2 minutes faster and thus achieving my goal. I couldn't be really happy about actually finishing the race. When I got my third university degree I wasn't proud of this achievement, because I didn't get the highest grade, no matter that I don't know many people who can say they actually have three degrees.

Getting back in shape after two ridiculously difficult pregnancies is something I finally feel proud of. It has been a long road and it's far from over. I am at the half-way mark, I guess. But I feel strong, healthy, energetic. I feel strong in the knowledge that this is something I can do - and do well - that the goal is within reach. That even if it takes a little longer than I first hoped, it is not a failure on my part. I will get there.

And I will feel good about myself while doing it, I finally feel that I am doing something well enough, that I am good enough. Who'd have thought I'd ever see this day? I have come a long way, indeed.

  
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NUOVAELLE 1/7/2010 1:52AM

    While I was reading some new year wishes those past days I came across this: "May all your troubles last as long as your resolutions!" I'm sure 99 people out of 100 can really share the truthfulness in this. Who can keep resolutions? The only thing that you are left with is the disappointment that for one more year you were not committed to them. I didn't make resolutions this year, either. But you've done a great thing this beginning of the year. You looked back on all your achievements and you actually recognised them. And you really have done so much. Continue loving yourself this year. And yourself will reward you. emoticon

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FITSPIRATION 1/6/2010 5:15PM

  Every day is a new day! And we women can be so hard on ourselves. But the turth is that we are already phenominal! We have children, we go through all the body changes, we are always doing something for someone else... Celebrate your successes and when you miss your goals all you have to do is re-evaluate and keep on striving. Evey day is a gift that is why it is called the Present!

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SEKSUNSHINE 1/6/2010 1:17PM

    I don't do resolutions. You have been doing a fantastic job and will do even better this year! Looking forward to seeing pictures of your 2010 success!

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LOSLUWOM 1/6/2010 1:13PM

    Minna I am so glad to hear that you are feeding yourself with positive self talk. There are so many accomplishments you have made and should be proud of. New year, new you.

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SALDABA6 1/6/2010 11:58AM

    Wonderful Blog Minna. I haven't made New Years Resolutions since the year I vowed never to make a new year's resolution. Best thing I ever did LOL! We beat ourselves down enough for things all the time, a resolution is just one more thing we can put ourselves in the ground over. It so isn't worth it. I am finding that since I stopped beating myself down as much, I am more apt to look after myself better.... go figure emoticonHave a great day.

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SEADANCER 1/6/2010 10:37AM

    Hi there. What I hear in your posts is that you are really listening to you, feeling into you and what is really present. It sounds like you are considering the limitations of ideals and ideas and asking, 'What do I need now? What works for me now? Where am I now? What is the truth of the situation now?' I support you in this inquiry. Spark provides us with a lot of information, ideas, suggestions, tools and structure if we want it, but it also encourages us to be the synthesizer, to develop and trust our own knowing of what suits us. It's a different journey than 'dieting' but I feel it's one that really can take us somewhere different and be with us for the 'long haul' of life. Best to you in this.

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Feeling down. Or something.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I'm not a person who likes surprises. I like plans, I like making lists and checking them off as I go. I like a certain amount of predictability.

When things aren't going according to plan I am likely to feel stress, anxiety and sleeplessness.

I know all this and work hard to eliminate stress factors in my life. For the most part I do really well. We have no financial worries, we have so far avoided serious illnesses, and we have a home we like (while planning for bigger and better in the future when our savings reach a certain level - see; plans).

There is, however, something I feel I have very little control over. Something that worries me, and causes an emotional upheaval that threatens to send me to the fridge. I'm talking about injuries.

A few months ago I worried about my knee, it has been a problem for me for many years and the main reason I didn't run a marathon back in 2004. That's not what standing in my way this time. Out of the blue I got a hip pain that had me crying, wincing, and unable to run.

UNABLE.

Not even the knee caused me to stop running, not ever. It stopped me from running a marathon, but there are other kinds of running and that's okay with me. But to not be able to run... it's killing me.

I tried again this Sunday, just a short, slow 6 k. For 35 minutes I felt okay (the hip was a little sore, but not painful), the last minute was agony. It was impossible to keep going.

What on earth is wrong?

I can do workout DVDs without a problem, I can do Jumping Jacks and lunges, squats and jogging in place. But I can't run.

This turn of events - so totally unexpected - has caused an upheaval in my life. Now I find that I can't sleep at night. I worry and I have anxiety attacks. I'm sitting here with a stupid plate of cookies and there aren't many left. If I don't get this sorted out, either on a physical level or in my head, then all the hard work I've put in, all the weight I've lost, will be in jeopardy.

I need to feel on top of this, that there is a way out, that this is manageable, treatable, not the end of my life as a runner.

I need a new plan.

  
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RUBIA_LIZ 10/11/2010 1:00PM

    Wow. Well, I could have written this exact blog, word for word! Running has been the only thing I feel passionate about these days, so much so that I "ran through" the wincing, tear-provoking pain for eight days before I finally had to face the fact that I had an INJURY. When the doc told me I was to do zero exercise, not even abs or upper body, it just felt like adding insult to the INJURY and the depression really set in. Instead of doing the smart thing with my diet (decreasing calories and continuing to eat clean), I too grabbed the plate of cookies and have spent the last two weeks not caring what I stuff into my mouth. My ridiculous reasoning was "Oh well, I'm never going to be able to exercise again, so I don't care anymore. Bring on the fat cells!" How ridiculous is this? I've put back on 2 kilos, which were really tough to get off. Sheesh...

