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Friday, June 20, 2014

I'm feeling especially down today, so I thought I'd try to list a few things that I am grateful for.

* my kids. They are difficult to raise but they do bring soooo much joy to my days that lately are filled with blah.
* an amazing and supportive spouse
* my parents. I'm lucky enough to get along with them and have them close by. They help me out with the kids, and around the house... SOOO much love for them.
* I feel extremely fortunate to have been able to replace the fitbit when I let it have the freedom to swim in the washing machine, and then rollercoster in the dryer.
* the pool I can walk to at the end of our street! I'll probably take the kids there this weekend!
* grateful that this site has been here over the years whenever I need to come back to it. I've been around here for a lot longer than my "start date" for my current username says. Love SP and all the users who make up this awesome community!
* hoola hoops!
* It's Friday. WOOT!

I already feel a little better :D Have a happy weekend!!

  
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AUNTRENEE 6/20/2014 9:51PM

    Love what you listed. Mine are my pets and my beautiful 2 year old grandniece Katelynn. I may not see Katelynn too often (once or twice a year) but she's my inspiration in getting healthy. I saw her last month and again next month. I spoil her to death when we see her with gifts like toys and clothes.

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JOYINKY 6/20/2014 8:01PM

    Gratitude lists always work for me! Good job! Have a wonderful weekend!

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BEEJAY49 6/20/2014 4:40PM

    That is a lot to lift your spirits! I'm glad you're feeling a little better! Take a swim for me this weekend! :) HUGS!

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uh oh...it's June!

Monday, June 16, 2014

At the beginning of the year, I started seeing a therapist to help me with what I thought was post-postpartum depression. I'm now on Wellbutrin (that I'm still not convinced is doing anything for me). Being tired of me not showing any improvement really since I started coming in, my therapist encouraged me to get blood-work done. Even though I've had kidney stones and blood work done since I've started with her, she wanted me to tell my doc EXACTLY what my symptoms are (I'm so freakin' tired ALL THE TIME and I get down, or depressed if you will, because of it). Turns out I have a pretty bad Vitamin D insufficiency. I'm now under the care of an endocrinologist as well as all my other peeps (started seeing an acupuncturist too) to figure out why my level is so low. I'm on CRAZY high doses of it. And as a side note, I wanted to just start taking supplements, that is a big NO-NO. Unless you're under the care of a doctor who is regularly monitoring your levels, it's a bad idea as it is toxic (it's fat soluble unlike many other vitamins, so you DON'T pee the excess out). I'm sure everyone else in the world already knows this, but because I had not ever had to worry about Vitamin D before, I never gave it a thought or looked into it. I also would like to say that discussing everything with my acupuncturist makes things WAY easier to understand, because she knows exactly what the doctor is doing, and why, and she can explain everything to me in terms I understand... even though I do ask my doctor questions and think I "get it" when I'm in the office. I would also like an assistant to help me organize all my bills and paperwork to submit to the insurance company, because holy moly things are starting to add up! :D I would also like this assistant to also watch my kiddos on occasion. Is that too much to ask?!
I went to the beach a couple weeks ago and have no pictures of it because the seaweed was so high. I only went near it once. UGH! We went and found indoor places to walk around, because outside was STINKY!!!
Also, I broke my fitbit. It took a ride in the washing machine and dryer. Because I have a two story home now, I don't worry as much about how many stories I've climbed each day, so this feature of the fitbit wasn't important to me. I also only used the sleep tracking for a week when I first got it, and discover that I sleep great... or I did at the time! So I've opted to replace my fitbit with the sparkpeople tracker, they claim it will withstand an accidental washing! WOOT! I'm sure I'll find out... :D
I'm hoping that the getting my Vitamin D levels to where they need to be will mean I will feel like exercising (at all). I haven't been able to put my standing desk to the standing position since I've been back from maternity leave, I have tried, but I just have no energy for it. That is about to change (in, like, a month from now!).
We took the pic below on March 30th. My boys... getting one or two bluebonnet pictures was a disaster, but this one is my favorite. At that moment I was dealing with having had to wake up the oldest from a nap, one of the twins did NOT like sitting in nature, and the other was having an allergy problem. awesome:

  
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JOYINKY 6/16/2014 12:43PM

    I hope you are feeling better soon! Seems you have a lot going on when just keeping up with those 3 darling boys would be more than enough for anyone! Of course you want to be able to enjoy being with them. I hope you can get it sorted out and have your energy back soon. Hugs.

