Monday, April 12, 2010
My relationship with my mom has not always been perfect,...but today I'm remembering that she carried me around for 9 months and planned her whole life in that time around me! I'm quite sure that she did the same collectively for the rest of my siblings and I for quite a bit longer than that! Thanks, Mom!!!!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
I can't wait to keep my walking streak alive today. I've hit my 10,000 goal 3 times in the last week, including yesterday's 13,000 mark. The walking will help me corral my eating also. Once I am seeing payoffs in my energy from better movement: improved circulation, less labored breathing, more pep in my step, it will encourage me to do better and better. That is what is helping propel myself forward.
This morning, I woke up feeling psyched! I am happy to go for a walk and happy I can be at home today. I am starting to feel good in my own skin again and it is a peaceful relaxed feeling. I am losing my fear. YAY!!!!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
HA! I went shopping with my sister today! It was great! I bought a necklace, (not on sale), hand cream and soap, not on sale, and an earring tree to display earrings I make (and will one day sell). I saw a great outfit in a window, and basically ordered my sister to try it on, got a sales girl to round up the items in her size to try on, and guess what! she loved it!!!! It was the best bday gift I ever got her I think. It looked beautiful. I felt good. I could afford it (I'd saved) and well you remember the flowers from yesterday.....
and on top of all of this retail therapy, I walked 13000 steps plus today!
Let's hear it for the mall! WOO HOO!!!
Friday, April 09, 2010
Here's a thank you gift to myself! I loved that I just walked (which oddly felt like "nothing"....it used to feel like such a chore and project) --- and picked the destination of a flower shop. I went and selected the flowers that I liked best including the palest purple roses I've ever seen, some ivory roses, some gerbera daisies and some random purple things. Maybe it's something in the lilac family? There was a posted quiz up on the chalkboard that asked for the 3 most popular flowers in the US - and you could win a 10% discount. SCORE! I didn't hit it exactly, but the florist said I have been the closest by far. :) Woot!
p.s. it ain't tulips. :)
Friday, April 09, 2010
I've made excellent progress this week --- walking most days, and that will continue on this weekend. I am starting to see more of my warrior spirit re-emerge. I think I'd forgotten how strong I can be, and let so many things chip away at my spirit until I gave up for so long.
That era is over. Come what may, I will stand strong and be able to defend my needs and be the person I was meant to be. I can't believe that I let myself get that down over stupid things. Geeeeeez! I really needed a long time to break out of that. Truth is that is hurt so much, that I could not believe it happened to me.
But now, I am finally seeing past it.
Here's to shaking yourself off, dusting off your shoulders and getting back in the game. There was a time when I didn't think I was worth it, and then I stopped that thinking. I let myself fall back into that trap when life's little problems seemed overwhelming and insurmountable.
It's all right to take reality breaks, and it's all right to forgive yourself for making mistakes. It's also a fact that other people are going to let us down, and sometimes we're not going to be able to get over the things they have done. I realize this now. All that being said, it does not negate the responsibility I have to myself in taking care of myself.
So this is the line in the sand for me, for what I am willing to do to put myself first and make changes. I am putting my sneakers back on and going outside for a 20 minute walk. I don't care if it is raining a bit. I am going outside anyway. :)
I think I will walk down to the flower store and buy myself some flowers.
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest! Let's make it a great day!
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