In any event, I've decided that today is a new day and I'm going to just buck up and power through this injury phase. I'm starting again, today, to log cals, eat clean, and toss the junk food in the trash.

This, too, shall pass, right?

Thanks for posting this blog!

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KATHY1204 12/20/2009 3:41PM

    Just catching up on reading a few blogs. I'm sorry to hear you are experiencing knee pain. I can relate to some extent to the emotional upheaval. I felt that way earlier this year when I began running and had two roadblocks-one was my knees. Getting better shoes is all I needed to do. I hope you see an orthopedic surgeon-they can really help alot in providing advise and doing thorough checking, including x rays. Until you are able to see the doctor, hope you are hanging in there ok, mentally!

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LOSLUWOM 12/18/2009 11:30AM

    Minna I am so sorry to hear that you have pain when you run. I know running is your favorite outlet. Hopefully the doctor will discover what is wrong. In the meantime try to stay positive.

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KIDDER136 12/16/2009 8:10PM

    Hang in there, get to your doctor and find out what is going on. Put the cookie tray down and don't let this ruin all your efforts. Talk to your doctor to figure out what is going on and until then, like you said, you can still do other things for physical exercise.

Gail


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SEADANCER 12/16/2009 10:28AM

    Yes, this is a challenging place to be. The truth is the only true option we get about living living life is how we choose to be with what occurs. So now you're feeling frustrated and I know that shaky feeling of food comfort too. Acknowledging those very feelings, because they actually are the true feelings, is the first step to not be captured by them. Over-riding our true feelings with our ideas typically doesn't work. But I've found that starting with the truth - I feel this - opens the door to letting me find a way to find another choice, a next choice. As others have shared, in the end it is really important for you to let the body heal. And simply be with the fear that shows up when things change, our bodies or whatever. You've just gone through so many changes that it may be this is the tipping of the scale and other concerns and fears are stirred up. Sounds like a good time to be gentle with yourself. Really take care and just tell your fear voice to be quiet. Perhaps your new plan is to not have a plan right now. To just take care in all the ways you can. Embrace yourself. Gently.

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NUOVAELLE 12/15/2009 10:35AM

    I'm so sorry that you feel that way. Having unexpected factors ruin your plans is awful. But you know what they say? When people make plans, God laughs. Whether you believe in God or not this is meant to show the unexpected factor in our lives. Make sure you rest and try not to worry too much until you get a doctor's opinion. I really hope that it's nothing serious. And I'm almost sure it won't ruin your life as a runner. Take care. I know I can't do much to help but if you need someone to listen I'm right here. Just a few clicks away. emoticon

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MINNA72 12/15/2009 8:50AM

    Thanks for the comments Judy and Fit-N-Thin. I am waiting to see the doctor but they can't fit me in until after the holidays. I'll just have to find a way to deal with it mentally while waiting for a verdict.

Judy, I did put the cookies away. :D Thanks girl!

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FITSPIRATION 12/15/2009 8:44AM

  Hey, sorry to hear this. I hate when something you have no control over steps in and slows down your goal. I think you should definitely go to the Doctor and find out if it's a muscle out of place, or any other injury. Especially since it's been this way for a bit and hasn't fully healed. It could be stress related too with your move and all. Well I do hope to see my Spark friend Sparkling again. Let me know what the doc says.
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SEKSUNSHINE 12/15/2009 7:34AM

    Girl have you been to the doctor yet? You need to go and see what the problem is, don't do this to yourself, and for God's sake put the cookies away! emoticon

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December Goals

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

I know this is very late, but with the move and all, I haven't had time to think much about this.

November was a bad month for me. I didn't reach any of my goals, except for one - to do 2 Insanity workouts a week.

The whole family fell sick with the flu and I was out of commission for 6 days. This means that I didn't run the kilometres I had planned.

I also didn't manage to reach my time goal of 58 minutes for 10 K, nor my weight loss goal.

So, altogether quite disappointing. Onwards we go. A deep breath and refocusing.

December will be a challenging time for me. Not only am I alone with the kids, with no baby sitters, while my husband finishes his work in Rome. I am also injured, which I have complained enough about in my previous blog post and my status updates, so I won't bore anyone with more of that.

My goals for December will therefore look quite different.

* I am at 76 kilos right now. I want to reach 74 kilos this month.

* I plan to do workout DVDs, while being careful to not make the injury worse. I want to do 3 Insanity workouts and 2 30 Day Shred workouts a week.

* I want to survive Christmas without overeating.

Those are my goals for this month, what's left of it. Doable for sure, but then, that's what I thought about last months's goals as well...

  
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NUOVAELLE 12/10/2009 3:32AM

    Avoid lifting weights (including the children, if that's possible). It's the worst thing you can do for your hip. I hope you feel better soon. As for the goals, they're definitely doable. And don't get disappointed by the previous month. Flu was not in the plan. As always it comes uninvited and does the damage. This month, I'm sure you can do it. The most difficult part seems to be "avoiding Christmas overeating". But we're all in this together, right? emoticon

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SEKSUNSHINE 12/9/2009 7:54PM

    Did you get into the doctor yet? You will make it through all this because you are strong and you have all of us to help. Your goals are very doable.

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SALDABA6 12/9/2009 7:47PM

    I am so sorry that you are injured. Try strength exercises every other day, and just do the ones you can. Walk slowly,and ease back into more.Make sure you speak with a doctor about the injuries, you may need physio. Sometimes the best thing you can do for an injury is rest the affected area as much as possible. Good luck on your journey. You have been doing very well so far:)

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