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Kicking and Screaming

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Taught myself a lesson this week. It is okay if you go kicking and screaming. Just go.

In fact, there is probably a lot of benefit when you are feeling beat up, stressed, worn out just plain tired, and let's not forget CRANKY but you work out anyway. Darn it, you feel good. AFTERWARDS. The before and during, maybe not so much.

I am not going to lie. I have been knee deep in stress this week. Family sickness, Work issues, imposing deadlines. Lots of stuff. JUST LIFE, but I have turned over a new leaf and found an hour of where I can have me time, and the tv all to myself...and to Coach Nicole.

The "downside" is to a NON MORNING inclined person that it feels not so nice rolling out of a dead sleep. I am going to try to improve on my ability to get up and get rolling after hubby leaves for work. I was not quite prepared for what 4am felt like this morning, but hey I eventually got up, and soon enough I was lifting light weights with the coach. Cool.

The way I feel right now, is that I must do this every morning. MUST MUST MUST.

I actually feel good. I feel like I am making some better choices for my life. I did not address the box of strawberries on time and they went to fuzzytown in the fridge, but I did peel 2 lbs of carrots last night and cook my butternut squash ravioli last night. I am bringing it to work today in my portable mini crockpot. A gift from DH this week. Woot!

While I am building up my stamina, I have just enough time to squeeze in a blog before my shower, so here's wishing all my sparkie pals a most excellent day. Where do you find yourselves some time to do what you need to do?


  
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BESTCK 1/24/2012 3:45PM

    That portable mini-crockpot sounds like a grand idea.

I'm trying to get to where you are on exercise. Not there yet. Glad you are.

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KKINNEA 1/24/2012 2:43PM

    Nice work - love that thought and will try to embody it!

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MAVERICK59 1/24/2012 1:01PM

    You should be proud of yourself Mary. You have done what so many of us give lip service to, but we don't follow through; You got out of bed and got moving!
It is easy to talk the talk, but when it comes to walk the walk,that is a bit different.
You are my hero today!

Belinda

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CABBAGEROSES 1/24/2012 7:32AM

    Way to go! I sorry your week has been crazy, but how awesome that you're doing what has to be done instead of making excuses! (and a side note: I just saw an ad for those mini crockpots the other day and thought they were a fabulous idea--so cool that you have one!)

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MISTRUNNER 1/24/2012 6:41AM

  Hey getting up at that time would not be easy for a morning inclined person.

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BERGBA7 1/24/2012 5:55AM

    wow!!! you are a hero for working out at 4am!
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When the Going Gets Tough

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Moments like these remind me of my mettle. I do not back down. I am not known for my subtlety - or so I have been told.

When the going gets tough, you have two choices, go big or go home. I will admit, there are plenty of times I have gone home. I have been paralyzed with the inability to see past the troubles for the pot of gold. I have been unable to muster enough strength and courage in myself to think that I could be ballsy enough to pull it off.

Well, newsflash, little Miss MickeyMax, I am exactly that person who is indeed strong enough, wily enough, obstinate enough to get the job done. There I said it. I have thrown down the gauntlet, I am raising the bar, I am expecting more from myself, and gosh darn it, I am going to get it.

IN my BLC challenge, I am asked for 5 things I want to accomplish out of this challenge with now just 5 wks to go. That being said, this is my life we are talking about and I am not really on a 5 wk challenge, I am on a 47 yr challenge, if I am right in the middle.

I am going to move a minimum of 10 mins more a day. My bare minimum has been 15 mins a day, but that is not enough to affect positive changes in my breathing, stamina and endurance. I am upping my minimum and taking it from there.

I am going to continue to aim for 5 fruits/veggies a day. For a woman who has not been stellar in this dept. This is quite an improvement.

I am going to test my blood sugar twice a day (I've slacked to my FBS only).

I am going to blog at least twice a week. I seem to have a better head game when I am blogging.

I am going to aim to get 6 hours sleep a night. It would be lovely to get 8, but it doesn't seem like it happens very often and I can be very productive on 6.