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AUNTRENEE 6/16/2014 10:04AM

    Hope that you get to feeling better. Beautiful picture of the little ones.

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no so much cheers or jeers

Friday, February 28, 2014

just feeling schemey. :D Last week went pretty well. I figured I'd give the spark coach thing another try, for some reason it looks like I'm getting a free trial, so *meh* I'll take it.

emoticon Going to play outside AT LEAST once a day this weekend. emoticon Plan a day trip for next weekend to a close state park.
emoticon Pay attention to WATER intake!! As in DRINK MORE! :D
emoticon Make a park play date for next week, I'll actually go if I'm meeting someone.

I feel like I'm doing pretty well on the dinner meal planning during the week (for the most part), and I've been remembering my fitbit, except when it dies and needs to be put on the charger (oops!). This past week was pretty good, a few bumps, but nothing too major.

I'm REALLY looking forward to March. Hopefully this weekend I'll have time to make a plan for the month! My husband joined a 'Biggest Loser' pool at work, so hopefully we can spend some time together as a family doing some outside, fun activities! Also, I'm going to try to not be completely annoyed when, with the most minimal amount of effort on his part, he loses more weight that I have with a lot of effort on my part. *sigh* I'm going to try and be super happy for him and his standing in the pool (in which he is the only male, so he'll probably have annoyed co-workers giving him grief, so I don't need to add to that!)

  
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JOYINKY 2/28/2014 6:01PM

    I love your attitude! I too am looking forward to March. I change my family room with the seasons and today I changed it to Spring! I don't care what the forecasters are saying; it's time!
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POOKASLUAGH 2/28/2014 5:15PM

    It seems like a LOT of people are looking forward to March! It's going to be a good one!

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BEEJAY49 2/28/2014 5:08PM

    Yup it can be annoying when the guys lose and barely try but we try and barely lose. But...I think that makes us better because we have to focus more on it and we know what's right, they don't. Hehe! Awesome goals! :) Keep going I know you can do this! HUGS!

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Cheers, Jeers & Schemes: 2.21.2014

Friday, February 21, 2014

Cheers
emoticon Went to the park TWICE this week with my boys!!! We had so much fun :D
emoticon Spreading the Spark IRL with some friends. I love talking fitness and goals!
emoticon Continued to easily integrate being vegetarian before dinner, and even some days having a vegan breakfast and lunch. Tonight I will dine on BBQ (not even a chance of a vegetable... I consider beans/legumes a separate category from veggies, and I usually lump potatoes in there as well!). I struggle with my omnivores dilemma now on a daily basis, since I give it thought, every day. I'm clearing out the existing stuff in my freezer so I can start buying my meat exclusively from a local butcher who buys their meat from local farms (It's a local shop, for local people, heh). Since we're eating less meat, it becomes a bit more affordable to buy our meat this way. At least, until the boys get older. Ugh! I may have to get a different job, or find/get a promotion (wouldn't that be nice?!) !!! :D

Jeers
emoticon Was wearing my fitbit... and then at some point this week I took it off, and I keep forgetting to put it on my bra! GRR!
emoticon good shoes on, desk up (just do it!)
emoticon eh, cutting myself some slack this week as I was a lump on a log (in severe pain) last week -all week long- from the kidney stone.

Schemes
emoticon Go to the park after work next week!
emoticon Plan to do leftovers that day instead of take out (what we did last night after the park, oops!)
emoticon Get the shoes out and put my desk up... I Plan on putting it up before I leave work today, that way it's already up on Monday.
emoticon FITBIT on
emoticon Clean giant water glass and fill it with water at work (instead of getting sodas -yikes!)
emoticon Clean out the closet of clothes I do not (should not) wear!!!

