Sunday, February 16, 2014
I have been dieting off an on for over 7 years. Starting at 365lb. I'm 284 now, but feel it's time to get serious.
My brother died in November, brutally murdered actually. The one thing he wanted for me was to be healthy. he never gave me a hard time about my weight, but I knew he really would have loved to see his lil sis at a healthy weight. So, when he died I obtained a couple of his t-shirts and I can't even wear them. I cried and cried. Then I decided "here is my motivation" and the thing that woke up that drive to lose weight.
Exercise and eating healthy is also helping with the depression and anxiety following his death. I have a long way to go, but seeing how life can be there one day and gone the next...I can't waste another day. I don't want to die fat. I keep imagining him looking down at me and smiling. Watching me transform in honor of his life and his love for me. No more excuses and doing for myself...but motivated by my brother.
This is for you John.....