This week has been a trying week. I have had extra burdens at work to deal with -- and while I am extremely grateful to be working when so many folks are not, there are still times when when I need to step back a bit. Work life balance is not that easy to achieve. DH's hours (and pay) have been cut, and I am going through a re-org. I am putting on my happy face and telling others "this is good for us" but on the inside I am sweating like everyone else.

It's the uncertainty that rattles you. My Dad also had a very bad stroke last week, and strokes have always scared me...for good reason. It is like he is physically there, but living on some other planet. I don't know what is going to happen. The doctor said that he doesn't think the prognosis is good. Well, that is just a bowl full of comfort, isn't it? (NOT!) Again, it is all speculation and uncertainty that drives the fear.

I am channeling that no matter what lies in front of me, I am going to step forward with courage and conviction and take care of myself through this. When the dust settles, be it the job or my family, the truth is I will still have me and my issues, and my 47 year challenge to deal with on the other side. So for now, I am dealing with it all one day at a time. Doing what I gotta do to get to the other side, no matter what it takes to find that pot of gold.

  
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JUDYAMK 1/21/2012 10:55PM

    Will be praying for your Dad & for you also emoticon
Judy

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THE-MORE-GIRL 1/19/2012 9:34PM

    I admire you so much! I hope things with your dad will prove that doctor wrong.

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KKINNEA 1/18/2012 3:09PM

    You have got this!! I may step up with you on the movement thing - on days when I don't have something planned, I fall back to my 10 minutes of marching. I think it's time to find some Coach Nicole videos and do 25 mins every day at least!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 1/18/2012 2:44PM

    Praying for you dad and for you

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MAVERICK59 1/18/2012 1:02PM

    I send Prayers for your father my friend, and for you too.
I am so glad to read that even though life is still happening at 90 MPH all around you right now, you are still able to remain centered and focused.
I love your 47 year plan and your insight into only one day at a time. I know you can handle today, and you will deal with those other 17,165 days one day at a time too.
There are going to be some great days ahead for you!

Hugs,
Belinda

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LINDAINALABAMA 1/18/2012 12:51PM

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DATARN 1/18/2012 12:43PM

    I love your blog - and how you share. So sorry about your dad - hope their prognosis was wrong!!
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 1/18/2012 9:41AM

    Oh, my GOODNESS! You really do INSPIRE me! emoticon emoticonAnd, you know what? You are a dear, sweet, wonderful friend and I thank you for being so kind to me all the time!

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LOOZINITNOW 1/18/2012 9:35AM

    I am sorry about your dad and pray for a very positive outcome. I like your very direct doable goals. You can do it! Hang in there!

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SARAWALKS 1/18/2012 9:26AM

    So sorry about your dad. Health challenges, work challenges...they pop up in our faces every day, it seems. And strokes are particularly scary...
You are so right, you CAN do it...other things may be out of control but we still have choices and even if it is a SMALL good choice it is doing something positive and will have its good effect. Going for 10 minutes more will bring you so many more rewards and you will FEEL better. And the better you are, the more you will have to bring to those other nasty situations. You're probably also going to sleep better!

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DIFROMWYOMING 1/18/2012 9:22AM

    I am sorry about your dad, Mar, and hope things go as well as they can for all of you. I love that you can see the 'forest for the trees' though, and know that your journey will have to continue no matter what life throws at you. I do not always learn that lesson well. Take care, hugs, Di

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GEORGIA_KAY 1/18/2012 8:59AM

    what wonderful determination you are showing. With such an upbeat attitude, I just know that you're going to realise your dreams.

I'm sorry to hear your dad is not doing well. My prayers are with you.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 1/18/2012 7:50AM

    So sorry to hear about your dad! Will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers as he RECOVERS. Positive energy can do amazing things!

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TAMPATINK67 1/18/2012 7:40AM

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I had a stroke at 21 - feel free to send a Sparkmail if you have questions or think I might be able to help you in any way...

You're right - you can do this. Just be kind to yourself and listen to your body as far as knowing your personal limits too....

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PARKERB2 1/18/2012 7:25AM

    Sorry about your dad. Keep up the determination and you will get there. As you say, one day at a time. emoticon

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CABBAGEROSES 1/18/2012 5:46AM

    So sorry to hear about your dad, he is in my prayers.

