Improvements

Saturday, June 16, 2012

We went out to dinner tonight and as usual did the squeeze into the booth. It is STILL a tight fit, but it no longer feels like I am using a vise grip around my middle to get in and out of the booth. I ate too much, and I am still feeling overstuffed an hour plus later, but I am also feeling good about my choices and the teeniest bit of wiggle room I had.

Why?

Because they are improvements. It is progress in the making. That's how my success is built - one smidge at a time. I had fish and a baked potato. I had a salad and unsweetened tea. As far as those choices went, it was stellar. I just ate too much of it all, but it is freaking good progress.

Another area of progress for me is getting out of my car. I am also climbing in with less thoughts of how am I getting in and out and just doing it, which is the level of comfort I had hoped for --- liked it used to be --- how I would do it, and have no thought about how I did it.

Now though, it is still a bit of a struggle to get out, but I am faring much better than I was say a month ago. I am getting more exercise, being more agile, and eating better. All pluses and definitely MORE THAN A STEP in the right direction.

I am proud of myself for the changes I am making, and as a result, I keep making more of those good choices.

WOO HOO!

Here's to all of us continuing on this good road to improvement. Let's roll Sparkies! WOO HOO!

  

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DOODIE59 6/17/2012 9:15AM

Stellar choices -- yeah!! I still chuckle when I remember the first time you told the story of trying to get out of your car at a certain moment. Getting out more easily is DEFINITELY a tangible and satisfying measure of the improvements you're making in your life. Here's to bouncing off the seat and right out the door, even before it's fully open:) Baby steps are still steps, right ... just keep making those good decisions most of the time, and your life will just keep getting better. Enjoy your Sunday:) Deirdre Report Inappropriate Comment

TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/16/2012 9:13PM

I am proud of you too! Report Inappropriate Comment

HEALTHYASHLEY 6/16/2012 8:55PM

Good for you for recognizing achievements like this! I think it is so important to see the little things, like fitting in a booth easier. Way to go on your hard work paying off! Report Inappropriate Comment

Meltdown

Thursday, June 14, 2012

It's okay to have a meltdown. I was angry, sad, and cranky today. And oh, did I mention impatient?

People got on my nerves today.People who you shouldn't snap at (like your boss, hubby, and um, God). For the sake of argument, I'm lumping Him under people, but for those who believe, you know what I mean.

I have been riding a wave of enthusiasm and dropping numbers, both in lbs and blood sugar, but still I am not happy.

I WANT MORE.

I want the freaking promotion I should have had a year ago,

I want my parents to somehow magically reappear on this earth. (That ain't going to happen.)

I want my husband to show me that he loves me, not just by emptying the dishwasher or working overtime.

I want to much more from my life than I am getting. Is this the final straw that pushes me to action?

I just did 30 sweaty mins on the wii. It thinks I'm 26. At least I have that going for me. The good news is I have moved out of flight mode. I am finally standing up and attacking my life, instead of moving into the fetal position.

It doesn't make me any less cranky, but it does give me a reason to fight.

  

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DOODIE59 6/17/2012 9:22AM

Of course you had a right to have a bad day, and to get mad about it! You've have had one bee-yotch of a year (If I can use that word?) and you are right where you should be -- looking at your circumstances, unhappy at the injustice of things, wondering about fairness ... AND yet you STILL make the changes to enrich your life. You are a strong soul, and one of these days, everything's going to fall into place. The pieces will fit, and you'll be right in the middle:) Just. Keep. Going. Do what you're doing. Celebrate the things you do right. Assign the things you do wrong to the garbage, and move on. Hugs, Deirdre Report Inappropriate Comment

SKY2012 6/16/2012 8:28PM

(((((((((((((((( hugs my angel friend ))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Please dont waste your time wishing for a promotion that may not ever happen..... try instead to focus on the bright side and be grateful for still having a job when millions are out of work. Thank you for sharing part of your life with us hugssssssssssssssssss You deserve a break today.... maybe you can do something nice for YOU, like soak in a bubble bath or get your nails done.... something, anything to pamper YOU for a change Report Inappropriate Comment

NOTABOUTHEFACE 6/14/2012 10:43PM

Sorry for the bad day. I'm not going to say it can't get worse b/c that's like asking for a new bottom to be dug out! But I can say that stupid @ss phrase that Pollyanna's like to throw at me..."you can't control the world but you can control how you REACT to it." I'll wait while you grab a barf bag...eh, actually I'll barf too...hang on. I think you can do anything you want in this life and if this meltdown pushes you into action on claiming what you deserve then good on ya. I totally get where you are and it only gets better if you will it to. I think. Maybe I shouldn't comment. Report Inappropriate Comment

TEACHEROF4TH 6/14/2012 10:34PM

It's okay to have a meltdown every now and again... today was your day. You are making fabulous progress, so don't let the difficulties get you down. Easier said than done, I know. But you are strong, and you can do this. Hang in there, and don't give up, whatever you do. Let me know how I can help... I'm here! Debbie Report Inappropriate Comment

TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/14/2012 9:55PM

Sorry you had a bad day. I lump God in with people all the time as He is a living God. I talk to Him as if He is sitting next to me like a real person does so in my opinion He is can be lunped in with people LOL Report Inappropriate Comment

LOVEHANDLES

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Lovehandles. Hmmm. Lovely lovehandles? Really?

YES!

I am delighted, doing a happy dance, shake it here, shake it there, happy dance!
Lovehandles.

I have them.

