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Owning It

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Owning It means taking care of myself and recognizing that I am the only one with keys to my place. I am responsible for feeding me good stuff, taking out the trash and knowing when I have had enough and it is time to stop:

Staying in Toxic Relationships
Taking on too much
Letting myself off the hook too much

It is a challenge to take care of oneself while keeping your eyes on the prize. It may seem easier to let it all go to pot and let whatever happens happen, but what happens when you come to the end. There is a price to pay for all of those missed opportunities.

I am through just blowing through life like nothing matters --- like I don't matter. I am continually turning my ship around and heading for deeper seas --- where my life has meaning, where I have a purpose in my life and a zest for living.

It is up to me to make changes in my life and live up to the goodness in me. It is up to me to keep a light shining so that I am able to recognize where I should be headed and illuminate how I am going to get there. It is up to me to help others along the way, but to always remember that I have to pull myself up first before I take care of others.

Today, I am owning it by taking bigger baby steps to stay on course, and do what works for me. I am eating fruits/veggies and getting in some walking time. I am doing squats and push-ups and remembering that I am earning my body and making those muscles appear. I am owning it - the good and the bad and the end result will be a life and a body that I am proud of and have worked hard to earn.

What are you owning, sparkies?

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CONTENTCHRIS 6/20/2012 12:20PM

    You are doing well as well my friend. I enjoyed the fact that your ridding yourself of toxic relationships. I am completely out of any bad relations now and am working on teaching my kids to complain less and cause less undo stress to others. Stress was always the Camel that broke my back to give in to the late night snacking and thus feeling of self worthlessness...


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DIFROMWYOMING 6/19/2012 10:40PM

    I agree, Mar, we need to own who we are, who we can be, and BE that. It is easy to say and not always easy to do, but I am with you....I am done telling myself it's okay to fail because it's hard.

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KKINNEA 6/19/2012 6:40PM

    I am owning all my new responsibilities while keeping my good habits!

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DOODIE59 6/19/2012 2:10PM

    Good for you, Mary. Own it. That is one "possession" that can be freeing:)

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ELLEJAY7 6/19/2012 1:31PM

    Absolutely Great Blog! Thanks!

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MUGGLE_MOM 6/19/2012 1:25PM

    Whooo Hooooo!!!!
Great attitude MickeyMax!
You can do it!
You have what it takes!
No excuses.

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LESSOFPMCD 6/19/2012 1:04PM

    How true - we are ultimately the person that is responsible for the decisions we make.

We have to take ownership of ourselves - including our faults - stop blaming others etc. We may not be able to control everything that happens in our lives but we can control how we react to it.

We are worth being on this journey to getting healty - just have to realize this and then do what it takes to obtain your goals.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 6/19/2012 12:58PM

    Good for you! I talked to a fitness mentor of mine recently and she said we all barely scratch the surface of what we're capable of. I think we all need to remind ourselves of that and strive to be better and value our worth!

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MILPAM3 6/19/2012 12:50PM

  Good for you. Honest with self. Honest with others. Honest with God. It's all good. emoticon

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Less Swelling

Monday, June 18, 2012

Not much to say tonight, but I am revelling in have a smaller (less swollen) foot. My left foot tends to swell if I sit too long at night, and I have notably been moving around more tonight - including doing 35 mins of the wii and taking out the trash. WOO HOO!

My little steps are paying off!

I am happy!

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DOODIE59 6/19/2012 8:44AM

    It is exactly that kind of good health we are working today -- good job keeping moving -- Yay!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 6/18/2012 10:52PM

    Glad you are feeling a bit better!

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LOOZINITNOW 6/18/2012 10:09PM

    Keep at it!!! emoticon

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MUGGLE_MOM 6/18/2012 10:00PM

    You Go Girl!!! Whooo Hoooo!!!!

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DIFROMWYOMING 6/18/2012 9:41PM

    Good job Mar! I know how miserable swollen legs/feet can be and having some improvement there is reason to celebrate. Keep going, emoticon

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Sunday, June 17, 2012

Temptations all around. No wonder "they" say don't go to the store on an empty stomach! Temptations were certainly calling me. However, God all put other distractions in my way: the woman at the checkout line in front of me who could not get all the items out of her cart without my assistance. She had some very creative ideas of how to jostle her cart, to reach those items which mostly worked, but I provided an easier solution.

I can be tempted and still "safe" by buying the stuff for my hubby and buying an alternate more manageable snack for me. IN this case, I bought him a cheesecake, and me 2 single serving frozen treats. Yeah, I can live with that - a lot easier than I can with either not buying anything (setting myself up for bigger cravings) or buying non portioned items which sometimes sends me a signal to go hog wild - neither of which happens when I am in control.

I am happy about my "happy medium." I am making choices that work for me without limiting others, or giving others power over me. I just feel happy with where i am. I have made some progress and I am continuing to make it, and I can also see where I am not -struggling to get stuff from my cart. All in all, I am making small changes over time which are leader to bigger gains: gains in my self esteem and not on the scale.

I just have one thing to say: woo hoo!

How do you pass up temptation, sparkies?

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 6/18/2012 3:36PM

    I do the portion control thing that you do and it usually works. LOL I have to have treats or I think my inner brat would revolt and I'd have a big mess on my hands. I just try to choose wisely.