Love this blog post, so full of "go get 'em!" Great work! I'm looking forward to reading the 2x weekly posts!

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ALWYS-LKN-UP 1/18/2012 5:05AM

    Way to pull on those boot straps! I love your CAN DO attitude!!

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Celebrating Life

Friday, January 13, 2012

Eventually, I had to stop putting off the inevitable. I had to go get change from the bank. I could have sent one of my staff, but it was cold and rainy and I did not feel right about doing that.

I tallied up all of my errands, and I made it a big loop. The whole thing took me almost an hour to complete, and it was a lot of walking. I was wiped out, but celebrated my efforts just the same. It was a JOY to get out there and move and know I could do what I needed to do.

I am celebrating my life and my ability to move.

I am celebrating by eating well and feeding my body nutritionally sound food.

I managed to exclude all of the baked good breakfast treats that were in a stone's throw of my office and super easy to obtain and instead chose healthy foods.



(I posted a small friend there to say hello also) Breakfast is more fun with companions.

I made GOOD choices and I am treating myself in the spirit that demonstrates my love for myself.

I value myself, and I am trying to live by "good energy in, good energy out."

It involves baby steps every day, and I am looking forward to staying the course, and watching things fall into place as I do my part in helping myself.

How do you demonstrate your love for yourself, sparkies?

  
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GEORGIA_KAY 1/18/2012 8:56AM

    You're doing all the right things to make this work for you. great job, great plan and I am so proud of you for doing it!

I love your little breakfast pal :)



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THE-MORE-GIRL 1/14/2012 5:57PM

    Awesome self-love there, pal. You rock.



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_KATHY 1/14/2012 2:42PM

    I also love your little companion. I want one too. My BIG breakfast companion isn't always so cheerful and supportive LOL Great job on getting everything done on your own. I know how that feels. Do it again, it feels even better the next time. Feeling that those trips get easier and easier the more you do them is the best!
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Kate

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 1/13/2012 11:37PM

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To answer your question.......by not breaking the promise i made to myself and to God.....by not putting myself in situations that would cause me to walk into temptation as much as i can help it.

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DIFROMWYOMING 1/13/2012 9:51PM

    Good job today Mar! Good energy in...good energy out. I like that!

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DOODIE59 1/13/2012 4:13PM

    Breakfast is waaay more fun with friends -- keep one in your pocket:)
Deirdre

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SARAWALKS 1/13/2012 3:34PM

    emoticon One baby step after another adds up to a whole hour or a whole mile or a whole pound lost! Let's hear it for baby steps! emoticon emoticon

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MAVERICK59 1/13/2012 2:54PM

    You made excellent choices! It really is all about the choices we make, one by one.

Good job! Have a good weekend.

Belinda

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KIKI0531 1/13/2012 12:59PM

    Well, over the holidays I indulged a little too much so the last week I have stuck to my guns and no snacking after dinner and keeping up with my water. I have lost too much to gain it back. Minor setback - but I am in this for the long haul. I keep telling myself small good choices every day lead to a great big difference.

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TAMPATINK67 1/13/2012 12:56PM

    Mani/pedis regularly, spa with significant weight loss, and jewelry with super-significant milestones!



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KKINNEA 1/13/2012 12:41PM

    Such a smart plan - you got an hour of movement in too!

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CHERRYTOMATO 1/13/2012 12:34PM

    Haha, I like your breakfast buddy! good energy in, good energy out... that is a good mantra, I like it!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 1/13/2012 12:31PM

    Way to go! I'm proud of you and I'm jealous of your breakfast friend. LOL (In a good way.) I hope you have a great weekend.

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In Front of Humans

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

I did something today totally out of character.

I ate.

In front of humans.

Seriously I did.

Pretty remarkable for a closet eater.

I had some guys in my office working on my computer. They interrupted my mid morning snack time. So I did something I have never done before. I ate in public. Truth be told, it was weird. TO ME. No one else noticed. My 2 little clementines went unnoticed. I did not see that coming. I really thought all eyes would me on me. Nope, not even close. Huh?

