Monday, June 18, 2012
Not much to say tonight, but I am revelling in have a smaller (less swollen) foot. My left foot tends to swell if I sit too long at night, and I have notably been moving around more tonight - including doing 35 mins of the wii and taking out the trash. WOO HOO!
My little steps are paying off!
I am happy!
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Temptations all around. No wonder "they" say don't go to the store on an empty stomach! Temptations were certainly calling me. However, God all put other distractions in my way: the woman at the checkout line in front of me who could not get all the items out of her cart without my assistance. She had some very creative ideas of how to jostle her cart, to reach those items which mostly worked, but I provided an easier solution.
I can be tempted and still "safe" by buying the stuff for my hubby and buying an alternate more manageable snack for me. IN this case, I bought him a cheesecake, and me 2 single serving frozen treats. Yeah, I can live with that - a lot easier than I can with either not buying anything (setting myself up for bigger cravings) or buying non portioned items which sometimes sends me a signal to go hog wild - neither of which happens when I am in control.
I am happy about my "happy medium." I am making choices that work for me without limiting others, or giving others power over me. I just feel happy with where i am. I have made some progress and I am continuing to make it, and I can also see where I am not -struggling to get stuff from my cart. All in all, I am making small changes over time which are leader to bigger gains: gains in my self esteem and not on the scale.
I just have one thing to say: woo hoo!
How do you pass up temptation, sparkies?
Saturday, June 16, 2012
We went out to dinner tonight and as usual did the squeeze into the booth. It is STILL a tight fit, but it no longer feels like I am using a vise grip around my middle to get in and out of the booth. I ate too much, and I am still feeling overstuffed an hour plus later, but I am also feeling good about my choices and the teeniest bit of wiggle room I had.
Because they are improvements. It is progress in the making. That's how my success is built - one smidge at a time. I had fish and a baked potato. I had a salad and unsweetened tea. As far as those choices went, it was stellar. I just ate too much of it all, but it is freaking good progress.
Another area of progress for me is getting out of my car. I am also climbing in with less thoughts of how am I getting in and out and just doing it, which is the level of comfort I had hoped for --- liked it used to be --- how I would do it, and have no thought about how I did it.
Now though, it is still a bit of a struggle to get out, but I am faring much better than I was say a month ago. I am getting more exercise, being more agile, and eating better. All pluses and definitely MORE THAN A STEP in the right direction.
I am proud of myself for the changes I am making, and as a result, I keep making more of those good choices.
Here's to all of us continuing on this good road to improvement. Let's roll Sparkies! WOO HOO!
Thursday, June 14, 2012
It's okay to have a meltdown. I was angry, sad, and cranky today. And oh, did I mention impatient?
People got on my nerves today.People who you shouldn't snap at (like your boss, hubby, and um, God). For the sake of argument, I'm lumping Him under people, but for those who believe, you know what I mean.
I have been riding a wave of enthusiasm and dropping numbers, both in lbs and blood sugar, but still I am not happy.
I WANT MORE.
I want the freaking promotion I should have had a year ago,
I want my parents to somehow magically reappear on this earth. (That ain't going to happen.)
I want my husband to show me that he loves me, not just by emptying the dishwasher or working overtime.
I want to much more from my life than I am getting. Is this the final straw that pushes me to action?
I just did 30 sweaty mins on the wii. It thinks I'm 26. At least I have that going for me. The good news is I have moved out of flight mode. I am finally standing up and attacking my life, instead of moving into the fetal position.
It doesn't make me any less cranky, but it does give me a reason to fight.
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