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Reclaiming What is Mine

Monday, May 07, 2012

I dropped the ball. I gave it up for a while. i did not even bother to see where I might have put it. I lost my will to compete. I just plum gave up.

For those of you who know, you could let me off the hook, and let me off by saying it has been a tough couple of months, and indeed it has. I would not wish losing both parents within a few weeks of each other on anyone, not anyone except maybe my friend, Tom.

He's got a different perspective, and given the choice, he would probably do anything to have my perspective of losing the folks like I did. He lost his folks the same day. Freaked me out. The same freaking day. How do you get over that? I have no clue.

What I do know if that I am still here. and I still have my life to lead. It may not always be pretty. It may not always be easy, but I still have this gift called life, and I need to make sure that I do whatever it takes to keep mine moving forward.

Just go. Just keep moving. I am sure I am here for a purpose. I am not always sure what it is, but I have an inkling, and to that I acknowledge, that I am still here and I am going to get it done.

To my friend who have been wondering where I have been, or what was taking me so long to get over my pity party, my answer is I have been lurking. I may not be over the pity party just yet (truth be told) but I am improving and I am pulling myself out of my funk. I am far from being done. I am just not over it all yet, but I am over it burying me under layers of fat and despair. I am over it all.

It's nice to see you now that I am back on the journey of health and wellness.

  
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PATRISNA 5/10/2012 10:27AM

    I agree with all the comments. It is tough to lose one parent, and I'm so sorry to hear your lost both of yours. It takes time to grieve and you will always miss them. Don't feel bad about lurking I feel reading other blogs and just looking at friends pages can help your spirit.

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DIFROMWYOMING 5/8/2012 9:35AM

    You're not in a pity party at all- you're grieving. Grief is natural and a gift in its own way, because it gives you time to heal while acknowledging the special place your parents had in your life. It is its own process, its own journey, and you cannot hurry it. Stop for a moment and acknowledge where you are, and be at peace with that. We all love you Mar, and we'll be here when you need us. Even those of us grieving ourselves can't really walk this path with you, but we're here all the same. Hugs, Di

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_KATHY_ 5/8/2012 9:04AM

    I've missed you as do all of your friends here. And of course we understand. I'm happy to read you are finding your way through all that is involved with losing your parents. It takes time and frankly, your reality is changed permanently. Like any major change in ones life, you move on and find a new reality. It certainly can be a life for which your parents will be proud. I'm proud of you.
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Kathy

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MUGGLE_MOM 5/8/2012 8:21AM

    I am so glad that you are working your way back.
If there is anything I can do as a Spark Buddy or a friend to help you, please just let me know.
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MAVERICK59 5/8/2012 12:46AM

    Your world is still wobbling, and it will for a while.
You take your time, we will never let you get too far away from us.

Hugs,
Belinda

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DOODIE59 5/7/2012 11:27PM

    I am so glad you are not giving up, Mickey. You are a strong soul, but losing both parents so close together would be devastating for anybody, and I'm sure all your friends and family understand your struggle, and want the best for you.

You have spoken about the importance of living the life we've been given because it is such a gift ... and it IS that, a precious, sacred gift. Hold that life close, and when you have the energy ... honour it with joy:) But until then, mourn your lovely parents, be gentle with yourself and just let your heart heal. Big, big hugs to you.
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COPEMA 5/7/2012 8:59PM

    I'm so glad you're back and so very sorry to hear the reason why you were away. You have many friends here who love and care for you, sort of like an extended family. Glad you're back!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 5/7/2012 5:08PM

    Sorry to hear the news that you lost both of your parents. Lurking is a good thing as that meant you had not left us for good....glad your back and pray for your success.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/7/2012 4:44PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your parents. My fathers best friend and his wife died 7 days apart and left 2 teenagers. I felt so horrible for them. Take all the time you need to grieve and lurk. Perspective changes after such a difficult loss. Sending you much love and good energy. Hugs

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SARAWALKS 5/7/2012 4:31PM

    Very glad you are back. I'm so sorry to hear about your parents. Can't quite imagine it, truly...hard enough when it happens with years between as was my case.
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Find Your Joy

Wednesday, April 04, 2012

What makes you feel like bursting from excitement?