My DH laughs at me. I won't eat out and then bring food home to my parents. Not even coffee.
All of it was called into question. If you do not have enough for everyone, you shouldn't be having it. Thus began my lifetime of closet eating. Until today. I ate clementines.

Yes, I am making this an uber big deal. It just wasn't done.

But I did it. Can I tell you how freaking free I felt today?

It was outstanding!

What have you done to break free of your long-standing beliefs, sparkies?

  
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CHEESKY 1/16/2012 10:19PM

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CHANGE_4_ME 1/13/2012 11:51AM

    Very proud of you!

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BECKYB73 1/12/2012 1:29PM

    YES!!!!!!!!!!! This most certainly is a BIG DEAL!!!

So proud of you for breaking down that wall!!!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 1/12/2012 9:03AM

    Mickey, that is fantastic! I am so proud of you! And you BREATHED! emoticon emoticon

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GEORGIA_KAY 1/12/2012 7:33AM

    I'm proud of you!! Life is all about change, and you're changing in all the right places!!
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MAMADWARF 1/12/2012 12:48AM

    That is awesome! Way to take charge of YOU!!!

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TAMPATINK67 1/11/2012 11:24PM

    I broke the sugar addiction and walk 2.5-5 miles a day now.

Certainly NOT anything I ever thought I'd do!

Congrats on your success - and that's what it was. As a closet eater - were u also a closet binger?

Awesome job - reporting these successes witching the community.

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_KATHY 1/11/2012 11:05PM

    who knows what's next! emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 1/11/2012 11:05PM

    Girl do I relate! I remember when I worked in an office and I NEVER let any of them see me eat. Uh, I'm pretty sure they had a clue! :) Good for you...clementines are yummy!

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DOODIE59 1/11/2012 11:03PM

    That's a big step;)


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MAVERICK59 1/11/2012 10:31PM

    I am so happy for you. Letting go of our 'stuff' is serious to us, no matter how minor to someone else.
So, What is next???
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VIBRANTVAL 1/11/2012 10:04PM

    Hooooty hoot!!! emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 1/11/2012 9:37PM

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HONEY-SPARKS 1/11/2012 9:36PM

    It is a big deal There are times when i have been terrified to eat around the humans as well. i have feared their judgement. What is she eating stares and all.
Keep sparking you are going to set the world on fire.

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Critical Mass

Friday, January 06, 2012

I got on the elevator this morning with a guy that I've seen in passing. He is usually not Mr. Chatty, but he was friendly this morning. He got off the floor before me, and I noticed when he got off, he sort of bolted down the hallway.

My first thought was, "he's a hard worker."

Where did that come from? I don't even know what he really does, and just that burst of movement of activity put that thought in my head.

In my normal way, I started thinking about what kind of impression am I leaving?

Don't I kind of just shuffle around these hallways?

For those that work with me, and know me, they also know I have an extremely strong work ethic, and can probably rattle off a dozen good qualities (my sense of humor, ability to laugh easily, encouraging of others, quick thinker, calm under pressure, friendly, smart, sociable).

However, for those that don't know me, what am I really saying about myself?

Hmmm. This is something to think about.

I am making good progress on the self care line-up. (Thank God I got my hair done!) I dress professionally, speak well, but I could be doing a lot more to make my outside match my inner self.

I have reminded myself that all things work for the greater good. The efforts I make on my own behalf to look beautiful, and to fuel my body nutritiously will pay off in dividends when I leave that good impression that I am seeking.

I am absolutely convinced that changes in my lifestyle will bring about a happier me because I will be proud of the choices I am making. I am not going to pretend that being thin fixes anything, but aiming for wellness and health will bring positive changes to my life: longevity and feeling good while I am here. I am not just trying to improve the duration of my life, but also the quality.

Impressions aside, -- my life is what I make it.

What are you saying about yourselves, sparkies?

  
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SKY2012 1/11/2012 1:42AM

    very touching post, yeh!!!!!!!!!!!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 1/6/2012 6:28PM

    I use to say that I must not care but now that my actions match my words i hope I am giving off a much better impression now.