My waist is whittling, slowly but surely and I have a place to rest my hands on hips, a little indentation that was not there before. My body is changing. I am growing lovehandles, in what was once a formless lump, or so it seemed to me, but now,...there is some definition. While for some, this development would be sudden cause for alarm, all it does is make me happy and want to dance!

Changes are a-coming! Woo hoo!

  

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KATHY_ON_462014 6/14/2012 4:04AM

Yay ! LOL I know what you mean. Missing you this day one of the blc... but you sound like you are really doing well.. You are never too far away from us :) Hugs Kathy Report Inappropriate Comment

NOTABOUTHEFACE 6/13/2012 11:21PM

Gotta love those lovehandles! Report Inappropriate Comment

MUGGLE_MOM 6/13/2012 11:22AM

I am so excited for you! That is totally AWESOME! You Got This!!! Keep up the GREAT work and the FABULOUS attitude!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SARAWALKS 6/13/2012 11:21AM

I think we need a Snoopy happy dance icon on Spark but probably it is copyright protected...anyway )()()()()( ! Comment edited on: 6/13/2012 11:22:12 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

LITTLE-LORI 6/13/2012 11:15AM

Oh, Mickey, I LOVE your attitude! It just flows out of you like sun rays! Report Inappropriate Comment

DOODIE59 6/13/2012 10:48AM

Oh yes, changes are a-coming! Hurray! It's nice to have measurable progress. Deirdre Report Inappropriate Comment

LESSOFPMCD 6/13/2012 10:23AM

Congratulations! I know what you mean - all of a sudden there is something that we haven't felt for awhile - a waist! Savor the feeling - remember it when you are tempted to give up on your goals. It will keep you going to achieve the next goal. Report Inappropriate Comment

Fun in the SuperMarket

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Hubby and I did the bulk of our grocery shopping yesterday, but I had a few items to pick up today. I am using a calories in and calories out guideline and it feels good to me to just have a number and aim to get it in a healthy, manageable and yes, even sometimes fun way.

I started remembering this take-out place in Boston that made really great, fresh, wholesome sandwiches. I "think" it was called Panico. It involved a little bit of a longer walk than I'd normally do, especially during lunch hour, but it always seemed worth the trek.

I am modeling my chicken salad after what I can remember of theirs (it has been at least 7 yrs ago since I had that). Fresh chicken, apples, re grapes (cut in half), and little mayo, and slivered almonds.

I don't need a lot of slivered almonds, and I did not want A LOT of slivered almonds. I wanted maybe a couple of teaspoonfuls. Lightbulb moment - the supermarket has bulk bins! I marched out of that store with my little baggie of slivered almonds for 10 cents! (they were 12 cents without the bonus card). I thought it was the best deal ever!!! Getting what I wanted in the portion size I wanted? JACKPOT!

The chicken, grapes and apples are all mellowing out in the fridge. I have multigrain rolls, and romaine lettuce. I am on my way to lovefest, feeling so good about taking the time to CREATE a wonderful little meal for myself.

This is a huge stride for me. I am so proud of myself! WOO HOO!

  

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LITTLE-LORI 6/11/2012 11:01PM

Hey, that's a GREAT idea to get the right portion in the bulk bin! Smart thinking, and you don't sabotage yourself! Report Inappropriate Comment

MUGGLE_MOM 6/11/2012 7:24AM

You keep taking those steps to take care of yourself MickeyMax! That is awesome! I love reading about your successes! Congrats!!! Enjoy the sandwich Report Inappropriate Comment

DOODIE59 6/10/2012 10:48PM

That sounds delicious. It's great news when your desired food is a healthy food:) Deirdre Report Inappropriate Comment

TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/10/2012 9:30PM

sounds yummy! We use to have bulk bins in all of our grocery stores but not anymore so you are blessed to still have a place where you can buy from the bulk bins. Report Inappropriate Comment

EUGENIAINSIGNA 6/10/2012 9:11PM

Thank you so much for the comment on my blog!! It sounds like you're making fabulous choices...I hope you had a wonderful, healthy weekend!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

LESSOFPMCD 6/10/2012 8:00PM

great choices. Also, if you only buy what you need you can`t end up munching on it later. Only keep the healthy stuff on hand! Report Inappropriate Comment

Fast Food Success

Sunday, June 10, 2012

We batted around endless suggestions, and oddly decided on our cheap dinner would be at Wendy's. We were on the tail end of our errands and I noticed another stop - and tossed out, "If you have no preference, I would rather got to Chick Fil A. " So we went.

I was able to get a grilled chicken sandwich, a side salad, and a fruit salad and unsweetened tea! WOO HOO!

I was proud of my choices and for speaking up for myself!

YAY!

I am convinced that good choices over time will help build my consistency and consistency is what breeds success.

I am making good progress and I am proud of myself!!!

  

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/10/2012 6:56PM

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LESSOFPMCD 6/10/2012 12:20PM

Wow - great choices - congratulations for sticking to making the right choices for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

KATHY_ON_462014 6/10/2012 10:27AM

I'm proud of you too! hugs Kathy Report Inappropriate Comment

MUGGLE_MOM 6/10/2012 9:26AM

"I am convinced that good choices over time will help build my consistency and consistency is what breeds success." You are 100% right. You Go Girl! That is exactly the way to do it!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

PICKIE98 6/10/2012 8:31AM

Losing weight balances out gaining something more valuable:confidence and self esteem!! I bet that tasted better than the meal!! Good for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

RIDLEYRIDER 6/10/2012 8:20AM

Great choices! Well done!! Report Inappropriate Comment