Friday, April 09, 2010
Here's a thank you gift to myself! I loved that I just walked (which oddly felt like "nothing"....it used to feel like such a chore and project) --- and picked the destination of a flower shop. I went and selected the flowers that I liked best including the palest purple roses I've ever seen, some ivory roses, some gerbera daisies and some random purple things. Maybe it's something in the lilac family? There was a posted quiz up on the chalkboard that asked for the 3 most popular flowers in the US - and you could win a 10% discount. SCORE! I didn't hit it exactly, but the florist said I have been the closest by far. :) Woot!
p.s. it ain't tulips. :)
Friday, April 09, 2010
I've made excellent progress this week --- walking most days, and that will continue on this weekend. I am starting to see more of my warrior spirit re-emerge. I think I'd forgotten how strong I can be, and let so many things chip away at my spirit until I gave up for so long.
That era is over. Come what may, I will stand strong and be able to defend my needs and be the person I was meant to be. I can't believe that I let myself get that down over stupid things. Geeeeeez! I really needed a long time to break out of that. Truth is that is hurt so much, that I could not believe it happened to me.
But now, I am finally seeing past it.
Here's to shaking yourself off, dusting off your shoulders and getting back in the game. There was a time when I didn't think I was worth it, and then I stopped that thinking. I let myself fall back into that trap when life's little problems seemed overwhelming and insurmountable.
It's all right to take reality breaks, and it's all right to forgive yourself for making mistakes. It's also a fact that other people are going to let us down, and sometimes we're not going to be able to get over the things they have done. I realize this now. All that being said, it does not negate the responsibility I have to myself in taking care of myself.
So this is the line in the sand for me, for what I am willing to do to put myself first and make changes. I am putting my sneakers back on and going outside for a 20 minute walk. I don't care if it is raining a bit. I am going outside anyway. :)
I think I will walk down to the flower store and buy myself some flowers.
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest! Let's make it a great day!
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Ha! It's not what you are thinking. :)
I had this thought while slipping off to dreamland last night. I was basking in the the feeling of having completed 10,000 steps yesterday, and it occurred to me that "nothing" hurt. Not my legs, my ankles, my feet, my jaw, not my head, my stomach. Nothing hurt. I can't remember the last time I laid in bed and felt no pain. I felt free.
I even did a mental doublecheck. Is everything attached? Yup? Pain? Nope.
I ate a lot of chocolate yesterday, but I didn't gain. I'm not proud of my candy consumption but I am proud that my overeating did not keep me from walking, and then walking some more, and walking again today.
I used to have a hard time with separating the two - that somehow if I ate chocolate, it would negate the ability for me to walk. I was wrapped up in all or nothing thinking.
Now I am taking steps, literally, to change myself --- physically and in every way. I still drive early to work, but for the past couple of days, I go to my office, and then put my bags down, and then go hoofing for a while. Not too shabby.
I am so proud of myself for continuing on ---- and not going back to the office just because I could hear mowers and smell grass being cut. There are acres and acres of grass here, so I went walking into town.
The magnitude of this for me is huge. I am the same person who would try to get meetings moved to my building so I did not have to walk far. I hardly recognize her and it's only been a couple of days.
That's what I am doing just stepping forward a little bit at time, but it is sure adding up.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
I DID IT! WOO HOO! I reached my goal today. I am doing virtual somersaults!!!
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Good morning, Sparks!
I left the house a wee bit late today --- not late for work, just later then I like to leave because traffic really builds up the later into the morning it gets. I like to leave early and beat the heavier traffic as it makes for a happier commute for me and everyone else. ha ha ha.
I did, however, squeeze in breakfast of Special K red berries cereal and a banana before I left home. I have not had breakfast at home in weeks. I usually snack in the car on the way in, but that's not the healthiest way to handle it.
I arrived to work with minimal hassle (and no honking), and then walked the 700 steps to my office. I walked up the big hill (which I frequently avoid by taking stairs or elevator) but this morning up I huffed and puffed.
Dropped my bags off to the office and then did not even log on my computer. I went right back out again. I took my cell phone and key and that was it! I was wearing my pedometer also. I set an alarm on my phone to let me know when it was 8am and I should be heading back. So I walked down by the football stadium (I work at a university) and encountered quite a few other people along those paths as well.
Much to my surprise, I handled a 40 min walk this a.m. Woo hoo! I did 7000 steps yesterday and the day before, and I am on target to hit that number again. I plan on going for a short walk again around lunch --- or possibly before so it does not get scorching hot --- (it'll be over 80 here today) --- and I am so pleased that I am walking again.
I completed a half marathon about 5 years ago when I lost a bunch of weight. I am getting back into it though. I'm not currently feeling the need to go do one of those any time soon, but right now, just today, I am enjoying how I feel, and how I can move around. I feel happy and satisfied right now. I just wanted to share!
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