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_KATHY 1/6/2012 4:38PM

    I'm reminded of a co worker years ago. We were coming out of the ladies room headed for the drinking fountain. She was a rabbit and I, a tortoise. She whipped around me and got her drink quickly. I did not. I observed then that she was very thin and energetic looking, I was not. I decided thin people just move faster. So, what does that mean? I dunno. One Thing, thin people just have faster metabolisms. Perhaps. So, I should move faster and speed up my metabolism? I dunno. I know I feel more energetic when I act more energetic. Or perhaps I am more energetic because I feel more energetic. What was the question? LOL :)
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Kate

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DIFROMWYOMING 1/6/2012 3:04PM

    I do believe that how we feel about ourselves inside reflects on the outside, and I do not think it has anything to do with size. But our energy, our positiveness, our confidence, our self esteem: those all show through clearly to others. It's an important thing to be aware of, thanks for sharing this today.

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JESSICA2140 1/6/2012 1:56PM

    It's not the best thing, but you're totally right! Humans are kind of judgemental creatures, no matter how you look at it, and appearance is always the #1 way people initially judge a person. For sure...I think we're all trying to change people's initial impressions of us!!

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KKINNEA 1/6/2012 1:02PM

    I agree with your thoughts and love that you don't focus on the thinness part - some people look too thin and give the impression of bad health!

I'm a hustle-down-the-hall person myself - being more fit just means I'm faster at it than before!

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MAVERICK59 1/6/2012 12:56PM

    I enjoyed reading this. Lots to reflect on here. Thank you for sharing your experience.

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LINTPICKER 1/6/2012 11:39AM

    very true, we make impressions to others without even trying. Let's make a good one.

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DOODIE59 1/6/2012 11:33AM

    Good blog, Mickey. Yes, it is true that people makes judgments on what they see initially (what else do they have to go on?), so it is important to have your external self reflect the quality of your inner self. Also, keeping your glorious self locked "inside" means you are not interacting fully with the world around you. All power to you on making the inner and the outer come together! Baby steps, big jumps, backslides, whatever it takes ... Believe, and support your quest to become a Unified One.:)
Deirdre

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GEORGIA_KAY 1/6/2012 10:30AM

    Love this blog. It really does make you stop and think about how we're appearing to other people--especially casual acquaintances or co-workers. I also agree with you when you say that putting forth the effort to look better on the outside improves how you feel on the inside. I need to start caring a little more about how I look now. Thanks for the nudge :)

Another Great blog--thanks for sharing it.
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CIVIAV 1/6/2012 10:30AM

    vinteresting!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 1/6/2012 10:27AM

    You know, I think there is a lot about you that shows to others more than it does to you. I don't know for sure, but that's the first thing I thought of! emoticon

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CABBAGEROSES 1/6/2012 9:50AM

    Interesting post--lots that I hadn't thought about before. I am starting to notice that as I get in better shape I stand taller and, as I have more energy and feel better, there is more spring in my step. And, like you said, when I feel good about my efforts I do feel happier and proud.

All things *do* work for the greater good.

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SARAWALKS 1/6/2012 8:57AM

    SO TRUE. Yes, even the way we move gives an impression of us. I am probably a lot more like this guy, just because I've always walked fast, & I'm always trying to get in more things in less time SO THAT I can then collapse and take time for me.
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However I've had to learn to slow down a bit when at work because sometimes there are people who want to speak to me and tell me something important, and they won't if I'm just on my own roll, so to speak...

So maybe a bit of shuffle is not a bad thing and you have something to teach this buzz buzz guy as well! emoticon

Your point is still a great one! See how it made me think... emoticon

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DGFOWLER 1/6/2012 8:35AM

    Good morning. Excellent blog just as notabouttheface stated. I have noticed a change in myself since I started getting down to brass tacks about a year ago. I have lost 30 lbs. I can wear clothes I couldn't wear before, I am walking taller. So yes definitely how we perceive ourselves inside reflects on the outside. Nicely said.

Donna

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 1/6/2012 8:07AM

    EXCELLENT blog! Everyone had better be pushing that dang LIKE button down there that reads this!

I was just thinking of this yesterday when I saw something on a talk show about the things we stick out for the public to see in your house and on your desk. It's representation of who you are and you need to think about how you're outwardly presenting yourself. I'm trying to improve!

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