Sounds like you've got a great plan in place!


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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/17/2012 10:37PM

    Some days are better than others. I am lucky that I live alone so I only have to buy for me

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CANDY58 6/17/2012 7:42PM

    I can usually talk myself out of treats until it comes to ice cream emoticon
that is my big down fall.

emoticon on your success today!

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Saturday, June 16, 2012

We went out to dinner tonight and as usual did the squeeze into the booth. It is STILL a tight fit, but it no longer feels like I am using a vise grip around my middle to get in and out of the booth. I ate too much, and I am still feeling overstuffed an hour plus later, but I am also feeling good about my choices and the teeniest bit of wiggle room I had.


Because they are improvements. It is progress in the making. That's how my success is built - one smidge at a time. I had fish and a baked potato. I had a salad and unsweetened tea. As far as those choices went, it was stellar. I just ate too much of it all, but it is freaking good progress.

Another area of progress for me is getting out of my car. I am also climbing in with less thoughts of how am I getting in and out and just doing it, which is the level of comfort I had hoped for --- liked it used to be --- how I would do it, and have no thought about how I did it.

Now though, it is still a bit of a struggle to get out, but I am faring much better than I was say a month ago. I am getting more exercise, being more agile, and eating better. All pluses and definitely MORE THAN A STEP in the right direction.

I am proud of myself for the changes I am making, and as a result, I keep making more of those good choices.


Here's to all of us continuing on this good road to improvement. Let's roll Sparkies! WOO HOO!

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DOODIE59 6/17/2012 9:15AM

    Stellar choices -- yeah!!
I still chuckle when I remember the first time you told the story of trying to get out of your car at a certain moment. Getting out more easily is DEFINITELY a tangible and satisfying measure of the improvements you're making in your life. Here's to bouncing off the seat and right out the door, even before it's fully open:)

Baby steps are still steps, right ... just keep making those good decisions most of the time, and your life will just keep getting better.

Enjoy your Sunday:)

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/16/2012 9:13PM

    emoticon I am proud of you too!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 6/16/2012 8:55PM

    Good for you for recognizing achievements like this! I think it is so important to see the little things, like fitting in a booth easier. Way to go on your hard work paying off!

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Thursday, June 14, 2012

It's okay to have a meltdown. I was angry, sad, and cranky today. And oh, did I mention impatient?

People got on my nerves today.People who you shouldn't snap at (like your boss, hubby, and um, God). For the sake of argument, I'm lumping Him under people, but for those who believe, you know what I mean.

I have been riding a wave of enthusiasm and dropping numbers, both in lbs and blood sugar, but still I am not happy.


I want the freaking promotion I should have had a year ago,

I want my parents to somehow magically reappear on this earth. (That ain't going to happen.)

I want my husband to show me that he loves me, not just by emptying the dishwasher or working overtime.

I want to much more from my life than I am getting. Is this the final straw that pushes me to action?

I just did 30 sweaty mins on the wii. It thinks I'm 26. At least I have that going for me. The good news is I have moved out of flight mode. I am finally standing up and attacking my life, instead of moving into the fetal position.

It doesn't make me any less cranky, but it does give me a reason to fight.

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DOODIE59 6/17/2012 9:22AM

    Of course you had a right to have a bad day, and to get mad about it!

You've have had one bee-yotch of a year (If I can use that word?) and you are right where you should be -- looking at your circumstances, unhappy at the injustice of things, wondering about fairness ... AND yet you STILL make the changes to enrich your life. You are a strong soul, and one of these days, everything's going to fall into place. The pieces will fit, and you'll be right in the middle:) Just. Keep. Going. Do what you're doing. Celebrate the things you do right. Assign the things you do wrong to the garbage, and move on.

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SKY2012 6/16/2012 8:28PM

    (((((((((((((((( hugs my angel friend )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Please dont waste your time wishing for a promotion that may not ever happen..... try instead to focus on the bright side and be grateful for still having a job when millions are out of work.

Thank you for sharing part of your life with us hugssssssssssssssssss

You deserve a break today.... maybe you can do something nice for YOU, like soak in a bubble bath or get your nails done.... something, anything to pamper YOU for a change emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 6/14/2012 10:43PM

    Sorry for the bad day. I'm not going to say it can't get worse b/c that's like asking for a new bottom to be dug out! But I can say that stupid @ss phrase that Pollyanna's like to throw at me..."you can't control the world but you can control how you REACT to it." I'll wait while you grab a barf bag...eh, actually I'll barf too...hang on.

I think you can do anything you want in this life and if this meltdown pushes you into action on claiming what you deserve then good on ya. I totally get where you are and it only gets better if you will it to. I think. Maybe I shouldn't comment.

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TEACHEROF4TH 6/14/2012 10:34PM

    It's okay to have a meltdown every now and again... today was your day. You are making fabulous progress, so don't let the difficulties get you down. Easier said than done, I know. But you are strong, and you can do this. Hang in there, and don't give up, whatever you do. Let me know how I can help... I'm here!



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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/14/2012 9:55PM

    Sorry you had a bad day.

I lump God in with people all the time as He is a living God. I talk to Him as if He is sitting next to me like a real person does so in my opinion He is can be lunped in with people LOL

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