Saturday, September 08, 2012
I'm really having a hard time with this list. With just starting out, I haven't located all of my triggers yet that hold me back from weight loss. I'm gonna give it a go, though. Some of this may not make sense to anyone else other than me, but I'm okay with that.
1. Lack of sleep- I noticed this yesterday. I only got a 3 hour nap during the daytime, and I seriously ate everything in sight for a while after waking up. When I finally realized what was going on, I grabbed my water bottle, filled it up, and started downing water instead. With working nights, it's harder to have a normal "3 meals" type of diet...I'll figure it out though.
2. Lack of planning out my food for the day- If I don't have a meal menu planned for the week, it all kind of goes to the wayside. My boyfriend and I have been meaning to do this, but with the kids and other stuff going on, it doesn't seem to be getting done.
3. Lack of fresh fruits and veggies in the house- I have to say that I have gotten better about this the last few weeks. I got a whole bag full of freggies last weekend, and I spent an hour or so cutting them up and bagging everything so it was ready to eat and more accessible. My kids willingly will eat fruits and veggies if they are already cut up for them to grab. My son will even eat bell peppers as a snack if I have it ready. I noticed too, how nice it was to have lettuce that was already ready to eat. I plan on going to the farmer's market on Saturdays so that I can have them ready for the week.
4. Stress from work- I stress out when I work with people who I feel are lazy or just not pulling their own weight. Unfortunately, I have a coworker right now who doesn't do her fair share of the workload, and I end up picking up the slack most days. I have started to not do pick up the slack anymore with this person, but I'm still getting extremely frustrated. When I feel like this at work, it's much easier to eat that greasy cheeseburger or the donuts that were left by nursing students. I have had to start going outside to take a break from the situation and get some fresh air.
5. Underlying Depression?- Some terrible stuff happened to my daughter a few years ago, and I think I internalized it and ended up eating to hide my feelings. I gained about 40 pounds in a year and a half. I know that my weight has been a defense mechanism...who can hurt me worse than I'm already hurting myself with all this extra weight? I've since seen a counselor about my issues with what happened and have come a long way with dealing with this. It's still hard to not want to grab a bag of cheetos and down it somedays, but I'm a work in progress.
Healthy Change Bonus: Reflecting
I'm working on me this fall! I'm working on adding more freggies to my diet, keeping my water intake up, and walking or jogging at least 4 days a week (but I'm hoping for 6 days a week). I'm also hoping that through blogging on sparkpeople, that I can work out some of my mental roadblocks along the way.