I saw an actress kickboxing on tv today and it reminded how much I freaking loved the boxing class I used to take.

It did not hurt that this particular actress (character Fi on Burn Notice) has super hot killer legs. I won't deny that caught my attention, but ti reminded me of the exhausted joy I felt after those classes.

I would frequently not keep up with the rest of class, but I did what I could - as much as I could - as often as I could.

Profound Joy wound with that feeling of accomplishment. Doing. Achieving. Living.

Right now, i am all about finding my joy.

Where do you find your inspiration and joy, sparkies?

  
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PARKERB2 5/4/2012 3:24PM

    I get joy and inspiration from my fellow Weight Watchers members. We all have something in common and moving toward a healthier lifestyle. We tend to be upbeat and encourage each other. We also share ups and downs in other areas of our lives as we work together also. One additional thought, I get joy from watching others get along and share things. Thanks Mickey Max for sharing your thoughts with us.

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CANNIE50 4/14/2012 6:48PM

    Fi on Burn Notice is a force to be reckoned with, isn't she? Were your ears burning last week? I was priveleged to meet up with MamaDwarf in person and you are one of the people we talked about and we were agreeing that you are wonderful. I experienced profound joy just last night when I took my youngest child (my exuberant 8 year old boy) to his elementary school dance and saw him dance his heart out for two hours. I want to dance more in my life - last night reminded me of how much I crave this, how much I want to become a better, more comfortable dancer. I have no problem exercising in public, why do I hesitate when it comes to dancing? Anyway, I always enjoy your blogs - thank you for writing them.

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CLARKA6 4/4/2012 10:33PM

    I had a similar feeling earlier today when I decided to try out a Zumba workout on Youtube! I used to go to Zumba more because it was one type of exercise that I actually found to be fun, but when I gained a lot of weight I became self-conscious. Anyway, after the workout today I was on such a high and realized I had actually enjoyed it! And I never enjoy exercise! Pure joy:)

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DOODIE59 4/4/2012 10:23PM

    Profound joy wound with that feeling of accomplishment ... that is a sensation we should all experience once in our lives:) It most definitely should be the pinnacle we aim for. Think how much we achieve just in the attempting;)

Hope you're having a good day!
Deirdre

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Retirement Plan

Friday, March 23, 2012

Sure, I got a few bucks in the bank (thanks to my 401K), and I know I have a few good work years left in me (unless Powerball comes through I'd say about 20), but my new focus is on HOW I AM GOING TO BE IN RETIREMENT.

Just watched an episode of the Doctors. Had some great advice about imagining yourself in a time machine moving forwarding 20-40 yrs. Given my current habits, what will my state be then? Hmmm. Very interesting. It is time to start saving (MYSELF) for retirement.

Here's some of the advice for improvement:

Be N.E.A.T. (Non Exercise Activity Thermogenesis)
Means get up and move around, stand when you are on the phone, walk around, add bits of activity into your day. Don't sit at your desk all day (I know he was talking to me!!!)

Choose lean belly foods: walnuts, dried beans, eggs, berries, milk/yogurt, stone ground whole wheat

Eat smaller meals

Do Deep Breathing to Help De-Stress
Build your core - do Planks, and side planks. Also, balance on one foot (if you can) put your arms out and one leg up)

For snacks eat dark chocolate (with 70% cocoa or more), popcorn and nuts.

Torch belly fat by doing 3 thirty minutes of high intensity cardio a week.

I admit he made it sound pretty easy, especially if you baby step along the way. That's my approach. I am willing to save myself for retirement and follow some of these tips and tricks to make a difference in my life.

What baby steps do you make sparkies to help yourself along?

  
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LBEEKMA 4/1/2012 9:43PM

    Great advice. I got a pedometer (a reliable one) and it's really helping me realize what a slug I've been.

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BESTCK 4/1/2012 9:40AM

    This is the second blog in a row I've read about how we want to be in our retirement years. I have to admit that it's one of the things that started me on my journey. Am I going to be the person I want to be when I retire? For my part, I'm working on sneaking in those fruits and vegetables. And balance. I'm terrified of falling and breaking something. Yeeks.

