Friday, February 28, 2014
just feeling schemey. :D Last week went pretty well. I figured I'd give the spark coach thing another try, for some reason it looks like I'm getting a free trial, so *meh* I'll take it.
Going to play outside AT LEAST once a day this weekend. Plan a day trip for next weekend to a close state park.
Pay attention to WATER intake!! As in DRINK MORE! :D
Make a park play date for next week, I'll actually go if I'm meeting someone.
I feel like I'm doing pretty well on the dinner meal planning during the week (for the most part), and I've been remembering my fitbit, except when it dies and needs to be put on the charger (oops!). This past week was pretty good, a few bumps, but nothing too major.
I'm REALLY looking forward to March. Hopefully this weekend I'll have time to make a plan for the month! My husband joined a 'Biggest Loser' pool at work, so hopefully we can spend some time together as a family doing some outside, fun activities! Also, I'm going to try to not be completely annoyed when, with the most minimal amount of effort on his part, he loses more weight that I have with a lot of effort on my part. *sigh* I'm going to try and be super happy for him and his standing in the pool (in which he is the only male, so he'll probably have annoyed co-workers giving him grief, so I don't need to add to that!)
Friday, February 21, 2014
Went to the park TWICE this week with my boys!!! We had so much fun :D
Spreading the Spark IRL with some friends. I love talking fitness and goals!
Continued to easily integrate being vegetarian before dinner, and even some days having a vegan breakfast and lunch. Tonight I will dine on BBQ (not even a chance of a vegetable... I consider beans/legumes a separate category from veggies, and I usually lump potatoes in there as well!). I struggle with my omnivores dilemma now on a daily basis, since I give it thought, every day. I'm clearing out the existing stuff in my freezer so I can start buying my meat exclusively from a local butcher who buys their meat from local farms (It's a local shop, for local people, heh). Since we're eating less meat, it becomes a bit more affordable to buy our meat this way. At least, until the boys get older. Ugh! I may have to get a different job, or find/get a promotion (wouldn't that be nice?!) !!! :D
Was wearing my fitbit... and then at some point this week I took it off, and I keep forgetting to put it on my bra! GRR!
good shoes on, desk up (just do it!)
eh, cutting myself some slack this week as I was a lump on a log (in severe pain) last week -all week long- from the kidney stone.
Go to the park after work next week!
Plan to do leftovers that day instead of take out (what we did last night after the park, oops!)
Get the shoes out and put my desk up... I Plan on putting it up before I leave work today, that way it's already up on Monday.
Clean giant water glass and fill it with water at work (instead of getting sodas -yikes!)
Clean out the closet of clothes I do not (should not) wear!!!
So far I've been pleased with my week. No melt downs (some near misses!), was able to handle everything even though husband has been working late the last couple of weeks. My mom, aunt, and mother-in-law helped last week while I was down with the kidney stone. I could not have survived without them. The X-Ray on Monday showed no stone in my ureter, so I did pass it (probably on Friday, when I started to feel better)! BUT I have 2 still in my kidney, so now my urologist has a plan to do a full workup on my pee and blood (woot!) to tell me specifically what foods I may need to avoid (if I need to avoid anything) that could be contributing to creating the stones. I'll also need to get them X-Rayed every 1.5-2 years. Apparently they could break off at any time, get bigger, or I could die with them intact. Sooo... I'm going to start drinking lemon water every day in the hopes that I can erode them. Good Times!
Tuesday, February 04, 2014
of better living through chemistry. I realized yesterday I went a whole week without breaking down in tears. A whole week without having an episode in anger, tears of deep sadness, paralyzation due to stress/anxiety (about having to do the regular, everyday things of being a parent...or really just living, like washing dishes, laundry...). I think it's taken almost 2 full months for the Wellbutrin to "kick in", but I'm feeling more steady, more like myself. I was hoping to feel better, or like super woman :D ha! but apparently I am just supposed to be feeling like myself, able to cope and live life without curling up on the floor in tears. The past couple Fridays have been too busy to post, but I have been doing well being at least vegetarian before 6, and some days all day. Some days I've been successful being vegan even, but right now I'm just trying to hold myself to being vegetarian during the day. I've cut way back on my dairy, which, is a big deal in itself (most notably CHEESE, I have a Cheese problem!) :D baby steps! I've been wearing my fitbit and marvel at how many floors I climb each day; we moved to a two story house, and I can fit in a lot of stair climbing, with laundry as weights! I'm even feeling like I'm going to start standing at work again (shoes! I need to get my good shoes out, and probably look for some new stylish? shoes to wear to work). The scale is finally going down, probably because of the combo of things going on. I'll take it. My goals are still long term changes that promote health and wellbeing no matter what size I'm at... but ya know, I would *like* to be lighter. :) I hope to be posting all the good that happened this week and my goals for next week on Friday. Happy Tuesday!!