So far I've been pleased with my week. No melt downs (some near misses!), was able to handle everything even though husband has been working late the last couple of weeks. My mom, aunt, and mother-in-law helped last week while I was down with the kidney stone. I could not have survived without them. The X-Ray on Monday showed no stone in my ureter, so I did pass it (probably on Friday, when I started to feel better)! BUT I have 2 still in my kidney, so now my urologist has a plan to do a full workup on my pee and blood (woot!) to tell me specifically what foods I may need to avoid (if I need to avoid anything) that could be contributing to creating the stones. I'll also need to get them X-Rayed every 1.5-2 years. Apparently they could break off at any time, get bigger, or I could die with them intact. Sooo... I'm going to start drinking lemon water every day in the hopes that I can erode them. Good Times!

Happy Friday!

  
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JOYINKY 2/21/2014 11:35AM

    I love your jeers; cheers and schemes!! You're doing a wonderful job of planning for success and a healthier life for your whole family. I am so glad you have good support. A week with a kidney stone is unbelievable! You deserved some down time. Better days ahead! emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 2/21/2014 10:14AM

    Ha! I don't consider beans, legumes, or potatoes vegetables either (or corn). :D

Glad the stone is gone! Hope you can figure out how to avoid more of them!

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ELRIDDICK 2/21/2014 10:07AM

  Thanks for sharing

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one week down!

Tuesday, February 04, 2014

of better living through chemistry. I realized yesterday I went a whole week without breaking down in tears. A whole week without having an episode in anger, tears of deep sadness, paralyzation due to stress/anxiety (about having to do the regular, everyday things of being a parent...or really just living, like washing dishes, laundry...). I think it's taken almost 2 full months for the Wellbutrin to "kick in", but I'm feeling more steady, more like myself. I was hoping to feel better, or like super woman :D ha! but apparently I am just supposed to be feeling like myself, able to cope and live life without curling up on the floor in tears. The past couple Fridays have been too busy to post, but I have been doing well being at least vegetarian before 6, and some days all day. Some days I've been successful being vegan even, but right now I'm just trying to hold myself to being vegetarian during the day. I've cut way back on my dairy, which, is a big deal in itself (most notably CHEESE, I have a Cheese problem!) :D baby steps! I've been wearing my fitbit and marvel at how many floors I climb each day; we moved to a two story house, and I can fit in a lot of stair climbing, with laundry as weights! I'm even feeling like I'm going to start standing at work again (shoes! I need to get my good shoes out, and probably look for some new stylish? shoes to wear to work). The scale is finally going down, probably because of the combo of things going on. I'll take it. My goals are still long term changes that promote health and wellbeing no matter what size I'm at... but ya know, I would *like* to be lighter. :) I hope to be posting all the good that happened this week and my goals for next week on Friday. Happy Tuesday!!

  
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DEBJAE 2/5/2014 8:12AM

    Awesome news! So glad you are feeling better and no more upsetting days!! Sounds like Super Woman is right around the corner, just waiting to be unleashed :) So happy for you!!

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POOKASLUAGH 2/4/2014 8:24PM

    So glad the Wellbutrin is kicking in and helping. I remember that helpless feeling so well. I remember especially after my second son was born, one day walking into the kitchen to make dinner, and hitting an invisible wall, turning around and knowing I just COULDN'T be in the kitchen, I just couldn't do it. It's weird how that sort of thing happens, but it does. I'm glad you're able to cope so much better now, and yay for the good news everywhere else too!

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BEEJAY49 2/4/2014 4:43PM

    I'm so glad you're starting to feel better one. Yes, baby steps will get you there and you are doing a great job! One day at a time! You can do this! :) Love you! HUGS!

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JOYINKY 2/4/2014 3:17PM

    Wonderful that things are moving in a positive direction! So glad for you! I have a cheese problem too; and and ice cream problem. I enjoy them away from home occasionally. Vegetarian eating that includes dairy, eggs and fish is the base of my diet today and I feel really good on it. Hang in there, you're doing great!

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JAYDEE16 2/4/2014 12:48PM

    That's wonderful! I'm glad you're feeling positive. Maybe not Superwoman . . . YET :) . . . but baby steps will get you where you want to go eventually!

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EJRANVILLE 2/4/2014 12:42PM

    Glad to hear your meds are working for you. Depression can be a difficult thing to conquer so keep up the good work.

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