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RR1_RR1 3/31/2012 8:28PM

    Man, I can't even think about retirement in terms of being taken care of financially since I am a freelancer with no savings, and the economy sucks. But the most important thing indeed- is to be ALIVE and in good health during retirement! Thats for sure:) emoticon

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CANNIE50 3/24/2012 7:31PM

    SUCH a great blog. How on earth did I get unsubscribed to your wonderful blogs? I have (hopefully) fixed that little lapse. Okay, I was happy to know that I am eating some of the foods I should be (I am so used to feeling "food guilt" that it is nice to feel the opposite). I eat eggs & greek yogurt, popcorn & nuts nearly daily, along with some of the other foods you mention. There are a couple I need to add, though. I am quite good about exercise, thankfully, so I don't have exercise guilt. As soon as I heard that side planks can strengthen hips, thus preventing future hip fractures, they were added to the regimin. I exercise for strength more than vanity (which is good since my exercise seems to show up mostly on the inside, with good cholesterol, good blood pressure, heart rate, etc.) Maybe you can do updates of this blog from time to time, to let us know about your "body retirement account"? What steps are you finding easier to incorporate, and which ones are more difficult? Take care and invest in your greatest asset - Y O U!

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MAVERICK59 3/24/2012 3:17PM

    Very interesting to think about.
I like this.

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LINDAINALABAMA 3/24/2012 1:02PM

    hey mickey,

you are soooooo right to think of what condition you want your body to be in when you retire.

i have been retired since '06 and thanks to spark, i am active physically and mentally. the cardio and strength goals make me want to move a little every day, some days i move A LOT!

congrats on thinking ahead to the future and posting this blog toget others to think ahead also. emoticon

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PEARL-LADY 3/24/2012 12:54PM

    too true we all think of the monetary side of things not thinking how well we will be to enjoy that retirement! agree with Teddybeargirl too to treat every day as day one that way we don't get hooked on how many days done or still to do!

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DIFROMWYOMING 3/24/2012 11:23AM

    I loved this Mar, because I spend time thinking about how I am going to live financially in retirement, but I never think about preparing ME for it....so I'll even be here! Good things to think about. Have a great weekend my friend.

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DOODIE59 3/24/2012 10:30AM

    Boy, that is a very scary image -- me in 20 to 4o years. That is an absolute reminder that the time to start "repairing" things is NOW. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

And I hope you have a great weekend;)
Deirdre

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SARAWALKS 3/24/2012 9:46AM

    Great blog, Mickey, and thanks for reminder about the planks and side planks! I've been trying to up my cardio and pretty much succeeding, but I'm also going to try intervals. It's terrific that you have 20 years left to work - I am nearly at retirement and seeing the down side of having all those choices! It can be a bit scary. emoticon emoticon

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 3/24/2012 1:05AM

    I take it one day at a time and I look at each day as emoticon that way i never get into the rut of........Wow I have been doing this for ______ days already and I still have _______months to go to reach my goal.........if i get up every day and treat it as emoticon than I know I just have to get through this day as this is the only day that even exists.....yesterday is gone forever and we are never promised a tomorrow so tomorrow does not even exist so all I have is today and so today is emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 3/23/2012 10:56PM

    You got this.

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LALASLAND 3/23/2012 10:54PM

    Great blog! I'm really proud of you! emoticon emoticon

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TAMPATINK67 3/23/2012 10:40PM

    Nice reminders!

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RAPUNZEL53 3/23/2012 10:32PM

  Good Luck!

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The Domino Effect

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

For me, once I get that kickstart, I am just rolling. Once I can muster something good into place, it is easier to meet the next challenge, and the next, until the tide is turned, and I get some really good momentum going.

I have been counting down the blood pressure pills I have left. It is not something you are supposed to stop abruptly. I knew I had to make a doc's appt to get evaluated (and/or get more pills.) I started playing the "how many days do I have left?" game a while ago. That was probably about 3 weeks ago. Now I have just enough pills in the jar to count them when they rattle. ... and I finally set an appt for the docs.

It took that one act of doing yesterday to get moving and since then, I have been doing fine. Not perfect, no, but this is not about perfection. For me, the difference between success and failure is my attitude. One good action begets another.

