Monday, May 07, 2012
I dropped the ball. I gave it up for a while. i did not even bother to see where I might have put it. I lost my will to compete. I just plum gave up.
For those of you who know, you could let me off the hook, and let me off by saying it has been a tough couple of months, and indeed it has. I would not wish losing both parents within a few weeks of each other on anyone, not anyone except maybe my friend, Tom.
He's got a different perspective, and given the choice, he would probably do anything to have my perspective of losing the folks like I did. He lost his folks the same day. Freaked me out. The same freaking day. How do you get over that? I have no clue.
What I do know if that I am still here. and I still have my life to lead. It may not always be pretty. It may not always be easy, but I still have this gift called life, and I need to make sure that I do whatever it takes to keep mine moving forward.
Just go. Just keep moving. I am sure I am here for a purpose. I am not always sure what it is, but I have an inkling, and to that I acknowledge, that I am still here and I am going to get it done.
To my friend who have been wondering where I have been, or what was taking me so long to get over my pity party, my answer is I have been lurking. I may not be over the pity party just yet (truth be told) but I am improving and I am pulling myself out of my funk. I am far from being done. I am just not over it all yet, but I am over it burying me under layers of fat and despair. I am over it all.
It's nice to see you now that I am back on the journey of health and wellness.
Wednesday, April 04, 2012
What makes you feel like bursting from excitement?
I saw an actress kickboxing on tv today and it reminded how much I freaking loved the boxing class I used to take.
It did not hurt that this particular actress (character Fi on Burn Notice) has super hot killer legs. I won't deny that caught my attention, but ti reminded me of the exhausted joy I felt after those classes.
I would frequently not keep up with the rest of class, but I did what I could - as much as I could - as often as I could.
Profound Joy wound with that feeling of accomplishment. Doing. Achieving. Living.
Right now, i am all about finding my joy.
Where do you find your inspiration and joy, sparkies?
Friday, March 23, 2012
Sure, I got a few bucks in the bank (thanks to my 401K), and I know I have a few good work years left in me (unless Powerball comes through I'd say about 20), but my new focus is on HOW I AM GOING TO BE IN RETIREMENT.
Just watched an episode of the Doctors. Had some great advice about imagining yourself in a time machine moving forwarding 20-40 yrs. Given my current habits, what will my state be then? Hmmm. Very interesting. It is time to start saving (MYSELF) for retirement.
Here's some of the advice for improvement:
Be N.E.A.T. (Non Exercise Activity Thermogenesis)
Means get up and move around, stand when you are on the phone, walk around, add bits of activity into your day. Don't sit at your desk all day (I know he was talking to me!!!)
Choose lean belly foods: walnuts, dried beans, eggs, berries, milk/yogurt, stone ground whole wheat
Eat smaller meals
Do Deep Breathing to Help De-Stress
Build your core - do Planks, and side planks. Also, balance on one foot (if you can) put your arms out and one leg up)
For snacks eat dark chocolate (with 70% cocoa or more), popcorn and nuts.
Torch belly fat by doing 3 thirty minutes of high intensity cardio a week.
I admit he made it sound pretty easy, especially if you baby step along the way. That's my approach. I am willing to save myself for retirement and follow some of these tips and tricks to make a difference in my life.
What baby steps do you make sparkies to help yourself along?
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
For me, once I get that kickstart, I am just rolling. Once I can muster something good into place, it is easier to meet the next challenge, and the next, until the tide is turned, and I get some really good momentum going.
I have been counting down the blood pressure pills I have left. It is not something you are supposed to stop abruptly. I knew I had to make a doc's appt to get evaluated (and/or get more pills.) I started playing the "how many days do I have left?" game a while ago. That was probably about 3 weeks ago. Now I have just enough pills in the jar to count them when they rattle. ... and I finally set an appt for the docs.
It took that one act of doing yesterday to get moving and since then, I have been doing fine. Not perfect, no, but this is not about perfection. For me, the difference between success and failure is my attitude. One good action begets another.
I called the pharmacy to find out why my prescription didn't come. CHECK.
I called the doc's office to ask why the pharmacy said the doc's cancelled it. CHECK.
I made an appt to see the doc. CHECK.
I blogged. CHECK.
I ate fruit. CHECK.
Like little dominos all in a row. One good action begets another until this thing of good health and wellness is rolling on its own again. That's just how I roll.
Have a happy day, sparkies. It's good to have the site back!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Here it is. My re-entry into success. Right here. Today. Now. I just did it.
My last BIG success came when I committed to walking just 20 minutes a day. That was it. That was all it took to put my rear in gear, challenge myself TO DO SOMETHING, anything other than giving up, which I have done thousands of times before.
All my success is bred in my head, and if my head can believe it, than my heart can believe it. If my heart can believe it, than I start to trust myself. If I start to trust myself, I can do little things that keep me on the path to success. When I do the little things that keep me on the path to success, I build momentum. When I build momentum, I am unstoppable.
So here I am again on my starting point. Well no, not quite my starting point, my leaping off point. I have done the 20 minutes I needed to do. That's it - that is at the heart of it - just go. And then keep going.
Have a happy day, sparkies!
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