Friday, January 17, 2014
So 2014 came in with a bang. In the first week ALL my boys had strep, so mamma was taking care of everyone, then I had a kidney stone so everyone was taking care of me, and somehow with drug interactions I think, I became dizzy FOR DAYS... and then the twins got a nasty virus that almost landed one of them in the hospital, but we got to it in time so breathing treatments everyday for a week has cleared it up. I'm choosing not to believe that is an indication of my year ahead, instead going with 'we're getting all this crap out of the way sooner so the rest of the year will be awesome'! :D
Found my fitbit!
Wearing it for a week already!
learning how to create 'me time' again:
Worked on and almost finished with a craft project (a nap mat for my oldest)
took a long bath, with a good book...and some bourbon... and I liked it! (This was on the recommendation of the therapist, to try new things for some recharge time. I said to her "I'm not a bath person!" ha! Turns out, I guess I am. Pretty sure acupuncture is going to be next, "I hate needles!" I'll be eating those words, I can see it now!)
Found the scale. I think it needs new batteries (that's my excuse!)
Tracking has gotten away from me in this new year
Noticed a lot of negative self-talk and feelings these last couple of weeks.
bring lunch to work
batteries in the scale
take the stairs at work
Add 'walk around the block' to my routine this week
Read Bittman's VB6 book. I'm considering this as a practical and sensible way I can eat more responsibly to get healthier (and lose weight). And I'm already committed to a day out of the week as Veggie, so I'm thinking this won't be a huge deal to implement, we'll see!
find a place for the fitbit sync/charger device (maybe bring it in to work) so my steps and activity will be recorded.
So as this and earlier posts have noted, I'm seeing a therapist. When I re-read that I needed a therapist to suggest and "give me permission" to take time out for ME and that it's OK to try something new, I cringe a little inside. But the harsh truth is my brain is not in a place where after the kids are in bed I would just think, "Hey, even though there's a pile of dishes in the sink and a pile of laundry, what I NEED right now is to take a bath, and read a book, and just chill for a bit." My reality now is I need an outside party to help me figure out what it is that I can do for myself to relax and take a breath, so that I can continue living my life without wanting to crawl up in a ball on my bed and cry. My usual mode of operations is to take care of kids, do chores, take care of myself last. And that works fine when I'm feeling "normal" (my normal). It sucks, and it's not pretty, and I hate having to admit that to myself or write it here...but I strive to live an authentic life, and my time, what I choose to do with it, is all a part of my well-being, health, and a big part of what I document here. It's my journey. So next week I'm going to keep a bath for one night, and pick another night to walk around the neighborhood. As the days get longer this should get easier to keep doing.
In happier news, one of my 8 month old twins is ALREADY cruising. GAH!!! The other one has jealousy in his eyes, and has finally started doing a scooch or modified army crawl to try and get himself around (to get himself over to where his twin is!). They amaze me every day. I get to work with my oldest every day now on practicing writing his letters. He has a focus problem, but I love seeing his face light up when he "gets it" and excitedly works on the task at hand. These boys, they are sooo much work, but I do love that I get to be their mom. Soon I'll get to play with all of them running around outside, and I can't wait!
Friday, December 20, 2013
So far I'm feeling worse. Working with my support team (my therapist, dr., and dr's nurse) to figure it out. Haven't made a lot of strides this week... but I'm not giving up! I'm still here, and I'm still making a commitment to a healthier life. OOOH! I'm putting that in the 'Cheers!' column! :D
I'm not giving up! I'm still here, and I'm still making a commitment to a healthier life.
Had my plan and made dinner every night this week but one.
re-installed the SparkPeople iPhone app and attempted to track with that... I'm considering it a Cheer that:
I don't eat a lot of foods that I can scan a barcode and viola! it's in the tracker. I secretly wish I did... but whole foods don't come with a barcode. :( Darn! I think it would be more helpful to use that to create recipes so at least SOME of the ingredients would be auto entered? Box of rice, can of soup, cheese... meats and veggies though would still have to be manually entered. i digress...
My Jeers are the same this week as they were last week. Not going to beat myself up too much about it and put them in again.
My schemes are the same for next week as they were for this week! sheesh!!
bring lunch to work
fitbit: find, charge, wear
where's my scale?
start taking the stairs again
think about activity: make a plan
keep logging food!
Did you notice that I snuck in 'bring lunch to work' in the Schemes for next week? While I've been great at making dinners for the fam, I have been TERRIBLE at bringing my leftovers in to work! *oh the shame* :D So, next week, it should be pretty easy since everyone is gone for the next two weeks! Great time to get back into the habit with no one pressuring me to join them. I hope! Have a GREAT WEEK!
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