I called the pharmacy to find out why my prescription didn't come. CHECK.
I called the doc's office to ask why the pharmacy said the doc's cancelled it. CHECK.
I made an appt to see the doc. CHECK.
I blogged. CHECK.
I ate fruit. CHECK.
CHECK
CHECK
CHECK

Like little dominos all in a row. One good action begets another until this thing of good health and wellness is rolling on its own again. That's just how I roll.

Have a happy day, sparkies. It's good to have the site back!


  
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LINDAINALABAMA 3/24/2012 1:18PM

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i love all of those CHECKS.

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CAROLFAITHWALKR 3/22/2012 5:43PM

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_KATHY_ 3/22/2012 11:31AM

    Yep... progress is truly in that one word Action. I'm glad you did all that "checking" you are on your way!
Hugs
Kathy

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TAMPATINK67 3/21/2012 11:04PM

    I love and hate the domino effect... It goes the other way too sometimes!

Glad u had a productive day!!!

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DIFROMWYOMING 3/21/2012 7:14PM

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I love how positive you sound today mar. Good job!

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MUGGLE_MOM 3/21/2012 4:00PM

    That is the way to do it!!!!
Success breeds success and you are well on your way!!!!!

Someone once told me the hardest part is getting started. You seem to echo that. Once you're moving in the right direction, momentum keeps you going. Keep up the good work taking care of yourself. you are soooooo. worth it!!!!

Sending Kudos your way!!!!

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MAVERICK59 3/21/2012 3:59PM

    Right on. I hope the doc says you no longer need the meds.
But if you do, make sure you take them!

Hugs,

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LALASLAND 3/21/2012 3:59PM

    Hurray! You're on a roll! emoticon emoticonSince SP was down all morning, and I'm so behind, I hope you'll allow me to say thank you in here for my beautiful goodie of flowers! emoticon emoticon

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KKINNEA 3/21/2012 3:58PM

    It's better when the dominos start rolling!

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X Marks the Spot

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Here it is. My re-entry into success. Right here. Today. Now. I just did it.

My last BIG success came when I committed to walking just 20 minutes a day. That was it. That was all it took to put my rear in gear, challenge myself TO DO SOMETHING, anything other than giving up, which I have done thousands of times before.

All my success is bred in my head, and if my head can believe it, than my heart can believe it. If my heart can believe it, than I start to trust myself. If I start to trust myself, I can do little things that keep me on the path to success. When I do the little things that keep me on the path to success, I build momentum. When I build momentum, I am unstoppable.

So here I am again on my starting point. Well no, not quite my starting point, my leaping off point. I have done the 20 minutes I needed to do. That's it - that is at the heart of it - just go. And then keep going.

Have a happy day, sparkies!



  
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MUGGLE_MOM 3/21/2012 3:23PM

    You Go Girl!!!!!!

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DIFROMWYOMING 3/20/2012 11:08PM

    Good going Mar. Just go. And keep going! :)

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_KATHY_ 3/20/2012 8:25PM

    Always good to read your blogs. Your thoughts are often my thoughts.

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LALASLAND 3/20/2012 4:32PM

    Absolutely! Baby steps are the steps that WORK! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SARAWALKS 3/20/2012 3:12PM

    YES, emoticon emoticon

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MAVERICK59 3/20/2012 2:30PM

    You got it! It all starts in the mind.
Hugs.

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KKINNEA 3/20/2012 12:49PM

    Exactly - you've got this!

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MAMADWARF 3/20/2012 12:29PM

    Good for you! I'm proud of you for jumping!

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DOODIE59 3/20/2012 12:27PM

    Just ... keep .... trying:)

I love your wallpaper, too.
Deirdre

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TAMPATINK67 3/20/2012 12:25PM

    Great start!

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TREASURINGLIFE 3/20/2012 12:19PM

    Your blog made me smile. :)

Have a GREAT day!!!!

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PEARL-LADY 3/20/2012 12:19PM

    That is so well put! and well done, just keep doing what you are doing......all adds up and makes us feel good x

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 3/20/2012 12:02PM

    They say being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent. So glad to know you haven't given up and are reclaiming your success!

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REBECCA180 3/20/2012 12:02PM

    I love it. I think I may memorize that. It's exactly how I started! and it's so true!

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