Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Ok so it's been a few more days and I still haven't gotten back into it. This needs to stop NOW! I need to get off my but and get to the gym. Why can't I do that? It's so frustrating. This is why I'm fat. This is why I always feel like a failure. I had one amazing week followed by two weeks of crap!
I know my triggers now though I think. I know now that I can't let my guard down. I can't have that sweet treat to reward myself because once I start I can't stop!
It all started with a stupid ice cream. I thought "I've done so well this week! I can reward myself!" NOT! NO! I can't do that! At least not this early before I've fully developed my good habits. I know now. I have to be VERY strict with myself. It's not that hard if I keep it up but as soon as I let my guard down just a little bit it just floods over. Well just one bite won't hurt. One glass of soda is alright. And one turns into two turns into another one the next day and before I know it I'm completely off the wagon.